if anyone is wondering, the japanese in the chorus (胸がはち切れそうで) is pronounced as “Mune ga hachikire-sōde” and means “my chest seems like it is going to burst” ♡
“And I was so young when I behaved twenty five, yet now I find I’ve grown into a tall child” This is on of the most relatable lyrics I’ve heard in a long time
“please don’t say you love me” hits so hard. i’ve always struggled with a crippling low self esteem, and i’ve always had a people-pleasing complex. i’m always trying to please people for validation but whenever anyone says they love me or appreciate me i want to push them away. i want someone to love me but i feel guilty receiving love because i feel i’m not worthy. it’s a constant push and pull. edit: i got into typology a bit ago and looking back on this comment, i realize it’s a dead giveaway that i’m an insecure enneagram 2
I love the hidden symbolism in this song "The night breeze carries, something sweet. A peach tree" A peach tree symbolizes longevity meaning long and healthy life. This song is about the person being afraid of being loved. "Please hurry leave me I can't breathe please don't say you love me. My heart is about to burst" I love Mitski's songwriting so much could talk about this for hours
Reminds me of a song I wrote where it says "I'm afraid of what I can't control is like a paralysis demon, bury my heart 6ft into yours, " it's actually inspired by washing machine heart. But the fear of love is like this one.
@@NikitaVerryneyou should keep writing. It can be just for fun or a career but, I recommend you continue. From a fellow writer, ( not music but, like stories ).
When you refuse to receive any love or affection from them anymore because you feel guilty that they’re treating you with so much kindness when in reality you’re not good of a person as they think you are, are what these lyrics mean to me. This one hits so much.
I'm afraid the person i like might be feeling this. And i'm just questioning if i should leave her, though i just found this music for her and i love her so much ❤😢💙 idk how to help her
I don't think you ever really stop loving someone. Maybe not romantically, but I still love even the people that I'm not friends with anymore. Love can change and develop.
i’d rather have them say it once and mean it then say it multiple times with no meaning , but i just crave validation so bad because of all the things i didnt recieve as a child
This is such a comfort song, especially the part that’s like “ so please hurry, leave me, I can’t breathe, please don’t say you love me” and it hurts so much bc I know they will all leave soon. They’re slowly getting bored of me. And I’m not ready. I should stop getting attached to people all together. I hate it when people say they care and that they love me but they never do. I’ll never believe anyone loves me.
Just recently got diagnosed with Avoidant Personality Disorder and I went back to listen this song. The lyrics “So please hurry leave me. I can’t breathe. please don’t say you love me.” relates to me so much because I just feel like I don’t deserve love. I hate how I look, I feel ugly and I just hate myself. So I’m hopeful no one begins to fall in love with me because I WILL push them away and I don’t want to hurt them. I just can’t help but push people away and it’s hard to stop.
"Please hurry leave me I can't breathe, please don't say you love me" As someone who's been abandoned a lot and had to burn bridges with people I still love, that hits home because thanks to my past I'm scared of connecting with people and getting close to them, expecting them to just leave anyway. It hurts worst if they say they love me while they leave.
me too, i become friends with people & always expect them to leave & don’t end caring. im tired of feeling like all my relationships are not worth anything bc they’ll leave me. a boy i loved use to leave me all the time till one point he never returned. it doesn’t affect me when people leave but it does hurt a little bc it just proves your right. people say “people come & go” yet those are the people who leave you.. i don’t understand
it hurts so much when you were forced to mature and "act" like a woman when you were so young. this song is so important to me, makes me cry about the childhood i never got to have :/
@@cherimoya3601 i started doing that when i was 7, took care of a brat who gets me in trouble, everything she does, everytime she gets hurt, even though im not there, its always my fault
@@mitskislovechild im so sorry about that! im still young and my mom expects me to be like her when she was younger; cleaning, mature, taking care of her younger siblings but in reality it breaks my heart that she has such high expectations of me. just let me live my life in peace who knows maybe i dont want children or to get married in the future. everytime my youngest sister cries its all on me and my other siblings, she calls us “disgraces” when we do the smallest thing wrong and compares us to her when she was young and besides it will only stress me out even more taking care of my stubborn sister - but with that aside i hope youre doing well you deserve to be happy :)
@@cherimoya3601 this is so true, I was 14 when I had to take care of my siblings after my parents had a pretty bad divorce. I'm 18 now yet I feel so old like I never got a childhood.
