Your stop motion was recently recommended to me, today- watching the vlog volumes is nice seeing someone be honest about mental illness and healing progress
Fr the other day I noticed I had fuckin insects (3 of them extremely small ones) crawling on my pillow one that I don't sleep on and it disgusted me and even then I still couldn't bring myself to actually cleaning everything I'll start cleaning and then I just feel like idk wtf I should do then get lost in thought and do nothing all day it's the worst.
I'm autistic, literally. I hate it when people idolize autism and justify someone's talent and intelligence by saying they're "autistic", or when they downplay my condition because I "sound and act normal". These are masks that I am forced to wear to live with basic respect, because I learned the hard way through childhood trauma. I don't ask people to "confirm to my needs", but I'm not the only one who asks for understanding and respect.
Oh my I'm so sorry this happens to u I really wish u the best and luck! If u want someone to talk to I'm here 4 u ml 💕 I really understand what ur going threw it's really hard but ur not alone. Ilysm
Seriously. Its even worse when people infantilize me on top of that, treating me like I’m deaf or mute, and making an absolute joke out of my existence
(TW!!!) I'm 25 and have been living in a mess of trash, rotting food, and bugs since my house burned down when I was 19. I've struggled with severe depression before then, but the fire spiked it to a new high and ever since then things have only gotten worse. Covid happened, I realized my inheritance money which was promised to be over 50k was only 12 hundred. My childhood best friend, whom I've known since 2008, recently passed away. I feel indifferent about my own life-I'm scared to die but don't really care what happens to me. I just want to lay here forever. My teeth are rotting to the gum, I have gum disease, I smoke a lot, and I'm so out of shape from being inactive that my legs and back are constantly in pain. I overeat processed and greasy cheesy foods and junk food like ice cream and cookies all the time. I genuinely can't walk a quarter of a mile without my blood pressure spiking, severe panic attacks, and anxiety attacks. But I've been making music, singing, writing poetry, drawing, and being as kind as I can to those I care about, trying my hardest to be, at least in my eyes, a decent human being. I have a girlfriend who I got with 2 years ago and have known for 5 years. She's very similar to me, and we jokingly call ourselves depressed goblins. I'm going to pick her up soon and take her to my place to live, and with luck, we'll help each other get better. We're thinking about getting on a healthcare plan and SSI since we can't get a job with our current health. We'll likely get gym memberships and start eating healthier and taking better care of ourselves. I know it's easier said than done, but I can only hope. With the way things are right now, I might have a heart attack by age 30-35. I just hope the damage done to my body isn't too permanent and that I can recover enough to live decently. Do you maybe have any suggestions? Also sorry for the very long and graphic comment...
The brain is interlinked, so all the mess in your life is being caused by the same factors. You may need professional help, but by all means you need to have fixed goals and a main purpose in life, and we all know this is tough, but necessary. Try to start by small steps, like cleaning your room, going out, talking to people. Each small step is a victory, but never doubt you can't get out from this hole, cuz you can. But you need to have a main reason to.
you are making the everyday decision to live like this. you are making the everyday decision to put what you want in your mouth. you are making the everyday decision to tell yourself the things that you do. you are making the everyday decision to be inactive. you are making the everyday decision to give yourself gum disease from smoking. i didn't say all of that to come off like an asshole but if it sounds asshole-ish i can see where you can get that because a lot of people don't get things told to them straight up nor do they like it. because a lot of people would say "oh my god that sounds so hard" but the reality is that you are making those everyday choices. so i said it in that way so you can realize that YOUR LIFE is really in YOURS HANDS... LITERALLY. start making better CONSCIOUS decisions to make the outcome of your life how you want it. you're not gonna be perfect & make every right decision every day or time after time. i fall back down sometimes but i also pick myself back up & say "no, i know better, let me do better" & i do, for a while, then i give in again to junk food or drinking. so im not saying "oh it's okay to fall back into bad habits it's fine it's whatever" , im saying as long as you get back on track eventually & quickly ! don't stall cuz then it's harder to get back on track / you build the habit again. i hope this was helpful but i also really wish you the best.
so many people never reach the point of true self-awareness, much less understand how to achieve self-actualization. just give forth that day’s version of 100%, even if it’s “not as much” as the day before. your body is also very forgiving when it recognizes you’re making better changes to upkeep it - take it from me! i battled & beat cancer at 21, a very psychologically confusing journey for someone that was/is passively su*cidal; had a stroke from the chemo 8 months in, & was wheelchair bound for a year. i crawled my way out of paralysis, & i ended treatment with very mild complications to manage daily. i do still make consciously bad decisions for my bodily health & have that cognitive lack of self-concern from being su*cidal - but the moral of the story is, there’s SO much hope for you yet & you only lose your chance to get better when you’re dead. you can always start anew :•)
I JUST JUMPED IN THE AIR HEARING MADOKA MAGICA UR NAMING ALL MY SPECIAL INTERESTS LOL DDLC TOO AHHH AND JACK STAUBER AND VOCALOID AND KIKUO IM SORRY IF IM COMING OFF WEIRD IM JUST SO HAPPY RN
@@Yive. Well, see, there's something eerie about this video. The way it was abruptly recommended, the slow talking and odd familiarity this person sounds...
