Maria - Autistic Masking (Animated Short Film)

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Maria, an imaginative and neurodivergent teenage girl, creates art to cope with her stressful school life.
Can she keep it together?
Subtitles Available in:
English, French, Italian, Spanish, German, Norwegian, Polish, Japanese, Arabic
Arabic Subtitles translated by Gaith Alhilwany
Directed, Written, Designed, Animated and Edited by Arran Bull
Voice Acting:
Gemma-Louise Keanne (@gemmaslittlelife)
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“Maria’s Tablet Painting” by Hollis Irving
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“Maria’s Meltdown Painting” by Matt Layfield
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“Maria’s Calm Painting” by Molly L’Amie
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@R4ysk1e Год назад

just proves that art teachers tend to be the only ones who understand or care

@Zavitor Год назад

Not really, just they don't have as structured a curriculum and are under less pressure, so they will be a lot more chill than a math or history teacher, on average at least.

@R4ysk1e Год назад

@@Zavitor fro my personal experience i've managed to confide better with my art teacher and media studies compared to my english teacher or history just as an example

@NerdsterStein Год назад

My art teacher was happy to have me come into her room, I ended up having one year with mostly art classes and even being allowed to be there during study hall She had a side room that she let us stay in, as long as we listened to the lesson at the beginning our small group was able to head back to the little room to work It didn’t help that most people that took art just wanted to mess around so it was to get away from everyone being so loud

@georgemccartney8906 Год назад

For me my art teachers were just as horrible as the rest. It was mostly my english teachers that were the nice ones

@slyar Год назад

My current nicest teachers are probably my music, religion, and biology teachers

@hollylaw8272 Год назад

This video made me cry... I'm 47 now. Was autistic during a time when it wasn't accepted. I was forced to appear normal or the threat of being put into that "special" school and made fun of for being "retarded" was there. I was called a bully, I was put into the corner often for my voice being too loud, and my nose was broken by a lunch teacher throwing a ball into my face because he told everyone to hush and I didn't hear him. I could never make friends or ones that lasted. I can hear every noise all at once and it is hard to decipher just one out. So so many painful memories of school and life. I was exceptionally good at art! It got me through tough times. But the tough times were part of the reason why I chose to homeschool my own kids. I didn't know I was autistic at ALL until they were born. I just thought I must be worthless and stupid, and just couldn't succeed in the world like everyone else. My kids taught me about autism and that there was hope to be just me and there was NOTHING wrong with me and now I was also loved! A lot of healing has taken place.

@skootergirl22 Год назад

I was told that I could be in the spectrum, and I'm in my 30s. I went through the special educational system only I went to a "nomal" school duing primary back in the 90s that had a special system

@vacafuega Год назад

In most places it is still not accepted unfortunately. Getting people to know what autism is is one thing, changing the fabric of society so that it starts welcoming diversity is another thing altogether.

@maesaliva Год назад

This is a very sweet comment, as an autistic teenager I’m sorry you had to go through it.

@mississippijohnfahey7175 Год назад

But you know, you shouldn't have to have a diagnosis to feel like you belong in this world. Truthfully I had a similar experience growing up and I think it's the product of a society where people hate each other and we don't give children an ounce of respect until they are 30 and have a 401k

@gwenmloveskpopandmore Год назад

@@vacafuegayeah it may be accepted in the US but not as compared to other countries

@ThatMelonGirl Год назад

As an autistic person myself, I can confirm my days at public school were tough too. I also have misophonia too, as certain sounds and even songs would make me angry or sad, and I'd even cry. Kids bullied me about it ever since kindergarten, and for most of the years I got bullied about Baby Shark, and kids would sing it when I was near, and wait for me to start crying. I started virtual school bc of that.

@monkeytennis7477 Год назад

Certain songs make me go crazy! I have to be very careful what kind of music I listen to. Didn't know there was a name for that condition 😢

@miathealien3911 Год назад

I feel really bad for you. 😟You can wear headphones or earplugs when the people around you are too loud. Maybe that'll help.

@ThatMelonGirl Год назад

@@miathealien3911 I do. I have earbuds and play whitenoise so I cannot hear my trigger sounds.

@miathealien3911 Год назад

@@ThatMelonGirl Then I'm glad👍

@invaderhorizongreen8168 Год назад

I wish that was an option for me in high school

@gibandaj Год назад

I showed this to my 12 year old autistic daughter today after someone putting it on tiktok. She burst into tears after, saying that's exactly what it is like mummy. If only every adult that works with children watched it maybe they would understand more.

@timonrein6113 Год назад

That's great of you, we love supportive parents!!

@Shadowmaster888 Год назад

I stay away from social media. Never really caught on since I was a kid

@foxpro3002 Год назад

why would you show this to your daughter if this was going to be her reaction to it.

@neonflights5951 Год назад

@@foxpro3002 there are sad tears, and then tears of relief and feeling understood and heard. It was the second one..

@Plaguecoric Год назад

@@foxpro3002i cried at this too. its the feeling of being understood, knowing others get how you feel. its a relief to not be alone. thats why

@ryaneaston3487 Год назад

Gotta say, the thing with the eyes and the black and white rippling effect is spot on. I feel like everyone’s eyes are on me if I show too much of frustrations or of overstimulation that I could be experiencing. Edit: Over 600 likes?! TF? I didn’t expect THIS much recognition from strangers on the internet!😂 Edit 2: over 1k?! H E H ? !

@Zavitor Год назад

Most kids, once they hit Middle School or High School commonly feel this way. Some as early as 6th Grade.

