I have not even listened yet-but a collaboration of two of the best in the world-and two of my favorites! I don’t know how you both found your calling, but I’m so glad you both did! You are both my sheroes!🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈💎💎💎💎💎💎💎
Dammit yes 2:39:15 I am feeling my allergies hit me.....I think you are very awesome and the spunky Aries is evident and I should have heard the Piscean energy as you were having trouble explaining, said sorry for something not your fault. I ain't going nowhere ..... Especially Aries.....WTF?
Lessons will be learned. My life is tower moments just stacked up and turned into this life. Lot of Neptune? Born Neptune in Scorpio...... Can't control the episodes angry
Pile 2, felt uncomfortable because those were what I needed to hear and knew along the way. My past is very complicated. Gone through many many things that others would not imagine if they only look at my exterior. It took a long time for me to be who I am. I truly appreciate your insight and wisdom.
Words cannot express but honestly thank you, you're amazing and Pile 3 is reading me to filth (in the best of ways!) 💗💗💗 *edit: to fellow pile 3's - If your soul is begging you to explore, please do it. That calling does not stop, no matter how much you try to numb it. You won't regret leaving and I can say that the guilt does wane. You deserve to be the main character and you deserve to be seen. You have SO much love and joy to give and you will meet the right people who not only appreciate you for these qualities but will reciprocate them. This life is too short and filled with SO much opportunity!
okay so WOW! Pile 3 felt like a warm, compassionate hug from a beloved old friend. Thank you so much, I can't even list the number of synchronicities in this reading - there are too many! 💗
BYE PILE 2 IS INSANELY ACCURATE... wasn't expecting it especially because of the warning in the beginning but it's insane. Nailed what I'm dealing with right on the head
pile 3: i was chained and a prisoner by my parent’s expectations my mom always sacrificed her self for everyone which lead me into manifesting relationships who depended on me.. i never knew how to put myself first until i just got tired of it and realized i will never make anyone happy, that is their responsibility i deserve to give myself the world and that’s what i will do for the rest of my life ❤️
Pile 3: I was brought to tears. I was drawn to it because of the fool and moon, being the Pisces that I am. Believe me, I am on the journey of finding my voice and loving myself as much as I do others. At 28, I’ve come to find that I have always lived a life service to others. I am the eldest of four and I was a parent to my parents. There’s so much more to my story, but I appreciate the messages as they have come in the most opportune time in my life.
Hey a fellow Pisces!!! And I was also a parent to my mother so I totally understand. I hope you are doing ok and I’m sending healing and positive energies💙
And she's back, our wholesome tarot reader. You're amazing Eso, thanks for being consistent and all you efforts put into the videos you make, We love 'em
@doom omg I got it to 322! Just because I agreed with it wanted to second it and also to get it to an even number, then saw your comment and looked up and I had gotten it to 322 haha law of A now got yours to 2 lol
Pile 4- I laughed when you said you were having a hard time reading this pile. Girl, you were 100% spot on the entire time. Like omg thank you guides for explaining finally full body chills spot on. Pretty surprising because I am complicated af and hard for everyone to read (in readings and everyday life). Also, I am a water sign but have an Aries moon. Hermit pulled the emperor for my pile and talked about moving more into masculine energy. You guys make an amazing team.
pile 3: recently left a six year relationship that i got into when i was 20. everything was perfect between us, but there was never any emotion behind it. everyone thought i was going to marry them, i even thought so. i always felt trapped, unloved, and unfulfilled like i didn’t matter, but the happiness of the relationship always convinced me otherwise. convinced me that i was complaining about trivial matters or for no reason at all. even my partner thought we were perfect. the only way it was going to end was if i chose myself, and i spent so long waiting for someone to save me when the only person who was going to save me was myself.
Generally speaking, and I've had this conversation with other people, relationships that start with very young partners, although they are romanticized by the others around them, are usually unhealthy. Also, difficult to leave. But one day after the other, two steps forward and one back, everything is possible. Life is a journey.
Maybe that's why they talk about the "7 year itch". Relationships hit a tough area after about 7 years. I especially noticed that in families with a child about that age. And they made a show based on this concept too. It's a common time for people to get bored or lose interest.
#3 was amazing. I was raised by a single mom who has untreated borderline personality disorder. I've always felt like the mother in our dynamic and responsible for her entirely. I'm 20 now, realizing that I really don't know who I am or what I want. I was never allowed to be selfish or express myself, just be a kid. I'm itching to move on, explore more, and embrace my inner child. Thanks for the confirmation Eso ❤️
I was raised by someone with the same disorder. I’m so sorry you also experienced that hurt. Look into attachment styles. Personal Development School on RU-vid has a lot of wonderful free videos on healing your attachment style and core wounds. I’m 30 and have done a lot of work on myself to heal the damage my mother did. Please know that you aren’t supposed to need to earn love. You are enough. You are beautiful and wonderful and deserve to be loved and cherished simply for being you-not what you’ve done to earn it.
