My healing journey ❤️‍🩹| 6 months of pain 

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Accept Jesus as your Lord Savour he shall restore you n heal you and give eternal peace

Ohhh my Gosh so i literally just watched this now and i understand what she mearnt when she said say Sesi Cyan to Paballo she literally is a big sister to these kids, has been through it all ,and all she was trying say when she said Go to school was because she knows this journey these kids are taking aint easy.I salute you for tryna discipline Paballo🎉

Cyan has a great support system at home... You can tell with how she goes home everytime she feels down❤️

Thanks for sharing your journey with us mama. You honestly didn’t have to but you did , & I appreciate you for that. May these upcoming months be kind to you and all of us❤️🫂

You are a child my dear you are going to make a lot of poor decisions. Some deliberately others by mistake. Kuko konke Take care of yourself. ❤️

Haven't Finished The Video But I'm Crying😭😭💔 You Are So Strong

People judge without knowing the full story but I’m glad you actually were brave enough to tell your story I’m proud of you. May you continuously shine and prosper

I sent you a Dm on Instagram a few days ago, I was really hoping you'd see it. I'm just gonna go ahead and write it here. I just wanna say I'm sorry for what you went through. I admire your strength to put back together the broken pieces of your life . Anyone can give up, but to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength. Sending you love, light, healing energy and blessings. I'll always be your biggest fan ,rooting for you in the background!❤

This deserves a whole reality show so sorry about what you had to go through..god always has timing and he did what he pulled through love this for you ❤️

You’ve been through so much 💔 and to go through all these things publically must have been so hard. I pray the Lord be with you ❤️and remember to lean on Him ALWAYS!

Waitse ka mo ke ratang Honour ka teng?I wish I knew you at a personal stage😭I cried with you,I’m triggered,I’m overwhelmed,I’ve said it before and I’ll say it still,I went exactly what you went through at your age I’m only 25 now and I never thought I would ever come out alive or sane! the downgrade,loss of dignity,embarrassment,humiliation,torture,depression,loss of confidence and etc! Still get flashbacks and I still cry my self to sleep till date,I think it’s very important to accept the fact that this will forever live with you,it’s a part of you,you Just have to master the art of letting go and letting God!You are doing well Honour,o montle,you are within your bag baby!I’ll never see any wrong in you,I believe In you ,I have pure love for you,you are the most genuine and transparent!now this is real life! I love you Honour! Congratulations on the new whip you stay winning wena minora!🥂re bolaise mala!

You know how many young girls go through what you went through... we with you girl... my early 20s was so traumatic... my 30s is my redo girl... we love you girl. Fuck the rest

Literally cried with you the entire video, take your time and heal, don't rush the process sweetyyy

That part where you took videos of your pregnancy journey up until you lost her I legit cried with you This has honestly made me appreciate my daughter even more I'm juss glad you healed and moved on I love your fighting spirit❤️❤️❤️❤️

You know I feel soooo embarrassed that I once said I believe your ex.. He's manipulative and that's what narcissists do💔💔 I'm really sorry Sis.. You'll get through this and no one deserves to go through what you went through.. We have all our ups and downs, and we are broken but the only difference is that we don't show it to the world...at least you're brave enough to share your story with us which makes you very unique😍 you're unshakable.. I'm really sorry mama❤

It was a brave step to share your story, I wish your healing reaches its peak eventually and you achieve all you want. GBV is one horrible thing to experience and it makes you feel worthless at one point, but after all you experienced...you're a beautiful, independent and strong woman. I wish you find someone who'll kiss your scars and love you the way you deserve. Your ex will get whats coming to him for all the lies and manipulation he's been spreading and victimising himself as well as all those that have been judging you and putting dirt on your name. You'll be fine in due time mama.❤️❤️❤️

To be honest relationships will leave you with stroke, I woke up having a dream about my Ex, if I tell you things that happened to the relationship people will think I am crazy for even remembering his existence. Re bana mare re imetswe

I pray that you healing is permanent ❤️because sometimes you heal and something happens then everything go down again. Am currently going through a lot now but keep my head up. Sending you lot of love ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

The girls that get it, get it. The girls that don’t, baby I pray you don’t🙏🏽 I understood everything trust me I cried for 9 months and it took me 3 years to let go. The blessings that’s about to come to you after that pain is enormous ✨

Girl, I feel you. I have been in pain over a situation for about 4 years, it's not sorted yet, but God has granted me peace finally this month, no one ever understands that dark place. I'd cry anywhere anytime, I was an emotional wreck. I'm ok now, made peace with the situation and I forgive and will make things right on my side even if I don't get the same from the other party. But I feel you girl, it is a roller coaster ride, you want it to end, it doesn't end. But yes, we do pull through in the end. Your video will give someone hope out there.