@markpenrice6253 Год назад

I'm not the most creative and I'd have difficulty expressing what and how I feel and the experience of something like that. But if given a list of choices, that one would very much be high up there. They've nailed it pretty well.

@larkohiya Год назад

You should express how you feel and not let others suppress you. "Will you pay attention" is something you say to someone your not actually engaging with. My response? "Will you say something actual meaningful to me? Will you ENGAGE with me?" No? I just have to listen and hope I'm following along? Then no. I'm not actually going to feel bad about disregarding their very rude and selfish command. This comes off as a kid who does not have any personal power or agency in spaces they desperately desire. And the weird part? Displacing the source of power from the individuals consciousness and mind to that of some "foreign element" such as being "autistic" exacerbates that entire scenario. "Oh great. autism is why I feel this way." Instead of "oh these people don't care to see me for what I am and want me to be like they desire." Built into the logic is that the individual is "wrong" or "different" and well. Sure EVERYONE is different in little ways, but autism label is used to identify ways of being that "normal" people don't want. But what is "normal" changes with culture and power dynamics of interpersonal exchange. Basically people with power want others to conform and use labels of othering in order to cause the subject to internalize their differences and see them as the cause of their personal pain and emotional discomfort instead of a lack intrinsically in the structure.

@markpenrice6253 Год назад

@@larkohiya ... sorry I kind of lost track of what you were trying to say there. Can you summarise the three main points for us? Also there's probably a certificate out there with your name on it as well, though I'm not 100% which one at this point.

@ryaneaston3487 8 месяцев назад

@@larkohiya I got caught off-guard by the second section: in that section, are you insinuating that autism doesn't exist? Cause if that is what you're purporting, then you're incorrect. I myself am diagnosed with autism, and that's why I created the original comment. Essentially the only reason why people with autism (or autistic people, however you phrase it) act this way is that these are uncomfortable environments for us, insinuated by the flashing light ripples and the several instances of eyes staring at the character. We certainly can't help it, and if we've learned anything, it's that forcing people to conform (with neurodivergent people, it's called "masking") would only cause harm to them, and wouldn't help to prepare for further situations down the line. If you DIDN'T purport that autism is not really a thing, then I suggest re-wording your reply a bit. It was a bit confusing. :/

@loupax Год назад

I’m pretty sure I’m not autistic but ever since I learned about masking everything in my life started making more sense.

@gigahorse1475 Год назад

If you feel that way, it might be something to look into. If learning about masking is helping you, there may be other benefits to learning about autism if in fact you do have autism or even if you just have some autistic traits. I didn’t think I was autistic because I can look people in the eye and I’m creative. But once I started learning more I realized I am most likely autistic and found a bunch of ways to better take care of myself.

@omerm8737 Год назад

Same man 😮‍💨

@sugarqbs Год назад

I’d also like to add that a lot of concepts created for neurodivergent people apply to neurotypical people: you may not have the level of compulsions of someone with OCD but we can all relate to an extent to patterns of behavior that just feel right even if they don’t make sense. Masking is something that we all do as part of interacting with other people: we unconsciously choose which parts of us we want to display as the situation demands it. I hope you can gain insight from the neurodivergent community whether or not you share our diagnoses.

@hello2judas807 Год назад

Masking is a common behavior for many types of people, it’s just particularly prevalent with autistic people because of how differently we process information. It can be rough

@ironsquid9724 Год назад

Everyone masks. The difference between neurotypical masking and autistic masking is survival.

@giantpinkcat Год назад

The most unrealistic part of this short is that the school allowed her to listen to music.

@rareoats Год назад

REAL

@engineergaminglechu Год назад

In my school they allow it,But only when you finish the work and use headphones/earbuds etc...

@a_little_demon 9 месяцев назад

in the first years of the middle school I went to, we whzre allowed to listen to music. a new head master came and we weren't allowed anymore. ( that head master was a karen. ) a therapist in my therapy group however asked me if I wanted her to ask permission for me to listen to music at school. ( I declined 'cause I thought it wouldn't be fair for the others to be able to listen to music while they can't. )

@a_little_demon 8 месяцев назад

@@httspSomeoneonline0894com no, it's still the school. it's the art class. it's probably colorful because she feel safe enough not to mask and that it's a calm place.

@httspSomeoneonline0894com 8 месяцев назад

@@a_little_demon Ooh! i was wondering that, thanks for telling!

@mountainymaple Год назад

This was painful to watch, reminding me of school life. Everything always being SOO LOUD. That feeling that EVERYONE is watching every little thing I do. Not being able to "pay attention" because im so drained from this CONSTANT stress. Being bullied by classmates AND adults. Nobody helping when I didnt know what to do, just telling me to figure it out myself or fail. I feel like im gonna start crying remembering all this. I'm never going back to school, I have my Highschool diploma. I'm not going through the torture EVER again!

@SiSoz Год назад

Honestly same.... Never have I realized how stupid my actions looked until much after I graduated..and I felt like I made a big fool of myself

@invaderhorizongreen8168 Год назад

or getting the old TRY HARDER, like that would totally make us learn things better. The idea that simply putting even more effort into something will totally make it easier.

@FamilyGuyBalls Год назад

Got trolled hard

@namenamename00 Год назад

Not autistic, just a noise-sensitive gal. Your depiction of a sensory overload is amazing. I always find it to be so hard to put into words and visuals, yet you were able to show the pain clearly. Thank you so much for making this film.

@leraginasian Год назад

Same here for me.

