mitski - washing machine heart (slowed & reverb)༄ 

『lyrics』 ↳ Toss your dirty shoes in my washing machine heart Baby, bang it up inside I'm not wearing my usual lipstick I thought maybe we would kiss tonight Baby will you kiss me already and Toss your dirty shoes in my washing machine heart Baby, bang it up inside Baby, though I've closed my eyes I know who you pretend I am I know who you pretend I am But do mi ti Why not me? Why not me? Do mi ti Why not me? Why not me? Do mi ti Why not me? Why not me?

washing machine heart is everything

the "why not me" part is probably the most heartbreaking part of this song (for me). because ive been repeating those words ever since i lost my grandma. my everything. my mother figure. the one who protects me from my own mother. why did i have to lose her so early.

this song hits hard when you know people are using you as a therapist yet pretend they dont know you and ignore you in real life. people fucking suck.

This song hurts so bad especially when ur always the second choice

why do i only like slowed music, and crying for them for hours

This song is magnificent, it hurts that it lasts so little

my depression loves this music

I can go on and on about how much I love this song: ~ 0:44 my favorite part. ~ 1:00 love the little guitar part. ~ 1:15 the second " I know who you pretend I am " sends chills. ~ 1:25 so relatable. ~ 1:51 love the " do mi ti " part. ~ 2:08 from here onto the end of the video is just amazing. :)

This song is so, so lonely. It's like a bang in your heart.

This is to the straight girl who I fell inlove with

the "why not me" part literally described how jealousy feels like

This song hits different when you have a history of emotionally manipulative relationships because people take advantage of your empathy

“I know who you pretended I am.” Those hit hard, a little too hard because I think of my science teacher as a mom because my mom was never really there. She always brings the attention to herself. She never says “I’m proud of you” for doing something. I can figure out something in science and my science teacher will say “I’m so proud of you:D”

this song hits different when you're so touch deprived you fall in love with almost every fictional character you come across and your brain processes them as a real person so the pain of you not being able to physically interact with them is twice as impactful

i love how minimal yet effective the lyrics are and how complex the instrumental is, truly beautiful how you can pick up every single tiny little detail of the instrumental. incredible work of art

If you’re here you have good music taste 🖐😩

1:05 :)

This song hits hard when you remember how every single friendship ended and how the "promise" didn't last forever

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'I know who u pretend I am' always hits so hard for me because I knew I wasn't their first choice but they made me feel that way and now they have their first choice back ive been disregarded :(

Can someone loop the "I know who you pretend that I am"?? She only said it once throughout her whole song even though it's still a banger

the "why not me" hurts so good

to the one reading this comment. i know you are so tired, so angry, and so sad. so let it all out. use me. scream at me as if i am the one who hurt you. express your emotions. i am hear to listen. i am right here to help you. look at me as if i am your dream mother, dream father, dream sister/brother/sibling, or your dream friend. i know you must be so fed up, so let it all out. *i know who you pretend i am.*

i’m always so jealous of supportive mothers in movies/shows because i don’t have the greatest relationship with my mom so “i know who you pretend i am” hurts a lot

I fell in love with the song

this reminds me all the times i have been rejected,honestly mitski is so underrated.

Now this is how you pitch a song

If you hear this song on a plane, it's game over...

WHY DO I LOVE THIS

People that slow these types of songs just make life a vibe.

this song makes me think of how I used to be in a trio friend group, I couldn’t help but think/know that they picked each other over me. i always felt left out.

I listen to this song on repeat every day because its a really good song

To the person who read this, It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to loose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain trough your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you trough all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe you heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but dont your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it, when you don’t feel like belonging than build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see others stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in there life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way than you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you than don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart than I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general than I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic.Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer,I want you here. I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you a song as your friend. “Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you. In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here. I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay? Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :) have a good day and great years. I love you so much and am so proud of you, I hope you will remember my words- becho, the stranger that cares more about you than anything :)

The “I know who you pretend I am” part hits hard for me since I see one of my older cousins as a big brother sibling since I don’t have any siblings and he’s always there for me he’s always nice to me he doesn’t make me feel bad about myself and he laughs at all my stupid jokes and stories and doesn’t make fun of me at all for the stuff I like and is supportive of everything I do especially after I came out as lgbtq he teases me sometimes in a joking way but knows what not to joke about and what not to he makes me feel like someone actually cares about me

This is my new comfort song

Survivors: 0 deaths: 200 cause: engine failure

One of the world's greatest songs

i laid on the flower and cried for an hour, hugging my pillows, and listening to this. what he did yesterday was unacceptable. philza is my dad now

This is so much better than the original.

this vibe-------

this is what it feels like to see the person you love love another

The “I know who you pretend I am” and “why not me” are the best parts

The amount of times i came back to this video is crazy.

This song>

I can not take it anymore..

this is one of the very few songs in which the off-tone singing makes it 10x better

my obsession with this song is unhealthy.

