My hearing is broken :( 

Awful news Dan, The community is here for you regardless Kickstarter for private medical service?

Sucks so much Dan. Fingers crossed for you, hope you can get it fixed. We're all rooting for you

I suffer from the same problem all brought on from an ear infection 5 years ago. It started with loss of balance to begin with that went away quickly and left me with a ringing in my ear. Then I got the crackling of the Eustachian tube and pulsating tinnitus in the form of a heart beat sound in my ear. What i can tell you is for me it eventually improved. My brain habituated to the sounds. I still have the tinnitus but most of the time i never hear it. And I also still have the crackling when I swallow, but that has improved to a point where i only hear it if I stop and think about it. Sorry I don't have a cure to share with you Dan. I do know what you're going through and I really hope your symptoms improve soon like they did for me. It did take a couple of years before the pulsating tinnitus and the crackling improved to a point where it didn't bother me. As you probably know from doing your own research the ear infection has damaged the tiny bones in your inner ear that have caused the phantom sounds if you have any. And the crackling sounds is the Eustachian tube sticking together creating a pop/crackling noise. Keep listening to music but keep the volume to a reasonable level until your symptoms improve. The brain should habituate to the sounds in time. However, still go and see your ENT to make sure nothing else can be done in the mean time. It will improve the just keep on being strong and don't let it get you down too much.

im so sorry to hear that

Damn it, hope youll get okay

Always have our support dude! Keep everything up.

I can't believe ur still making vids with this problem u are absolutely amazing dan

Dan, we can wait! You can stop for a while, and get this cleared up, we won't leave! Better have to wait then have to say goodbye to you. Get well soon!

I know how hard it is. Also with having Aspergers and depression and such doctors just LOVE blaming that as the cause of everything, and straight up diagnose it as "being in your head", "You're making it up", "You're lying". Keep strong Daniel, your music has helped me get through many days, and you've made me a stronger person.

Now, if you all think for a second... this almost makes Dan Bull the modern-day Beethoven. Beethoven was deaf, and created some of the world's best music. Dan bull has ear problems, but still raps like a god

i feel so sorry for you man, hope you one day will get better :(

Damn. Get well soon Dan! I've already been fighting hearing problems for my whole life. It's hard. Hang in there man!

I'm so sorry :(

We're all here for you man. Don't give up!

Hey Dan, to help keep your spirits up I'm going to tell you something about yourself you had no idea existed. On my iPhone I have a playlist of all of your music from iTunes that I listen to whenever I'm feeling down or I have some photography to do. I throw it on and listen to your voice rapping about games and holes, complaints and halos and it changes my mood so much and it doubles my work quality and output. Keep doing what you're doing and keep your chin up because you touch and influence so many people in so many ways and I don't think that any of us who listen to you could ever imagine a world without Dan Bull (Douglby)

Thanks for sharing Dan, hopefully this clears up in time. Sorry to hear about it.

I know how you feel mate. Since 2007 my right ears hearing got worst and worst, right to the point of me losing 50% hearing in my right ear. After 2 unsuccessful surgeries, I've end up losing about 50% in my left ear as well... After being "officially half deaf", about a year ago, I've started using hearing aids, for both ears. I was always into music, and this has affected me and pushed me down with making music, but after finding your channel few years ago, I've started writing again and actually recording it. You might not remember me, but we've spoken few times on Twitter and private pms on youtube. Don't let it get you down, you're a source of inspiration and that alone can never be beaten!

This really seems like a case of waiting for too long expecting the best and getting the worst. It's a terrible thing to do and I don't recommend it at the least. I had ear problems of my own and waited too long, almost went deaf. I also had a small protrusion in my neck waited too long; ended up with throat cancer, go figure. You really just can't be afraid to reach out and tell someone, because a little help never hurt anybody. It's what saved my life and it very well may do the same to you.