@moonfiend9259 Год назад

I am also sensitive to noises. As an adult I've found ways to cope with the amount of noise in the world out there, but it can still sometimes get to me sometimes. If someone slams something really loudly near me and I'm not aware I jump so hard lol.

@leraginasian Год назад

@@moonfiend9259 what are some of your coping methods? My main methods are meditation and acceptance.

@Edderson_Studios4329 Год назад

Sensory overload is just another way of saying panic attack but Autism. It's nothing special, It's just a different from of a panic attack. :|

@kairi4640 Год назад

Ikr? Though usually it doesn't bother me too much. But casinos on the other hand... 😣

@kattyanimations Год назад

I always hated it when my science teacher made everyone look directly in his eyes I’m so happy I graduated. Summers are always great and time away from people.

@alainapristine3305 Год назад

Have you tried looking directly at someone’s forehead?

@e2b265 Год назад

@@alainapristine3305Lol my drama teacher would say that 💀 it feels so goofy, everytime I look at someone’s forehead I would just start laughing and they’d be confused

@PlaystationMan-e3p Год назад

i am maybe will come across as the wierd one, but what helps me most, instead of looking at eyes, i imagine i paint the face of the one talk with, i notice all the complexities of the face, paying attention to the shading, look and face planes.

@alainapristine3305 Год назад

@@PlaystationMan-e3p that’s creative!

@mesotolioma5089 Год назад

What I hated the most from school was peepee inspection day

@ariannasv22 Год назад

I don't have autism but man the scene where she broke down had me very close to tearing up :(

@Edderson_Studios4329 Год назад

true.

@kairi4640 Год назад

Maybe chu a empath. 😶

@louisduarte8763 Год назад

As an almost-39-year-old man on the Autistic Spectrum, I found this creepily relatable. As a kid through my teenage years, I had to pretend I wasn't bothered by noises and other people just didn't understand, or try to. They ridiculed and excluded me for being "different".

@povyourdogfoodbadvideos4694 Год назад

thats Charles Jericho from driver sf 💀💀

@seatherny_y Год назад

me myself an autistic this is annoyingly true. society has pressured us, especially autistic women to hide their beautiful differences.

@MalkoElzaroNoceda1526 Год назад

What about autistic men?

@seatherny_y Год назад

@@MalkoElzaroNoceda1526 I don’t downgrade them as well, they have there own struggles but society is naturally harder on women

@MalkoElzaroNoceda1526 Год назад

@@seatherny_y that’s understandable

@MalkoElzaroNoceda1526 Год назад

Almost forgot, I’m also autistic well more of an asd

@seatherny_y Год назад

@@MalkoElzaroNoceda1526 I see

@ThatGreenSpy Год назад

As someone on the autism spectrum, I can relate. Apparently, autism is something to laugh about according to society. But the truth is, living with autism is very hard. You're sensitive to noise, you have unusual habits and you feel as though people are silently judging you. There's a myriad of things that trouble autistic people.

@povyourdogfoodbadvideos4694 Год назад

hell naw bruh

@LibraryofAcousticMagic3240 Год назад

Yeah it's silly to ignore people's experiences. I'm not autistic but I had some issues with everyday school life. I remember after my first day of school thinking: "This is gonna suck." And I was right. Especially art classes gave me really bad emotions. I almost had an existential crisis one time where i had to design a coat of arms. I just couldn't figure out how authentic I was allowed to be or even could be. It took me about three times as long compared to most of my classmates. EDIT: I just wanted to add the reason I shared this story. It is that I always heard people say that art was way too easy and getting good grades was a given. For me that never was the case.

@povyourdogfoodbadvideos4694 Год назад

I ain readin al at@@LibraryofAcousticMagic3240

@jaimereneewissner7032 9 месяцев назад

Just pointing out that not ALL autistic people are sensitive to noise. Everyone's different. But I agree, this is a relatable video no matter how you present.

@hh33ll99 8 месяцев назад

Very very true teachers are like “be urself” then when I am some Karen teachers yell at me for no reason it’s hard to be autistic sometimes and for some reason society blamed autistic people because were different it’s kinda fucked up

@somenameforuser Год назад

How did this not get more online traffic?! This is incredibly resonating and I can't fathom explaining into words what I felt when Maria broke. I always had to be sent to the office every school year until highschool as an undiagnosed autist. When she was soothing herself with her hair I immediately imagined the touch on my palms and fingers.

@DumboOctopiAreTheBest Год назад

Same! I end up fiddling with my own hair sometimes, especially if I get a bit nervous.

@tiredgremlin6315 Год назад

This really hurt to watch because it is incredibly accurate to what i experienced in school. Only difference is that I was pretty bad at masking and had meltdowns in front of the class a lot which honselt just made things way way worse. School was traumatising and I don't think I will ever fully recover, even though I'm in a better place now.

@blainetate743 Год назад

I know what you mean. Sucks to hear it happened to you too.

@smmlibary7832 Год назад

I was great at masking. But of course I could still basically feel everyone watching me, judging every single little thing I did and every reaction I had to anything. But when I turned around there was nothing there, just blank faces looking ahead.

@marleysinquefield3100 9 месяцев назад

I know how you feel. I am a woman with a learning disability and autistic tendencies, and it was hard to concentrate in classes sometimes. Math class was the worst for me in middle school. I sat in the front of the class because it was hard for me to hear in the back; I had some study aids during Jr. high, but the loud noises were like leeches sucking my concentration and serenity out of me. I had some meltdowns in there the most. My math teacher was sadistic and downbeat. However, after graduating, I'm free and have less anxiety than I had back in school.

