The art school internal struggle of wanting to make art because you think it looks cool but then being told it has to have a deeper meaning. So you then bullshit your way throughout your entire critique.
I'm in med school but I can relate to you, science was my safe place I loved it so much. But my first college year broke me, I feel like a constant idiot., Now I'm stressed because back to college is pretty close. But we need to resist because one day we'll be so proud of us
It's so sad you have to justify using a convenient TOOL (being your projector) when : Firstly - It doesn't erase the time spent on your thinking process, sketching and EVEN digitally composing your ideas. Secondly - It doesn't erase your painting skills. Cause trust, give me a projector, the best prenium paints, canvas and all : I wouldn't be able to paint like you do. Simply because I am NOT a painter, nor do I have your knowledge and skills. So do the... talking mouths that bug you for it. You totally rock
Camila I 100% don't blame you for your insecurities its totally normal and happens to many art students when you constantly have to do what you love but are more restricted and based on what your teachers have told you. It always feels so limited and seeing others doing what you are very passionate about do "better" than you makes you feel like shit.I love you so much and I just wanted to let you know what you're feeling is completely normal and okay bc art school fs you up but its also a great experience. You've inspired me so much and thanks to you I've got into and art school as well!!! ❤❤❤sorry abt my grammar I might have worded this badly btw
have you ever looked into the aestheticism movement? :0 the first time i heard it was in an art history course in college (if you have the opportunity to take one soon def do!! im sure they're gonna be much better than the ones at my rinky dink texan college and they were some of the most fun and educational classes i've ever taken) it literally changed my life when it came to how i perceived my own work. coming from a texas art education as well, all i was taught was do it realistic and people will like it. nothing about history, composition, stylization- all of that stuff i had to learn myself :') and by GOD did i feel so unqualified when i went to art class surrounded by literal masters with knowledge that was basically ingrained into their work. aestheticism definitely has its faults but it helped me realize that the art i do is valuable simply because it was created :) i feel that way looking at your work!! art doesn't have to have a deep meaning, the meaning can come from it simply being created. remember that college is for education, not a gallery for completely perfect masterpieces. with that in mind, your work is absolutely STUNNING and i hope this upcoming semester for you is wonderful!! :D
Camilla, you don’t need to make your art something it’s not. Just do what you love-paint what makes you happy-and people will naturally be drawn to it. All your subscribers can attest to this. You are incredibly talented and hardworking, and I know that, no matter how skilled you become, you may still find yourself comparing your work to others. But I want you to remember that everything you create is full of soul and skill. You are one of my biggest inspirations, and I find that I often compare myself to you since we are similar in age. But comparison is also a way to push yourself future and make progress. I hope you continue to make your art for many years to come and I’ll be here to support you with my silly and sometimes serious comments! Keep of the good work❤️ Anyways cool Minecraft base.
Camila, I don’t know if you need to hear this but you need to go on easy on yourself. You’re doing so good. You’re doing a great job. Keep up the good work go easy on yourself!!❤❤
girl art is so subjective. dont let the critiques of art school get to ur head. i almost dropped out bc of a rough critique in art school and my professor told me “u dont have to agree with every critique you get” your art is freaking fantastic dont let anyone tell you otherwise!💕
I think you painted yourself incredibly well. I know you mentioned you felt like you made yourself "prettier" but I think you have a better grasp on what you look like than most of the rest of us. You look beautiful and this painting is incredible!
You need to give yourself more credit❤ you are so young and already incredibly talented. Doesnt matter if you don't know all the technical aspects or history of your subject, you are still doing amazing. Also that guitar at the end?!? Truly multitalented
As a painting major going into senior year at scad, YOURE DOING AMAZING!! First year is always rough cuz in most projects you aren’t free to do what you want, but once you start your painting major you will feel way more in your element. Also the part about wanting to not put in as much details, keep feeling that girl cuz you won’t have any time to put them in! Not sure about risd but at my school we normally have 2-3 weeks per painting at least in earlier major classes and wow!! It’s intense but you will quickly adjust your practice and learn to make art you like with quick turn around. It’s stressful and takes a whole summer to heal but I feel so good every time I made something I’m proud of! You are doing so well and already have this interesting realized style. Don’t compare your art to your classmates too much because in painting majors, everyone has their own thing and there will always be a place for you!
@@sylynxx3629 it’s ok!! I don’t know too much about animation but I believe it’s the biggest major with tonsss of resources especially in Savannah since it’s much bigger than the Atlanta campus. A friend of mine got hired at Cartoon Network freshman year and that was 4 years ago. There’s tons of studios opening up lately in Atlanta and Savannah so there are a lot more experience opportunities now. The first year classes might be hard cuz everyone has to take foundations classes where we dont have too much creative freedom, but it’ll teach you to work quickly and how to be professional. Just know it’s expensive and scad doesn’t like to give out scholarships but from what I’ve seen it’s a great investment for animation and to gain connections for after college!
