I would like to add something
It does get better :)
Feel free to share, it would help me a lot ;)
Every Donation would mean so much to me,
I love you all and you're so worth it love
I wrote what I said for anyone that finds it more comfortable to read
I'll paste it below:
"Hi everyone,
I am Kreshnik, 20 years old, almost 21. I live in Geneva, Switzerland.
I started to realize what my sexual orientation was very young but never really accepted it. Even now I sometimes ask myself if all of this is okay, but I know it’s my inner saboteur and traumas speaking.
I stop denying that I did’nt like boys when I got into high-school.
Everyone there was so nice and open-minded, I thought that I was safe telling everyone I was gay, since saying it at where I thought was «home» was like killing my parents, disrespecting the country, the culture, I felt free for the first time ever.
Turns out, I was wrong. Maybe I was naive for trusting strangers but I couldn’t help it. Many of the people I trusted started gossiping about it, people at other schools would know about me. A girl I didn’t know that much let me know of what was happening and I totally freaked out. I wrote a big message to everyone I knew at school saying that I was just a dumb young boy, that I was lying, that I was not gay and none of it was true.
A person in one of my classes had the same name as my sister. And even if I added emojis to the contact to know who was who, I accidently sent it to my sister. I was so scared when writing and sending those messages that I didn’t think about the emojis at all.
Since that day, tensions started rising a lot and the next three years were hell. So many things happened, I honestly couldn’t believe all of this was happening. It seemed so unreal. At some point I managed to kind of make my family think that I came out just to be «interesting».
Just a few days after turning 19, I decided to leave because it was too much. It started being too much since too long. I couldn’t take it anymore.
This was by far the hardest thing I had ever done. I left all that I knew, it was like losing my landmarks in life, my identity.
Not too long after leaving I went to a place that started to help me financially (it’s like the state). It is very low and when I started receivving money monthly, I didn’t know how to use money. I learned a lot about insurances, taxes, started doing budgeting exercises so I could live the best I could with what I had.
I want to go to night classes (high-school) starting September 2021. I have to go to night classes because I’m too old.
I had to find a day-job because it’s a requirement to people wanting to start night classes at this high-school I’ll be going to. Despite Covid-19 making it even harder than usual to find a job, I managed to find one.
Since I had to find a job in order to get into nigh-school, the state told me they would help me much less financially. What I earn in my job is being deducted from what they usually give me. The problem is that they will stop helping me as soon as I start school.
So my reason for starting a GoFundMe is having enough money to get out of the social «help» from the state. Even thought the state’s helps is very low it saved me. But it’s barely enough to live, If I want to buy books for school, pay for my insurance (10%), householdbills such as phone/ rent, and my debts, I have to have more.
Since the contact with my family was completely torn and I haveno contact or help from any of them. Sadly, they still don’t accept who I am.
I sincerely thank, from the bottom of my heart anyone who donates. If you can’t donate please share and help me reach my goal.
Thank you so much for watching this."
Thanks again to you all :)
PS: Sorry for the video quality, I don't know how to make it better.
15 сен 2024
