Sounds like you worship the Pastor more than Jesus! Man alone will not save you, man cannot deliver you from your sinful habits. Please don’t be deceived, I hope you continue to seek God and let HIM transform your life.
SO many people that had screwed up lives find JESUS in jail it's wild. Believe what makes you happy, but all i'm saying is maybe GOD should show up sooner for these people. People changed their lives and everything got better. Also you can say Jesus did that for you too, but don't sell yourself short!