This song always make me tear up. Especially at the "please don't say you love me" part. It makes me think of my mom. She's so bittersweet. One moment she's telling me about how she loves me and the next she says I'm an entitled brat who doesn't know anything and yells at me and say so many horrible things. But then after that she goes right back to saying she loves me as if she never said any of the things before. And because of her I had to grow up and mature to fast to survive. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have a normal childhood.
“To my dear Historia As I write this, Reiner is standing at my side. He knows this is a love letter but he’s still sneaking peaks. Honestly- it’s no wonder the creeps still single. That said... he did give me his word that he’d deliver this letter to you. He says he owes me- for the time I doubled back to save him. I’m sorry about then. I never would have imagined myself choosing those two... Over you. I’m going to die soon... but- I’ll die without regrets. Or that’s what I’d like to say. Truth is..... I do have one ... it’s that I never got to marry you. -With love Ymir”
Every time I listen to mitski, I think of unsuccesful long distance love. And I surrender myself to the warm arms of melancholy and rage because ı hate a to be losser
I always get chills, no matter how often i listen to her songs.. Its so weird but alsi amazing.. i listened to wachine machine heart and francise forever for 6 days in a row and got chills everytime, i never had that before with any song.
I've referenced both this song and that line from John Mulaney when talking to my little sister cause she's 2 years younger than me and 5'9", she is a tall child who sleeps not at all
"lately i've been crying like a tall child." "so please, hurry, leave me, i cant breathe." "please don't say you love me." "and i was so young when I behaved 25 yet now i found I've grown into a tall child." god those struck me
"I've grown into a tall child" when I was young I acted like a adult and people would say I was to mature and they praised me for it. I needed the praise that they gave me so I acted so old and I was never able to be a kid. Even if I tried to act like a kid with the time I still have they tell me I need to grown up and to stop acting like a kid. I'm still a kid please let me act like one.
same.im 10 and have been praised for being mature and different from the other kids,but when i act my age i need to "grow up" and that im "not a kid" and it makes me fucking angry.i used to be a people pleaser but now i just do whatever the hell i want,and nobody can say anything about it
@@user-cu3mf6gi2r I'm glad your out of the people pleaser mindset. I won't say my age, but my age is similar to yours, and I'm so glad you've gotten away from the mindset of a people pleaser. Just remember to try have fun. You only get one childhood, and the world makes it difficult to make the most of it, the people you surround yourself with may be bad for your health in the long run. What I'm trying to say is know who you should let go if you can tell that they're hurting you, and try enjoy your childhood, because when you get older, people won't let you be a child. I hope you have a good day! :D
'I was so young when I behaved twenty-five yet now I find I've grown into a tall child' when I was little I was mature, I was responsible and smart. now I feel like a child, and I am one but I thought I would act like an adult now. but instead, I'm having my childhood too late and now im a tall baby
2:14 TW this part hits really hard as someone who was SA as a young person. it's hard to truly act your age after doing something meant for people much older and more mature than you. especially when you didn't want to.