@xemiii 7 месяцев назад

School is terrible for autistic people (in my experience at least). It feels like everyone else comprehends some sort of behavioral guideline you don't, like you missed the "how to be normal" class and everyone else figured it out. Add to that the turbulent social space of people figuring out how to healthily interact with each other and the increasing difficulty of the work and it feels like they're just tapping you over and over waiting for you to crack. Even in special ed spaces it felt like everyone just felt bad for/about me and didn't see me the same as other students; either I was too behind my neurotypical peers or "high functioning" compared to other special ed students. Unfortunately there's a lot of room between perfectly or entirely dysfunctional in a classroom and for some reason our education system only understands the extreme ends of either.

@katedean6775 3 года назад

That is unbelievable! This depicts the all too familiar tale so well of the barriers that exist for autistic people and the strengths we are overlooking. Absolutely brilliant Arran!

@Radechanicalarsonist Год назад

im a girl with autism and adhd and this is exactly what its like. especially when everyone in class just wont stop screaming..i had to send myself out of class and just draw in the hallways by myself a lot

@zuazz Год назад

I don’t say this in most places, but I will here. I used to go by Maria, it’s not my name anymore, but it’s what I was legally called when I was in school, and this was exactly how I felt. I was alone for two years, no friends, 10th and 11th grade was horrible, and I didn’t even have the comfort of art class because the teacher hated me for not painting “the way everyone does”. I listened to her a lot, asked her if I was doing things right, and always went out of my way to add my own special touch at the end, but she hated it. I had no one, and when I was diagnosed with autism very recently, a lot was explained. My tics started to make sense, the noises I made, everything, and I hate how alone I was. I didn’t have supportive parents, I didn’t have friends, I was lonely and the toxic internet was my only reference of being social, and I got bullied on the internet too. So I had no one. Thank you for making this, I wish I saw this two years ago, this is such a relatable video. Love, Az.

@heyyo966 Год назад

I hope things are or will get get better for you.

@zuazz Год назад

@heyyo966 Thank you, things are worse in their own ways, but there are some things that are better. I'm a little sick atm haha, but hopefully I'll heal up and have enough braincells to start my portfolio. Thank you for your words.

@lazarus_reversal Год назад

People are going to use your old legal name against you. Don't use it on the internet and protect yourself, that's basic internet safety.

@artisticpigeon 2 месяца назад

@@zuazzI hope things get better soon and that you're able to get everything set up, best of luck^^

@eyeforizzy8887 Год назад

This deserves soooo many views, the part where she screamed and brokedown hit way too close to home for me😔💗

@selsoares3632 Год назад

Simply beautiful, as an autistic person this represented my everyday life.

@JaneTheMessage Год назад

The way that you represented auditory sensory overload is incredible. I also listened to music as a little girl to help me cope, as well as making art and poetry to help me express the overwhelming and painful emotions. Thank you so much for this exceptional representation and the beautifully simple message of care and accommodation at the end.

@ChaotixIntrovert Год назад

I’m not autistic. But I was born with sensory issues. Lots of students hate me for that. And that’s when I get anxiety. This video explains everything.

@LeoBladini Год назад

damn, the use of colors and symbolism is ON POINT. I love it, also, pretty relatable.

@amalittlekidwhodraws9628 3 месяца назад

I have Asperger’s myself and this is actually very relatable, it’s very hard, overwhelming, and tiring to keep a mask on all day just to make others feel comfortable. This sometimes happens to the point where we forget about our self’s and are so focused on fitting in.

@sadgoy. Год назад

Public education is probably one of the most traumatizing things ever created. The only reason I would never have a child is because I would never want my child to suffer through the hell that is public education. And I wouldn't have time the time to afford home schooling too. Screw public education. What a hellhole.

@BBWahoo Год назад

It's so heartbreaking to realize I've kept all these feelings in, seeing the character have such a realistic cry was pretty sobering too, especially with the build up before it all. There's so many autistic adults who have no idea how truly repressed they are, me being one of them. I know it's just a cartoon, but she's so brave for allowing herself the vulnerability to cry... Amazing little short!

@thebraviarykid7849 Год назад

This video is beautiful. Such an accurate and relatable depiction of autism. I love the use in colors alongside other pieces of symbolism. This is a masterpiece.

@land3021 Год назад

Man, I masked so hard I can't cry or feel sad nearly as easily as I used to anymore. I'm also very shut off and disconnected from everyone it feels, even today when I socially exert myself and make my voice more audible on the first go... I guess even people who are outward about themselves more so than others also deal with this stuff... A shame no one validated me at that age, and never stepped in to help, but that part of my life is gone now sadly... Hopefully all goes better for our current generation, but I somehow doubt it'll get any better any time soon, maybe a lot of collective efforts locally all across the world could help, but who knows.

@Mallyjams Год назад

i feel this, im pretty sure i don’t have autism (might have adhd? wish i could get tested) and regardless, in pre-k to grade 1/2, i was a very empathetic kid to the point of wanting to cry when i saw someone else crying, and cried easily myself. 2nd grade teacher however, saw this as stupid and babylike as did the rest of my classmates when we got older, and now im so instinctively walled from the “bad” part of my emotions i don’t feel nearly as much empathy, and struggle to let go when i need to. school sucks

@smmlibary7832 Год назад

I had a particularly bad case of Autism combined with other things and it has absolutely annihilated my empathy. It happened so suddenly I didn’t even realise until it was too late

@duskendawne2239 Год назад

This short felt too real. Especially those scenes with all of the noise, and her breakdown. Thank you for making this.

