my hijab story (and why i took it off) 

I was filled with tears when she said " when you follow dunya , u will get nothin but if you follow Allah , dunya will follow you" - This statement is so strong . Thank you sister. It essences the life we live in a nutshell. Astaghfirlah , let all our sins be forgiven.

Being a hijabi is 20000% easier when most people around you are wearing hijab too

Farah, i have wanted to wear hijab for as long as i can remember. This story truly touched my heart and only made me realise how much more i want to wear it. InshaAllah in the near future i will.

Thank you for your amazing Islamic content. I’m a revert of about 2 weeks and it feels like a lifetime already (it’s an expression, not meant to be taken literally) just from the tests and challenges especially with the hijab and what’s going on in Palestine… but I know in my heart Islam is the truth. Allahs tests are a blessing, and I pray our ummah stays strong and continues to grow stronger. Love you sister and all our brothers and sisters around the world. It’s insane how I don’t have any Muslim friends yet but already feel a sense of community anyway inshallah. Looking forward to your next video!

As an orthodox Christian I am not sure if it is ok and if it is my place to comment under this video but you really warmed my heart and I got really emotional because that's exactly how I started believing in God again. And I swear I know that my angels are always around and I feel that everyday and I feel so blessed. I also feel blessed for your videos,thank you so much for warming my heart and reminding me that love exists ❤

I'm an 11th grader right now and listening to this literally brought tears to my eyes. This is the first year I finally felt ready to wear my hjiab to school and public places. I was so nervous about the backlash I'd get from wearing it and I've slowly felt more and more comfortable wearing my hjiab everyday. I'm still learning everyday and trying new ways to wear and trying everyday to put up a proud face and know that Allah SWT would be proud that I'm finally ready to begin my hjiab journey. Hearing your story helps and let's me know that I'm not alone and not the only person who's gone throught an emotional journey. Honestly thank you from the bottom of my heart bc this truly let's me know I can do it and I can love who I am looking in the mirror💞✨️

The way you wanted people to look at you back then, is the way i’ve been looking at you NOW with your hijab ❤️ you amaze me in many ways & You inspire me💘💘💘

This video made it so easy for me to continue my hijab which I was having doubts about, lately. This helped me to reassure my priorities to myself.

May Allah bless you Farah and bless your mom

This could be possibly my first comment on RU-vid after 13 years of using it. I couldn't resist myself but say what I felt watching you express your heart out 😭 I'm the person who is bad at hugs even worst at verbally saying 'I love you', but Subhanallah I kept feeling like saying this to you again and again and hug you and cry together ❤ It blows my mind to know how another sister across the world was going through similar pain (I was scared to fall asleep even by mistake) and later experiencing the most spiritual feeling on earth around the same time 2020 Lockdown Ramadan! Hit the lowest point of my iman (giving up on life itself astaghfirullah) My heart... I could feel the blackened hardened heart 😭 Allah took me away from all my blood relative and all friends just so that I find Him, see Him only left by my side... none but Him ❤ After a period of seclusion within my small family home, the best thing to date happened to me!! Can't describe in words I relate to you soo much when you say 'I miss that feeling' I too wish I could have captured it in frame... only if I knew it was not going to last forever(The fact that Iman fluctuates was a recent knowledge to me) Subhanallah thaaaat feeling when you KNOW you are loved by Allah the Almighty ❤❤ Everything else sets apart even your dearest parents Your video is a proof for me about the vastness of Allah's Mercy... His Love. Here I was thinking 2020 Ramadan was my special year. It felt like Allah was showering His Mercy on me alone sorry idk how to express it right way 😅 I pray you stay steadfast in your deen and hopefully I can better observe the hijab, in a way Allah is pleased... not what hijab style is trending! What a day the algorithm suggested me your video I seriously needed this recheck 😅 Jazak Allah Khair ❤

I think all arab girls went through this phase, because most of us wore it at adolescence, you know, hormones and puberty and being easily influenced, it was hard to wear it right from the first time, it was hard to let go of the "normal" trendy cool clothes and switch to an outfit that covers our body fully, as women it's natural to wanna show off our beauty, our body and our sense of fashion,so we have to control this urge, may Allah swt guide us all into tawbah and guide us into wearing the hijab properly for it is an obligation for all Muslim women. thank you for sharing this farah

You know Farah, despite the fact you said you weren't going to be nice, it still felt like you were being kind and your genuine feelings shone out far clearer and brighter. If anything you were welcoming and nothing about this felt like you were scaring us from the hijab or anything of the sort. I thank you from the bottom of my heart sincerely. jazak allah khair and may allah grant us all hidaya.