I'm sorry that I can't help Dan. I just hope and wish that you get GOOD help for your eyes and ears. You're an inspiration man, truly. x

You're really brave to share this with your audience Dan and you still continue to inspire all of us. As your music progression has shown you're seemingly near indestructible and you always work your ass off, no matter what's going on. Don't worry about taking a break because you more than deserve it. You're always so good to us and do the best you can all the time. Doctors can be a pain in the ass and it's always tempting to break their jaws, so really you just gotta nag them. Good luck Dan, we're here for you all the way.

Dan, you are one of my favorite musicians. I can't pretend to understand all you've gone through, but I truly believe you have what it takes to beat this even if you don't know how. Stay strong.

***** Some causes of ear popping are tinnitus, common colds, nasal allergies such as hay fever,etc; , middle ear infections, Meniere's disease or fluid in the ear from swimming or showering, ; sinus infections; TMJ; or poss sensoneural hearing loss. So why does my ear sometimes make funny crackling & popping noises? Earwax or even a piece of hair could be lying on top of the eardrum and when the eardrum vibrates, it may cause funny noises (just like a piece of string on a lightly beating drum). Obviously, treatment is by removal. Eustachian Tube Dysfunction can also cause crackling/popping noises. Given the eustachian tube is lined with mucosa which is moist, sometimes the surface may become sticky from inflammation such that any movement whether it be an opening motion or sliding would cause crackling/popping noises. Again, treatment in this case is with steroids nasal sprays for a period of about 6 weeks.

ah man thats really not good, srry to hear about that bro, hope it gets better

I used to have the crackly sensation in my ears before - went after a few years. I guess because I'm prone to ear infections anyway (due to narrow ear canals) I'm not massively aware of it...My hearing is shit because of tinnitus working with dogs and listening to loud music, so I guess I've desensitised myself from it. Only strange thing is that after the cracking went from my ear...my jaw became very popp-y/clicky/crackly. ETD, however, is the fluid in your ear thickening because of a cough/cold...and I guess certain infections of the middle ear. Apparently inhaling steam with your mouth open (so head under a towel, over a sink of hot water) can help relieve the problem, having your mouth open can help maximise the amount of steam you inhale. Do this until your ears crackle or your nose starts to run. Then blow one nostril until there is nothing left to blow - then blow the other the same way. Decongestants and nose-sprays could also help as well. I hope it goes after time...if not - push the doctors for results. Don't let them walk all over you. I always think that GPs take more care with things, but that's only a small amount. Good luck! :)

Dan, you are truly an inspiration. I just wanted you to know that this video really helped to motivate me to create. I'm in college now, getting an English degree in the hopes that it will help me to become an author. But because of all my classes and my job I've gotten out of the practice of simply sitting down and writing. But if you can persevere and make creative content despite all the crap that you are going through, then what the hell is my excuse? Thank you, and just know that your work does make a difference, and I will support you no matter what happens, as will the thousands of others that you have moved with your work.. Keep up the good fight!

Merry Christmas Dan! and keep Fighting! the world needs people like you; heroes of the creative people! Good luck!

Hope you get better mate!

You tube is dead Dan. U deserve multi platinum status. I buy all your I tunes stuff. Love your work. Your raps are absolutely the best. Bless you bro

I have had that exact problem! For about 6 months, it does go over time

Get better, man. You are amazing, you have actual talent, don't give up!

I sincerly hope you'll get better soon, Dan. I know how down you can feel when health problems keep piling up, so even if it's not on the same level i kinda know how you feel and... yeah, keep fighting, it'll get better. It has to.

This has made me very sad

I saw this and my heart dropped. We supporting you dude.

Dan I hope you get better dude. I remember when I first started listening to your music. Your really a talented rapper and not only that you helped me regain my faith in rap music. Your living proof that people can make awesome raps and be just a regular guy.

Sorry to hear Dan (if you pardon the pun). I hope you recover man :(

Being depressed will just make it worse Dan, just think positive and eventually someone will know what you are going through and have some experience with what you are going through, I hope you get better soon.