@starlightbright 7 месяцев назад

I’m watching a lot of videos about autism to understand my autistic boyfriend better. Just watching the black and white lines stressed me out so much and I think I understand better why going outside is so stressful for the person I love. This video is exactly what I was looking for. Thank you.

@BBWahoo Год назад

Her crying is so fucking raw bro.

@RonanDahlman-ci1ql 3 месяца назад

3:00 She has Electric Light Orchestra on her playlist? Mad Respect.✊

@fantasticmre8365 Год назад

As an autistic person my self life is like that, you do one thing wrong and it feels like everyone is looking at you and judging and you end up locking your real self away for the outside world because your afraid of being a distributor or people will judge you more a lot of us just bottle this up and release all this at home but for some of us we crack and have meltdown or just end up crying.

@oddgamingcat7442 8 месяцев назад

As an autistic girl myself this made me tear up a bit as you perfectly animated what it's like. Especially when showing what sensory overload was like. I would dissociate heavily throughout the school day or just about anywhere because it was so stressful and I view socialization as a play and which I'm the actor and if I or anyone else went off script then it would be overwhelming. Even when I tried my best to mask sometimes the mask will slip and thanks to those slip ups I was bullied and targeted for being a 'spaz' or a 'retard' (Though I was gifted) and to a point I believed what everyone said about me was true and I hate myself for being autistic and I wish to have a normal brain because my autism to me at least is more disabling than it is a 'super power' but at the same time it's shaped me into the person I am. I just wish life wasn't so overwhelming to the point it's crippling to even do basic things. I know everyone's life is stressful but when you're neurodivergent and/or have a mental illness (es) the stress jut hits you so much worse depending on how it effects you.

@shadespear Год назад

This hits painfully close to home, but considering how difficult it is to explain these experiences to others it's IMPORTANT that it's painful. Had this been made any other way the whole message would've been either ruined or lost.

@mikehostick7349 3 года назад

Nice work Aran! A few of us sat around and watched this and were gobsmacked at how well done this is. You are a true talent x

@mikehostick7349 3 года назад

All I had to do was spell your name correctly and I couldn't do that!

@super-weirdo5219 Год назад

Ugh, the noises as ripples crowding the screen and then the mask breaking and her crying right after is so spot on. So often things just get so overwhelming and I meltdown. Amazing depiction of what it's like to mask so much. It's good that she has something enjoyable to do that helps her recover.

@SapphireMakesEffects Год назад

While I myself have never masked, this is damn relatable. I used to wear headphones to school events when I was younger, and this almost depicts what my day was like back then. This should deserve a million views!

@lays5277 Год назад

I really like that the rippling effect and overstimulated noise continues as soon as she is not being actively yelled at. So accurate because you would think it would stop for a moment, right? My parents and general cultural osmosis tell me that once i have my little "outburst", and once I've gotten the "attention" i wanted, it should stop for at least a moment. But it doesn't stop.

@Biancalovestosew98 8 месяцев назад

1) I’m autistic.❤️ 2) This video is very heartwarming and I related to it a lot. I do masking too and I always feel like people are judging me.😞 3) Maria is adorable and I love her awesome blue hair!💙 near the end of the video in the art room, she was stroking her hair as stimming and I do that too! I like touching my hair to help me calm down. I love how she was stimming her hands while drawing before the bell rang because she was excited that she made a masterpiece. 4) 0:33 I have sensitive ears too. I didn’t like how the bell rang because I don’t like certain loud noises. (Motorcycles, babies crying, sirens,gun shots, yelling) 5) She’s artistic too! Art is the best thing ever! 😆🎨 I love how she’s colorful and the neurotypical students are black and white.

@Spooglecraft Год назад

makes me so glad i'm finished with school and working from home. the eyes are such an accurate representation of what it feels like, and the video also shows just how damn loud the world is. so being able to avoid that is a great relief.

@auxin903 Год назад

In a world that prioritized genuine autistic narratives and perspectives this would have more views than the frequent allistic (non-autistic) content constantly pushed out. "Well meaning" or not. As an autistic I like how there isnt an allistic savior - just people interacting with an autistic protagonist in demonstrably right and wrong ways. I also like seeing a meltdown be portrayed so sympathetically. Great job on illustrating sensory/social overload.

@eldragoyt9992 7 месяцев назад

The crying was really well done! It made want to cry too, thats how genuine it felt

@monolyn Год назад

As someone with social anxiety i feel this. The teachers who accommodate you and make school less hellish you will remember into adulthood! Mr. Gustafson I still haven't forgotten you letting me come after class to do my presentations and I'm 30 now XD

@xx_furby_lover_xx5812 Год назад

As an autistic person I related to this so much. My whole life I've had struggles i didn't know i was masking, all I knew was I felt uncomfortable and overstimulated for years. Wasn't until recently that I got a late diagnosis at 18 but I'm thankful I was able to get it. This video was very relatable from start to finish, the getting stuck into art and being in my own world then making vent art when feeling overwhelmed and scared is all too real. Also lol love how she was drawing final fantasy characters sephiroth and cloud strife, I love them myself.

@wileecoyotegenius5955 Год назад

Beneath The Mask, Dire Dire Docks and Stickerbrush Symphony in the playlist? Girl's got good taste.

