I'm in for about 20 drinks a day (beers or shots or whatever) every day for almost 4 years. Shit feels hopeless to be able to ever quit now. Thanks for posting these, gives me some hope.
I didn't quit until I had fucked up and nearly lost everything. Part of me still didn't want to quit. After a few weeks sober my mindset changed as I was able to think clearly without the severe mood swings. Don't let that inner voice hold you back. 15 months free now.
ask a doctor for benzo, and stop alcohol....you will have a bit same effect, but no destroying your health, and it will be very more easy to quit alcohol
I was at half a half gallon a day of bourbon, vodka, scotch or what ever +a few beers. Rehabbed once, was sober almost 4 months, then relapsed. Had go to hospital ER ,then got a bed for ten days for detox. Needles, an IV, the works. Had a ton of blood work done and passed all tests, not sick, just a fatty liver. A freakin miracle I'm not dead after drinking like that for 20 years, every day. You're four years in. Quit while you're still ahead (kinda), but seek medical help to detox the right way. DT's are not something you want. Look up.
@@WhiteyThePooh unfortunately she passed away. I did all I could for the past 3/4years watching videos, communicating with her about the long term effects, pouring out alcohol, hiding alcohol, sending her links from the web to read, on why she needed to stop even talked with family members about the problem. me and her son I even offered to pay to get her to a rehab center she kept refusing saying she didn’t need help, even found out her aunt offered her to speak with her physician. It became a detriment the last 2 yrs knowing we’ve been together for 8yrs i watched her child grow from 5 yrs old to now soon to be 15 an I wanted to create life with her knowing I don’t have any kids, life began to get hard knowing I’m taking care of her and her kid alone while she wasn’t working. Dealing with disagreements, accusations of other women on the daily when I never did anything behind her back NEVER (I’m literally a work and go home type of guy but my looks and physique made her think differently knowing she wanted me to herself n which she had me to herself) and tons of problems everyday and on top of that inflation…. I wished I could’ve took a different approach and I often think what I could’ve did differently but as I think about it I can honestly say I did what god wanted me to do and did what was best for me by leaving the situation because I wasn’t getting no benefit from living together but headaches and realizing I’m doing literally everything alone cooking cleaning paying bills etc … As time went on after I left the home 3 months later we started to become one again and come to find out it started affecting her knowing we was back n forth to the hospital for other problems she had all the signs to stop AND TRUST ME I KNOW ITS HARD TO STOP AN ADDICTION BUT IT SEEMS AS IF SHE PUT THAT OVER ME AMD HER SON I was told that she still kept drinking nonstop from her child even after the fact she was gone have to remove her galbladder….it’s hard to know she’s no longer with us but I honestly feel as if god put me in that situation for a reason knowing when we meet I could already see the signs and approach her about that.. MY APOLOGIES FOR THE LONG RANT SOMETIMES YOU JUST HAVE TO RELEASE SOME PAIN
@@WhiteyThePooh You are right, but doesn't always work. I supported my partner to the 8th degree as he was born n and out of detox, being brought home with injuries after falls, or by police when he was found passed out in the street etc etc. In the end I couldn't deal with the effect it was having on our children and said " It's time to take a final decision....us or the alcohol" He waved a can of special brew and said." I'll take this". We had been best friends since 14. He used to be a highly intelligent and skilled man. Spent many years working in charities for orphaned children, bi- lingual, kind, caring, funny and a loving partner and parent. The alcohol just destroyed everything that he was. He died alone of alcohol related issues.😭😭
Thank you for this video!! My Mom went through severe alcoholism. She was in the hospital a couple times. One of the times she was in the hospital, she thought she was seeing people from her past that weren't there. She thought my husband was her brother. It was scary! But it's so important for people to realize how addictive alcohol is!! And people drink, usually to help mask pain! Please don't judge alcoholics!!
Of course it is!! I went through the End Stage Liver Disease. The symptoms are the same but the severity can be different for each individual.. Either way, it is painful. Don't Drink is not worth it.
I know too well how you felt looking back at pictures. When we're at our rock bottom, looking back of pics of that time is so hard. I never got extremely sick like you did, but I can relate to drinking to access to try to feel better from drinking. I never want to go back to those days. Extremely depressing. God bless LD.
