This is no lie. Had a girl legitimately tell me I’m no fun because I don’t want to sin anymore. Most of the women are deadly. Prayers are on the way brother.
@@graylee945women are deadly, there’s certain women if you sleep with them everything in your life will go downhill, you’ll lose your job, you’ll struggle in poverty, everything will start going the other way and things won’t go smoothly. A wise man and a spiritual person understands to be very careful the women you chose to date and sleep with, and not to engage in adultery and self-pleasure. If you’re promiscuous and indulge in self-pleasure you’re just digging your own grave
I fell into lust and had a baby with a jezebel spirit. She was a girl I grew up with and caught my eye by posting about Jesus. We got together and had my son after 4 months and I even proposed. However, after years of deception, disrespect, and downright emotional abuse, I started to see through the facade. She ultimately discarded me and took the majority of custody with my kid after she got what she wanted. I’ve since recommitted my life to Jesus and went celibate/on semen retention. Brothers I tell this as a cautionary tale. Always turn away from lust and lean on God. Deny the flesh and resist the devil. Watch what they do and not what they say. Just because someone has a pretty face and claims Christianity, they can still be an agent of the enemy. SIN always takes away the very thing it promises to fulfill. Repent and stay safe out there men.
Pretty weird. I thought this girl reminded me of a tadpole (The serious face expression of a tadpole). Suddenly I saw a youtube short saying tadpole and sperm looks similar. Then the sky, I saw an airplane draw a tadpole/sperm. Next thing you know this video is uploaded.
At 19 years old I had the same experience. Her eyes became big and black when she said I want you. You're making the right choice. It's a spiritual battle and the spirit inside of her was trying to get you to deny and humiliate Christ
Wait could you please describe more about her eyes? Do you remember her sclera turning black or was it just the pupils dilating? I’m really curious to know
@@themetalsheets7145 Her pupils dilated, but it was a measure beyond that: her pupils were supernaturally large filling her whole center eye. It was like in that music video 'Pompeii' by Bastille (I would recommend turning the sound off if you watch it because they put spells over music these days). I had my experience in 2009, that video came out 4 years later, and I instantly knew that the meaning was demonic indwelling.
@@ristonalaimo5048 Woah, that's a pretty cool/creepy experience. Must have been extremely impactful for you to still remember and comment about it decades later! Thanks for sharing man 👍
I didn’t touch anyone for 10 years and in Mexico I made a mistake big mistake … I got drunk and all of a sudden it went from talum being this cute little magical beach town with sweet angel friends to oh it’s literally the wild Wild West and everyone’s a prostitute 😭 I was so drunk on mescal pretty sure I got a jezavel demon 😭🐍 and this man was a pimp warlock made me kiss his prostitute girlfriend his eyes turned black 😭 it was a nightmare . The dreams I got after were so bad amd I kept getting thoughts of me wanting him to teach me to go down on girls … it was so bad … he astral projected into my room … the lust was so bad I never touched myself and I started after it was so bad … I know he gave me jezabel or his bb… also the dude was quoting the Bible to me and making me feel like a horrible girl 😭 I think I’m just going to be a nun now . I’m old I don’t think I can have babies 😭💔
Yes. I have prayed for years and recently I got closer with one of my Christian friends that I only met once, and we started talking more and more. Suddenly feelings for each other started to grow, we prayed multiple times together and asked for prayer from other people concerning this topic, even went on a date once. I met her 1.5years ago through a mutual friend and when we met third time face to face this year, we officially started dating. I actually think she is my future wife, that God has appointed to me. I think I will propose when it's possible for me, after graduation and military service. God has the one for everybody!
If you don’t flirt then you will never get to know the girl. Yes pray to God about it, but we have to go out of our way and actually talk to the girl. It’s unlikely for a girl to just show up on your doorstep and is the perfect girl for you, and just be this amazing gift from God
@@soggymilk56 Straight facts. It takes a matter of time to actually realize if you know there the one for you or not, especially if you've known them for years. Don't go after them too much, but hope for someone someday even if there not the one.