@@rebeccasharpe2432 @Rebecca Sharpe Thank you so much for this message! It's always comforting to know I'm not alone and others have experienced similar treatment, even though I'm always sad to hear other people have suffered similarly. I so appreciate your kind words and the advice, I'll have to check out that channel and learn more about attachment styles! I wish you well as you continue your healing journey 💗 it's not easy, but it's worth it
@@rebeccasharpe2432 Also, deserving love based on who you are, not what you've done to earn it is such a beautiful and important reminder. It's easy to forget that when you're in the midst of it
Pile 4: Has me in tears…I’ve started my spiritual journey with you since the end of last year/beginning of this year and this reading is what I needed to hear to bring me out of my own head space because I’ve definitely been feeling lost in my own energy. You’ve helped me to not only trust myself more than I ever have, but also taught me I can trust to ask for help when I need it ! I’m in my own journey to self liberation and whenever I watch your videos, it’s a complete confirmation of what I knew but just needed to put into words. I’m a highly emotional person to the point where I don’t even realize how emotional I truly am, especially during this spiritual path I’ve embarked on. Finding my way through love and betrayal, and turning to self love to heal and grow from my conditioned ideas of what a happy life looks like. You’ve helped me come from a deeply suicidal look on life…to the infinite knowledge and opportunities life really offers, even through the pain I’ve realized that they’re happening FOR me and not to me. & with this information, I choose EVERY time to better my life , create the life I want for myself and guide those around me with that same knowledge. Thank you ! 💙💜
You are very smart and I am amazed that you have come so far since ur spiritual awakening I am resisting change because it's not my idea. Like things either perfect or .... That's ok didn't need that anyways. I need to slow down and get the things that don't work gone and install better systems of coping with the past. I have been trying to keep my head outta my business but the body, brain , heart and soul tend to do better without alcohol and drugs. Just when I think I can't get lower I turn my back and fuck it up! You doing great and you give me courage to keep trying. Thank you for your time. ⚛️☮️♓
Pile 4 felt like a personal attack 😂 everything is on point and it felt like a personal reading. You said that the energy is hard to read and I gotta agree. My past is very scattered to the point of confusion and I've grown a lot in the past 9 months that I hardly recognized my past self. I felt so drawn to pile 2 even when I started the reading so I guess I gotta check that one out too. Thanks Eso ❤️ watching your readings always feels like a chat with a friend. Xoxo
i picked pile 2! i was a little worried that i picked the wrong pile from the intro, but once you started talking my jaw dropped. you hit every single point. like, *everything* resonated. that's so wild!!! thank you 💞
Pile 2 definitely felt like you were talking about my life just without the nitty gritty details. It was really emotional and hit on me thinking and working through the past. I could feel how careful you were being with this reading. You hit on the going through that time but not being present. I often say I was a ghost at that time. Between 13-20 years of age. I wish I could go into more detail- but just know that this helped me know that I'm on the right path to healing that girl. Thinking of her and the people she may have unintentionally hurt then is something I need to make peace with. It does affect my present as much as I would like to think it doesn't. Thank you for your time and for sharing your gifts!
Pile 1 was so accurate! It started four years ago and ended - I'm not sure if it already ended yet. You told my last few weeks. I'm still working on self-acceptance, self-love, self-worth,... And yeah, maybe I'll celebrate my birthday in september to celebrate my successes and achievements. I already started to go in nature, no coffee, no alcohol (no, I never trank much, but my guides told me to stop completely for the moment), to care more for my body,... And I started to feel a bit proud of myself! Thank you for this - and all your - readings! Love from Austria!💜💜💜💜💜
Pile 3 literally had me sobbing. I have been through a lot and as a way to cope I write letters to my past self, often apologizing for the way I treated her. I reflect on what I would have wanted to know, but I also give myself the love and care i didnt receive. There are 4 situations that really come to mind when I think of choosing myself. The first one was when I was 14, a boy said he had like me and within the same day said he loved me and wouldnt stop saying it even though I told him not to, i eventually told him that I didn't feel the same and he ended up hurting himself and basically saying it is because of the rejection, in that moment I chose myself, even though i was scared for him I chose to protect myself first and I couldnt be prouder that I did, even with that small interaction he still caused me ptsd that I'm working through constantly. The second one is a guy who I thought was my friend, I'm very open hearted/minded and accepting, he would constantly belittle me about things I couldnt control (like my weight saying I'm too skinny for him) and say he hated me, he ended up asking me out while I was in a relationship and i told him to never contact me again, the next time i saw him in person i almost cried and did have a panic attack. Both of those guys caused me trauma to the point where I cant watch certain movies because it reminds me of them, I cant talk about certain things without thinking of them, and I cant have a partner say they love me romantically without getting uncomfortable. I used to not be able to hear it from anyone, but I'm now able to hear it platonically. The third time is with my most recent ex, he never really put me first and it didnt feel like a relationshipanymore, it felt like a guy I was messaging who would ignore me, and even though I still loved him I had to break up with him because I needed to protect myself, it was hurting too much to stay. The fourth and final one is probably the worst because it is the one I'm still in, it is with my father, he has always leaned on me my whole life (the relationship with my mother is nonexistant and I havent spoken to her since I was 11), I've watched my sibling since I was 9 and I've always done the cleaning and occasionally the cooking, he would always tell me his problems and I always had to do everything exactly as he said when he said it, the few times I've tried to defend myself didnt end well for me, I was even so sick at one point and he didnt believe but I ended up almost dying because of that (he still hasnt apologized for everything he did during that time), he relies on me and I hate it, I've always had the strong urge in me to just fly away, I feel like I'm destined for so much more if I just reach out and grab it, I'm trying to figure out how to get out and I will, i will find a way out and I'm doing it for my past self and anyone out there listening, to show them it is possible, it is possible to live and be happy. To everyone who read all of this i love you and i am so proud of you.