@@sylynxx3629 it’s ok! Idk much about animation but I believe it’s the biggest major and there are always tons of opportunities and events for animation. My friend got a job at Cartoon Network freshman year and that was 4 years ago so I’m sure there are a lot more jobs now. I know there are constantly new film studios in Savannah and atl that hire a lot of scad students. Id say it’s probably competitive with so many people being in the major but if u take advantage of the time in school to do internships and gain experience you’ll be good. Just know it’s expensive and scad doesn’t have a lot of aid so make sure you really want it! It’s easy to get in but so many people drop out first year with the work load, but it definitely teaches you to work quick and be professional. Good luck!
I did a maths degree and all I’ve done since then is draw more because I didn’t get much chance during uni 😂. I fell out of love with art as an academic subject in my last couple of years of school so didn’t go for it at uni and honestly it was the better choice for me but my brain was broken after all the maths. I know it’s all a big deal when you’re feeling it and you’ve gotta feel these struggles as a person and an artist and just growing up but try not to worry too much❤. You’re never alone in how you feel, it’s ok to feel like a fraud but it doesn’t mean you are. There’s a lot of baseless confidence out there and people coasting along on the bare minimum and bravado alone. You’ve every reason to trust your own arty instincts and sometimes you do know best, certainly when it comes to what you want from your art. It doesn’t all have to mean something or be achieving something xxx
i honestly relate to your videos so much. the feeling of being uneducated at that school and other schools should be talked about more. i think a lot of art students like to act superior and instructors might act like their curriculum is the be all end all, but at the end of the day, i think all artists have to adhere to their own principles or else making art will become too draining. your art is beautiful, not despite the way is deviates from the things you learned in school, but because it deviates. obviously it's important to understand different perspectives and history is interesting to learn, but at the end of the day, it's YOUR artwork. please keep making art camilla!
Girl I don’t believe for a second you’re not the best painter in your class, and not having historical knowledge about art doesn’t make you a worst artist lol
It’s reassuring to see someone go through the “this painting sucks, I suck, should I quit why am I doing this” routine, yet still manage to get out of it. I feel like I’ve been stuck in a feedback loop of that, and having to take weeks off from art (moving) made it worse, but I’m getting back on that horse 👍🏾
I totally get you when you talk about not having the same influential feelings and knowledge about art than others. I remember when i saw one of your paintings a while ago and you said the name of an artist that someone compared you to and that you loved, and i was like wow, i really am just being silly with my art, i don’t know shit about the masters😭
im not a skilled artist or anything but i can appreciate the artistry that goes into this stuff! taking all summer for a wonderful painting like that is amazing!
BRO I knowwww you hate compliments because you think it’s a lie, but I was so so soooo happy seeing your video and that you posted!! I love your artwork so so much 😭❤️❤️❤️ I hope you get this message 🫶🏼🫶🏼
NO BC I LOVE ART AND IM AN ART STUDENT BUT I LOVE CREATING WHAT I WANNA CREATE LIKE WHYS MY TEACHER TELLING ME EXACTLY WHAT TO DO. STRIPS THE FUN RIGHT OUT OF IT
lyrics: i finally finished / this beautiful painting and now it is time to / reveal the painting it's time to reveal / this beautiful painting (x2) (instrumental) three, two, one anyway i find that when i start feeling bad about my art analyzing it and getting stuck in these thought loops rarely if ever yields any results apart from making me feel even worse. it's cliche but the antidote to overthinking is action. what i try to do is i find something fresh and new, maybe experiment with different styles and subject matters or study art i like and all of that functions as a palate cleanser to make art fun again. 90% of the time i come back to my work with a way less negatively clouded perspective. all these new thoughts and ideas allow me to take my art forward in addition to seeing the value in what's already there. "is this any good" becomes "what's good in this and what else can i do with it". growth mindset! it's cringe but true.