I been getting attacked in my dreams every night with sinful thoughts regarding lust. One night I woke up between 3 and 5 and I heard a voice in the back of my head that said “Jezebel”. I had no idea who this was until I looked her up and realized I was being played with by this unclean spirit. This happened to me last night, the timing is insane. ✝️ Edit: Howie animations, be careful of your ego. Romans 1:18 - For the wrath of God is being revealed in Heaven to the godlessness and the wickedness of people, who suppress the truth by their wickedness. Be respectful for everyone here is a brother and sister to you because we are all one in Christ; Galatians 3:28 🕊️
This happens to me all the time ngl but unlike you I run away from them cuz I better and stronger and not weak like you get better kid get back to work
Oh man I had a loooong relationship with jezebel, its actually what brought me to christ. I was an athiest before. You’re absolutely right, the second she realized she had taken all she could from me, she washed her hands of me immediately, no emotions. I was about to marry her. The Lord saved me
Be careful for sure bro. I've learned recently to really focus on their actions rather than words. I was talking to this one girl for months and I kept noticing things were off but I kept ignoring it cause I was desperate (another issue). She said she wanted to be everything I wanted to hear - "modesty", "stay at home mom", etc. However also, her actions hardly ever showed it - she was pursuing a degree, she kept wearing immodest clothes, she kept having another issue so bad I wont say here, etc. The more I talked to her, the more temptations I had similar to you. However I eventually started becoming so weak spiritually and giving into sins and then she started to not "care" about me as much. I almost was destroyed but I sobered up and ended it fast with her. Many lessons from that. Now I'm back where I need to be with God. Im no longer desperate, more thinking than feelings, more grind on my career, etc.
Wow I had a similar experience, only I'm a woman who prioritizes modesty, faith and and want to become a housewife. This guy (actually my ex, we tried to pick things up again. Long story) and I went on two dates and I was all twisted up in my emotions I considered being with him. But after talking to God before and after every date He made me realize that this guy was just telling me what I wanted to hear and if I really payed attention to his fruits he didn't even practice anything he was saying. Telling him no I don't want to continue further was very difficult and even heartbreaking, but now months later I'm forever grateful for God preventing me from trying to eventually marry a man who's not meant for me. Listening to God and practising His laws is so so important, or else you might listen to yourself and make your life more difficult. I'm happy that you learned the same lesson and can go through life wiser than before :)
Idolatry is one of the easiest ways to turn from Christ in the modern age. I’m a young guy in my 20s and I like sports cars, money, girls, and other nice things. I’ve been slowly learning to lean into the Lord and trust him instead of relying on myself and chasing after the material. It’s a challenging mindset to have but always waking up and starting your day off talking to Jesus helps me. If anyone would like to say a quick prayer for me, pray for wisdom, discernment, patience, and guidance. Thanks.
This has been happening to me so much lately that I sometimes feels like it is a joke. But the way you broke it down makes so much sense. I have been really strong in my faith and even started serving in my church lately. It makes sense the enemy would want to attack now! The christian community calls it the jezebel spirit and clinicians call them narcissist. Whatever you want to call it guard your heart and keep it pure we are fighting a spiritual battle. "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." -Ephesians 6:12 (NIV)
The stuff you talked about in this video is why i'm very very limited on social media. Only social media platforms i use is of course RU-vid, and Snapchat. The internet is one of the most evil things in our culture today and at any point at any time something could pop up that's inappropriate and lustful. But besides that the only time nowadays that i struggle with anything lust related is right before i go to sleep and i say my nightly prayer to God all of a sudden when i close my eyes to go to sleep i'm just minding my business and i start to get lustful thoughts out of nowhere and i've learned it's a tactic satan will use. But immediately pray and ask God to forgive me.
A lot of big things have been happening in my life lately including my mom passing away from cancer a couple months ago and I’m really struggling with lust and temptation it’s almost like I disassociate with reality at night especially and sometimes during the day. I’ve kind of always described my list as me blacking out and not really understanding what I’m looking at. Sadly this means I’ve looked at horrible stuff with little to no reaction. Please keep me in your prayers.