It's a lot. Got a bit emotional watching this myself. But when you said "this is a special day for people that are not cowards like me" it hit harder. Please don't allow yourself to feel that way. You took a decision that was best for you and that isn't being a coward It's brave.❤

I've been going through a lot lately and I've been drinking that willies wine to help heal. I'm so sorry you had to go through all that. Sending love and light.

Cyan l'm so sorry that some were mean to you while you were going through hell alone. I've always believed you, you're strong, you have supporters like me that love you so much and will stand by you always. God loves you sis, you are beautiful and amazing Cyan. A blessing to us. Keep going and stay shining.❤

It's so unfortunate that we live in the times where it's so easy to judge someone without any idea of what they're going through "especially public figures" You were not a coward for making a choice that's best for you, when you are ready and it's your time it shall happen."God's timing my love"😘♥️

It's the "I'm getting myself a Mercedes baby" for me 🥺🥺❤️❤️Congratulations mama🤙🏌️❤️

In almost cried after watching this but I held my tears back. You are so strong and I'm sure this video inspired someone out there. The way you were so patient with your healing process and you came back even stronger. Sending Love and more strength ❤️🥺

I literally dm'd u to ask if u deleted it by mistake the first time u posted it😹🥺, I love u ma'am❤🥺sending love ur way❤

Muhle thule , muhle khala , muhle ehlizi ❤ u are very beautiful cyan❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥🥰💋😊

Literally been crying the entire video😭😭💔 I’m disappointed in myself that I actually believed the guy over you because of how social media always paint you in a bad way but it’s actually the opposite 😓.I’m sorry Honour you had to go through this and no women deserves to go through such.I love how genuine you are in pouring out your feelings coz I know we deal with our problems in a different way no one should judge you on that ❤️🤗 sometimes pouring out your feelings is also a good step to healing. Stay blessed sending hugs and kisses 😘😍

Wow! This is beautiful! You so strong! You definitely the girl that you think you are. I love this and Congratulations to the baby❤️🥹🥂

You really inspired me young Lady because some women end up killing themselves just because nobody wants to believe their stories. Be blessed

Sending lots and lots of love. I pray you continue healing and being your best self. You deserve the best and nobody can give you that more than yourself. Congratulations on your new baby. I love you ❤️😊

We don’t choose pain you are right , but we can choose the people we want we are accountable for our choices in life unfortunately. I m sending prayers to you

OMG😭 this made me cry... You have been through so much and no one even noticed that... You are a very STRONG women Cyan I salute you for who you are🙌🏽❤️ Congratulations with the new car😘

I dropped everything for this 😍💙 here first. I pray for your healing. It will be ok ❤ you were not a coward for letting go💔

“Can it just be the last pain” -Cyan boujee 🥺♥️

Im commenting before watching and I hope you heal and find peace..... good things are coming your way, everything is a season in life.

This really hit home. Although our pain and our pain tolerance differ, to an extent I deeply understand. Pain is one thing that we humans cannot comprehend or rather "get used to". It's something that I myself struggle at times to coexist with. After watching this video, I have found the courage to face this pain I've held head on and 'show it who's the boss'. I've let my situation take so much control of me and today I'm taking that control back! It's my life after all, and I call the shots! I also want to start video journaling, as I literally have no one to talk to. I'm definitely gonna share it on my socials and hopefully I touch many souls just as you've touched mine with your story. Always remember that God gives the most toughest battles to his strongest soldiers. Therefore, me and you need to go through this pain so that we can be stronger for other people. To help others to avoid such situations by sharing our stories, our journeys. This will definitely be our last pain! We are stronger! Indeed there are angels among us, and those angels are me and you! Love and light skat!❤🕯

My best advise for you would be to go to God,listen to his word and read his word,He is the only man that would give u healing and fulfilment I was at the same situations and I decided that I am tired of the life of the flesh ,the book of John says that all things on the earth will fade away but the Word of God remains forever You are meant for greatness,no past can change that about you,you are literally a tree and you gona grow those fruits again I pray the Holy Spirit of the Lord locates you to Him and His word In Jesus name

❤️❤️❤️ what a journey but once again you made it through. Stay blessed Cyan. Congratulations on the whip 😍😎

I love you how really articulated healing , it don't matter which part you played for the pain to exist but acknowledging everytime you feel venerable and sad and bouncing to from those episodes and going through healing ✨️ ♥️....You are an ALFA FEMALE IN THE MAKING.