currently balling my eyes out, listening to this for the first time , and knowing nobody gives a shit about me and im nobodys first option, i treat everyone as a close friend and im just their side character :(
this is the relationship I have with my mom I was forced to grow up so young because of her, the abuse, the shifted responsibilities. I raised her sons, I raised myself. I feels so old, and I'm not even out of highschool. I have all of the instincts of a child, I want to cry and scream and throw tantrums, I feel entitled to comfort and pity and my mother's arms around me, while feeling too old to be allowed those basic things. I was only told she loved me when she felt guilty, guilty because she hurt me, guilty that she took her problems out on me, guilty that she was a bad mom. I hate when people say they love me cause all I can think of, is the pain and hurt that came before it all my life. I just want to escape, I want to be free. but if she told me to jump I would, if she told me to stay I would. I need her to leave me behind, I need her to leave. because I can't, she raised me to be endowed to her, and she still holds power over me. I need her to let go. it's exhausting, I'm in the ledge and it's her decision where I go.
your mother failed to give you the love you deserve, I'm so sorry. things will get better i promise. you deserve love and affection and being cared for, even though you may not feel like you deserve good things, always keep in mind you're an important human being. i cannot emphasis this enough but 👏you deserve to be happy👏 i pray that you get some financial stability and get out of the toxic clutches of your mom. you will find happiness soon! keep being strong, im rooting for you
I completely feel you, to the control she has onto me and especially on the part where they finally show "appreciation" when they feel guilt and realize what they've done. It makes me not want to believe in love anymore or at least I never believe them. I want to thank you for sharing your story, you said what was tangled in my mind, now in words. I am rooting for our love and to reach our true selves. Once placing more value in your being, like simple things of clothes you enjoy, things that look cool to you, your opinions, things you enjoy in yourself, and ofc music :) etc... your mom will no longer hold a big place in there anymore, you feel me? I'm rooting for you lovely person
Lmao this song is literally the only thing I have left Edit: I’d like to thank everyone for the kind words. I wasn’t doing so well when I commented this, but things are starting to look up ^^
"and I don't wanna go home yet, let me walk to the top of the big night sky" I relate to this line a lot. I often find myself daydreaming about my future and what I could accomplish, yet I always get shadowed down by the crushing realities of my life and the environment surronding it. To me, this line means not wanting to be disturbed or go back to reality, but wanting to be able to dream about the evergoing and stellar possibilites of your future/imagination, even if it's just for a little bit more.
the way i relate to the song is a lot different from other’s. when she says, “so please, hurry, leave me, i can’t breathe, please don’t say you love me” it reminds me of how at times, i just want them to leave me so i don’t get even more attached. when she says, “tell me “don’t do i can crawl back in” it reminds me of when i try to leave then unintentionally and they come to me and ask why i’m distancing from them and they tell me they miss me or care about me. when they say that, i get even more attached because i know that they “actually care”
@@hollisrut.8759 It is so exhausting to be anxious all the time. Something totally involuntary shouldn’t take so much physical effort. I hope you’re doing alright
@@gretamay9150 sorry for the late reply but thank you. I'm getting better luckily, I've had a lot of great days where I feel more like myself and I barely feel half as anxious as I did a couple months ago. So, to anyone seeing this, it does get better. You worse days feel much worse than they are. And its hard to look bad at good days and see anything but the negative. But I'm slowly lifting the veil of gloominess that was put on every day, and I try to stay positive and keep fighting everyday. Get help if you need, take meds if you need, but most importantly, dont avoid the things you fear the most. If you are like me who is terrified of getting sick and having something wrong with me, to to that loud, crowded, food filled event with high expectations. You will most likely have fun. If you struggle with social situation, go up and talk to the other person awkwardly standing by themselves. There is always someone else who feels just as left out. Don't stay at home just bc you are afraid of having a bad time. You will probably have a blast. If you are afraid of having a panic attack, go on that long road trip where you are driving anyways. If you have panic attacks frequently, let the person who's sitting in the passengers seat next to you ways you calm down or how you act when you are having one. And say you have one. Just pull over. If people laugh or get mad at you for somsthing you can't control, then they are shit heads, and you shouldn't worry about what they think bc they are either ignorant or won't try to understand in the first place. And I realize it's easier said then done. But after months of trying to 'cure my anxiety', Ive realized facing the fact that I might get sick, I might have an anxiety attack, I might not have a good time, but going anyways is the best way to take control of it.