This is something I wrote recently that helped me… you can change the words to fit your story. Say these words and find your freedom:)🙌🏼 We Are Done Playing Small We Are Done Letting Others Use Us We Take Our Power Back Right Now, or Right Meow 😻 Just Like A Cat 🐈 Actually If I Am Ready To Be A Part Of Anyone’s Life, It Is Of My Own Choice On My Own Time Playing By My Rules I Am to Be Respected Because I AM Sacred Deep Down I’ve Known That But Throughout My Life I’ve Allowed This Game of Being At Service… Even If Others Were Not Honoring Me Even if Others Were Not Valuing Me For What I’m Worth I AM Worthy of The World 🌎 I AM Worth My Weight In Gold I Am Divine, I Am Magic 🪄 I Am A Creator of Life I Breathe Love Into Everything I Do Without Expecting That Love 💗 To Be Returned But Yet I’ve Found Myself Resentful At Times… because deep down I wished I could feel the love from someone else At some point We have to let go of the control that we can fix others We have to understand that some people we put our time and our energy into…may never find the strength within themselves to trust, to enjoy the beauty of the world, to see the beauty we possess or that they do, to feel the love we give… because they don’t love themselves. At some point the most loving thing we can do is to take our energy back and allow them to feel their lives without our light. Even though they may have told us we were the ones incapable, they may have tried to switch it on us and say we were crazy, that we were the ones with the problems. And we’re not perfect but we knew we weren’t any of the names we’ve been called…. Hurtful names, spiteful names, degrading names. We were not worthy of actions or lack thereof of effort, of support, of being the punching bag. And this is probably not the first time we said we were done either, because we see so much beauty in them. They have a beautiful soul, it glows, it shines, but mainly when it wants to impress or make up for all the times where we were the ones who had to endure or watch the misery, the insults, the harmful words and actions, these have all been tactics of control. Because they were afraid of our light. The way we didn’t even have to put on masks or pretend to like people, the way people laughed and were filled with joy by just being around us. And all that came from a place of authenticity. We never had to hide from ourselves, we can just be, and shine ✨ and heal people with a smile. We didn’t have to control, we may have picked that up though to survive around the many people like them that have scattered our lives. Hurting us, harming us, over, and over again! But like I said we’re done with the game, we remember we’ve had the power all along. We never needed anyone to give us this power. We’ve been lied to and probably got caught up and confused over and over because life hit us with pain, over, and over again. So we convinced ourselves maybe we are the muck that gets scraped off the shoe, maybe we’re broken because they have cast words at us over and over again! Well today is the day that I say loud and clear, I am worthy, I am whole, I am sacred, I am a creator of life, of love, of miracles, of peace. I do not accept any version of myself that has been created to belittle my soul. I am none of the things that have been said or done to me to gain control and power over my soul. I cast out any darkness, any slander, any false accusations that have ever been directed towards my soul throughout eternity. I send them all love, I take all of my energy back and allow them to heal without the light I’ve poured from my core. I cut these cords of attachment in our highest good and ask for protection and guidance for them. May they find the healing within themselves, to grow, to blossom, to transform, to love again, to find the light inside. I fill myself back up, I stop playing the game today! I am not small! I never was! I am doing nobody a service especially myself, by pretending to be a victim… there is no such thing. I am not “traumatized”, I am not “mentally ill”, I am not “injured”, I am not “broken”, I am not “bad”, I am not “immoral”, I am not “stupid”, I am not a “narcissist”, I am not a “slut”, I am not a “bitch”, I am not a “hoe”, I am not “loose”, I am nobody’s “whore”, I am not “dirty”, I am not “self-serving”, I am not a “bad mom”, I am not “thoughtless”, I am not “prude”, I am not “wrong” if I am expressing my truth. And today I say my truth! You have no power over me. I do not consent of you telling me what to wear, how to think, what I can and cannot say, you are not allowed to touch me in any ways I do not permit. I do not consent of being an enabler for your misbehavior towards my being at any level. I forgive you and I do not love you any less. But I do not consent of this spiral 🌀 and pattern to continue any longer.
@@saintaras this was really beautiful. Thank you. It made me think that I will write my own version of this for me and repeat it over and over as affirmations in the morning. Thank you
Reading this I saw my teens & early/mid 20’s replayed with words to the point it repulsed me. Not because of you. No! Because guys who make situations uncomfortable. A dad who has lack of understanding & empathy let alone sympathy. I hope you get out. I hope you to have the most healthy environment for yourself! Blessings honey ❤️
I hope you are better now. If not, please know that big things take time. A parent who parentifies his child is a net difficult to break through, not because it is strong or undestructible, is actually very thin, but because we get used to live with it. But it can be done. From my experience and people who have gone through similar experiences, it is a work for life. Not, again, because it is a set in stone net, but because while they are alive they will try to catch you in that net again. And one, must not allow it, again and again. Also, from my experience, when a parent doesn’t have the same power over us as he did,those types of (toxic) guys tend to appear less and less. I also believe, but I may be wrong, that waiting for an apology from those who hurts us is a way we trap ourselves in the past. Those who heals us, are not the same who hurts us. Take care and continue to love yourself ❤❤
Reading 3 is so accurate, I'm also a Sagittarius, married early, and looked after everyone. I'm now near retirement and putting myself first! Love your insights, thank you 💖
Pile 1: I was really trying to see if this message was meant for me. It really is! The moment you talked about balance and intrusive thoughts I resonated big time. Because My biggest fear is failure and I have been very critical of myself mentally and what I do. I need to show myself gratitude more because I am doing amazing but I don’t celebrate it often im a Scorpio and tend to overthink. Yes I know I need help but I get so lost in my mind thinking I don’t need help because I think I can do everything on my own. I’m just wow it’s crZy coz I did a reading before and was told to show gratitude within myself more! And I have this connection of this being my past self from my youth… I grew up with parents that are messy/divorced and I try to please my mom but she keeps forcing a specific lifestyle onto me ( being Filipino and following traditional ways being raised catholic, following a career that’s stereotypical that I have no interest in, I couldn’t be authentically me) my mom is nurturing amazing woman but I just don’t relate with her because she always criticized me which made me insecure and I agree I became my own parent because my mom had her own issues and projected her pain onto me so I decided to not live with her because I can’t grow around her I love my independence, Growing up I just wanted to express myself and be the person I want to become. I taught myself maturity. I just need to teach myself self love 💕
