my experience with ego death | your identity creates your reality 

I love the Four Agreements and will probable reread soon! It really resonated when you talked about how you could see yourself for who you are and you couldn’t be that person anymore I 💯 percent get it and I’m going through that now! I do not want take my trauma with me the rest of my life and I don’t want it to shape me. I’m starting from scratch

i have experienced my ego death last year as well after being in a pretty dark phase of my life. to me it felt as if i had been a robot & was just merely existing. the hardest part about my identity shift was to realize that it has been me who brought me "there" and only i can get myself out. like you said it does not work with the old beliefs. the amazing thing is we have the capacity to change at any given moment. if you decide to not be the past version, you can simply let it go. anyways, you made some really good points!

It could never be us too, sometimes we forget completly who we really are or we mistake it and create other sub egos, it indeed like you said worsen the more we age

I can relate to this. I’ve been going through the same thing and to know I’m not the only one going through this is nice. Everything from the confusion, feeling lost, some days being better and some worse etc. I also have adhd, maybe the spiritual adhd baddies are going through a collective awakening or something haha. Thank you for making this video 💓

Girl yesssss, you described it so perfectly well. I’ve had my fair share of ego deaths too but just yesterday I have had the biggest of them all. It started with a panic attack, then I started questioning everything. Who am I? What’s my purpose? Why am I here? Do I even really exist? And it’s like I felt my soul remove itself from my body and I became the observer. At first I was tripping out like honestly scared, but then I told myself this time is different. I want a different life so it’s time I try things differently, so I sat with the feeling. Then the feeling and all feelings diminished.. I felt nothingness, like pure nothing. No feelings or emotions. I sat in that feeling for what felt like centuries & I felt like a ghost 😭 just watching my life flip through like pages in a book, playing every moment leading up to this one.. then it all just clicked, I choose who I want to be. All I have to do in this lifetime is be me. Just show up every single day, doing the things that feel good & make me happy. And then I felt this warm feeling of love hug me back into my body and as scary as it may sound, It was truly one the most beautiful moments I have ever experienced in my life, why? Because now I know my mission, my purpose.. it’s just to be me and share me and these experiences with the world. So thank you for sharing your experience, thank you for showing me I am not alone in this journey, thank you for being you 💜

Reached ego death just through contemplation and disassociation with the mind and body. There was no peace for me just a general sense of neutrality. Any time I reach states like that I my ego wants to co opt the state of being however today the feeling subsided and I just was. Kind of scary not wanting or needing anything and just existing with no beliefs. Eventually I had to go to my friends and was sucked right back in to my conceptual self.

You are so beautiful and intelligent