mitski is the first artist that i go to whenever im upset about something. she just gets in my feels. most of the time i cant even relate to her lyrics, i just find her voice comforting
due to personal reasons i would like my friends to stop caring abt me as it’s incredibly inconvenient to my plans on destroying myself n also i do not deserve their love ❤️
@@m9rcelin3 i'm sorry to hear that :( i'd love to help, to erase bpd from everyone bc we all deserve a healthy and happy life without struggling, but all i can say is that you are not alone and you've got this.
i remember late evenings when my mom would blow dry my hair whilst i sat and tried to hear over the hairdryer to watch tv with my brother, and im sad cuz everyones getting old
I used to watch my older sister draw anime in her room. We were so close but then she moved away and we kind of grew apart and that makes me really sad lmao
This song makes me feel so,so much. My parents always hit,yell,throw stuff,tell me to starve myself and kill myself,threaten to throw me out over simple things and they just think they can make all the pain they caused me just by saying “I only did that because I want the best for you” “I love you”. I can’t do this anymore
Honey, I'm so sorry. But please don't listen to them. They're manipulative and toxic. Please leave them as soon as possible. If you need to, record them and show your local firemen or police department, or some local abuse rescue organization to help you, or if you, move with another family member or friend. I wish you the best, and if you want or need to talk to someone, I'm here. Stay strong, and I wish you the best luv ❤
this song.. i can feel it. i can understand it completely. i’d rather push people away than hurt myself more keeping them with me. “please don’t say you love me.” i can see myself saying those exact words. i love this song. but it pains me how much i can relate.
"so please hurry leave me, i can't breath, please don't say you love me" no i don't have a low self-esteem, i love myself, i love who i am right now. i also love the idea of romance, dream about it all day long. imagine being in a relationship, look at each other, eyes full of honey and kisses sweet like apple pie, little promises and be together till dawn. i love all parts of it. but i guess romance isn't for all of us. every time people say they have feelings for me, i got scared and run away from them. i also want to be in love, but i'm not ready to take risks, leaving something you love might be painful, so why don't we cut it off in the first place?
I'm in the same boat here with ya Sometimes you are just hurt and you don't want to add to it. taking a risk is scary, sometimes you can do it but other times you just need time to get better.
Two years ago I fell in love and let myself be loved back, taking in the warm feelings of first love, but also the freezing anguish of it all, the stress of hurting and being hurt. A year ago he broke my heart to pieces but oh god does it feel good now. To know I've loved and accepted being loved back, that I've survived all that was so terrifying. It'd have been easier to cut it from the start, but now I'm not afraid anymore and looking forward to the next thing. I hope all who stand alone in self preservation will find courage in letting go, whether embraced back or left temporarily broken, may they feel as alive and brave as I do now
“so please hurry leave me i can’t breathe, please don’t say you love me” part is so accurate because i always think that i found someone that understands me and loves me with all of my insecurities and i am getting attached with them and then suddenly they acting cold like ice…please leave me before i attached to you, i don’t want to get hurt again and don’t say you love me just because make me feel good
Scrolling trough this comment section, I've seen that everybody relates to these lyrics differently. To me the " please don't love me" is- pushing people away because I don't think I'll ever be loveable. I've always felt like no one will ever see me as the person who will ever be loved, neither me and I can't accept the fact that someone will "love" me. I just can't trust people who say that they love me
Pov: you want to be loved so much but you are also extremely scared of love and loving back (because of self esteem issues or trauma) Aka Pov: you are me
People always tell me "say something positive to yourself, say I love you to yourself, compliment yourself! Be proud to yourself!" But when I do that, I breakdown instead. Knowing no one will say these things to me. I'm so alone until I should be the one who said these things to myself. Everytime I said "I love you" to myself looking at the mirror, I just reading my own eyes and knowing it was a lie.
im barely at 1:17 and can’t keep listening to this. i’ve been holding in my tears all day and letting them out when no ones looking and i cant fall apart rn
This song got me sobbing and holding my chest because I am suddenly feeling weird ass pains just because I am being reminded of something I wanted to forget so badly
you dont know how to love and be loved, you don't know how to not lose yourself. love for you is terrifying in how it overwhelms and overpowers, and that's why you push it away because you don't trust yourself to hold something you never had, this delicate thing your hands were never taught to carry.......