Pile 3. It was literally my mother. Stepping away, processing the grief and anger has been probably the hardest thing I have ever done. She's a narcissist and the conditioning runs deep. I spoke to someone on the phone who is friends with my mother and asked me, unprovoked, "Does (your mother) drink a lot...like a lot a lot?" And I got to speak my truth for the first time to someone who hasn't seen my struggle. It's weird. Like coming out from under a rain cloud I didn't even know was there. Thank you. Thank you so much. This makes me feel seen 💖
Pile 3 here too and my childhood was pretty bad also due to a narcissist mother who drank. You are so right that the conditioning runs so so deep. I never felt good enough. I left my family of origin and got married to someone just like my mother. It felt familiar which is often what we choose because we know how to navigate it. was married with two kids and left after 19 years - gave myself permission to go and it was the best thing I ever did. Hard yes. Harder still getting over the narc crap and also hard with many people in my life telling me I was wrong to leave my family of origin and wrong to leave my marriage but it was right and good to do so not only for me but for my kids. I'm nearing retirement age now. In the last ten years I have spiritually morphed out of being a traditional Christian into more esoteric beliefs. I'm finding that truth is not found just in one book but that God is far bigger than I ever dreamed. I'm completing my Reiki master level training in the fall and looking into anything that feels right to me. Never give up trying and never abandon yourself is what I would say to anyone. I was so moved by the reading that told me I did the right thing and that my past life thanked me. I already knew this but it was really good to hear out loud. Part of my healing was keeping for many years a picture of me at 5 on my dresser and learning to care about that little girl that no one cared about. Very healing. Hopefully someone will read this and feel encouraged because life can be good when you step out of your comfort zone.
@@MeezerGurlMakes Your story is beautiful. You are strong and I am amazed by your courage to break away from tradition and follow your inner voice. The synchronicity struck me about your picture. I also keep a picture of my father and I, when I was maybe a year old, on my desk where I work. It gives me strength and reminds me I AM loved. Thank you so much for sharing! 💖
thank you for sharing, in some weird way its comforting to know that youre not alone even if i wouldnt wish this on anyone. im in the middle of this process with my mother too. she isnt a drinker but we were kinda best friends until i realized she was a narsissist that never has or will put me before herself. whenever i felt like i just needed support from her we would always end up talking about her and her problems and me defending the worth of my (actually really serious and damaging) experience and feelings. she actually either makes my problems about her or victim shame me for what happened. when i realized this it actually felt like i have been tricked my whole life. I was my parent. And she played puppetmaster basiclly. The worst thing is that i learned that this is love. And i do love her, I have talked to her about it but she didnt understand - instead she called me egocentrical and manipulative for speaking the truth and telling me that i want to hurt her. That she just wants our relationship to be like normal (one sided) again. It hurts like hell to realise that the person you love so dearly can litterally turn around and stab you as soon as youre not pleasing them. If you have the energy, do you have any tips on this situation? you dont have to ofc
Pile 3. At 40, married, 3 children. Just went low contact with family over the past year. Manifesting a better, happier life. Narcissistic dad and brother not happy with the no contact. Trashing me, had another family member contact me to say “I hope you can live with your decisions”. My enabling mom is okay with the no contact. I have given so much and felt a deep obligation to hold the family together. It’s been a weird adjustment and hard to stand my ground, but I’m doing it. I feel guilt over having 3 children and distancing from my family as that will affect their relationship also. At the same time, I can’t continue the energy drain and scapegoating. It’s not been an easy road and I’m a loving fun playful person. It has always felt unfair, but since taking some power back, feeling stronger and more confident.
A pile 3 here and you got me in tears, I feel this 100%. Thank you for allowing my past self come through you, it's been hard. I just recently got out of all that negativity and just trying to keep pushing forward and fighting for myself and everything that I do in this world.
Pile 3. I’m just about to turn 33. Never been married but last June I ended a relationship with a man that if I had stayed I would have married. He treated me so well and he will make a great husband and father, but deep down I knew that if I stayed I would regret it later in life. Everybody and I mean everybody told me I was making a mistake and I should get back together. Now I truly believe it was the right decision and I am simply learning to live happy on my own. I’ve always had a deep desire to explore and honestly I think that’s all I want from life to explore every bit of life joyfully.
Regardless of what others say... you need to do what you feel in your heart is best for you. Perhaps it just wasn't the right time or the right person. But everything happens at the right time and place.
Pile 4 you are so spot on. I have learned so much and everything has opened up my spiritual side my psychic abilities are multiplied. I feel so empowered. I am so connected to Spirit and have seen the truth of who I really am and am beginning to love and except myself both light and dark sides. So freeing. My Awakening was sparked by an old love. So many wonderful blessings coming my way and yes there is going to be team work with a divine partner moving towards me.
Pile 3...I did mature really fast and I've always tried to please my parents. They're wonderful people but they sometimes get worried for me and try to keep me under limits. I've always tried to keep everyone happy and sacrificed my own happiness. But recently I've started to stand up for myself and take care of my inner child. Thankyou so much for this beautiful reading, it gives me hope!