Farah, I just wanted to clean the kitchen while listening to your video and now I’m watering the counter with tears. Thank you for your honesty. When I listen to you I always feel like I’m connected to someone who is like me. Jazakallahu kheiran

I needed this. You really made me cry. I do wear hijab but there’s always room for improvement especially in the mindset. Jazakallah.

I dont get emotional and i dont cry easily and it is hard to make me cry at a sad scene or whatever except nostalgia but i cried when you cried… and i felt your emotions… i am already thinking of wearing hijab soon InshaAllah… May Allah (swt) make it easier for you and everyone else that is going through this ❤❤❤❤

You talking about chasing Dunia VS chasing Akhirah reminded me of this beautiful hadith.. من كانتِ الآخرةُ هَمَّهُ جعلَ اللَّهُ غناهُ في قلبِهِ وجمعَ لَه شملَهُ وأتتهُ الدُّنيا وَهيَ راغمةٌ ، ومن كانتِ الدُّنيا همَّهُ جعلَ اللَّهُ فقرَهُ بينَ عينيهِ وفرَّقَ عليهِ شملَهُ ، ولم يأتِهِ منَ الدُّنيا إلَّا ما قُدِّرَ لَهُ "Whoever makes the Hereafter his goal, Allah makes his heart rich, and organizes his affairs, and the world comes to him whether it wants to or not. And whoever makes the world his goal, Allah puts his poverty right before his eyes, and disorganizes his affairs, and the world does not come to him, except what has been decreed for him." _ reference :Jami` at-Tirmidhi (2465) I love you for the sake of Allah Farah 💖

ive always been struggling and i felt like this video reached out to me at the right time.. it's hard to stay strong when there's so many people, influences, boys LOL involved and honestly nobody rly cares until you make it important for yourself. so thank you so much for this video... cried watching this

I teared up when u told us about ur mom🥹🥹 what a beautiful cute memory الله يخليها لك يارب

Farah, I am usually not the type of person to get emotional when others are emotional, but at the end when you raised your hands and said “Allah”, I started to tear up. I have been struggling because only my parents and my sister know about me being Muslim and I needed to promise my (French) mom, that I am not wearing hijab in my hometown or anywhere near someone that we might know. I am struggling with my seen so much and sometimes wish my old life as an atheist back, but there will always be at least 0,000001% in my heart that will tell me: “But what about Allah?” Allahu Akbar, may Allah make it easier for each sister to wear her hijab

Your words reached me exactly when i needed them the most. 🥺

You are so incredible, authentic and COOL, Farah ❤ I follow you on TT for few years and so happy to find your RU-vid channel where I can listen to your longer stories. You are so beautiful in all the ways. Thank you ❤❤❤❤❤

this was so emotional❤️ i often struggle with my hijab, and its always at its highest when i dont chase the dunya and its lowest when i try to please ppl and low selfesteem. some ppl shame hijabis that don't wear it perfectly, or remove it, or that you need to be perfect to wear it... but your video is what we need! it resonated with my heart 100% i could feel the raw feelings we go through and things we don't want to admit on this journey... allahuma a3ina a thikrika w shukrika w husn ibadatek!!