I am currently going through a situation. I really needed this ❣️❣️❣️

You are surrounded by so much love, the real ones will always show up for you. Love and lights on your healing journey and congratulations on your new car. Keep winning ❤

People will judge and crucify you in these gossip columns and forget how many stupid mistakes they made when they were 21, honestly when I think of the shit I did and been through at your age I can only laugh.... so I strongly believe that you have to go through all of this, make these mistakes, love the wrong people in order to learn.... eventually you will look back at all of this and laugh.... people forget that you're just a baby man.... you're growing and coming into your own.... so forgive yourself hun.... one day all of this won't even matter trust me, take it from a 32yr old😁😁😁..... love and light to you❤❤

❤️ & 🕯️ sis may you heal from everything you going through & may god be with you

Sending love ,light and peace upon your life ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Hey Cyan. Firstly, thank you for being open and vulnerable with us. Your video is an inspiration to many people that face domestic violence and overall abuse which are serious cases all around the world. Your video is hope to those that lost hope and a voice to those that are voiceless. Secondly, you're so so strong, very open to hope even while going through hell. I'd like to commemorate you on your bravery and strength. You go girl! Loved the glow up at the end of the video ❤🤌. Sending love, light and a big big hug! 🫂

Oh Cyan 🤕 May God bless you and may he grant you all that your heart desires♥️ thank you for this video, so raw and unfiltered🥺love and light 💖

Wow girl I really loved the end part the glow, the rise! The confidence. "What doesn't kill us makes us stronger " so proud of you woman!!😍🤗

yohh social media can really taint a person, now having to watch this vid got me crying...being stuck on the cross roads between keeping your child and letting go can be the worst emotional damage ever which ever decision you take sticks with you for life... you chose what is best for you and you not a coward. its true never judge a book by its cover i just got another lesson 😘

Some people are created specially to experience and overcome pain, to show us that the pain we're experiencing is actually nothing. You are a conqueror baby, a whole Queen👑. After this it's nothing but money, happiness m, good health and peace❤❤❤❤❤ You are Loved❤

Wow! I'm lost for words. The realest and most beautiful video I've watched on YT. I wish you peace and light mama ❤️

Honestly I am in love with this vlog!! 🥺😭❤️

Mmh yoh mouthful😭❤️ good thing you documented everything and thats how you healed, im so proud you spoke out and stood your ground💯 hope others facing similar problems will speak out

Thank you for this❤️I'm on the 7th Month and my whole pain and trauma is taking time.I just can't forgive💔💔💔💔💔But thank you for this

I am happy that your moving on ❤️❤️❤️‍🔥🫀your so strong 💪 your resemblance hero

Commenting before I watch but I hope you focus on yourself nana. I'm 18 years older than my little sister and with my experiences and now fears to dating life, I hope she experiences better. I've watched you and realized that you are one of the strongest girlies who had to go through storms before seeing the sunshine and I hope your peers use your experience to learn and not judge. I'm genuinely hurt for you. Hugs and kisses boo

Hey love I hope you are doing well now and I hope you have found peace and love in your life right now, I hope you are in a safe space 🤍I wish you nothing but the best in your life 🤍everything happens for a reason in a certain time 🤍continue to pray and trust God's will 🤍

So glad you're alive and here today. Take your time healing you.

Yoh did I just cry the whole 30minutes 🤧😢 No women deserves this kind of trauma but nonetheless I am happy you are healing. Love ❤

Hope you heal mama❤️.Last year I was once in your situation where people judged me and some didn't even know the side of my story and some didn't even know me.Here I am I'm doing the most now.Heal mama❤️

Letting go is a journey shame, today you'll wake up feeling like you've moved on, tomorrow you wake up feeling worse yooh! But at some point we have to choose our peace.

Yohh im crying 💔💔. You’re so strong Cyan❤️❤️. Sending love !!

Not me crying whenever you were crying throughout the video. Sending love and hugs sis😘😘❤️❤️ Congratulations on your car babes

keep going mama, we’re almost there ❤️ you’re going to be okay and you will be happy even if it’s not tomorrow or next week🫂.

You ask yourself again and again: "What did I do to deserve this?" but never suspect that the answer is "nothing" I'm sorry that you had to go through so much but damn it's so refreshing to see that I'm not the only one who struggles, I'm not the only one who cries and cries and feels like this pain is never going to end. It's so hard separating from someone you love with your entire heart and it's heartbreaking when they become somebody else and make you question if they ever really loved you. It scares me to see that it took you so long to heal because I wake up every morning and ask myself "how am I going to be okay?" But I guess, one day at a time. Even though it does feel like the pain progressively gets worse.