I can't relate to your mom passing But I relate to the rest Keep fighting.Make sure you don't get worse Always try to get better at Fighting lust it is so evil as we have both learned the hard way Also don't hurt yourself when you fail Just keep fighting i starting to hurt myself because i Kept Failing him And then I had a vision of him Comforting me he didn't want me to hurt myself and I am still fighting my lust to this day we can Overcome with God's help Even if I don't know how long it will take us
Powerful Testimony. Women in the west do seem to have changed spiritually in the last few years beyond words, and not for the best. Praise the Lord for his Holy Spirit That guide us. Thanks for sharing.
It's not just women there's blame to go all around unfortunately. The sexual liberation movement was a mistake, and though it may not seem like it at first, women are suffering because of it.
Just prayed for you my man! Been following you for a while on IG. Even through the “sigma” stuff lol. Don’t mind my username. Just wanted to say your walk with Christ has hugely impacted mine as well. Love you man, God Bless you!
Wow. Thanks for opening up. So many guys who are making strides on their walk go through this kind of experience. It happened to me as well. Only evil spirits can tell who is about to do the most work for Christ, so they send their pawns their way. It makes me feel really bad for the girls who are being used because it’s an addiction for them as well.
Hey man. Years ago I was stationed in Germany and I met a girl that I was with her for 3 years having sexual relation's and that exact same face would appear at night when we would be in the intercourse. I always thought it was eery but I would let it go because I was drunk out of my mind. Same black eyes, white glowing face and similarities to a skull. I changed my life December 31, 2022 and asked Jesus Christ to give me another opportunity because I was extremely spiritually ill and I was ready to let go of my own life. I asked and I received, Jesus came running into the room and I felt something I never felt before! It was him, I let go of fornication, alcohol and any other worldly sin. I am not perfect but now I live for Jesus and only Jesus. Later on I put 2 and 2 together and I found out she had done some type of witchcraft. I will not share those things further but Jesus delivered me and broke every chain from the enemy.
Did you have sexual experiences with other women? How does that compare to the ones you had with the witch girl? I would assume she was able to make it more "pleasurable" to keep you locked into her
Brother, I'm far older than you and struggling to keep my eyes strictly on the Lord at this very moment. It is a battle with the flesh and for your mind and spirit. I hear exactly what you are saying. Our eyes and our desires will betray us. I have prayed for you. Please pray for me.
Bro spot on I just dated one for 2 years “covert narcissist” didn’t see it until the end when I moved out. All it was for her was a game and lust. She had the similar eyes… I lost myself - she was wanting to be in the masculine and told me at the end she hated god and would never let her children go to church. And oh that she would abort my baby… she was a demon - haven’t spoke in months since I moved out
Thank you man, I've been struggling with lust for so long, I'm slowly getting better with Christ it's just hard because since I'm moving in the right direction I'm being attacked more which makes sense. It's just tough with Christ nothing is impossible ❤
Thank God she exposed herself through the posts. That was Gods mercy. Be careful out there young guys like you can be a huge target. Stay spiritually safe.
Well done, brother. I pray to the saints for intercession with difficulties I have in this area of my life. I pray to Saint Agnes, Saint Margaret of Cortona, Saint Joseph, and the Blessed Virgin Mary for their intercession, and it helps me. They are my battle buddies when it comes to maintaining chastity. I realize that you may not share the same opinion when it involves the intercession of saints, but I share it because it has produced fruit for me to help me keep on the path. May Jesus bless you and keep you on the right track, brother.
There is nothing Biblical about praying to “saints”. I have read through the entire Bible twice (and continue nearly every day) and according to the Bible all you need is Jesus, the only way, “the way the truth and the life, and no man comes to the Father but through me”. We are all saints according to the Bible if we are Christian who have put our faith and trust in Jesus Christ’s atonement for our sin washed by the blood of Jesus through his death, burial and resurrection. But don’t take my word for it, work through your salvation with fear and trembling, search yourself to see if it is true as the Bereans did. Acts 17:11 These were more fair-minded than those in Thessalonica, in that they received the word with all readiness, and searched the Scriptures daily to find out whether these things were so.