I can understand how some people think this style of video is eerie and creepy but you guys gotta understand, this was the norm back when youtube and online videos was just introduced. We are all guilty of watching and creating videos with hundreds of edits, background music, mr beast type sht, and especially now when short form content is the high for 90% of people online. Yall are valid to your opinions but its not really nice to be called creepy or eerie. Keep that in mind. I've just found her video and she is adorable and I love how soothing her voice is. I like how i dont get bombarded with ads and promos and loud edits. Sometimes I just need a break, maybe some background noise which she is great for honestly, im just drawing while bingeing her videos and its nice. I don't know her at all but I love the way she talks about what she likes and what she's accomplished today, makes me proud of her even tho I've never met her, and to me shes relatable because I used to have really bad mental health and just getting out of bed felt impossible. I used to blame myself and talk myself down because I couldn't do the simplest tasks. So im glad shes giving herself credit for cleaning up her room. PROUD OF YOU GURL! YOU GOT THIS WOOOO!
10/10 video full review, because i guess i'm chronically online now cleaning is my favorite subcategory of living it's really hard to approach a mess you've made you should be proud i appreciate your selection of manga, shows, games, and music 4:20 fear not, the drift was caught //literature oyasumi punpun is probably my favorite manga of all time DDLC was my favorite game for a while the only vn i got down to was tsukihime but i really wanna get into more //music not to keep glazing but i do think VGM and vocaloid are the best we've gotten from 21st century producers i am glad you've recognized this because people never agree with me and just seem to laugh at miku without knowing the music i dabble in UTAU and synthv so maybe i'm biased thank you for recommending babuchan, never heard of them but i am really enjoying their stuff rn i'll check out narrow's day at disneyland as well //instruments i also play guitar and piano!! the commitment to practice learn get better enjoy oneself band experiences are really rare, i would like to do that as well human synchrony is the best art younger brother? > the precious frustration of meeting innocent new life i think they might have the most understanding older sister just speculation though //other i'm glad you've found new friends being open is nice trust is sacred but like all things sacred it gives with one hand and takes with the other i can't speak normally be careful!! but i'm glad it brings me great joy to see people who have found people
Seeing all the people in the comment section just supporting her like that just filled me with joy it's just so wholesome how there are still good people out there ... Her stop motion was in my recommended section. .. and it's the definition of good art ... And she is a really kind person it seems from her vlogs like her videos are really simple and fun like RU-vid used to be in the past .... May god bless and protect you all and may good bless her too and yall have a good life
@@deadswine6476 I think many artist suffer from depression but its not really the depression that gives them talent. Its more like sometimes they can take certain inspiration from depression sure
Cleaned my room for the first time in like 2 years recently so well done with that. It's not easy. Also great music taste. Ado, Yorushika and Zutomayo are regulars on my playlists, I'll have to check out the other ones too. Hope you feel better soon
This is helpful. At least it’s good to know I am not the only one suffering with mental illness, it is a struggle to get up some days, but we are here. Thanks for posting. Greetings from Oakland California
Crazy to finally see someone talking about Soutaiseiriron in the wild lmao. It never ceases to amaze me how smooth and catchy pretty much all of their catalogue is, while they also like to throw in some jazzy chords and even some odd time sigs 🙏 Good stuff
finding things that help distract you, other than your typical norm, has been what has helped me the most. Also, if there is anything that you can think of from your childhood, that you had enjoyed a lot doing, but dont do anymore. give that a try, and who knows, maybe you'd feel a little bit better.
It helped me. I'm reverting back to things inhad liked and it's so good. It's like.rediscovering yourself in a way. I like getting consumed by the things i had forgotten i love.
was sitting alone at lunch during school today but your video kept me company ^^ also i hope you're happy and healthy. please take care about yourself !!