It really is. I can see how sad and unhealthy that I looked too. I really don't like going back and looking at that stuff anymore. Thank you so much Jamie! God bless😊😊❤❤❤
I was put in ICU for having such bad DT's back in 2021, I got really bad during COVID, doctors and nurses couldn't believe I drove myself to the ER! Times have changed! Unfortunately that is what it took to get me sober.... thankyou for sharing!
I stopped 5 years ago (8 months in the hospital helped with that) but the way I look at it now is whenever I feel like I want to drink I think of my organs as pets. If a dog pulled you out of a burning house or whatever you wouldn't turn around and kick it so why would I go back to torturing organs that are fighting to help keep me alive. Whenever I see smokers I imagine their lungs screaming for help but the person smoking just keeps choking them.
I had a kind of similar thing with smoking. I was watching a program about kids with cystic fibrosis, and they were showing the great lengths they had to go through just to breathe normally. And there was me, smoking a cigarette and nonchalantly throwing my health down the drain like it wasn't worth anything. So I don't smoke any more.
You were so lucky. My brother and sister in law spent New Year’s Eve with friends this year… the husband got really sick the following day and was vommiting uncontrollably. The wife is a nurse and knew something was really wrong that afternoon. She got him to the hospital, his pancreas exploded and he died within hours.
So glad you shared this with us, AND that you made it through to a much better, healthier, happier life! You’re brave to talk about some of your very worst times. It must be painful to take responsibility for causing your health issues, but you also took control of your drinking and turned everything around again. You are in a much different and better place. We are all proud of you for making such a drastic change in your life, and in the lives of your wife and children.❤
LD oh my you were very ill. Thank God you listen to your body and finally got to the Hospital in time . Very scary and very detailed testimony. Ppl need to hear this. If you can do it so can they. I have seen patients survive this by taking care of themselves. Getting oneself educated and taking interventions helps so much. Ty for this and helping others LD Bless you 💚🙏🏻
Thank you so much mona! How have you been doing?? Hope all is well!!! You are right though.... people need to know how dangerous this substance really is! God bless
You have been through a lot LD. I was thinking about asking you to put up some pics of how you looked in that period,but thought it might be disrespectful so didnt. That transformation of health from then to now must feel so good. Are you able to do some weights or bike or some other exercise yet?
It's been a lot. But.... if I had not of gone through it all. I wouldn't be here talking to all of you and would have never met you all. Everything happens for a reason. I will post some pictures from then. I can't lift anything heavy, not with the varicese and I still have 2 hernias that I need to get addressed. I just want to make sure that all my pancreas issues are addressed first. Thank you brother! God bless😊❤
Been there.... I was given 6 months to live. I lost over 70lbs in 3 months, I had to take Carafate before I was able to eat anything. I was drinking 1 Handle of Vodka and a 12 pack of beer a DAY, my come to stopping day was when I walked into the ER one day because I was so sick.. my blood Alcohol was .60. I was in the hospital for 3 weeks. I collapsed when I walked into the ER. I freaking drove there.
A great PSA you're doing here. I hope you are doing well. The backdrop of where you are standing looks magnificent. I imagine that along with your family and friends aids in your recovery. What a beautiful place to be. Keep on keeping on.❤️
That was difficult to watch. I'm a heavy drinker and I have serious problems with it, but the level of alcohol discussed here would kill me. I didn't know it was possible for the human body to survive that kind of intake. You must be made of steel, my friend. I'm very sorry you went through this.
Thank u for sharing. Im a daily round the clock vodka drinker. Have tried to quit numerous times and failed. Will be trying again july 1st. Wish me luck. The cravings are the worst.
@@JJ-eb8eu I slipped up and crashed and burned. Kept drinking heavily all the way up until this past Wednesday. It is now Friday and haven't had a drop since. Wednesday and Thursday were rough with the withdrawals, but today I feel amazing. Thank you for asking.