Hey Ryan. It makes me feel joyful when i see youth like you help to spread the gospel and kingdom values. I'm feeling encouraged after watching you video. Glory to God becoz of u
As a christian women my advice to men or women whom wanna get closer to christ and youre talking to someone about God but it feels off. Is to not talk to that person any longer if theyre giving you a red light. I think we should minister unto ppl the lord calls us to. And be breif with those we choose to talk or share faith with. Because like proverbs says a mouth that talks a lot leads to sin. Lets try to truly get to know someone when the lord hath already shown us that, that person is for us. Some ppl are weak and very lustful and its better to just pray for them then to entertain those convos. Because we are only human and if we slip, we fall. The longer we linger in places we know we shouldnt the more vulnerable we are to sin its better to flee from sexual immorality like the Lord says. Because it leads to death. Kudos to this brother for his honesty, maturity, transparency, and for asking for prayers. The one that is for you won't be quick to get in your pants but to love you firstly in a Godly manner.
I could tell you some stories, believe me. And I prayed for you. There's a book I recommend by Sandi Freed, "Breaking the three fold demonic cord." These are three demonic spririts that use the feminine to destroy your life, ministry, walk, etc. I got in my prayer closest and prayed the Jezebel out of my life. During that prayer time I saw the root, or the entry point of how that spirit entered my life and I realized that I'd been under that influence for my entire life. Not that I was living in sin, but I met someone who was "super spiritual" and she turned out to be a Jezebel. She turned my life upside down. I lost 25 pounds and was nearly suicidal. It took over five years to end and get over, that relationship, even though it lasted for less than half of that. Jezebel comes across as godly and spiritual, then intensely loving, but it's all a ploy to gain control. There's so much more, but if she does, you will find it nearly impossible to break away. Red flags? RUN AWAY!
Thats just a covert narcissist. These are personality traits not demonic spirits. But believe what you have to stay away from bad people. Narcs are the worst. Real people take a while to get to know. Only people looking for something manipulatively are going to amaz9ngly connect with you very fast. Problem is people don't have much patience anymore with social media to do this. If an interaction is somewhat dull you can bet they don't want anything from you. Which requires effort on your part as well to build something up. Laziness and the search for excitement quickly opens many of us to being drawn to the wrong people.
if a female would receive unlimited infinite material support for the rest of her life why would she try to convince a male towards lust if he is not wanting that?
Because women know sex is a powerful way to get control in relationship. It's one of curses that came with the fall in the Garden of Eden: "Your desire will be for your husband." Gen 3:16. Google it and you will find many references such as this one: "A common interpretation of the passage suggests that a woman will desire control over her husband." So, the motivation is not for "security," but control. Make no mistake, even if men "don't want that," their flesh does. Romans 7:18 is pretty clear, "I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out." That's because, like it or not, we've all inherited a sin nature, and like it or not, we all struggle, maybe not all the same way and to the same degree, but we do. Hebrews 12:4 begins, "In your struggle against sin..." making it clear what we face. However, God doesn't want us to be discouraged, for a few verses later it says, "Don't lose heart."
Brother, I appreciate the honest confession and sharing. As a happily married 37 y.o. pastor, I can tell you that the battle with lust does not end when you say "I do." For me, it is a daily battle based on pre-deciding the types of conversations I have with younger women (esp. church members), putting up massive guardrails with technology use, and having solid accountability with other brothers in Christ. I meet once a week with two brothers just for us to hold each other accountable in our areas of sin weakness, lust being mine. By the way, your point about the "two types of women" is spot on. It only takes ONE woman with that Jezebel spirit who is fulfilling an emotional need in an unguarded moment that can cause us to fall greatly. I am glad that your discernment was right on point with this situation. Proverbs 5:13-14 always sticks out in my mind regarding the man who fell into lust--kings included, like you said: "I did not listen to the voice of my teachers or incline my ear to my instructors. I am at the brink of utter ruin in the assembled congregation." A necessary warning for us all to heed!