3 - omg Before clicking on this video I was crying my life out about my lost childhood, that I was the parent of my parents, everything that I sacrificed. I'm blown away. Thank you. Now I know my worth, I love my life. I create my reality. The reality that I want. I'm happy after all. Sending you love.
Pile 4 was honestly very insightful, and I know spirit was yelling at me to actually follow through because the last couple of readings is been like that but is so hard idk what happened to me, fear has been so detrimental and just staying on the comfort zone but I'm trying, thank you because this journey has been helping me and maybe it is time to ask for help and do the work
Pile 4 here - you said some phrases that my guides have been telling me, so many that at one point my jaw literally dropped. Talk about uncanny haha your reading resonated so much
The tarot community has grown tremendously! It's truly inspiring to see! Thank you for being a conduit of Spirit. I started my tarot channel in 2020 and it has brought me great joy.
Pile 3: You outlined a bad relationship I got into when I was 19. I left when I was 24 and realized that it had become abusive. Because of this, I got to experience so many amazing adventures, meet my soul family, and marry my wonderful husband.
Thanks so much! Pile 4..... And oh yeah it resonates on so many different levels! Made me cry literally but yeah truth is always the hardest to hear. Thanks so much!
Agreed. It's a little bit refreshing though. At first I thought she was talking about my early 20s, then I quickly realized it went back even further to 15 and I was reminded that the pattern started that early and I was like.... ohhhhhh that's right. It's like I'd forgotten how that time made me feel and how it snowballed into adulthood. All the more love and understanding to the inner child/teen and how it made me who I am! ❤🙏
@@myiapapaya i felt so uncomfortable that im physically drained that i needed to just lay down..did you feel it? also did you feel attracted to pile 3 too?
@@kriti1466 I did not experience that today, although I have with other readings in the past. It's like the energy that has been blocking being released all at once, like a woosh through the system. I did break down and cry a bunch later though.
PILE 3- my childhood was very accurate and I’m still getting through it but I know FOR SURE now that BETTER DAYS ARE YET TO COME and I’m so glad I chose myself over all else. Thank you so much ESO 💕💕💕
I chose pile 4, honestly you were SO on point with everything it was awesome to see! I picked up and had already known the vibe once I felt and saw the cards and you went on to explain exactly what I thought I'd felt and took from reading. Thank you!! Have a great dayyyy
I chose Pile 2 and while I personally couldn't relate I feel like this pile was my husband's past self talking to me and explaining what he was going through during a certain time in our relationship that I haven't been able to understand why he acted a certain way. In a weird way this helped me understand him at that time and see what he was going through was not my fault and something he needed to go through to better himself. This was a very overwhelming and hurtful time for me and I chose to stick by him. I'm glad I did.
This is what happened for me too! I felt very drawn to pile 2 and also pile 4, as I was watching pile 2 it wasn't really resonating with me fully but I had a passing thought about it being my persons past but didn't pay attention to it. Then I scroll down to the comment and see yours, ended up re-watching pile 2 with that perspective and holy cow it all makes so much sense! It helped me understand the time last year when we first started seeing each other and why he pulled back. Pile 4 was about me, and when Madison said people who picked pile 4 may have been drawn to pile 2 it now makes even more sense 🦋
Pile 3. Currently going through a divorce and just prayed yesterday to get clarity to make sure I am doing the right thing. Thank you so so so much for your guidance ❤️
pile 3! I got out of an extremely toxic and unhealthy living situation that I thought I was going to have to suffer through it for longer than I did. I fought to get out and did it and Im so happy I did. Ive been thriving and living for myself again which is something I forgot how to do. i love u all
Pile 4. Extremely accurate, as always. Im an INFJ, and for me this is the badass ur talking about. And I had a spiritual + kundalini awakenings and now Im a new person. Everything's changed. I was going through terriblly difficult cycles, back to back, for over a decade, and the tower moment that I think ended it was on Jan 24, 2021.
Sending you so much love! :) Can relate to the back-to-back difficult cycles, my Tower moment was last November. I was so grateful and relieved to hear Eso describe it as the last
not me tearing up on pile #3 and the fact that you said "take action" so many times and I got the same message in hermit tarot's reading 😭 💕 thank youuu
I CRIED with pile 3, it reminded me of the time i decided to stop studying medicine and go back home, it was very hard, confusing and i still have some shame and guilt about it, it did trigger my spiritual awakening, tho!!! thank you thank you thank you ❤️❤️❤️ it was beautiful and resonated SO much
This touched my heart (pile 3) I do feel my soul has always yearned for freedom. I often feel restricted to really express myself and explore the world inside/outside. This has been dragged on for far too long and I’ve had to stand up for myself and free myself so often. I don’t plan on giving up, I deserve to see the world. Thank you Spirit 🙏🏽 ❤️ (To all the other pile 3 people out there, you ARE a WARRIOR. Fighting this is no joke. People get too comfortable with you being of service to them. But one thing people forget is if your cup is not filled you won’t be able to fill anyone else’s. We deserve to live a fulfilling life, without feeling like the burdens of others are our own. If you’ve fallen to the ground how can you possible struggle to pick up everyone else when your not on your own too feet. Let us remember that we DESERVE FREEDOM. Don’t let anyone steal that from you. If your an adult (18 and above) especially, go out when you feel, treat yourself, and explore the world. As long it’s not negatively affecting you it others, do it.)