2 years later and this is still my most viewed video on RU-vid this version of the song is literally perfect for ever grateful to you for making this

this song is jus ✨perfect✨ i cant cope.

Its my breakdown and I get to choose the music

my fave song now 🙇‍♀️

This song hits different when you have ptsd for your family acting like your perfect. Though it isn’t true so you try so you try to get help but, you spiral into a hole of every friend you know no believing you and calling you an attention seeker. You know?

I can't keep myself from crying everytime i hear the "why not me?" part. that part connects to me because my whole family is transphobic and unsupportive of me. i see other people have supportive families and i always think "why not me?" it's not fair.

I've been listening to this ever since my friend replaced me and spread gossips about me, and it has become my therapy 🥰

FINALLY (:

I'm not gonna listen to this on a plane.

This is what i always hear in those airplane crash videos

This is literally my favourite song and favourite version of it right now

this song is freaking amazing.

1:05 and 2:04 are my favs

Sad thought: this song describes my grandmas love life through and through. I’m writing a book about her :(

Bro I literally cried for no reason while listening to this

The “why not me” part hits hard cause my best friend for 9 years ditched me for another girl that she has know for less than a year and I would always be her second choice for every thing it got so toxic that I am no longer talking or even looking at her

This song hits you hard, especially if you are on a flight

1:20 literally so relatable.

Am I the only one who just cries while listening to this ✋😭

I don't know why but everytime i hear this song i feel like crying

I love this song so much! Mitski has such a relaxing and unique voice which somehow attracts us and her songs hits us so hard

This song hurts so bad especially when life isnt taking you somewhere and you are depressed

Plane crash song✈️

"Why not me" this is the part I cried the most, it reminds me about My friend who I've been with since childhood just started keeping distance and he moved on with his new friends leaving me alone. The only time we were together was when he needed me like I'm a choice. I don't even know what I've done for him to do something like this. Whenever I tell something that's is very important or any urgent matters he will just say "whatever" or ignore it. This is not the same expression he gives to his friends while they are in a similar situation. He comforts them, hug them or at least listens. Sorry for making this as a venting corner. If you want to Vent or rant about something, please don't hesitate, it will make you feel lot better and there might be someone who will comfort you. 💙 Edit- I moved on, even tho I still have memories with him. I made some friends (online and irl) myself and now they treat me like a good friend.

1:04 is the most soothing and calm part 💚

1:05 I can relate to this part but in a different way. I relate to the "I know who you pretend I am" part, due to always being a mom to my little sister. Hell, my little sister has called me "Mom" on several occasions. It breaks my heart everytime she does that.

my new favorite song 😫

This song is a vibe

This deserved to go viral

“Why not me?” part hits different for me since I love the person for so long even though he is with someone else.

“why not me” hits hard.

this song hits different when you think you’ve found the one and even though you loved them they left you :-(

i love this song

this song literally hits so hard. i always try so hard to be accepted i wish i could just be that easy going happy girl who everyone likes. i wish i didn’t fucking super analyse every single sentence before saying it, i wish i wasn’t the weakest link of every friend group, i wish i was the one who everyone in the friend group likes, i wish i wasn’t the one who never understands the inside jokes. why can’t i be that girl? why do i have to be the one who sits around awkwardly and feels bad cuz i don’t understand what my “friends” are talking about because i’m not close enough apparently to be told any of that, why do i have to be the one who doesn’t get invited when they go out. why can’t i be the one who organises the plans and everyone wants to go out with? it sucks so bad cuz i’m always there for everyone but whenever it’s my turn to vent they change the subject or just don’t listen to me :/ i hate this sm

2:02 my moment ✨💫

This is so underrated

ok but like MITSKI >>>>>

This song hits different.

I love this so much. I listen to it all the time. so good.

Just came to this one because the original is too short and I want it to last longer

this song is one of my favorites

It’s always the slow reverb songs that makes Me get in my feelings👀

you know you're fucked when you hear this on an airplane

This is my new favorite song, I just cant describe how I feel about it.

I left a group on twitter because I was neglecting my studies and "my so-called friends" replaced me in less than 1 week with a new girl (who coincidentally has the same name as me). And there are days when I tried to communicate with them but they don't remember who I am or they just ignore me. The "why not me" feels so ...

WHEN IT SAYS "baby tho ive closed my eyes" OMGHSHFJSH LIKE THATS JUST SO OMG PURR MY HEART. < 3

0:40 VOLUME UP EVERYONE

When you fall in love with them but they are straight. Pain

no matter how hard i try, nobody will ever choose me. everyone will go for the other option and i just get left there, deserted and abandoned. it's funny, since i'm always there for everyone around me. i give up things i have, just to please others, yet it is never returned back to me. this song is a must in my life.

can't stop playing this song

God i love it,thanks

1:58 the why in this verse scratches deep in my brain