Dan. Every day, I listen to your music. The goofier gaming rhymes, and some of the more serious ones as well. They inspire me, they're beautiful, amazing, well-composed. Wit and finesse come together on each track. I hope you know, all your fans love, and adore you. We all are out here, praying for a resolution being found and a comfortable recovery. The fact that you ignored it and came back to produce for us, is amazing. It's fucking insane. That's...that's crazy. I'm so inspired Thank you, Dan. Thank you, for being there when our ears needed your music. Now we'll be here when you need us. I know that love and support doesn't heal wounds, but we'll try. Best wishes.

im so sorry i realy hope it goes away or gets better :(

I wish I knew how to help you. I love this channel and the work you do Dan and I'm sure if you keep trying and looking you'll find someone that can help you. I definitely think branching out beyond RU-vid is a great idea and I will support you anyway I can. Keep going man! Keep pushing forward!

Dan, Please! ! This is terrible, Please don't stop trying and keep battling on! You can't just let it go. You need to know that everyone on your channel cares about you! And now we are just watching you suffer... :( It's not good to look at. AND it's not good to be listening to either! Your asking us to have a Merry Christmas, it's not Merry if someone you care about is suffering... I don't even want to have Christmas if I know your not feeling Peak! :) But for all the fuss, Please let me say, Merry Christmas on behalf of your Channel and Fans! and we hope to see you well soon! - Sean ;)

Oh Dan....I really really sympathise with you. Listening to you I can feel your frustration and your anguish and I'm sending you all my best wishes this christmas to hope that your pains and problems can be alleviated untill some decent doctor gives you the solution you need! I had to "shop around" to find a doctor who was sympathetic to the personal problems I was going through and now I've found one and it's helped me out immensely! I love listening to your videos :) Listening to your "living with autism" and Twitter diss raps are great and your Bard song gives me chills with how much I love it. I'm a complete stranger to you i know...but if there's anything I can do that might help, then please let me know. All the best, Beth x

You are one of the best youtubers out there dan. Keep up the good work. You dont get to give up just because something is hard. You will figure this thing out. To me it sounds like a pressure build up, like exactly what happens to me when I have a cold and im flying in an airplane. Have you been on any airplanes this year? It sounds stupid (and i feel stupid recommending it) but what if some intense pressure like high altitude could somehow shock you back to normal? That one commenter mentioned holding his nose and breath and blowing helps him. Same thing on flights. Hang in there Dan. Im sure a medical cure for this exists. You have very real talent, dont let this bring you down, not even an inch.

You can hear the anger this is causing you - hope putting it out there in the public does help you and you can find some support/fix for it! Get well soon dude.

Your "Kicky Kicky Flow" really made me happy when my pet passed. Don't give up!

Take off all the time you need mate :D We are here, we will wait :D

I'm sorry to hear that, Dan :( It it difficult to be at a place in life where you feel everything is hopeless, i don't know if that's how you feel but i have been there and i can say from experience that it WILL get better. You are a inspiration to me and i can honestly say that alot of your gamer videoes and epic raps are some of the most joyful i have seen in gaming. I get emotional from them too! like "Dovahkiin" i get wild goosebumps all over and feel soo warm and.. it's just so awesome it's hard to explain :P I also love your Fallout 3 rap, it just connects with me in a way :) I got my own Dan Bull playlist in spotify with almost all of your work, and it gets played very frequently I hope you read this and i hope you know you got all the support in the world. All you got to do is say something and there's a ton of people that supports you. I really hope everything works out for both you and with this youtube bullshit. Also Dan Bull hoodies and stuff, i would be proud to wear it!:D Love u, Dan

Dan, you're bright and gifted. Every time I hear one of your tracks, I want to be a "nerd rapper," too. To me you are an inspiration and a masterful entertainer. I hope you can find a way to treat your ailments, or at the very least your symptoms.

So sorry to hear this! Inexplicable chronic pain is SO frustrating, especially when it affects your work. If there's anything your fans can do to help, we're here to be rallied. Stay positive as best you can and take good care of yourself!

Don't try and push yourself Dan, just try and make the best of it for now. Hope you get better!

you really caught me off-guard with this video frankly i am touched and saddened that you had to reach out publicly to try and resolve a personal problem i can't offer you anything medically relevant but i can empathize and i send you my sincerest regards keep your head up

Gute Besserung Get well soon Frohe Weihnachten und Merry Christmas Dan

I'm so freakin sry to hear you having this problem, Dan. I seriously hope you gon get through this, get rid of it, etc. Your raps certainly helped me when I felt down and such. I wish you to get better. Merry xmas to you!