Pile -2, I was nervous I had the wrong pile based on the intro, and I can’t explain how much EVERYTHING YOU SAID resonated in me. I know this message was meant for me, thank you for all you do 💜
Pile 2 for me and damn girl, you got me in tears. This is me from a to z. And while it hurts and it is confrontational(I dont know, I am Dutch, I try😅) as fuck, it is also an eye-opener. I am doing the work, the healing and the growing but also the avoiding and the badtalk to myself about not being deserving. I need to grow there too, evolve and be as ready as I say I am. Thankyou, I didnt really like you during this read but I like you nevertheless😋, for real, I like your energy and the time and work you put into these reads. Its appreciated🤍🙏🏼
@@JMstdj hahaha ik voelde me betrapt🙈 buttttt, yes she is good! When you trust your gut and go with the pile you feel drawn to.. it 9 outta 10 resonates with me too, plus she has such a sweet way in doing what she does that it kinda softens the blow of, in this case, a harsh reality😆🙃😊
Pile 3 was like hitting the nail on every point. From the age, to the parents, everything was spot on and to the T was exactly what I had been going through my whole life. I had my first kid at 20 was pg at 19. Was the one who was blamed for most things wrong and wasn't allowed to have a life. Tried to escape with the carnival when I turned 18 and it was adventurous but then got sucked back in to family manipulations and repeated patterns of invalidation and abuse. After I saw my mom trying to get her hooks in my kids and her pretty much trying to lift them from daycare again without my permission(she got kicked off daycare property that day) I said enough was enough and cut contact. Started focusing on what I want to do and this last month has been the most draining throughout the whole pandemic due to work issues. So I am trying to get things together and start my own candle business. The part where you pulled Sign and Coincidences was just too trippy. The whole reading felt like someone finally understood everything and I just wanted to break down crying and hug you cause it was so overwhelming. I love your readings. Sometimes they are like Spirit is saying "Here's your sign" but this one was the heartfelt one I needed. Always have had an attachment to Alice because I missed out on so much of my childhood due to taking care of everyone else's drama and no one had cared about me in any aspect. I appreciate you so much. Thank you!
Thank you so much for doing this reading, I resonate so much (pile 1) I feel like it’s a personal reading lol. The “situation” occurred to me around 3 years ago, it was a very hard time for me but looking back, I feel so strong leaving my (toxic) friend group. And a year later, I discovered my spiritual awakening, I am still on my healing journey, and I am much happier choosing this path.💖 tysm pls keep doing pick a card reading💖🥺
Pile 2 and OMG thank you so much Eso. I’m currently dealing with family issue today and I’ve just realized recently about how much I’ve been disrespected by my family members these years. They did hurt me back a lot today and I keep standing on my own rights while got affected a little bit. So It’s so warm to hear your deep understanding and standing voice! 💛💛 This is definitely the video I want to play back if I question myself again!
#3 it honestly hit home so much. I have had deep issues with my mom throughout my whole life. In the last year I have made a lot of changes which has included setting boundaries. My mom has always been extremely controlling and has for as long as i can remember put my down especially when I would be in a hard situation. Its almost like she loves when Im in pain or kicks me when i was down. She crossed boundaries after i learned to set them in November which resulted in me making a decision to cut her out of my life. Its been extremely hard because she then went to my kids and told them horrible things that were untrue about me. Ive been a single parent for 13 years after my divorce. Our 4 kids are very close in age and has been a long journey that I’ve done alone. (Been in relationships throughout the years but never remarried) Its been extremely hard year, but I’m more spiritual now and have taken time to work on myself and get to know me for the first time. I wanted to give up multiple times this past year, but I believe I’m worth it and i fought hard to be her! Everyday I’m stronger than i was the day before and I have a new found excitement over this next chapter of my life. Thank you for your reading and how accurate it was is unbelievable. 💜
Pile 3s!!! Eso is so right with everything she says about leaving this situation. The "divorce" she speaks about happened to me within a partnership I had been in for four years. It was a deeply trauma bonded relationship where I was essentially re-experiencing the emotional rollercoaster I had experienced when I was 3-6 between my parents. I knew in my soul how wrong staying in the relationship was... I was scared every day to say or do anything other than be the coddling caregiver to my emotionally irregulated partner. There was no room for me, and because of that, the juvenile arthritis I developed as a child witnessing the violence between my parents came back full force. This period of time was truly the worst point in my life. It took me a year to leave. I called my cousin and would talk to him for hours and he was so patient with me, knowing that I would make the decision at the right time. Please find someone you can talk to like this, who isn't going to judge you or get annoyed with you for not jumping on the decision. It's HARD. But it was absolutely the best decision I've made for myself in my adult life. My health has completely turned around--physical, mental, and spiritual. I feel like MYSELF, and I am happy and genuinely grateful every single day just for being able to wake up into a new day where I have FULL PERMISSION TO BE MYSELF!!! It is the most beautiful and liberating feeling and despite how powerless you may feel right now if you're still stuck in this experience, you have ALL the power within you to get out of it. I know you do. You are worth so much and your life is going to expand and become the most delicious and satisfying experience as you continue to put yourself first, no matter how totally foreign it feels to do so right now. Trust yourself even when the people around you and the voice in your head says you shouldn't. You CAN. If you're reading this, I love you and I have endless belief in you and your ability to transform your life, Thank you for doing hard things!!!!! Thank you Eso SO MUCH for this video. I woke up this morning with my past relationship heavy on my mind (it's been one year since it ended this week!!!) and immediately began journalling about why I stayed and dove deep into understanding that version of myself with so much love and compassion. Then on a whim I opened RU-vid and this video was right there. Wow wow wow thank you I love you!!!