@seineevee Год назад

I really relate to this whole thing, with the damn school bell, the little sounds drowning out crucial information and overwhelming Maria’s mind, and the end with how listening to music helped her feel more comfortable. But I don’t believe I’m on the autism spectrum. Can you mask if you have generalized anxiety disorder and/or synesthesia? /genq

@AlexanderStark Год назад

Absolutely. Masking isn't an autism-only thing. People with all kinds of mental health diagnoses may mask for all kinds of reasons.

@psychgeekgirl3037 Год назад

Masking is a social term that’s used for people pretending to be okay when they’re not. All people mask something at some point in their lives, but when you have mental illness, there’s a fear of rejection and ostracizing that makes masking a bit more prominent as it happens more frequently. Anyone (and probably everyone) will relate to masking. In regards to sensory sensitivity, that can also happen and is a facet of multiple mental illnesses, generalized anxiety disorder being one. Also sometimes, it’s not all sounds (Maria liked music as you saw) but it can be certain sounds. I don’t like the sound of horns or thunder, but I’m okay with alarms (cause I can rationalize it’s a drill even if it’s irritating). I have autism and I can’t stand multiple people talking. I can only listen to one person at a time. (Talking in a group with multiple groups was the worst in school). Different sounds cause people to react differently. You don’t have to be on the autism spectrum to have sound sensitivity, that might just be how your anxiety is manifesting.

@seineevee Год назад

Thank you both for the responses, the biggest thing was sensory sensitivity which I think makes sense if it’s tied to anxiety.

@seasnailsplatoon762 Год назад

I am not autistic but have moderate ADHD and anxiety, and I can struggle with sensory input. When I was in high school, one distracting input was the sensation of a tucked-in shirt. I would try and "smooth" all the wrinkles and shove them into the valley in my back where my spine is, to try and lessen the sensation. Or I would wear the "uniform" fleeces a couple sizes too large and just not tuck in my shirt. Sounds are also distracting and can be overwhelming to me, as well as the sensation of being too hot. Add enough unpleasant inputs together and I melt down, dissociate (to avoid meltdown), or most often remove myself from the situation. I still struggle with it almost a decade after high school, but at least I can pick my own clothes now.

@geee_three 9 месяцев назад

13yo autistic girl here. this made me cry. thank you.

@httspSomeoneonline0894com 8 месяцев назад

same

@CelticChu 7 месяцев назад

This was really well done and relatable as fuck. The screaming really hit me in the feels and her crying was well acted. It made me feel as if the voice actress was really crying because she went through this sort of thing in school. I also went through this in school so I know how Maria feels in this video all too well.

@jennafischer641 Год назад

The emphasis on the whispering/lip sounds was so well made, I wanted to rip my headphones off. I felt the sound crawling up my back and it made me want to scratch at the nape of my neck because it was like a horrible itch. Which, honestly, is how it felt for me in person whenever i could hear *anyone* in the room talking. The way it annoyed me to an irrational degree, to the point of physical discomfort that I couldn’t really do anything about. TL;DR: whispering sounds were very upsetting, really captures the IRL feel.

@xemiii 7 месяцев назад

Autism does kinda feel like the auditory equivalent of not being able to focus. Even when I try to pay attention to something sudden noises can just make themselves the focus in an obnoxious way. The feeling of not wanting people to notice you really gets drilled in through school. I have had problems with saying abrupt interjections or struggling to hide emotions when I'm uncomfortable. Hell, I struggle to verbally answer questions as much as I'd like because I feel bad about it, like I'm taking away others' opportunity to contribute and that I come off as overly enthusiastic.

@galaxystarstudios7160 Год назад

Wow, I’m autistic myself and I can really relate to this. Middle school was terrible, especially seventh grade when I just felt overwhelmed everyday. Even with the smallest bits of conversation and sound, I often tend to have a hard time focusing. Great animated short, nicely done.

@emilybrooke_x Год назад

Seventh grade was a fucking nightmare. It was the worst part of my life

@rtyyty_2010 5 месяцев назад

@@emilybrooke_x same

@CoolFishFunk 9 месяцев назад

I have a few classes at my school with a student who’s autistic, i think he’s higher on the spectrum, and this helps me understand him a bit more. One day in gym, he didn’t know where to stand/sit, and the teacher instead of answering just kept responding with “where do you think you sit?” The kid was pretty obviously struggling and felt a lot of pressure, and a lot of us tried to make him as comfortable as possible, there was even some other kid who said “hey Mr. (Insert his name), you know he has aut-“ only for him to be cut off by “oh i know.” It was awful to watch.

@adriennedestroyer4197 Год назад

I am in shock. My entire childhood I was unaware of my autism, making school life extremely difficult. I didn't know how to explain it, and I just thought it was normal or that there was something wrong with me. It wasn't until I was around 15-16 until I asked my mom to get me tested, after relating a little too much to autistic rep. I still don't truly know how much of what I do is an "autistic thing", and how much of me is me, but I'm slowly trying to accept that all of me is autistic, not just bits and pieces. The eyes and the sound consuming her surroundings were spot on too, reminding me of all those dreadful moments in class where I would just scream in my head over and over again until I would stopped being stared at. I barely made it out of highschool before going out of my way to graduate early, just to get out since no matter what school I went to, I would always get a low grade. I managed to pass it extremely easily, faster than the others which shocked me and my family. I'm nowhere near finished on my journey of loving and accepting myself but watching stuff like this certainly makes me feel more whole. Knowing I'm not broken, I just work differently. Your artwork truly touched my heart, and I hope you continue to create.