Women were the downfall of the first man who ever lived, Adam, the strongest man who ever lived, Samson, the man after God’s own heart, David,and the wisest man who ever lived, Solomon. All excepting Christ Himself, of course. The Proverbs are full of warnings to men about the seductress, Brothers. Watch out!!
Thank you so much Brother for openly discussing what you are facing for the Glory of God🔥🔥 God Bless You for your Journey Ahead❤🔥 Lots of Love From INDIA🇮🇳
This was a edifying video my friend, overall from what I've learnt is, don't seek women in your teenage years, or generally at all. However entrust God that He will lead you according to His will. God bless you.
I just got done praying for you young man. You are not the only one that goes through this I can assure you. Just like you pointed out king David himself went through it and millions more have. The Jezebel spirit is real. I will keep praying for you
Remember, I forget the verse, but we are not to wage war against flesh and blood, but rather the forces of evil. I remember there being a verse about saving one another from flames of hell, if I were you, I would consider saying something like "this content can really lead other Christians astray, this is not of God, but of the devil". Have you read the book of revelations? One of the letters to one of the churches was about the church being enticed by the spirit of jezebel, and God speaks of severe punishments towards the spirit and those who fall to her. The letter also mentions his mercy for those who've fallen to her if they repent
1 John 5:16 NLT - If you see a Christian brother or sister sinning in a way that does not lead to death, you should pray, and God will give that person life. But there is a sin that leads to death, and I am not saying you should pray for those who commit it.
Kjv 1 john 5:16 ¶If any man see his brother sin a sin which is not unto death, he shall ask, and he shall give him life for them that sin not unto death. There is a sin unto death: I do not say that he shall pray for it.
Some advice; Never sleep beside someone who has pitch-black eyes as you described, where it induces this feeling where your hair stands up, as it is very likely that the spirit will reveal itself when that person has drifted off to sleep, and either: A. Attempt to choke you B. Attempt to punch you with terrifying force, and/or C. Start doing some crazy things, e.g. levitation, spewing bile or a viscous, black slime, sometimes even paralysing your skeletal structure. Also never have sexual intercourse with someone who displays those physical traits or gives you that feeling, especially if you are doing something like he listed, where you are trying to focus on semen retention and Christ-centred growth as you are actually cultivating something VERY worthwhile through relationship with Jesus. With the problem being if you sleep with them, the demonic spirit or spirits inside that person will actually extract the thing you are cultivating with Jesus via the sexual intercourse and force you back to square one. So not fun either way. Note: And when I say 'attempt' I mean will assume control of that person's body and use it to attack you.
Ryan, I salute you for trying to keep your self-control in check. And I pray that you keep on your journey until you meet the right god-fearing lady. Please pray for me as well, since I too am all over the place when it comes to lust. It’s pretty unfortunate but the idea of eventually improving oneself and achieving my goal is a pretty thought to hold on to. For all of you guys/gals going through it, stay strong. Don’t give up on yourselves, see new ways to tame the flesh. Reflect. Perhaps a change in perception might stir up some motivation. Read up on the word of god (I know it can be hard to find the energy most times). Maybe watch some videos related to it. Christian/self-improvement type of content. And if you fail, don’t hate yourself for it. You are indeed human and you can always get back up and try again. May god bless you all. -Jacob
Yep, one of the last women I "messed around with" got what she wanted and cast me out, as Joker said, "like a leper." We were good friends before too. She always wondered and asked why we didn't ever hook up and why I didn't see her that way, then one night we got drunk and hooked up. We don't talk anymore. She's the second girl I've encountered that did that. The first one ran through all of my friends before marrying (and eventually divorcing) one of the wealthier ones.
Great video man. I think God has really protected me in this regard. Only recently I had a similar situation to the one you described. And I got a deep gut feeling that something was wrong, of premature guilt. So glad nothing happened though, God has really protected me from such women.