Literally zero people think you suck. In fact over 500k are here to tell you you’re incredible. Art school is going to teach you perspectives, history, and push you hard. But none of it has to do with your art. Remember to keep being true to what you love and enjoy your art. ❤
1 painting you don't like =/= bad painting =/= you paint badly. None of these things are linked: you can have bad days, you can dislike a picture everyone else loves, everyone else can dislike a well-painted image. Granted, I don't know your whole story, but there isn't 1 right way to do art, although that isn't to say there aren't suggestions you could receive to improve. Just keep going if you love it! And there isn't any harm in trying new things. Good luck ^_^
Self criticism/self doubt/insecurity is something every artist goes through (or at least 99%). I think you're far ahead of where most people are at your age..at least from my experience. I think you have a really interesting style and very good command of color/textures - The only things that stick out to me in this painting are the leg, dog and squirrel. The leg just seems flat compared to the rest of the painting...not sure what would change it to make it similar, but something just doesn't feel right. With the dog - perhaps you used the lighting from the reference and then it feels off because you used a bluer tone for the comforter? The squirrel - just feels like it's more surreal than real..do squirrels even come out at night? Perhaps it's the change of perspective outside the window? Still, with that, I think it's a very good painting.. I've been stuck working on a painting this size that's been on my easel for the better part of five years...probably just needs 4-5 more hours of work, but I just haven't done it... so one summer isn't so bad! :)
girl honestly i have to tell u that I understand that u may think realism isn't as important/meaningful as other styles of art but ur art is so so beautiful and even if u don't consciously put a clear message into ur pieces the sheer atmosphere and tone are communicated so so well and u can feel the emotion radiating from ur work which is why it's so memorable to me even through the thousands of artists i've encountered and i absolutely love that a message isn't being shoved down ur throat and everyone can interpret it differently which is what truly great art is about so i think u should be so incredibly proud of urself bc i really think u are one of the greatest artists of our generation and i want u to see that
I totally understand you about your rant , i also keep comparing myself to others , i mostly like draw and sketch because im not that good in painting like im awkward and dont know what to do. But i want to start painting like you , you paint so well im literally impressed about your skills. Also quick question how did you learn to draw? And like , you being in art school , what do you think you wanna be?(when you grow up ofc🤘)
There's no big need to know art history when you are making it!! and I feel so so much on comparing yourself to others when you are in school learning that subject, you are constantly exposed to critique. When making art not making it seem too deep can help the flow and creativity, and making it too deep and serious causes stress. Art both is deep and it isn't. It's really hard to turn that switch on and off at the right times.
PS the spontaneous minecraft addiction is real... Don't worry Camila, maybe you're just not really in the mood for art but you feel like you need to take advantage of your off-school time, so you're forcing yourself. Of course you can paint, you're super talented, but if you actually don't feel like it, it will be like torture
the amount of different emotions you go thru in a single video stresses me out and makes me concerned for you but also, ur real asf 🙏🙏 the painting and your minecraft base looks BEAUTIFULLLLL i hope you enjoy your summerrrr and YOU PLAY THE GUITAR?!!??!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Listen I feel you…. I changed my jobs. And I teach little ones now. So I done t have time to paint much. Every time I do I doubt myself and what I used to do… I need to take time to create what I love.
Gurl~! when you said, "why can't I love math?" I was like, "NO!" lol, but fr... I didn't do art, which was what I was passionate about, and instead pursued a degree in math and physics, which I was good at, but didn't care for. My life was sucky. I was miserable. I was so down that I dropped out of college. I straight up quit. My family forbade me from taking any art, through out high school and college, and threatened to hurt me, stop supporting me, or kick me out if I didn't pursue a 'realistic career' or anything they approved of. I have left that terrible situation already with the clothes off my back. I am free to do whatever I want now because I no longer have anyone oppressing me, but I have no time anymore. I can't just drop whatever I am doing to go to art school. Life happened: I got married, I became a mother, working to take care of my child, and saving up. It's my responsibility now. Doesn't mean I don't think about what could have been. I have fun watching your videos, gives me an idea of how art school could have been if I had the chance right out of high school to go into art. I have no one stopping me from doing art anymore, but I have other priorities. Doesn't mean that maybe someday, when I'm close to 50, I can pursue what I wanted more than a decade ago. Keep going! I really am rooting for you!
Hi..Yeah I'm 53 and just retired. You tend to think more about life choices after retirement but just like you my parents made me choose a different career than art. I just love art so much but as an adult and a parent, I did not have time or the energy for art. I was putting in 14 hour days and I could not do anything else. I immigrated from Mexico when I was six year old and I had to always work hard to provide for my family. My advice for you would be to do small little paintings, small enough to finish in 30 - 45 minutes, so when you do start painting you won't be at zero like I am.
Looks fantastic! Always remember to try to paint loose. Reference is great, but don’t be stuck to it. Always look at Valezquez. Keep the drapery painterly and light. Let the brush strokes breathe. I’ll keep watching. Cheers
you have achieved with art more than anyone else your age, i'm sure if you wanted to start doing exhibitions or whatever you want to do in the future you would already be able to do it without a degree. like u were so happy to do the painting at the beginning of the video and then u started self-depreciating more. i totally understand imposter's syndrome, but it is also okay to prioritise your mental health and take a break off from things, even doing things you love