I love you so much n stay blessed…I lost myself to depression,trauma,panic attack but you really motivate me to pick myself up n b me again ✨…you are an inspiration shm❤️

Yoh Cyan😭you really went through it yoh💔but I'm glad you getting better and fighting all the negativity coming your way🙏🏾💪🏽❤

I was going through the similar situation like this since last year and I started being myself again and started to full in love with myself ….. it was a the hardest journey ever and yeah men God also pull through I’m sorry that you wanted through that and I love you hun ❤️😍

I feel like neh, you are so gang lucky or blessed that you went through this and you had money still.... people be going through the same heartbreak and they poor, yohhh!!😭😭.....

Am I the only that is experiencing a problem with the stream,my phone says there’s no stream😭

I literally cried😭...you prove all the time how strong you are and no matter what life throws at you but at the end wafenya ngwanyana🔥🔥🔥💋... We love you sis keep going. She's in her bag and haters will always hate😘😘😘❤️

Deeply inspired, and could relate to your healing journey 🥺. The best thing you can do for yourself is to make better choices and move forward keeping in mind the bigger picture 💕.

Hey sis I pray you heal from all that’s happening 🥺 you deserve all the good things and love too❤️ another thing I admire your strength to come here and share your pain with us🥺 you are one strong lady 🤞🏽❤️

You’re real ❤️❤️🥺I love that for you Boo 💕💕

My boyfriend has been hurting me but now i am okay and i have been crying the whole month yoh i loved that boy😢

All I want to do is just give you a hug boujee❤️❤️❤️love and light sis ,I pray you continue to heal !!!

I relate to everything that you went through sis,it's really traumatic and painful. I'm so sorry that you had to go through all this but continue to be strong and have faith in God❤.

I hope your doing great step by step sis ❤️we can’t feel your pain but we will tell positive things to make you heal you make us happy ❤️you deserve better we love you and your the best nothing less ❤️🫀🙏

Man, I cried throughout the video. I’m so sorry you had to experience so much in such a short time frame

I don't want to lie I'm going through the same thing and it really hurts cause the only thing that's on your mind is the pain and your only goal is to heal and I hope I heal cause literally everyday is the worst day I just wish I could forget about everything and I really pray to God that I heal and to all those who are going through this I hope you heal and you get stronger just know that God gives his strongest soldiers the toughest battles and I know that one day I'll look back and all of this will just be a memory that made me a better version of myself 🙏

Is it true about the HIV allegations x if it’s true do you mind doing a video about it to help young girls too

You must really stop putting wrong people in Ur circle keep Ur circle small and push stop trusting people easily stop letting fucked up people get to you and you strong love you😩♥️🥺

What stood out for me was how you dusted yourself babe and made sure that you prove the fact that you can do things for yourself without masculine aid girl. Thank you so much for sharing this healing process with us. I hope God showers you with protection and His blessings❤

Hey cyan, I'm so proud of you mama❤, you deserve it all and more 💖

This was so sad to watch, glad you've pulled yourself towards yourself. Love and light ❤

thank you for letting us in 🤍thank you for being vulnerable with us 🤍 you are so strong no one ever knows what happens behind closed doors 🤍 may God bless you sthandwa sam you deserve so much 🤍we love you mama 💝

Men will never understand how much they hurt us it’s always, how we react that’s important

You are strong. You are beautiful and you will get through this . Congrats on your baby 💖

I honour you Zuma...🤗 and no it's not a joke, there's purpose in your name ...seek it and fully embrace it ...much love your Honour !😎😎😎

To more wins Cyan💞 Stay shining You got this 💫

Cyan Babe I’ve been following you ever since and I always stand up for you even people think supporting you is stupid,you deserve everything moGirl you are young and very smart.don’t worry everything will be okay love n light honey❤️🥂

I love you more each time, because of how raw and honest you are and it makes me resonate with you more and more. I feel your pain too. On the brighter side of things, congratulations on the car. ♥️

This video is everything felt every emotion that was happening 🥺❤️ & i love how Cyan is so strong & how she Bounce back‼️😍 i love her man she’s everything ( love& light & grace upon grace mama)🥺🥺❤️❤️

The fact that you could share this with us is everything❤️❤️we love you so much❤️

You’re so young to be going through all of this 😞sending you lots of love and light . Everything will work out eventually ❤️

Take some time Sweetie Allow yourself to feel every emotion you feel at that time And not all days are the same Cause healing is all bout you😌 You accepting the situation as it is You forgiving yourself for the bad things and decisions You finding your peace within yourself You healing from what's broken and from past traumas And accepting that whatever happens, happens for a reason And you may not find it now but sooner or later you will Also by finding yourself Knowing what you deserve and what you want from life And becoming the best version of yourself I love you Get well soon

We love you cyan boujee never lose hope my girl, love and light your way ❤️🕯

This is so beautiful to watch! Sending you hugs and kisses. 🤗