@@Arcoiris_ZzZ oh, I said it because in an interview by Fader, Mitski mentioned that her heart had been broken by many Sagittarians. I am a Sagittarius myself, I know that a zodiac sign doesn't define you
"I fell in love with a war nobody told me had ended" I think this is talking about toxic responses to trauma. When you go through something traumatic, you need ways to cope. Some people cope by being stuck in the memory, and they feel better when they obsess over it
"It's just that I fell in love with a war Nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around Every night, just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go" best part
You're growing tired of me You love me so hard and I still can't sleep You're growing tired of me And all the things I don't talk about Sorry I don't want your touch It's not that I don't want you Sorry I can't take your touch It's just that I fell in love with a war Nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around Every night, just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go Sorry I don't want your touch It's not that I don't want you Sorry I can't take your touch There's a hole that you fill You fill, you fill But it's just that I fell in love with a war And nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around Every night, just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go Just to watch it glow
THEORY !! its about an abuse/manipulative relationship. "i fell in love with a war and nobody told me it ended" represents a relationship thats obviously too far gone, yet the one being abused cant tell at all since they are so wrapped up in it. "sorry i dont want your touch, it doesnt mean that i dont want you" is the one being abused not wanting to be touched but they dont feel like they can be stern, apologizing for not liking it and trying to stay on the abuser's good side by saying that it doesnt mean they dont want them. "And it left a pearl in my hand and i roll it around every night just to watch it glow. Every night baby, thats where i go" the pearl is traumatic memories and so the one being abused stays up all night reliving the moments of abuse. They try to explain it to their abuser but try to make it seem as if its positive, claiming it glows. And they never get out, forever stuck in this cycle, apologizing and twisting their own words to please their abuser
And the “there’s a hole that you fill” part is the victim being attached to the abuser because that usually happens in abuse I’ve relationships where the victim becomes dependant on the abuser for “love” or intimacy.
*To everyone listening to this song:* *Are you okay dear? Is everything alright? Do you need to talk to about it? I’m here for you, don’t worry. It’ll get better, I promise*
lyrics: You're growing tired of me You love me so hard and I still can't sleep You're growing tired of me And all the things I don't talk about Sorry, I don't want your touch It's not that I don't want you Sorry, I can't take your touch It's just that I fell in love with a war Nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around every night Just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go Sorry, I don't want your touch It's not that I don't want you Sorry, I can't take your touch There's a hole that you fill You fill, you fill But it's just that I fell in love with a war And nobody told me it ended And it left a pearl in my head And I roll it around every night Just to watch it glow Every night, baby, that's where I go Just to watch it glow
Ok for years I have been looking for a song I kin to then I stumbled across this song and I realized all my God why is this my life lol when ever i listen to this song I feel like there were more people in the world like me and it makes me feel better about my anxiety and depression thank u
“it’s just that i fell in love with a war” for me the war is what i thought my life would be like, happy but that quickly fell apart and yet i haven’t allowed myself time to process it. “sorry i can’t take your touch” i don’t like when people physically comfort me like ever (with like 2 exceptions) and don’t like people just get physical towards me. “and it left a pearl in my head … every night baby that’s where i go” i revist the unexplored trauma and even the good memories that are now stained at night often if left in silence it’s hard as i subconsciously suppress it but i still do. also pearls have a special meaning to me. and that’s what i love about mitski’s songs; everyone can relate by interpreting it to themselves ❤