I feel like you are the older sister that i asked Allah for, i wasn't expecting to find you this way, but you'll never know Allah's plan and it's always the most beautiful way, may Allah be pleased with you sister

I couldnt stop my tears from flowing . You made me become more attached to my hijab❤❤❤

Assalamualaikum ❤ Thank you so much for sharing your story, it really resonated with me. I’ve always heard that many Muslim girls go through the same struggle with the hijab but to actually realise how similar your story is to mine really makes me feel like I’m not alone and that we are all just working towards becoming better Muslims. And it’s videos like this that help me realign my purpose and priorities with Islam again, so I’m really grateful for this. To the sisters who are working on the hijab, it’s really important that we remind ourselves everyday, why we put it on in the first place and that is because Allah wants us to, and Allah is All-Knowing. In sya allah, Allah will guide us all and give us hidayah, Ameen❤️

I needed to stop the video in between, alhamdulillah I've never taken my hijab off but I did put it on super super late. And all I remember was exactly this, how I was just trying everyday to fit in to look beautiful to be better at exposing I can't even tell you how miraculous it feels that Allah SWT changes me within months literally months. I'm soo sooo proud on every girrrlll who has left the need to beautify themselves. Although it's still a long journey to get better and I'm trying everyday, but this video just hits too deep

Your mom's patience paid off. Masha Allah, she's a good parent. May Allah bless her.

Hi Farah, I saved this video eventually when I'll have children of my own and my daughter goes through tough time I'll show this video, Allah actually spoke through you to Me. Jazakallah sister.

First time watching you and bawling my eyes out. Thank you for not beating around the bush, it really hit home.

Wallah i cannot get enough of ur speech. I don’t remember when was the last time I watched 40m Video without getting bored. nt even for a second! I

Sister Farah thank you for sharing this. You didn’t need to, but sharing your experience is the reality that a lot of sisters face, and hearing this can inspire hearts.

Your video was so natural it felt like you were talking to me directly. I kept listening to every word and the only thing sad about is... it came to an end. I wanted to just keep listening to you. Ma sha Allah. May Allah bless us all with strong imaan and courage ameen summa ameem

Ive had a very similar journey to you but in many ways unfortunately mine was worse.. I currently wear the hijab but not modestly and was contemplating taking it off. What your mum said to you, and what you said about remembering who your wearing the hijab for. It really hit. Youre right, my priorities are awfully misplaced, and im chasing dunya. Thank you for being transparent.

Such a warm hearted video I love your honesty and the way you tell us your story😍. Litteraly I just cried with you 🥹.I wear alhamdulilah since 2019 my Hijab and I feel so special and pleased by wearing it. I'am so happy for you that you find your way to cover out that this ist just a dunya and the most important is our afterlife sister.May allah grant us from this dunya and sthrenght our Iman🤲🏻❤

Allah brought me back two days ago. I escaped the dunya and Iv never been so happy. This is a lovely video. I’m glad you shared it. I would love to have a friend like you. Love from Scotland 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 ❤

All the things you wanted people to see without your hijab is everything I see now. I am not Muslim but I love to listen to all that you have to say . I learn so much from you.

your hijab journey is so precious, you are making me cry too😭😭😭

Allahumma barik laki dearest Farah ❤ thanks for giving us these amazing reminders. May Allah swt keep on blessing you 🤲🏼

I may be a little late to comment, but i just wanted to say that i literally share the same story. I never actually wore the hijab except for Salah or mosque and I was extremely attached with my appearance. It got me a lot of insecurity’s and an ED (which Im still struggling with today). In lockdown i was at my lowest, my grandpa died allah rahmu, I had nightmares and sleep paralysis and was even questioning my faith. I did so many sins, may allah forgive me. Ramadan at this time did nothing to my heart and it made me sick. I was so depressed, I wanted to end it all. But Allah heared my duas. The last Ramadan was changing my mindset towards Islam completely. I became closer to deen but i was scared what people would think of me wearing a headscarf, especially in this Islamophob country where Im living. Still, I gave my trust completely Allah and today was my first day wearing the Hijab. I know It’s not gonna be easy. May Allah make it for every Muslim girl easy, allahuma amin.