Hearing you explain this made me cry, mine is just in this past week over after 17 years. You give me hope! Eso is such a beautiful soul for telling our story… this story of sadness, strength, and triumph. I’m ready for wherever God is taking and whatever it is I need to do… my eyes are finally open:)💗
Pile 4, we started right. Actually the progress of the reading was if you were describing my current energy and situation lool. Especially when you mentioned about romance being involved to spark up the divine energy.
2:03:35 i burst into tears at my desk! (luckily i work from home lol) thank you for connecting me to my child self so directly. I chose my happiness: I preserved myself against all odds, and thinking of her thanking me rly hit different. I really appreciated this reading. 🌙 💕🦋
"Are you for real?" is the phrase that came to my mind when I heard you for first three minutes of pile 1 reading. Mind blowing. Spot on. I am going to continue watching. I stopped to write to you at 6.52 minute. Thank you so much. 🙏
Pile 4: I’m a Pisces, your reading of my sign’s energy was so accurate, I also feel like sometimes people don’t really favor me and see my potential and then others do find me really favorable and give me more credit than I would give to myself. Currently I’m more influenced by those that find me less capable, which would be my family. But I know that if and when I begin to work at my true passions, I’ll be able to show everyone, inevitably what my capabilities are. And I hope that time is soon, but something tells me I’ll have to wait longer. It’s just the kind of life that’s been leading me. But to be honest, I’m growing really tired of waiting. Might blow up or do something abrupt in my life soon. Much love xoxox
Lol. Pile 1. "A tarot reader told me it was okay to do it" Got me giggling madly at that last bit. Your insight is so clear and on point to where I am in this moment. I write in my journal while listening to readings sometimes and today I began writing affirmations on how amazing I am, how far I have come, and how much forgiveness and gentleness is needed when I find myself looking back at what I've left behind. I cut a lot of ties this past year. My social circle has completely changed and I did it due to my intuition telling me something was just not right. It was terrifying because I was on some level comfortable with the way things were. My relationships were like addictions. I could get a fix of whatever I needed at a particular time. For example... Share, get a boost of confidence, watch others excel around me, feel like shit because I could not do the same, share, get a boost, watch, feel... you get the picture. It never occurred to me that I was feeding a machine of my own making and I didn't know how to fill up my own cup. So I left, and yet... just last night I felt this overwhelming desire to reach out for that fix, that boost, that connection... which I know will never fulfill me. I will say this, when I turned my back and refused to do it, the desire faded quickly and I was able to get on with what I was doing. That in itself shows how far I have come and I am so proud of myself. Wanted to share ESO. Thank you for your insight and all that you do. Blessings.
Pile 4 here ✋ This is probably the most accurate reading I've had in a long time. I did have a tower moment, everything I thought I knew fell apart. In fact I was told exactly what you said "It won't happen the way you want it to". I do hate the process of the cycle. Happily I've been growing into a more secure space where I'm allowing life to flow. I totally cried when you said it could be the end of that cycle. I've been trying so hard to grow into a new space. Thank you so much for this message! ♥️ P.S. You were right, I was born on the cusp of pisces and Aries. 🔥🌊
Pile 1 here! So accurate, this is how i felt one year ago, now I'm still healing and learning how to love myself and how to work on myself. Thank you ❤️
Pile 2. Thank you so much. I quite feel this overwhelming energy in the present. I feel so emotionally poor right now and have a hard time to forgive and love myself since I beat myself up for not being able to handle my emotions earlier. Peace really is priority now for me. Thank you
Eso saying that pile 4 is difficult to read Me, being pile 4 and also having Eso as one of my fav tarot readers because her readings always hit the mark perfectly for me: 🗣️🗣️🗣️ don't worry, you're doing a wonderful job
Pile 1. I've been dealing with anxiety and depression for roughly 6, going on 7, years now. And for those 6 years I dealt with it alone because I had lost someone and only now am I reaching out for help. I often latch onto people and I'm dependant on others as well as things such as cigarettes just to get me through the week. I'll take my past self's advice and take pride in how far I've gotten.
Ok pile 4 - 2 specific events 1 from my childhood, 1 as a teen 🍄, both times goodie 2 shoes on the outside and a rebel brewing on the inside. Also all of your “embarrassing quirks/Josh’s” are all clues for me so thank you ❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏❤️ you’re on point!
First of all I want to say thank you for your reading, I picked pile number three, and word for word everything you said resonated and mirrored my life. I'm still bawling my eyes out. It feels like for the first time I'm actually been seen, I'm actually heard. I've never mattered to anybody unless I was doing something for them and it started a very young age and continues to this day. I never realized how broken I am or how weak I am portrayed by other people until I heard it come from your mouth. It's like you walked into my soul and seen everything and called it for what it was and I thank you for it. Your reading was such a blessing, and now the hardest part is to try to figure out how to get out of this cycle that I've been living my entire life and do better for my babies and be better. I always felt like the sidenote,he clown,'ol'reliable', a subhuman person in everybody else's life my life,like I never mattered. Again I want to say thank you for your beautiful words and when you cried it finally felt like I mattered to someone even though you don't know me LOL. Bless you and thank you so much again
I resonated so highly with pile 3 and as a person who has escaped the box of opression from being seen as a side character. I used to have dreams constantly about screaming and no one heard me and those dreams really became the reason i took action because i couldnt deny the truth. No one should make you feel guilty for living a life of your own. You are no one's butler or servant. This isnt an easy scenario to break out of but when you do you will realise the beauty of being seen. If not by humans at first, by the universe. You need to break free from the limiting belief that you are here to merely serve others.🌅
#3 - I'm an adult now so I can do what I want and I can defend myself. My parents are starting to get used to my rebellious side. But the pain while growing up is still there. I'm slowly healing by journaling and the help of a psychologist too. Thanks for the reading. It makes me cry 💗🙏✨
Welcome back!!! That was the most spot on reading yet. 😳🤯 (pile 1) I'm floored with how crystal clear that message was. I could see my past self and the memories of the process as it happened. Wow. Thank you.