436 days sober ❤. I was a heavy drinker because of the British culture in the early 90’s. Then I joined the Army! The Royal Engineers. Drinking was wild and excessive. If you didn’t drink you were an outcast and physically assaulted. Drink hard play hard. After 21 years I was discharged with PTSD I drank heavily but realised I was going to become seriously addicted and poorly. Now I’m clean I just need to get rid of a weird chocolate addiction that I’ve picked up. Sounds weird but it helped me come off of booze but now it’s a number one area of my life that needs addressing Keep going if you’re at the start of your sober journey Booze is a lethal drug that’s health effects have been criminally ignored by industry, advertising and culture
The liver is one of the heartiest organs in our bodies. It can take a beating for sure. I am glad you are so much healthier and alcohol is out of the question for you now. It's out of the question for me too in reality. I am pretty sure this last relapse will hopefully be the end. I just go one day at a time now. I just have to hurl myself full-on into A.A. It's been the only thing that kept me sober for any length of time. Did you ever use a lot of headache powders containing acetaminophen to get rid of hangovers or body pain? That stuff in high doses isn't good on the liver either.
It really is man. Thank you for saying that! I really hope so too! I know you have got it man!!! You won't go back. You are too strong for that! I didn't, I never used Tylenol or goodie powder. I always used advil and that's not good for you either. I can't use any of that stuff anymore unfortunately. I had a headache so bad yesterday and couldn't do anything for it. It is what it is. Thank you man!! Hope you are having a great day! God bless😊😊😊
Maybe you could find out how to blur your personal information? Those photos might be super powerful to help some people. Really trying to get my brother to watch your channel. Unsure what it might take. Very scared for him.
I am so proud of you. So grateful The Lord Jesus brought you through all of this. I pray He will bless and help you in your recovery. I pray He will help you and your family, and continue to give you better health. Thank you for telling your story.
To people quitting...AA has it backwards. Don't tell yourself you are an alcoholic and always will be. That is the last thing you should do. Tell yourself that you are finished with alcohol, and you will never drink again. Make that decision and really believe it. After that, it's smooth sailing. Because what you believe is what comes true in your life. If you believe you are an alcoholic and every day is a struggle, it sure will be. AA just got it wrong, even though they meant well. I am nearly 26 years sober. And it's been easy because there was never a doubt in my mind that I was done with it, from the moment I quit.
@@Blanca2468 AA is very helpful, overall. People should try it. Most helpful is the support that you get from people who are going through the same thing or have been through it. It's just that one major flaw that has always bothered me. A 1st-year psychology student could tell you that it's completely the wrong thing for people to tell themselves. In fact, it's the exact opposite of what you should do. I think that when the program was created, they kind of winged it. And, unfortunately, it hasn't been updated.
That program you declare is inherently flawed has helped keep 2 close friends sober for well over a 25 years each. Your appeal to authority is denied. Check your Ego.
@@evanpenn1 man I totally agree. I’m always thinking this. I will not label my daughter with that label. She drank too much. It’s over. “She used to drink a bunch”. You don’t call ex smokers smokers…
Thank you for sharing your stories brother, it says a lot about the man you are! I’ve been there too man..Sounds like you have a great wife! We owe it not only to ourselves but especially to the great people in our lives to be the best we can be! I You and I must be a lot alike in the fact when we drink we do not get angry, violent or do anything to directly harm others physically or mentally like some people do..That’s how it gets to these points though and why we get that far into it..God Bless brother
Your wife sounds like an angel I am catching up on your story and want to hear all of it, You titled this video my last drink, but didn’t tell us when your last drink as in this video.
Omg I remember feeling like this LD . Trying to keep the first drink down first thing ,I used to be shaking so much and throwing up and I’d have to use a straw to try and keep the vodka down . Then I’d hold my mouth but it would keep coming up ,the insides just cannot cope anymore but I would keep at it. It sounds insane when I say it now but I thought I was the only one that drank like this . 😢
I'm sorry Kristen. It's not easy talking about and going back remembering all of this. But, I know that these videos will help someone out there. It's worth it. Thank you for caring Kristen! ❤ ya! God bless❤❤❤❤
@@liverdisease-qb6rk it’s ok promise.. I have some big shoulders Proud of ya! Yeah looking back is always good to do- so hard stirring up the memories. Maybe you could give that part of you some grace,♥️ & validation. Look at you now 🤩🙏🏻🫶🏻♥️
Listening to ur story. You must have thought u were dying that day. And you must have been close. Hugs. (Ps omg trauma counseling for wife on that walk in).