الله يكتب اجرك ويفتحها بوجهك يافرح🤍

Reaches atleast one girl. Sis i think this video has been missing from the internet since internet was born! So i have a feeling this will blow up and reach millionsssss InshAllah! Thank you so much for sharing your highly personal story with the world, that too raw and unscripted so MashAllah for how strong you are Farah. And Alhamdolillah I'm so glad on a personal level, as a fellow sister, that you got Guided and are where you are now. Alhamdolillah and wallahi. Allahu Akbar. ❤

Thank you so much for sharing your story, with all the mistakes and vulnerability I love you I’m giving you hugs and hugs May Allah keep me and keep you and everybody on this deen Ily

I started hijab a few months ago…this was uplifting…thank you

I don't know why I'm crying right know, but it really touched my heart. I just remembered so many feelings and I remembered someone who really close to me and I think she passed with the same story and I'm just praying for her always that Allah makes her getting back to hijab and back to Iman and all of these feelings because I love her and I'm scare on here and when I told here that she just don't care. but it touches me personally not only for my sister.

Cried with you trough the entire video..😢..May Allah give you blessings for sharing & hopefully helping many others ❤❤❤

May Allah rise your rank in jannah! That is exactly what I needed to hear❤️ thank you so much Farah!

I have never related more to anything else, bc I went through the exact same thing. May Allah protect us all and guide us to the right path.

I cried..

يا من يحول بين المرء وقلبه♥︎

U made me cry in the middle of the night 😭😭😭الله اكبر الحمد لله على نعمة الحجاب I literally felt the same felt like reborn felt like I'm so precious to Allah that he wants me to cover my beauty so I do so ❤️🤍

This is what I really needed. Thank you so much Farah. Allah ya36eeki il3afye ❤️

Today I took off my hijab and I am feeling too guiltyy , may Allah SWT keep us firm Ameen .

I had 2 muslims hijabi friends... the days they "proudly" told me they took their hijab off (i'm not gonna lie), I never saw them the same. "it's hard, all the doors are closed for ppl who wore the hijab" blablabal... it's bull. They hate it so much... it broke my heart.

farah this is absolutely beautiful and so is you mashallah tbark alrahman !i’m struggling alot with the hijab i’m thinking of taking it off but your words really got into my head EMOTIONALLY. thank you for the message u sent and sharing this with us 🤍

This video confirmed to me how much your mum is so great you spoke about her so much time and i just can't stop thinking how amazing she ( I'm telling you this just from my mind but i think maybe the reason why you come back to wearing the hijab again is because of her praying for you)

I am a revert and I want to wear the hijab so bad. But the problem is my parents are Islamophobic. They refuse to accept that I have converted. I try to pray in silence I try not to bother anyone even with the food I eat vegetarian, so I don't bother her to buy me halal meat. Whenever the topic Islam comes around, they get very aggressive. She swore to get physical and kick me out of the house if I start wearing the hijab or practice Islam, I don't know what to do. I pray for it but still

My dear sister, I am a convertet sister from germany, I want to really hugg you, May allah forgive us all and send us strength, knowledge and confidence😢

thank you for being so honest about your journey. I converted years ago but only just started wearing the hijab in May. It kinda shocked a lot of people and some thought it was just a one-time thing (as I have worn it before for special occasions) but I saw a quote that shook me and I decided I needed to start fully listening to Allah. No one else but Allah. Like you said 'how could you not wear it.' It was so easy to make excuses. And don't forget Allah is always with you and waiting for you to come back to Him. Allah (swt) says: “Take one step towards me, I will take ten steps towards you. Walk towards me, I will run towards you.” Hadith Qudsi. Stay safe sister. Free Palestine!

Allahuma barikkk. sis i bawled my eyes out, may Allah swt bless you in this dunya and hereafter.. and reward you immensely

Alhamdulillah for the hijab. It’s a part of me now. May Allah keep us steadfast 🤲

Thank you for providing me the strength I needed

Iam really struggling rn bc my dad forced me when i was 11 years old and i didnt even start puberty then and he also threatened me and now iam 15 years old and i just feel as if i didnt have enough time to decide whether or not im really ready to wear the headscarf.