I love Nero’s day at disneyland, glass ceiling cabaret slaps, and so does no money down low monthly payments, and many more. Either way you are the only person that I’ve heard of that knows of Nero’s day at disneyland, and I think that’s pretty dope
I've been dealing with depression for over a decade now... it's no joke and feels like there's no end. I also once got a bug infestation and hope it never gets that bad again, although I do think that time was mainly the fault of the landlord I had. I'll regularly go through slumps where I do nothing for days at a time, often going without food during that time as well. I feel miserable and often wonder why I'm even still alive. I figure I'll be always alone and any year may be my last. It's nice to hear people open up online
your eyes make me feel like you have a very very very open mind… jeez been experiencing some shit mentally and like I always felt like leaving my room and then my bruh visited once for the first time and was like… dude this is chill af😂😂…
Oh my goodness, I also play the flute/piano and would like to join a band, And I also love murder drones, Yume Nikki, Elita, Undertale/deltarune, and vocaloid!! Kikuo is lovely, one of my fav smaller vocaloid artists is Umbrabyte. These vids are so cozy, I heavily relate to mental health struggles and I appreciate people being more open to talk about them ^^
honestly, you look fantastic - even if your hair ain't brushed, so it's not big of a deal Also, what can help with trash might be extra smaller trash cans, so it is as convenient as possible to throw trash away I recommend you to look into older JRPGs on PS1+2 They are definitely worth playing
me toooo i love his little short videos too, especially opal!! i’m actually inspired by him in a lot of different ways, i’m glad we have something in common ₍˄·͈ ‧̫ ·͈˄₎
I love your videos, I hope you feel better physically soon and im glad you feel better mentally, it's super cool hearing someone talk about there interests so openly btw I really like Inio Asano's works and if you feel like reading something kinda similar with some cool art I recommend blood on the tracks by Shuzo Oshimi
Hey, I just discovered your channel on my youtube FYP but all the power to you! I'm not too big on anime or watching things in general. I like JoJo's Bizarre Adventures manga and anime, Evangelion, Steins;Gate and stuff like this though. I just got into Fire Emblem series as games, Yakuza Franchise is great too. I guess I mostly enjoy story-driven stuff.
TW: i struggle with the same problems and i also recently just started cleaning my room, and there's is no more trash and gross stuff in my room :). i know is really hard to get over some problems, and when you used all of your scapism methods, and now there is only you facing the word you just want to lay on the ground and cry. i've been trying to stop my sh problems but sometimes i still think i need to punish myself in every way. i just didn't wanted to make anyone worried about my situation but endend up getting more and more worse, i'm glad i can be on therapy and i can take pills and stuff but still makes me feel guilty about what i'm doing and what i have done to myself. my motivation for everything just stop existing but seeing people like Ito and all the peoplein this comment section makes me realize i'm not the only one. :)
Hey if you like Nero's day at disneyland and sort of whimsical clown carnival electronic music you might also like Susumu Hirasawa, I love Susumu Hirasawa! If you're interested here are some of my favorite songs of his (heavily truncated): World Turbine 風の分身 Kingdom Kaku P-model (also Susumu Hirasawa just his band that he is only in most of the time) - Human Le Banderia Travelers Night Walking Wearing the Human Body (cool ass name) Mirror Gate Switches on Lotus (this one is apparently somewhat known in OSU! ) IM SORRY ITS SO HARD TO KEEP THIS SHORT He made music for like a bunch of Satoshi Kon's films if you know him :)))) I especially like Paprika which was sort of a circus theme aswell. (There exists a fantastical circus inside me that encompasses my entire world I think)
I remember stumbling upon your tiktok and then later coming across your stop motion animation, it really resonated in me and it helped me realize I am not alone! I am so happy I found you, I really enjoy a lot of the things you like, ESPECIALLY NEROS DAY AT DISNEYLAND!! AND SPLATOON!! Have you ever heard of Babuchan? They are one of my favorite artists. Please keep doing what you’re doing, you’re awesomesauce!!
I hate to admit this but I almost have 300hrs in Yume Nikki. Also I love VNs, I'm currently playing a pretty dark one right now, it's called Lunar maiden, River-side Angel, and the Godlike moment.
I love your nails they are soooo cute ^^ 💓 and I love project sekai but then I lost my account ㅠㅠ. And listen to Kikuo too but I love TUYU, eve and Zutamayo. Lastly well done to you !!! Seeing you try your best is wonderful ✨and it would definitely motivate other people
For me, it's the psychiatric medications that messed with my brain, been on them for 10 years now and my life since then has gotten worse and worse May God heal everyone
I suffer from depression as well and I have bad social skills. Recently my life changed a lot and I just got a job too and I feel so anxious and overwhelmed everyday now bcuz I'm not used to speaking much to many different ppl. I'm trying to accept this change but I can't help but be nervous and anxious. I even like my coworkers so far but it's so difficult for me to calmly speak to ppl. It's so bad that I sometimes write down what to say before I say it bcuz I don't want to mess anything up
Just stay consistent in one path. Follow what makes you excited. Your life, your joy. And remember; people will hate it. Stay focused in whatever helps you smile.