The fact that you where popping advil with all thst drinking , there is no wonder you killed your liver😮 I have never taken pain killers when hung over , but I only drink beer and drink a fraction of what you did!! But I know im on a slippery slope , since my twin sister fell head first down my stairs with a cardiac arrest due to her alcoholism 😢she died a few days later 😢 That made me spiral into drinking almost every day😢 Im trying to take back some control and listening to you helps !!!
I remember drinking for 6-7 days and throwing up bile after all the food was already digested. Sometimes I was heave so hard that I thought something inside me was gonna explode!! What a terrible fucking feeling.
I would drink pass out wake up drink pass out my room was filled with beer cans and liquor bottles I never knew what day it was I feel like I waisted my 20s because I don’t remember much of it
Somehow your channel popped up on my feed and I watched your video about your usual day drinking and working in food service. Im a recovered heroin addict. Clean for 3 years now. I shared a needle with a friend one time and I got hepatitis c. I was running the poolside club and cafe at the Patterson club in Connecticut in one of the richest towns in America. During the summer it was hotter than 2 mice fuckin in a wool sock and as an opiate addict it was easy for me to get. Nauseated and dripping cold sweat bc my metabolism and the heat made the heroin go away it would only fix me for 3 hours and id have to get a notepad to write down what were low on. Sometimes I'd throw shit in the trash to make it low. At the time they were remodeling the bathroom and the locker room. Id go sit in a stall and shamefully tie off and shoot but it didn't feel good it just allowed me to function. Then id go to the walk in which was on the other side of the pool house and id just sit there for 10 minutes to cool off then get my nuts up to go and tackle the rush we always got near closing time. I made 120,000 dollars that year I spent over half of it on Coke and Dope. I don't think I could hack it as a drinker. Waking up dope sick is easy to fix. Your hangovers.. dude im sorry you had to go through that. I don't know you But I love you. Keep your head up. You're helping thousands of people. By
Hey there! I went last week and had a root canal done and a temporary crown placed. I go back in two weeks to have the permanent one placed on. Thank you for asking! God bless
@debbieoneil5220, I hope you get some help. You look very young in your picture and believe me, alcoholism and addiction just gets worse and worse as we age. I’m 65 and have struggled on and off and life is absolutely so much better sober. I lost my youngest brother a few years back to alcoholism. He never even made it to 60 years old. The help is out there and I pray that you seek it. 🙏🏻 Best wishes for your recovery… I mean that with all sincerity. ♥️
You have to see yourself being successful, lift the expectancy and the performance follows. People don't try hard to achieve a goal if they believe they will fail.
@@liverdisease-qb6rk the doctor lol U can ask me anything Like alcoholics us addicts get extremely creative to obtain a script. I mean that was 20yrs ago. I always say you can’t con a con artist. I would have done anything not to go through w/d however I had to at times. Counting days, when can I refill the script, can I refill it early keeping track of it all became a 2nd full time job. Now in Tx you can’t get tramadol. God knew what He was doing moving me here. It’s a desert! Thank God that part of my life is over.
@@amandaflaherty7528 that’s what’s so weird. How was my liver not damaged. They were 500/7.5 so extra strength Tylenol & Vicodin ES. I would take 20 & still start going through w/d. I don’t know how I’m still here honestly.