Just wanted to reflect 25:44 It wasn't a random moment❤️ it's because you performed سعي by listening to religious videos.. when we go a step closer to allah, allah moves to us way more. The thing is we need to initiate the action🥺🫶 I'm struggling with my hijab because if the loose casual hijab trend these days where the nick is exposed because you know (the hijab is loose) and your video gave me the push to change.. ادعولي pray for me

Assalamu alaikum sis. Your content always warms my heart. May Allah reward and increase you habipty

Ur so real for this wallah❤️indeed Allah blessed u with this platform bc he knew you’d be able to speak from the heart. May Allah grant u more and more success. I struggle with feeling confident in the hijab. I’ve worn it all my life yet I still have not loved me with it on and without to be Frank. We’re created to want to feel beautiful as soft female creatures. It gets hard especially seeing all the beauty around you in America. I loved this video❤

Farah I’m so so proud of you and I thank you deeply for sharing this video.

U do not know how much I needed this farah. Thank you so much.

Thank you so much for your honest and heartwarming words❤️

i love that you were totally honest ❤️❤️

i started crying with you

It’s my last year in high school and I have finally put it on but the way people stare at me discourages me a lot I know that they’ve known for about 3 years and I was an outgoing funny person and I had a lot of friends but now I feel like I have lost it all people don’t act the same they’re not as friendly towards me and that hurts I hope it’ll all pass one day

سبحان الله thank you so much will not be enough , today i was so distracted and cant joy the day because god know what but when I heard your podcast I burst in tears to let you know I saw the notification but I didn't open the video in the same day that you share.... just now i get weak and i thought lets open the vid then I listen ..❤ but the most strongest which it does keeps me more emotional when your mom said (when you chase this life you're never actually going to get what you want, but id you chase Allah this life will start chasing you ) you touched my heart and I think that's a wake-up call for me ............ .strong woman is not always strong because Humans are weak, but their strength comes from Allah my advise once you feel weak go and pray to Allah ❤❤ تحياتي The Strong Woman

girl pink looks so pretty on you mashALLAH

It might me better my ❤❤❤ if u start ur podcasts with saying ASSALAMU ALEYKUM 😊

Assalamualaikum masyaallah tabarakallah dearie .. I m Hafiza from Spore. Just wanna say subhanallah alhamdulillah allah loves us n thts hidayah from Allah aamiin yra 🤲 I have 2 twin daughters who are 29yes old now n alhamdulillah they've started wearing hijab recently after our family went for umrah masyaallah Allah is great. I didnt hve to force them & I make du'a to Allah for them to istiqomah n may allah ease their journey in their lives aamiin allahumma aamiin. I ve actually shared this video with them for their inspiration ❤ may Allah ease your journey in life & herafter 🤲❤

Im actually 25 years old and never really struggled with hijab until now tbh. I work in corporate London uk and mainly with white English people, I was born here myself but was always surrounded by my own kind of people until my job. Everyone’s accepting, but it’s become such a massive struggle recently, I keep looking at other women and thinking how easy they have it, they don’t have to worry about hijab and how they dress, they don’t have something keeping them feeling hot, I also get headaches from wearing it all day, and let’s not forget the long looks you get wherever you go and not feeling attractive in it. I am attractive but I don’t want to be hidden in the best years of my life, I want to be able to show my beauty. It’s become a huge struggle and I might take it off. I never had a choice when I was younger as my parents would have been furious if I took it off but now I’ve got my own place I can do whatever I want really so now I feel more inclined to take it off.

I'm a hindu and this made me tear up 🥹

32:02 that’s really come from a person who have a strong eman, may allah put your mother in the highest place of جنه

I might be ignorant about this but my Grandmas used to wear long scarves around their heads and they were catholic women from Mexico so to me the hijab looks pretty normal to me

salaam aalaykum ,i wasnt subscirbed to you ,iv seen your videos now and then but i saw this video on my homepage nd i was thinkin lets check it out ,i listened to the whole thing ,and i could relate to every single detail ,i completly hated wearing the hijab nd how it looked on me ,but now iv learned to embrace it and dont care about what other ppl think abt me bcz rlly they dont its ur parents and allah that do ,thankk u so much i needed this xx now im happly a subscriber :)

Thank you for this video 🙂💙

Mashallah sister Allah SWT guided you and I understand you from the heart. I did a lot of the things you mentioned. This duniya is not for the believers, I pray Allah SWT guides us all onto the straight path Ameen. Keep your good work going and spreading 🥰

In the last part i was making me ready to go outside Subhanallaah when u talked about proper way en who are u wearing it for i put my ghimaar on instead of just a head scarf. U where my reminder today from Allah swt.