@vivixu-ic4dr 5 месяцев назад

her scream weirdly sounds like mine

@thatkid3673 Год назад

This is all too relatable for us autistic people. ⭐⭐⭐⭐ 1/2

@seatherny_y Год назад

i agree, sensory overload the pressure to mask sucks

@Maddy-dh7xv Год назад

Yes

@jennamiller7016 Год назад

Yup

@starrfeather5006 Год назад

The depictions of the over stimulation were accurate, it really can feel how that looked.

@ikissrobots Год назад

As an autistic person, this is saddeningly true. I was forced to drop out of highschool at the age of 15 due to a failed s//c/ide attempt, due to the amount of suffering I went through every day and how alone I was. The ending is rather bittersweet knowing that Maria will have to go through all of this again the very next day, but that's how it is in real life, and I really respect the honesty of that. Society has the habit of brushing disabled people away as soon as they seem to get more "normal" for a minute, and just think that they've been fixed forever.

@ikissrobots Год назад

@@Keenfan1990 Thankfully yes. I'm on mood stabilizers and anti-depressants now, and I've got a lot of support from my family. I'm sorry to hear that you had to go through a similar experience, but I hope things changed and got better for you

@Alexander-nc4vy Год назад

This is a lot more relatable than I thought it would be. It's not overly exaggerated either. Good job!

@50pawsz 6 месяцев назад

I cried to this. I find this relatable. I can easily get distracted/overstimulated, and i get judged for it. I often calm myself down with music or art. So it is quite realatable. And it made me realize that I am not alone. :)

@potero7432 Год назад

as someone autistic who goes through situations like this It's nice to see that I'm not the only one to whom these things happen It's just that I felt so identified with this and tears came to my eyes hahaha beautiful animation I love it

@averycuwelhomosexual Год назад

I know right I don't have autism but this was still really sweet. And also random thing don't you just love how poofy Maria's hair is, when she strokes her hands through her hair it bounces, and I just really like that detail for some reason.

@j-dflashstudiosdiscontinue2125 8 месяцев назад

You have no idea how accurate this is to autism. I struggle every day with it. I can't stop watching this because its exactly what I face. You are amazing at sharing the message us Autists need.

@imreallyannoying4477 5 месяцев назад

This is exactly how it is. Also I think this video might need a flashing lights warning.

@ellafranklin3891 6 месяцев назад

This is how I feel I don’t have a diognosis yet but soon I am. But I don’t get sent to detention I just sit there and I don’t know what’s going on I feel like people don’t like me.

@McBenny_MealPrimos 6 месяцев назад

I cried so much because everyday i want to cry unitl i cant anmore, but people just dont leave you alone to cry. They just have to ask if you are ok and wont leave you alone. One reason why i hate school. You are literally never alone so you have to hold it all in until u are at home, and sometimes you cant even cry then. Its just you always holding in your emotions until you cant anymore. Ive broken down in school too many times because the stress just got too.. stressful. What makes it even worse is that i have nobody but the internet to share how i feel, so im not truely sharing anything because nobody knows me. Life is just hell, i want out.

@Cassiii33 9 месяцев назад

The fact she was stroking her hair and tapping her fingers together as a form of stress stimming I found extremely relatable

@BeneathFullMoon Год назад

such a cute style! this is very accurate. today I had a meltdown and it felt like days/months/years of accumulated anxiety just exploded out of my body. I'm doing better now, and this video helped me remember there are others who go through the same, and I'll be ok.

@nothing1214 8 месяцев назад

I rarely see people describe autism correctly and in a non insulting way, thank you. That's exactly how I feel every day.

@friendlyurchin2388 Год назад

Holy Moly you got my entire school experience down to a perfect point, what an amazing representation of how all of this can 'feel'. Brilliant work

@commenter03162 6 месяцев назад

why do I relate to this

@lockjawjak 2 месяца назад

that ripple effect and the eyes are the most painfully accurate visualisations I have ever seen. Beautifully animated

@mollyhoffman7313 Год назад

I don't even remember how to stim anymore. I never tell people to shut up when they make annoying noises or sing along to the car radio (coughcoughPARENTS) because it's "impolite." I'm a girl. I was diagnosed with autism at age 4. I didn't mask to fit in with society. I masked because my teachers FORCED me to. Seriously. Therapists came to my house and everything. I was overloaded with bullshit "social homework." If I had not received a formal diagnosis, I don't think I would have masked. Do any autistic females feel me on this? (And do autistic boys mask?)

@lasagnalover_69 Год назад

yeah me too. i forgot what my own personality was for a really long time. i think im getting it back though or at least building a new one (i was assigned female at birth btw)

@Theratificator 5 месяцев назад

I wish i could show this to my parents but im afraid they wont take me seriously as they havent before

@RedLove224 Год назад

Literally every single moment of this is relatable to me. I was diagnosed with autism a bit more than a year ago, and boy it explained so much. The part with the sound waves going through the air and peoples heads being eyes especially hit hard, with the sound waves it's almost as if I can feel them through my entire body, and if I stim or even start feeling a bit upset in school it feels like everyone is watching, even if they are clearly not. By the end, I truly feel like crying. Thank you for this, I truly feel heard, it's nice to know that I'm not alone ❤

@charlieainthere1074 Год назад

My kid gets overstimulated pretty easily (he isn't diagnosed yet but we suspect autism and/or ADHD, thanks to his dad and me) so we bought him some headphones to wear for when things are too much. Open House for Kindergarten, someone in the hallway noticed his headphones and reached out right then and there, said she can help us help him and get him a screening. To let his teacher know, which we did, his teacher even has a quiet corner for if the kids are overwhelmed. I remember being in school and not having the same options, sitting in class feeling like ripping my hair out because of the noise getting louder and louder, the lights getting brighter, the words on my pages becoming hard to read. I used to draw pictures of how stressed and frustrated I was and get scolded by teachers for drawing during class. Knowing my boy is going to be looked after, if not by the school then by me and his dad, helps my worry over him going through the same struggle. I know it'll be hard for him, but we now have the resources to help him in the best ways we can, and I'm so grateful for it all.