@@amandaflaherty7528 God had a plan all along. Married 7yrs 0 baby. Getting clean, taking care of body Preggers in 2003!!!! I look at him now and thank God for giving me a reason to fight. Something greater than me 🙏🏻♥️ appeared. I knew my purpose
I was in the ICU earlier this year for pancreatitis, kidney failure, and liver hepatitis. like others who have gone through this, I “ignored” the signs. I knew exactly what was going on and what was causing me to become sick, yet I still kept drinking. I was throwing up for an entire month prior to going to the hospital. The night before I went I threw up blood, but guess what, I still kept drinking. Alcohol is truly the devil. Thank God I made it through all of that, I’m 4.5 months sober today and still recovering. Thankful for another chance at life. I absolutely hate alcohol. It robbed me of my life for many years but I am ready to take my life back. Sending lots of prayers to anyone struggling, you are not alone❤️
@@miaxoill90 what an Amazing Strong Person ! Sending so much love and Best Wishes that you continue on you’re journey back to feeling so much better ! 💗💗
Your drinking pattern was exactly like mine!'i ended up so fat, but i think the only thing that saved me was that I would always eat nutritious foods despite the alcohol. I was 33 when i developed elevated ALT. The Drs told me i was going to die, soon my health would falter. I found out that i was pregnant on 25 November 2013, and i stopped drinking on the 27th Nov 2013. The Dr gave me 10 mg valium 3x per day 😮. I haven't had one sip of alcohol since. You are a big inspiration. Quitting was the HARDEST thing ive ever done, the cravings and urges were horrendous. 2 years, of almost relapsing. But i didn't. You suffered so much but it wasn't for nothing, brother! Youve helped many with your honesty and integrity. 🌻🙏🦋💙 Edit, i lost the weight Baby was fine, hes nearly 10 and a straight B student. He teases me about saving my life! Hes as smart as a whip.
Wow Carrie! I am so happy to hear this story of turnaround!!!! Your baby boy was such a blessing in so many ways!!! Thank you for sharing this! It's insane to think about how so many of us drank the way we did! It just blows my mind. For so long.... I thought I was the only one in the world that drank the way I did. Thank you so much for being here and I am so happy to hear that you are doing so much better now!!!❤❤❤❤ God bless😊
I lost my brother (my only sibling) to LIVER FAILURE. He was only 32. He had so many chances to turn his life around and then.....he had no more chances. I miss him terribly and always will. PLEASE, PLEASE people don't push it til it's too late. 💔
Youre a great bloke, as we say in UK. I really like the way you have replied to people's comments, you're a thoughtful and respectful person, I wish you and your family all the best.
@@christopherlewis1017you want to eat lots of fatty meats, eggs, healthy fat. Stay away from processed foods, seed oils, and carbohydrates and sugar in general. Also do intermittent fasting, the liver can and will heal but you must give it to clean diet.
You are not kidding!!!! It absolutely amazing what our bodies can handle! I'll never forget my last either. So glad that you have had your "last"! God bless😊😊😊😊❤
I can remember my last as well. So glad that so many of us have left that chapter far behind us!! Let me tell you, though, it's definitely genetics more than gender that'll dictate what your body can or can't take! My family has a long line of alcoholics that never paid with their liver function. I thought I was gonna be the first. Hopefully, I'm not! Once my financial life is back in order, I'll know for sure. But I think I turned back in enough time. But I definitely deserve cirrhosis with the crazy level of drinking that I did. Have a great day!!
@@amandaflaherty7528No You don’t deserve it. Nobody does but it happens to some people unfortunately. Just take good care of you. You’ll be alright. Lots of Love and Respect Always.♥️
You clearly knocked on death's door my friend. Thankfully death wasn't home. Glad you aren't wasting this second chance. People need to hear your story. Thanks for sharing.
What second chance, there is no cure for cirrhosis only a transplant might save a life. I am living Aldo with cirrhosis, but I'm not in denial about it. I need a miracle which Jesus can give. The transplant list here in vt is 5 to 7 years. In the end, all people die, people that never smoked but still died from lung cancer, pancreatic cancer is really a common one that we hear a lot of people whom pass away from it. We do need to face reality and still hope for a miracle. I hope that young people will seriously think twice about alcohol 🍸 consumption and it's toll on the liver, pancreas, it can bight your backside many years down the road. Just saying. I want to live in the here and now for as long as I can, reliving our bad choices will not change the outcome, it will only make you more depressed, because you can't cure cirrhosis, only a miracle or a transplant could possibly give you a second chance. We have all made bad choices that an have a devastating impact on you and your loved ones. We can't drink or drug our problems away. ❤
Of all the many blessings sobriety has brought me , not being hungover is up there. The peace that sobriety gives me surpasses anything I could have ever imagined.