Thank you for speaking on this, idk why but recently i have been dealing with this too. The desire of the flesh is stronger than usual recently, but the spirit is stronger. For me when the temptations start creeping back in, it is a sign for me to become more disciplined. Working out and journaling has helped me not give in to temptations
Dude, my experiences with women have taught me that some of them will purposely anger you to increase the intensity of the intimacy... You just gotta stay" in the moment" and be one with her
Hey, all this was so key for dudes struggling with lust, like I have gone through this where two types of women enter your life and the fight to choose the godly is real. Amazing bro. Keep up the growth 💪❤
I have found the more I draw closer to The Lord in life and testimony as a Christian, the more evil and temptation snares confront me. God, grant me the strength to always flee from temptations.
Man, has God ever been Good to you. He has instilled Wisdom into your young self. All those things that you said are 100% truths. Stay vigilant. Employee patience, God will bring you a worthy bride.
Ryan, thank you so much for this video. I strongly felt the Spirit of God spring up inside of me as you described this. It really puts into perspective that this is ALL spiritual, and the most dangerous lie for us as young men is that lust is “just something all guys do.” The implication of that thought is that it is “normal” and while it may be “common” in our culture, lust was also “common” in Sodom and Gomorrah, but that doesn’t mean that what they did in those cities is “normal.” Young men have been fed a lie that being hyper sexual and lusting is a masculine thing to do and it makes you more manly, and that’s a lie straight out of the pit of Hell. It’s got nothing to do with gender, orientation, or affirmation of those things, it is simply a matter of spiritual warfare between God’s Kingdom of Heaven, and the satanic forces of eternal damnation. The Holy Spirit is a Spirit of abstinence, purity, wholesomeness, family, and plain basic goodness. Fighting against that lust is not something that is just needed so we are ready to fight the battle, it *IS* the battle. There is NOTHING good, noble, or even understandable, there is nothing we should give ourselves or others leniency on and just say it is “being a guy.” It is SICK, and it is straight out of Hell! If your friends ever even HINT at the fact that lust is okay, or make those dirty jokes, or begin engaging in the deception that there is something relatable or innocent about sex of any kind outside of marriage, we should shut them down IMMEDIATELY and lovingly rebuke them. It’s far better to embarrass sin before sin embarrasses you… We shouldn’t “try to cope” we should FLEE! This is a huge eye opener for me. Thank you and stand strong for Christ. The time is short and His return is eminent…
The only reason why the Bible says that lust kills kings is to refer to your impotency when being able to control your impulses, which makes you sexually vulnerable to get ideologically or politically influenced by any other individual. It’s not telling you to practice celibacy, but to practice spiritualism, self love and get to know your self (Temet Nosce). When you practice celibacy out of fear, you are basically avoiding getting to know yourself. And for avoiding dealing with your flesh and knowing how it usually reacts to external stimuli, you are basically neglecting the self knowledge required to being able to say “no” when you need it the most. If you get scared of influences, what you should be doing is actually be experimenting with the most innocuous ones. What you are manifesting in life is actually your spirit requiring you to step forward out of your comfort zone and into the unknown, so you get acquainted with that “more of you that you still don’t know”.
Well done for your honesty and bravery to speak out your personal struggles & temptations. Praying in the Spirit, (Tongues) will be a great asset to you in the face of temptation and descerning of spirits. Your transparency is refreshing, I will be recommending your channel to others who may need to hear this🏆🏆
Just like you said, some of the greatest men in the bible, their weakness were lust. Also, great job! The Holy spirit definitely seem to have guided you!
Nothing Good lives in us !! That IS our sinful nature !! When you find the right one. You will know it !! Your soul will be at ease and she will bring u closer to Jesus !!