Pile 4: Pisces Sun & Aries Venus here, you captured the contrasting energies that have existed in my life & within myself perfectly, loved your reading as always ❤️ i felt seen :)
#1 thank you so much! I couldnt know how much i can thank you for doing the reading❤😭 i decided to accept the challenges that i know i will feel down and painful. And im so proud of myself for being brave enough to come this far. May love be by your side 😊
Oh wow, just from the title alone I know this is gonna be a great reading. Thank you so much for branching out and giving us such a wide variety of readings! They're always so fun and insightful 🙏🏾❤️
Woww pile 3. This is the first time I cried so hard to a reading. I don't really cry coz of readings but wih this,I just couldn't help it. I feel like explaining how this resonated is just gonna make me cry even more so I won't do that. Also, saying that I made the right decision, that I'm as important as anyone else , I don't deserve to carry all these burdens n that my happiness matters too , thank u. Just...thank u . U don't know how much this means to me. Thank u so much
Pile 4: I'm Pisces dominant. Venus in Aries, Saturn in my 12th and Pluto on my AC. This reading did resonate, especially when you said that I've done so much growing as a person and my next life won't be such a struggle. I feel this deeply. I'm also Virgo dominant, Pisces opposite and I really feel this shows in my personality. Logic and heart meet and really offer up a very unusual mix of logic and instinct.
Pile 2 and wooow. It was crazy accurate. When you said “You are not the villain” I started balling. This is exactly was I talking about with my friend before. I feel like I’m the bad guy of the story. Thank you for encouraging to let go and actively start healing, instead of just distracting myself. I’m ready for a new beginning 🥰 Have a lovely and blessed day.
Pile 4 - My god, this was my 2nd relationship and it was sudden! I pursued it even if it's was new. And he ended it abruptly. How people see me as is also 💯, the part of being in my element is also so true. I was too optimistic about it and it hurt for a long time, still does. After this relationship, I judged everything about me because apparently I wasn't "good enough" or not "his type". And this cynical vs child energy is relevant to this day.
He just wasn’t for you if you had stayed you would have been shattered. You are for someone else, more. Deserving of you and your love. He is just one guy there is whole world full of guys 🌹💕💕💕💕
“ I don’t want kids they don’t pay rent.” Said perfectly. I’m 48 years old and never been pregnant and so grateful. Let all your commercials play even a 14 minute one and I made tea.
Pile 2- You're awesome! I was very detached from my emotions and insecure within myself in the past aka autopilot for several years. Definitely went through a lot and felt validated by those who were more interested in me physically rather than more. However, never understood that I was attracting the wrong guys until a couple of years ago when I did meet a karmic connection who triggered inner child wounds. He was a Taurus who hurt me, and the situation haunted and caused me to step back. It sparked a dark knight of the soul period where I endured other situations as well as ruminated about this for a while. However, the situation helped me to awaken and do shadow work which I am grateful for at this time. Now, I am the person I have been seeking and will recognize my future soulmate who I know I deserve and am ready for. I also see that the universe does support me and that I'm blessed. Being me all day everyday now and it feels so good.
Pile 3 was so accurate (minus having a kid) lol it’s taken me too long to finally think of myself and not continuously feeling guilty for leaving any type of friendship/relationship that doesn’t serve my inner peace & I’m so proud to say I’m happy I went through with it bcuz I’m the happiest I’ve ever been without them, at times I grieve for the the recent friendship break up I had but trusting my inner confusion about this friendship to my inner circle of ppl I trust my feelings with helped bring clarity I couldn’t see for myself & definitely these readings too bringing signs I’ve been seeing around me too it further confirms I did the right thing - let’s go pile 3 & all piles, we got this! 🥰
Pile 1, you didn't have to come for me and call me out so hard 😭 but for real, i'm so proud of how far i've come on my healing journey, thank you for the guidance
Pile 1: thank you for this message. As always you were spot on! Seems like this past version of myself was from just a few years ago but so much has changed since then.
I’m a pile 4! You said literally exactly what I needed to hear. Everything you said are things I’ve been working on and what the Universe is trying to teach me, plus gave me some more insight into new directions I need to head. My themes for the last six months have been “learning to love the waiting”and learning to live in the flow of cycles by surrendering to them and making the most of them. I giggle because I’ve watched so many of your piles in the last few days and you’ve been so on point for all of them but often say that the energy is intense or hard to read for them so I’m like OOPS SORRY TT__TT For the record, I’m a Libra rising Pisces Sun conjunct Venus and South Node, right next to Aries Mercury conjunct Saturn. Sun trine Cancer Moon. I’ve been learning with this Chiron in Aries transit repeatedly slamming my Mercury and then my Saturn how to assert myself in healthy ways and activate that retrograde Virgo Mars I have conjunct my North Node in 12. I picked this pile because of the butterfly shape of the chalcedony. You told me in a previous pile that Spirit may use butterflies and roses to speak to me, and it felt correct for this one. Thanks for your time, effort and energy! ❤️