Omg I found your channel a while ago and I really really like your content, your room and you. You're so pretty and also ik murder drones (haven't watched it tho). :)
you met kikuo????😭😭knowing kikuo he would havf eaten your rock for breakfast… YOU ALSO KNOW BABUCHAN!!!!!i love you😭 if you want i can recommend more niche vocaloid artists and japanese music and games and stuff i need people to talk to about this stuff
I can recommend some of kikuo songs! Tunnel adventure Hole dwelling Searching for your love Missing, missing Water water yu yu Metropolitan museum(yes that is an actual song) Astral travel You are amazing! Listening to your speech makes me feel bliss! ❤❤❤❤❤
If you deal with the dishes or any other within the same day you notice it, it makes keeping things clean 100x easier than dealing with it when it's stockpiled.
My favorite anime are: trigun, getbackers, Bobo bo bo bobo bo, ergo proxy, outlaw star, Naruto - the very first series, mushi mushi, Reincarnated slime 1st season only, flamenco!
I am reminded of the time I left a banana in my backpack for like a month. I think I must have been on break from school. There was a foul smell in my room and I couldn’t for the life of me figure out where it was coming from. Finally I opened my backpack. 😨 I just threw the whole thing away.
10:20 that is true doe, if we lived close I would love to have a jamming session. Thing is I think there's truly little time once u get older and even if u commit then ur not gonna make any money at all and can't survive the adult world. I play guitar too but not really that good I make covers in my channel over here.
You should try to compartmentalize things in phases. You know clean room, mantain hygiene, remember to study and eat healthy. Depression is a problem most people suffer from sometimes because of a slow decline of interests they like. I always try to broaden my horizon and watch, study and learn all sorts of stuff throughout my day. From DVD/CD vs Streaming talk to Wars & Politics and even AI & Science talk. You said you like Jack Stauber lol finally i found a Stauber fan😂 Stauber is so funny. Mental health is no joking matter make sure you have a strong friend base around you and trust the ones who deserve it. ✌PEACE.
I love Neon Genesis Evangelion and Madoka Magica and Splatoon 2 and Splatoon 3 were amazing. Video game music is wonderful one franchise that has so many amazing songs is Final Fantasy. I recommend Final Fantasy covers. I love playing music piano , guitar and violin It's fun. Cool video. ^_^
i can relate sm when it comes to jack stauber and some of the games you play, especially osu and doki doki, visual novels are great but i dont know enough of them 😭
No shit, mental illness aint no joke. I legit have FAS, autism, ODD, PTSD, and ADHD. I have seen people online make fun of it and that pisses me off beyond beleif. Btw, if you havent already, i highly reccomend checking out the "streets of rage" series and its kick-ass soundtrack composed by yuzo koshiro. It is the greatest side-scrolling beat-em-up series and my absolute fave. I also play a lot of game ost's on piano. But anyways, as i said i can totally relate to your struggles. In fact, your literally the female version of me
Hey. I read Oyasumi Punpun. I could understand why the magazine lost tens of thousands of subscribers because of it, which is a measure of it's success imo. I played Doki Doki Literature club. It was ok, but not really a game, more like an interactive novel. I'm reading "I wanted to be hurt by love," which seems to be a very good manga. Ito music, I don't know. I can only mention Gregory and the Hawk. I play guitar sometimes. Thanks, it was nice to hear from you.
Im only at volume 3 ( even tough i got spoiled) of oyasumi punpun and i really really love Evangelion, i think you might like serial experiments lain, i personnally love it ! :D i played splatoon and i still have the games but my nintendo online thing expired and im poor so :/ As a kid i was OBSSESED with undertale and i have both deltarune and undertale now, i've also loved jack stauber for a very long time and i still do I also have a pet rock ! :D I like vocaloid and elita a little too I've gone through a lot of messed up stuff, i understand and i hope you get better, i would love to be your friend :)
hi, i really like your videos sm. i'm lonely too but watching your videos feels like im talking to someone really. you seem like a good talking buddy and friend :)
She should read Bungou Stray Dogs, I love all the other things she’s mentioned so I think she’d like it. But I only like the manga, the anime is not good at expressing the manga(😢)