The black hole Of the Window Where you sleep The night breeze Carries Something sweet A peach tree Wild women don't get the blues But I find that Lately I've been crying like a Tall child So please hurry leave me I can't breathe Please don't say you love me Mune ga hachikire-sōde One word from you and I would Jump off of this Ledge I'm on Baby Tell me "don't" So I can Crawl back in And I was so young When I behaved Twenty five Yet now I find I've grown into A tall child And I don't wanna go home yet Let me walk to the top of the big night sky Please hurry leave me I can't breathe … Please don't say you love me Mune ga hachikire-sōde One word from you and I would Jump off of this Ledge I'm on Baby Tell me "don't" So I can Crawl back in One word from you and I would Jump off of this Ledge I'm on Baby Tell me "don't" So I can Crawl back in
This song was made for my son. When I was very young I had him and I know that his father‘s family could raise him and give him more than I ever could. Now he’s in college how I regret the day that I gave him to them but I’m so thankful that he had has an amazing life thank you Mitski for this! Your music helps me heal 💛💛
This song hurts. After being hurt by people I was close too, I was left with a really bad self esteem, and it made it incredibly hard for me to talk to and make new friends. I constantly feel left out, and don’t often make conversation thinking I’m going to say something no one will find funny, and be alone again. I act too mature for my age and now I’ve realised now that all of that time spent on the internet, effected by other’s views, has really messed with me. It’s hard getting nervous about every little thing, and gradually realising that you don’t have any friends, and maybe they did actually effect you more than you want to admit they did.
This goes to my love. Please leave me and let me go if you have to, I want to love you forever, but I hate when you tell me "I love you" because I know you do, and no one should love me, but I hate it so much I love it. You make me so happy. And if I do something to ruin it. Leave me. Just go. I'm not worth your time. But you know what. I love you so much you don't even know how much.
Lyrics The black hole Of the Window Where you sleep The night breeze Carries Something sweet A peach tree Wild women don't get the blues But I find that Lately I've been crying like a Tall child So please hurry leave me I can't breathe Please don't say you love me Mune ga hachikire-sōde One word from you and I would Jump off of this Ledge I'm on Baby Tell me "don't" So I can Crawl back in And I was so young When I behaved Twenty five Yet now I find I've grown into A tall child And I don't wanna go home yet Let me walk to the top of the big night sky Please hurry leave me I can't breathe Please don't say you love me Mune ga hachikire-sōde One word from you and I would Jump off of this Ledge I'm on Baby Tell me "don't" So I can Crawl back in One word from you and I would Jump off of this Ledge I'm on Baby Tell me "don't" So I can Crawl back in
I hope I'm not the only one that wants to cry when someone tells them "I love you" I don't know why I feel so bad with those words, I'm supposed to feel something positive, not negative :/
being myself i get very overwhelmed by beautiful things very easily, sometimes to the point where i have to come inside because i find trees too pretty?? and holy cow this song is killing me
“Please don’t say you love me” man. I’ve never related to a lyric more. I don’t want people to say they love me because if they do I’ll start to care about them and now we’re stuck in a situation where if one of us ends up leaving - in one way or another - the other will break. I don’t want the people i care about, to be sad. I might not be there and okay one hundred percent of the time, but that doesn’t mean they have to suffer on my behalf. I don’t want them to. It makes me feel like a burden because I’m causing their suffering and there’s nothing I can do about that since they care. I don’t want them to care because they could get hurt but at the same time i need people to care and I want them to care. It always makes me so sad and happy whenever it dawns on me that someone cares about me, even if only a little. It always ends up surprising me :)