I'm 57 yrs old. Strong and youthful. I was saved when I was 8. Yet I too understand. I appreciate you sharing all that. Believe me the Father has knocked me around and still does. I respond to pain and fear more than love. For me being a Christain is weird because I don't or can't indentify with the "Christianity" thing.. tuff to explain. God has taken care of me and even now I'd better wake up a bit more. Make no mistake the spiritual forces are real. I am on a nice break from work; time to re-group... go forward. I'm single no wife or kids and will remain that way but don't think I don't feel it. Young women these days go for me they say "hey Daddy" . I know it sounds funny and it's ok to laugh.. 😂 but if I succumb I be all messed up. I don't tell people what to do but... read Psalms.. anywhere just open and read out loud. Also just start talking to the Lord anything any turn at all. He is coming soon... this is it now. I'm a loner Christian...it happens. Also there is a lie moving among some Christians... prob has been for many years that says you can lose your salvation...you cannot.. don't believe it. Good men of the world don't need God... are self-reliant.. I wish I could be ,but not how it is for a son of God. God is God... that's all. There is no other... the Lord Jesus Christ with the Father and the Lord Spirit all together as one. The Spirit is for your spirit as distict from your soul. The Spirit brings to your spirit everything that God is and has accomplished. Excercise your spirit... call out quietly or loudly O Lord Jesus.. read the Word out loud... chew on it. Well I certainly ran on a bit... 😊
Amen young brother amen!!! praying for you now, I can tell you one thing young brother, I wish I was as switched on when I was your age. God bless you brother.
I just started watching your videos but they have helped me to see from a different perspective regarding certain topics which in turn has positively impacted my relationship with God and Jesus and I really like that your words and findings are so genuine and personal… I pray you keep making videos God be with you in all that you do :)
Same boat brother. The dispair truly is what is crippling, BUT God, my only hope. Thanks for the encouragement. Truly. The battle is the Lords. This is war! God bless you solider. I heard that same thing. King Killer: Jezebel. This enemy is after Authority in Christ Jesus. FULL ARMOUR, Humility will expose it. God help us be like Joseph and FLEE. Flee sexual immorality. Never look back. Run to Jesus today men, old and young.
My last experience was sleeping in my ex's bed and in the middle of the night the bed slats started slamming onto the floor. I put my AirPods in and put on Christian music as this happened sporadically throughout the night. I thought maybe I was just tripping and they were falling because of our weight, hardly slept. In the morning I went into her bathroom and got into the shower. I started praying and something slammed behind me in the shower, I turned around and it was the body wash and her razor blade. I got out of the shower and started praying in tongues. She was like "what are you doing" and I was like I don't know what's going on here but you have some negative energy in this house. She said she had her ex's dead's grandparents towels in the bathroom and if she should throw them out. Needless to say, this was the last time I seen her. We also had a really big fight before but I was afraid to breakup with her because of all the things she said to me after the fight, but once the spiritual stuff started manifesting I was out. The other crazy thing was when we had sex in the low light she looked like my ex that passed away who I lost my virginity to. Sounds crazy but 100 percent true.
I notice that during seed retention, I end up being able to feel things spiritually. My best friend and I, who are also doing seed retention, connect so much more spiritually and can feel each other. It's like Rey and Ben and how they can feel and talk in the Force.
You make me appreciate that way of life is behind me. Make those hard decisions and you will be happy you did, victory is ours, ONE LOVE!!! PSA. 73: 25
People who had a difficult childhood, especially those who never had their emotional needs met are prone to limerence. The reason is because we were always prone to imagining a parallel reality, a whole world of fantasies we could escape to. Fantasies have always been a safer world for us than the real one, so our mind is already used to this dynamic (it's basically like 'muscle memory'). When something triggers this dynamic, it's like opening a portal to our safe fantasy world, and as destructive as it is, we are used to actually loving it... That being said, my soul is brutally violently viciously maliciously raped and has been my whole life I am desperate to die REMINDER TO SELF: FEAR is a bully. If you try to avoid him, reason with him, appease him, beg him, he will kick the shit out of you and ruin your life day after day, until you don't have a life no more. But... If you start looking him in the eye and saying "FUCK YOU, do your worst, I can take it" and you mean it... He may beat you once or twice but after a while, he'll let you be. You might even become friends over time.