Alright dan :) gutted to hear about this really I honestly hope it either passes or gets sorted out. Not just so us random people can listen to more amazing stuff by you but also just because you're a great guy :) I have a slight ear problem that keeps happening every few months but if isn't as bad but still really annoys me and I know how irritating something like that can be :| best of luck with it and best of luck with the channel :D I also hope your eyesight is ok as well and nothing too serious :/ stay positive :D

I know what you're saying, Dan. I used to have those "cracks" and "pops" a lot when I was a kid, though only ocasionally. A pain in the ass, really. It just got better within years and today I don't have it anymore. However, some people who have these symptoms permanently point out that your organism seems to adapt to it and eventually extinguish them with time. So don't give up and hope for the best, mate. I sure do so. You are actually my favorite rapper, really. Ocasionally I just find myself bursting the classic "Skyrim Epic Rap" or "Borderlands 2 Epic Rap" for no reason at all other than for being fun. Heh Best of luck, keep us updated. o/

Hi Dan, I live in the US, and in the early '00s I started having random vertigo issues, and went to ear doctors and they said I had water in my right ear. But there was nothing they could do but prescribe water pills. I still had the issue off and on, and they kept saying the same thing. Fast forward to 2007 and I wake up one morning with a slight ringing in my right ear, and I noticed music in particular sounded almost out of tune in that ear. So I went to the doctor again and they said I had water on the ear still. More water pills. Then the vertigo started much more frequently, and by 2009 instead of just ringing, it was louder ringing, a crackling noise and hissing.. Preceding the vertigo, I'd have a full ear feeling. I went to a specialist again and this time they used this torture-like device that shot hot and cold pressurized air into each ear... When they did that in the right ear, especially with cold, I'd get vertigo. I also had my hearing checked and I had lost about 40% hearing in that ear. They diagnosed me with Meniere's Disease. I still have issues with water in that ear, and they told me there is nothing much they can do about it. It's 2013 now and I've lost about 80% of the hearing in that ear, and every time there is a rapid change in temperature and humidity, I get random attacks of vertigo, to the point where I can be outside, walking, and have it hit and I just fall to the ground. It's also starting to affect my left ear, especially in cold weather. I can barely make out stuff said on TV some days, and it's hard to hear people at normal talking levels. All of this, on to of the fact I lost my left eye to retinoblastoma in 1973, and I'm experiencing eye issues in my right eye due to chronic dry eye and high blood pressure. I can sympathize with you, and I really hope they find a way to get your ears better. I wish I had your fight and gumption, because most of the time I feel depressed and think about what it might be like with no hearing or sight... But your video actually make me want to start fighting against my own ailments, and I guess it's kind of nice to know I'm not the only one with dual sensory issues! Keep up the fight! :)

The exact same thing happened to me: ear infection, 1st left, than the right one, after the infection was gone, the crackling sound appeared on all frequencies and than...after 5 years... i just hear the crackling sound on sudden high mid frequencies...I just got used to it and learned to live and work with them... And no one has any cure... (I am from Romania so the medical system is a lot more fucked than the one from your country). Just don't give up cause you will learn how to ignore it with time, trust me even if I am nobody!

I once had this for a little while. Can't imagine how bad it must be to have it for so long. I hope it turns out fine.

Sorry to here about those problems dan.. just wanted to let you know that when i first came across your work it was unique to me and your raps have such lyrically integrity and are so detailed around the games !! Here's hoping your visual and ear problems sort out Mate !!!

I had something that sounds exactly like this. But I took a few ear drops and it hasn't bothered me ever since. Maybe you should ask your doctor about ear drops.