@Atarxzhii_hoshi 6 дней назад

I felt physically uncomfortable from how close this hit to home, and im not even autistic

@Mdetar12 7 месяцев назад

Oh my gosh this is exactly how I feel all of the time and I have always felt that I have autism because almost all of my dads side has it my dad has it my sister has it and one of my brothers have it.

@eclipseandgang 2 месяца назад

I have to say, this randomly got recommended to me today and the animation is amazing. I didn't realize that I was just staring at myself the entire time.

@silvercrystalrose28 5 месяцев назад

This is a very beautiful animated short😊

@Libby-Phantom Год назад

the bit at the beginning makes me so happy! I've always been to scared to stim even alone

@Dave-bj9ir Год назад

my friend got diagnosed with Autism, I always tell the class to keep silence, because I’m just hypersensitive in the ears and hands, but he is Autistic and his parents haven’t told the teachers, they only know my hypersensitivity, so they keep silence and he looks more relaxed, I explained to the music teacher that he is autistic, he believed me and lets him use his headphones while everyone is doing noise. That music teacher told my friend’s parents to tell the teachers so that he feels better, his parents told the school so that he can wear headphones, now he’s doing better at school, most of the teachers adjusted their class with another strategy so that he doesn’t feel weird or anything. I like that school

@reyfan011 10 месяцев назад

I just got diagnosed level 1 on the spectrum and I can relate to this. By about 4th grade I started to be overly conscious of people, thinking they would stare at me or talk about me. I couldn’t stand the loud noise in movie theaters till I was in high school, so I’d cover my ears during the whole movie. I get overwhelmed with social situations and feel like I need to put on a mask to appear normal. I’ve done it so well though that my parents say I’m not autistic, cuz I’m ‘normal’. They think of overreacting and don’t know that most times growing up I was just trying to seem normal by acting like my classmates. Now I’m an adult and I don’t want to keep masking.

@iaspets2675 Год назад

I'm autistic and i cry every time i watch it because i relate so much, this is a masterpiece, tysm for the person who made this short film

@sundus928 6 месяцев назад

The noise overstimulation/ sensory overload was too Real. That's exactly how I feel. It gets so bad that I start banging my head on the wall and then when I became numb , I cry out of sheer hopelessness. When I used to bang my head ( I have stopped btw) ,my siblings would call me a witch. Like those witches in horror movies. I just hate everyone.

@TheBodoProduction 3 года назад

This is really creative! Awesome job man

@7sson-hasson-310 9 месяцев назад

i admire these videos which manifest how people who suffer from physiology issue from thier point of view rather than third person view

@WOLF36554 Год назад

I like the little tics Maria has, like playing with her hair or flapping her hands. Those are habbits I am all to familiar with.

@a_little_demon 9 месяцев назад

thoses aren't tics, but stims. stims helps autistic and neurodivergent people to regulate their emotions.

@JimmyNeutronTheRealest Год назад

I don't know if I have autism or adhd or something else, but this is exactly what it's like. Art and music are like an anchor, for whenever loud noises are to overwhelming or you can't pay attention. I'm only 12, so I have no idea what I'm talking about, and like what my mom says, it could just be "a phase," or maybe I need to "learn to pay attention" but this is what it feels like.

@youboy6969 Год назад

This guy needs an oscar for this animation

@superstarcashyyoutube-oe1jv Год назад

I agree

@_BluePen_ 7 месяцев назад

I can't remember almost anything from the 12 years I spent in school. Even high school, which I graduated in 2022. My therapist says that's a coping mechanism that my brain created to deal with my trauma. I think I have some kind of PTSD, because I tried to do an administration course at the beginning of 2023 and I quit after two weeks.

@JayRidders Год назад

As an Autistic person myself, I find this short to be relatable. I have incredible skill at writing basic scripts for my animation reviews and facts, and creative writing. Ever since I started content creation on RU-vid, I haven't been able to practice my creative writing. I was planning on finishing a review this week, but after watching this, I've decided to take a break and focus on my creative writing, reading, and my show-binging (currently on Samurai Jack Season 3 and the first series of Bluey). I will put this as my next review after my planned review and give you a shout-out, Arran Bull.

@plutodragon4 8 месяцев назад

As an autistic… I feel this. This is such a good thing it feels so accurate

@cherno8119 Год назад

I watched this for a minute straight wondering what the hell this had to do with Majora's Mask

@riverbandit2138 8 месяцев назад

I’ve never had it that hard, but I can understand the over stimulation. Just today I would read some manga in my car to avoid hearing my little brother play with his friends. It can get annoying when the loud noises last longer than an hour. Even less.

@shywithsprinkles_5619 Год назад

School bells used to really bother me too, so glad I never have to hear it ever again

@Maddy-dh7xv Год назад

I have been masking since I was 4 years old and I’m now 13 and very slowly starting to unmask this is relatable

@alexride242 Год назад

I work in a special needs school where all of the students with autism don't mask and are free to act how they want, it's so nice seeing them stim freely without judgement.