32:25 wallahi, what your mom said about the dunya and chasing Allah instead of this world... I relate to soo well... I had a period of time in which I forgot who created me and gave me life, when I finally turned to him, alhamdulillah Allah has blessed my life in ways that my younger self would have never dreamed of... I was always raised within a Muslim community and was educated about Islam for years, but it's easy to lose your personal connection with Allah... May Allah keep our hearts soft but firm on this right religion and strengthen our belief in him and guide us on the right path 💛💛

Before diving into your video: first and foremost: Free Palestine 🇵🇸✌🏻 Honestly, the BEST video, because it shows the self-conflict that we all go through. One thing for sure, (which is also sad) is that even girls who live in Muslim countries struggle with the idea of the Hijeb (maybe not taking it off completely but wearing it the wrong way, or what is known as wearing 'less' hijeb) because of all the propaganda that encircles it (like: the freedom of wearing anything you want, and be who you want to be...). Knowing what you had to endure and then overcome is encouraging to all the girls who also struggle with hijeb (speaking as someone who grew up in a Muslim country). Two things to point out: 1. Know that you did something good (duaa or helped someone or only being conflicted) made Allah give you another chance and guide you towards wearing the hijeb again. 2. Know that your mom was praying for you and praying that you would wear your hijeb again the proper way, and the duaa of mothers is our secret potion! May Allah bless you dear Farah!

You are such a sweet girl and I wish all the best for you in this life. Thankyou for sharing. I wish I knew what it felt like to have religious parents.

Alhamduliellah, may Allah grant you istiqaamat,and increase you and accept all your intentions and efforts and sacrifices and may He reward your parents as well, Allahumma ameen❤

Thanks for this video, I felt every word that was said.

I really relate to her story i just hope that m gonna be capable of wearing it forever

a lot of us can relate to this story very well, farah

Mashallah sis.

I also felt like this when Ramadan came by this year

It's the 30 th Oct ND m watching this soft VD ...all luv ND respect sist ❤❤❤❤❤ u actually solve all ma problems ND "وساوس" by this podcast ...I appreciate tht a lot thanks ❤

TO ALL MY MUSLIM SISTER---> i really admire you all and respect all of you whochoose to wear hijab this is a hard test in this dunya and ijust wanna say you all have the heart of a lion and i askAllah to make youall sit in jannatul firdaus with prophets aleysalm Allahumma amin

her friend's reaction when she took off the hijab vs her mom's reaction when she put the hijab back on. She thought that her friends would cheer her for taking it off and that her mom would cheer her for putting it back on but her friends didn't really pay attention to it coming off and her mom cried and gave her all the attention for putting it on.

Not Muslim so I’m watching your content to understand your perspective and it sounds like as an adolescent that the hijab brought out the ego which wants to fit in with everyone else and that’s why there’s a struggle. So the act of embracing the hijab is letting go of ego. So that in a way is freeing I’d think.

Farah, I’ve been struggling lately. I wore (imperfect) hijab for not even a year when I was 17, (I’m 19 now), and I took it off last year. Im a born Muslim but my family doesn’t really practice so Im a bit like a revert. I had to teach myself to pray and all of the other things and I became really discouraged. So coming across this video even now is really really really incredible. I think it’s from Allah swt. You should know that this is an extremely powerful type of dawah and be so so proud of yourself.

I'm an Agnostic but in my bout of learning about Islam, I found your channel, and have stuck around since. I love your passion, humility and you're lived perspective on the Islamic faith. Much love ❤

To the uumah I say. “Do not lose hope, nor be sad.” (Qur'an 3:139)

i’m soon to take my shahada (this weekend) and finding ur channel is so helpful. thank u for speaking about palestine as well 🫶