I never would have imagined such thing is happening to you right now. You know? you were one of the first youtubers I suscribed (and the basically the first english rapper I've ever met) and to be honest, I haven't listened or watched all your work but all the raps about games, some of your own songs and other work you've made have created an affectional tie to me. So, with this I'm telling you that your work has been pretty significant to me. KEEP IT UP man!! Don't let this crap win because if it does you'll let your fans without excellent quality rap music. My best wishes Dan, really :D

Damn it, this really sucks. Hang in there Dan! It really would be a shame if RU-vids bst Rapper had to retire because of such a "minor" problem. Stay strong!

This kind of ear infection happened to me when I was at Myrtle Beach. It was only temporary, thankfully. I don't know much about it, but I'd suggest staying away from water, and making sure all the fluids drain, if there are any, out of the infected ear without intermission. About the fizzing in your ear, it is likely because part of the tissue near the ear has corroded, or the eardrum could've been damaged. If it was, it'll be expensive. It's likely that the bones around the eardrum were hurt, which may explain the cracks you hear. Other than that, you should check a doctor or something. Best of luck, Dan. I hope to see that you're okay.

I really hope you'll find some sort of a cure.

It would appear Dan is suffering from a form of Tinnitus named Diplacusis Dysharmonica. One of the few side affects being ETD. Few things cause Diplacusis but I would put my best bet on that which whatever caused the eyesight problem caused this also and what with being a Music Producer, the strain from both fronts have caused damage. Treatment is there if you see a specialist but you must make the problem apparent. Many doctors will say it's temporary, reduce ear strain, wash your ears out regularly or other generic things. Both issues need to be sorted asap.

DAN PLEASE READ, it sounds like you NEED tubes put in your ears to stop the liquid building up in them (this is what often makes the pop sound).

It really sucks that you are having these issues and that you have to deal with all of this nonsense from doctors. On the plus side though, you have a community of fans that really care about you. And we all hope you get better soon, because we all love you and we have your back.

ok Dan. next time you go to hospital ask to be referred to mr Herdman he helped me when I experienced ear infections (turns out I had a massive hole in my ear drum) . he operates in reading though so you will need to travel there. he was actually able to fix my ear and its now better than ever! hope you see this because it really could help your ear! :) if he remembers me say that I sent you. get well soon!

Dan, you changed my life by helping me smile through hard times. You were the first channel I ever subscribed too, you inspired my video recording dream, which was shortly shut down because I was poor equipped. We live so far away from each other, but I feel when I watch your videos we are close. You are an amazing rapper, and vocalists. Thank you, for saving my life from depression.

i had a friend with who ended up with what sound like the same symptoms you have. apparently it was mucus built up in your eustachian tube(as you said). it lasted for him up to about 8 months it is normal for it to last a very long time especially if not treated properly. apparently you can reduce the crackling if you let steam go up your nose starts to run then blow out each nostril to clear them out.

Remember Dan, Beethoven was deaf and still made good music ;)

get well soon :(

This almost made me cry, we are all supporting you Dan, you can get through this.

Hey Dan, I had this problem as a child. I was very young, so I apologize if i'm a bit foggy on the details. I had several ear infections as a child. As I recall they were a result of my ear drum being busted and flooded with some sort of fluid. This was fixed a few times by having artificial tubes inserted into my ears, however it was only temporary. EDIT: What you seem to be describing in the video later seems to be at least similar to what I had, as the last surgery I had dealt with my ears, nose and throat, and i was no longer required to have the tubes put in. EDIT (again): I'm not sure the last surgery would help in your case, however I do believe you should look into artificial tubes for your ears, as far as I understand and remember, it's relatively easy and quick procedure.

Really sucks. I hope that a solution will present itself soon. I love your raps and your honest creativity.

This happened to me after I had the flu but it didn't move to my other ear. It took 6-8 months to go away i think.

I had the same exact problem a month ago, it was annoying as hell. I am with you on this. You will be fine after that amount of time. I am with you on this, and i hope you get better.

Get well soon Dan. You dont deserve this bullshit.