“tell me “don’t” so I can crawl back in” hits so hard because recently. I feel like I’ve been disappointing her so much with how I am. I have so many problems and I’m so negative. She even confessed that her mood has been a bit down recently because of my own negativity and I’m trying so hard to be better. Nothing has been working and I feel so bad for being myself. I want to be better. And I’ve honestly just thought that maybe not being around her would help her. I just don’t know anymore and it hurts that I’m doing this to her even when all I want is for her to be happy. I just don’t want to lose her. She is so important to me but it feels like me being with her is such a drag. I don’t want to lose her. But it seems like me being away from her takes away the negativity from her too… Just please…I hope…I hope so much that she doesn’t let me push her away because my first instinct right now IS to push her away…
I was in a position of 'her' . I tried my best to give her space and even held myself back from showing any feelings(that I cared and loved her)that I thought would put so much weight on her,but I was pushed away,still. Now I have to accept that we just didn't work,but I still hope that we have another chance in the future. And how is everything now? Are you okay?
i used to doing things on my own and suffering on my own, so i push push people away. i like being there for them, but i don’t want them there for me because i know i’ll get attached and if i do i don’t know what i’d do if they left me
i hope everyone here knows that it gets better. i promise. i always thought things never would too. it's hard getting through the shitty part but the payoff it always worth it
@@deedeenana3 yeah im here because my fp treats me like their partner and flirts w me a lot even tho we have barley known eachother for that long, but im romantically attracted to someone else (im pretty sure) and its so hard to sort all this out 😭😭 sorry for dumping this on you, i just wanted to say i relate!!
“Please don’t say you love me” I personally feel like this song is about being afraid of love. falling in love seems so nice and it’s always portrayed as something positive on shows and such, but in reality it isn’t so positive. I mean you open up yourself and it’s so easy to get hurt, and you never know if they actually love you 🥲
@@morganjoines9990 i have some recs :) some bands/artists that remind me of mitski's music are Mars Argo, Beach House, Men I Trust, Cocteau Twins and maybe She Is Summer as well?? Idk if their music sounds alike tbh but they got great songs!
this song makes me bawl. it didn’t before but now it does. this is because a few days ago, i decided to search for the news case on my cousin who a few years ago, committed su*cide. i miss her. when i read the news case it was the first time i found out the full story as to why she did it, my mum never told me. i think of her mum when listening to this song, the pain she must feel knowing her daughter left this world because she was dealing with so much. it makes me feel guilty for wanting to kill myself. i want to die but i don’t want to make my family have to deal with this pain all over again, it hurts so much knowing you could’ve helped that person but they didn’t tell anyone and now you have to live with the fact they’re gone. it’s almost like an anger, i feel angry about the people who made her do it, i hope their lives are awful. the lyrics make me think of her especially “one word from you and i would jump off of this ledge im on baby” she committed by jumping out of window. a boy had r/ped her and recorded it. she was stood on the window ledge in her flat telling him to delete the video or she’ll jump. she jumped, she was only 13. rest in peace, chevenea 💕🕊 you’ll never be forgotten, i love you so much.
the line “please hurry leave me i can’t breathe,please don’t say you love me” reminds me of my almost-relationship with this one boy,he was tall and strong but it was like he let his walls tumble with me and i think he truly loved me i’m sure of it, by the way he gazed into my eyes,by the way he took care of me but when he told me I panicked and isolated myself from him what i wouldn’t do to have that moment back. I didn’t want to get attached to him,I didn’t want him to leave me,so I did it first and I regret it. As stupid as it may sound this song is the only thing I have left.
Me too, I think its because I've realized that I'm growing up and i can't stop. And that the things i thought were normal and ok actually werent, but I hope it gets better
