I had this song on repeat in the car for months and haven't listened to it in a while.. been having a really bad few months and honestly i just started listening to music again.. became so depressed i couldn't even listen to music it's really hard to explain or even understand myself not even being able to try to process my grief in that way... one of our 2 dogs Molly died of cancer about 6 months ago.. she lasted about 6 months and at the time i lived by myself and had both of the dogs and having to see her whither away broke my heart in a way that i can't explain. Worse than any death in the family i have been through.. any breakup.. i still can't say her name out loud without breaking down and my mom can't either. we have our other dog still and he is old.. we thought he would pass before her she was always so vibrant and full of energy and hilarious. It came to whether we should go ahead and have her put down or have her pass away comfortably in bed.. with me.. and that's what happened. We kept her as comfortable as possible with her medications and she ate and still had some energy and i thought maybe she was getting better or something and then i woke up one morning and felt her on my leg as always. She loved to be under the covers. I went around and did some things around the apartment and i pulled up the covers to take her outside and she wasn't moving.. i instantly broke down and tried to call my mom and she wasn't answering.. so i called my grandfather who has 2 dogs.. one of which also had a tumor and the only way to stop it was to amputate her leg.. and they did. I checked every single day to see how she was doing and how he was doing.. and so i thought that he would be a little bit caring not like his usual asshole self and i text him she was gone and he just said like.."sorry to hear that" which may sound to some like it means something but i could tell he didn't give a shit so i was like really??? if it was the other way around and i acted so nonchalant you would never speak to me again and he said "fuck you you're being an asshole." ive barely spoken to him since then and lost all respect for who was the only male figure i have ever had in my life. I am just now able to listen to music again. I had to stop listening to this song because it just made me upset not knowing what day or week or month she would pass away.. i know the song isn't about that but the emotion it makes me feel just brings that up for me.. so now i am able to listen to music again and of course this is a song that i listen to every day in my mix. My main point was he sounds freaking awesome live and has an amazing voice. I could tell that from listening to his songs that he was probably pretty good live too but even better than i thought.. sorry for the sad story but that is just what my fingers ended up wanting to talk about. I guess i still haven't fully gotten over it.. it's crazy to me how God allows possums to live like 30 years.. turtles like 100 years in some cases.. but a dog is lucky to have 12.. it makes me question. She was a perfect innocent walking, barking, embodiment of pure love and so what give her a tumor that's the most aggressive type .. humans .. fine . . we suck.. but wtf is the point of giving animals illnesses.. ??? they didnt sin.. they do nothing wrong.. punish them too right?? so loving.
Is Benjamin Burnley flattered or pissed about this band? Serious question I juat heard them for the first time, really good sens of melody and sound great live.