Well those 'tubes' in your ear do indeed regulate air pressure, they're connected in the back of your throat/nose which is how this infection must of crossed ears. Just because you don't have pain, that doesn't mean the infection has passed. This crackling is caused by the fact your tubes are blocked by a fluid produced at the top of your ear, then as air works its way through the liquid in your ears it pops out, like blowing bubbles in a drink. This normally goes away fairly after a couple weeks of an infection, but perhaps the blockage in your sinuses isn't allowing the infection to pass, which means you need to get rid of it as quickly as possible or it'll just build up and get more and more set in your ears. Heres my suggestions for possible fixes to this: - Buy a "Sinus Irrigation kit", will possibly clear out the blockage and allow it to pass through. - Nasal Decongestants. Pretty common, can find them easily. - Steaming, get a bowl of hot water and place your head over the bowl and cover it with a towel, so you breath in all the steam. You can combine this with a nasal decongestant like vics or albas oil. - Place heated pads/hot rags next to your ears. Reduces pain, reduces swelling, and increases blood flow to the area. - Nasal Steroids (from your doctor), would reduce any swelling if they're swollen, meaning they'd clear easier - Get a myringotomy OR pressure equalisation tubes. This operation would involve having your ear drum cut to allow it to drain. Ask our doctor about this. I would be surprised if none of these helped, but some require daily use and dedication to help. Get well soon Dan.

my advice would be to lay off the in-ear headphones (all headphones in fact) keep music levels low and alow your ears to heal, but ill advise you to get a CAT scan (it costs a lot) but you may have a tumor in your brain sorry :-( my friend had similer problems and had a tumor but he survived so good luck too you pal, peace

Dan, I'll keep you in my prayers. Get better soon, my bruddah. Don't let this whip you outta shape! You're one of the coolest people ever. #DanTheBull

If there's anything you can do to help with your ears and eyes, even if it means no raps, PLEASE DO IT! We need our Dan!

From your description of the "fireworks show" I would think that the bones in you ears are grinding together causing a nerve to be tugged on maybe?

cheer up Dan. Beethoven here says "FUCK HEARING!WHO NEEDS THAT" he speaks very loud but he has a point

As someone who has also dealt with depression, I think this is a very admirable thing to do. Going out and publicly admitting this to your tens of thousands of fans is a pretty brave thing to do, and it speaks to your character. As you said, you just need to stay determined and try to keep buggering on.

Fuck man, sounds truly horrible. I can offer no good advice for seeking treatment unfortunately, but should our paths ever cross I'll be the first to offer you a pint as thanks for all you've done both musically and for my personal writing and lyrical growth thus far. Wishing you a speedy recovery dude, the game ain't the same without you about! All the best for the holidays man.

Hey man, You are absolutely amazing man. When things would get bad, I would turn on your album and lay in bed just listening. The amount of thought you put into your work is really incredible. That is really awful about your ears man and I wish you the absolute best of luck with it. Just remember in the words of Tupac "you gotta keep your head up"

everyone is like: "get better man" and saying the same thing will not help i need to say something better something more motivational something that will be the prefect comment so yeah let's do this **deep breath** : you don't need to stop you can carry on those symptomes may be bad but there are 3 things that will happen: 1.they will EVENTUALLY go away(like the doctors said) 2.you will get to a real proffesinal that will fix them for good 3.you will die with them BUT to that point you'll be common with them and be able to make videos if you just hold there,you can do it,if you have a passion for youtube,you will not stop,you will continue,you will DESTROY EVEN THE WORST ILLNESS,and,we'll be there cheering you on,like always,so when you need help ask us,your fans,we will be your family,we will suport you in any circumstances because we are your real fans,and you gained us,you made an army that will follow you,and letting it go away by some symptoms,you can't do that,we will not let you do that ,because YOU DESERVE MORE THAN STOPPING NOW SO NEVER STOP!!!!!!! phew,that was hard,at leat it was motivational(i hope)

hey dan, i have experienced what u are going thru before. it sucks! but dont worry, all we fans are still here. hope u get better! u made me like rap songs, and everytime i hv freetime i rap your songs. so u hv really added color into my life. so thank you man! just remember, we're here for you!

i hope you get well soon dan :c

im so sorry to hear this Dan :( but if it makes u feel any better ur raps are PURE fucking gold. my friend played one of ur songs (i think it was skyrim bard raps) and i was like "soo who is this? this sounds really cool" and he answered "oh its this one british dude named Dan Bull" and since then i have listened to everything u have made :D and hope u get better soon! :3

WHY THE FUCK IS EVERY RU-vidR I LIKE TO WATCH GOING THROUGH SOMETHING HORRIBLE RIGHT NOW No matter if it's a painful sickness that won't go away or broken hearing pretty much every youtuber I like to watch is going through something bad right now. It's really depressing :(

Hey Dan, I have had tinitus since i was born and being a musician and a keen lover and listener of music its effected me my whole life. Just like you when i keep myself busy i can ignore it. I've always seen it as a positive since it's always encouraged me write better music and heighten my music analyses. All i can say is to push through for the sake of all the people you help with your music. From a first hand point of view your talent alone has helped me via inspiration and motivation through wanting to be as good as you at what i do. You have thousands of people supporting you so for us carry on. If you ever want to collab it would be an honor. Hang on man and don't let it get you down, James.

Get well soon man :(

I cant imagine how bad that would be, max respect for your composure through all this

Hope you get better dan.

I know how hard it is to fight through depression from things that bring your life down. Everyone goes through these times in their lives. Sometimes it's really tough to motivate yourself to get out of bed and do something. You feel like there's nothing good right now or in the future, but you have to remember that no matter how much life brings you down, you gotta fight back. You're an awesome dude and an inspiration for so many. With almost 438,000 subscribers and so many views, you just have to think of all those people whose lives you have changed. It may not seem like much, but every little thing that you do changes the whole world, even if by a tiny bit. Those tiny bits do add up, over time, and in the end, the world is a completely different place with you here and with the decisions you made. I love your videos and you have changed my views on a lot of different ideas. I'm just one person you've affected, but I know there's thousands and thousands more. I hope you're able to find a way to fight through all of this. Stay strong and you'll find your motivation again :)

I've had ear infections like that before (crackling and pressure stuff), because my ear holes are smaller than normal, and often get clogged up with ear wax which causes said infections. I wouldn't consider myself an expert on it, but I'll try to help. You could get a friend or family member to take a look at your ears for you if doctors keep insisting not to, just to check if it is a problem with ear wax. A flashlight will help with this. If the wax is really dark brown and in clumps then that could be a sign that that's the problem (though this may just be an indication that it's infected, which you already know). In which case you should be able to get some stuff to disolve it from a regular clinic I believe, though Im not sure if you're supposed to use it without direction from a doctor. If that still doesn't help, and you don't meet another doctor reluctant to do their damned job, you can ask a doctor to find you someone who can clear it out. They can do so via plastic syringe, which they fill with hot water and flush it out, if I remember rightly (they might use stuff to dissolve it before flushing it, I forget the exact procedure). Or they can suck it out with a thin vacuum thing, similar to what dentists use I think. Sorry if this is totally not the problem, or is something you've already tried. Medical problems are always hard to diagnose, especially if your doctor is doing fuck all to help. Hope it gets better, I know how depressing it is to not be able to hear properly. :(

Your work has affected my life The end P.S seriously get better soon :)

Dear Dan, I had the same problem. I learned that finding out the angle it happens can prevent some of the pain. I know it can be hard to eat, but after a while my popping started to get more quiet as well. The first year is the worst then after that it went away, mostly. Because this runs in my family we know a little bit about how it goes. Just try and take a break and make sure to make it a point to those around you. Hope yours lessens soon and be well. Though it never goes away as far as my family know sorry D: We love your music and it makes all of us feel connected. Oh I thought of some other things to say. There will be a point where it becomes painful to move your mouth wide enough to eat. Min got so bad I could only open mine half way. That is the worst part. Then when you accept it a bit more you won't notice the popping. Remember the biggest warning of the bad part is when the popping adds in a splintering sound/feeling and you know the difficulty is coming for maybe a few weeks. Good luck!

Keep strong man, you've got the support from all of us and I'm sure in time things will improve. Keep on making great content as you allways do. After a shitty day I turn to youtube and your content is always there to cheer me up. Hope you get better soon.