I'm 9 months sober. I only drank 2 years, and didn't drink as heavy, but when I quit, I had bad withdrawal symptoms. I was dizzy for a few days, shaky, and had bad headaches every day for weeks. The further I go, the less I want to drink. Quitting was so worth it. If anyone has recently quit, or thinking about it, let me know, I will be an encouragement and stand beside you on this journey. You are stronger than you think, and your life will 100% be better afterwards
You surely have more lives than a cat. Amazing you survived. Sounds like you were at death's door. I just Googled hemoglobin levels and it said that less than 6.5 g/dL can be life threatening. I'm so glad you "saw the light" and ultimately did what you could to change things and try to heal. Makes me realize how dangerous alcoholism is to one's thought process: Even when you were careening towards death you still weren't able to admit that you needed to go to the hospital. It took your wife seeing you in such bad condition to get you to go. Your testimony is so powerful and I hope it convinces people who have any of those symptoms to be proactive and for people who have AUD to quit. This video in particular really, really makes me understand the tragedy of alcoholism-that it totally commandeers all one's thought processes and self-interest. The alcoholic becomes nothing more than a vehicle for alcohol to get into the body of the person. Like some kind of awful parasitical relationship. I guess alcoholics understand this process intuitively, but this is great info for loved ones of alcoholics to hear-to help themselves understand how helpless alcoholics become in the face of alcohol. Your channel has helped me grasp what my mother was up against (she lost her battle) and finally feel sympathy for her situation rather than blame her for her weakness. Thank you for helping me change my viewpoint. I can only pray that not even one molecule of alcohol ever passes your lips again. 🙏I hope you are ever free from this terrible scourge and your health recovers as much as possible. Even though I don't have AUD, I can never look at alcohol benevolently again. I don't want it in my life. You are doing great, great work by telling your story and helping save others! With tremendous regard for your channel and your work . . . 🙏👍👏❤
Thank you so much for saying that! I do not plan on ever touching it ever again. And I hope I never do. I'm so sorry that your mother lost her battle to this. It's a terrible way to go. I will continue to talk about this until I can no longer. People need to know that it's not an innocent drug, it tricks us into thinking it is. Starts out innocent enough, until it's not. Once it has its claws into you..... it's almost impossible to get them out. Thank-you for everything you have said here!!!! I truly do appreciate it! Thank you bejingbluesgirl 😉! God bless❤
I am so sorry for the loss of your mother... I pray that your heart heals, your grief lessens, and that you can find peace ❤ You are so right... alcohol truly is parasitic. A person's alcoholism can take a life of its own. Sadly, often those suffering from aud don't even realize what's happening until they're already deep in it, and I'm speaking from personal experience. Videos like these are so helpful for friends and family, for those who want to quit but aren't there yet, for those who are in the process and need support, and sometimes to help individuals better understand their own experience! I hope that this video helped you find some peace. Wishing you only the best, and sending tons of warm thoughts your way from NY! ❤
@@amandaflaherty7528 Thank you very much, Amanda. I have seen many of your posts and noticed how wonderfully compassionate you are, especially how much you try to help people who have AUD and are struggling. But here you are being compassionate to me who has just been indirectly affected by AUD-who is here to learn and make some peace with the past. Thank you very much! LD always talks about how people "hop on" in the comments to help others and show concern, and you are surely at the forefront. The channel gets its power from the combined force of goodness of LD and his compassionate subscribers like you! Thank you! ❤🌷🙂
Hey G. Wow you came so close to leaving this world. Your stories are what helps me stay sober. The day I seen your 1st video was the day I learned how bad alcohol really is. I truly believe that if I hadn't come across it, I would have never gotten serious about quitting. Your journal has helped me in so many ways and I am so grateful. You are always in my prayers . It's 2:45. I usually don't see you this early. What a treat. Lol have a great day. Love from Jersey ❤❤❤
Hey jersey girl!!! I've been trying to get these videos up early everyday now. Thank you so much for saying that! I'm so glad that you found me too!! Not just because it's helped you stay sober. Which is very important! But. I have also gained so many friends, including you!!!! Love ya!❤❤❤❤❤❤ God bless😊😊😊
21 years ago this July 9th my father died in my arms from alcoholic cirrhosis. He was only 47 years old. It was surreal because on day before he got really sick he was laughing, chatting and grilling. His belly was very distended and he did complain that he might have pulled a muscle in his back and side because it hurt so bad he could barely keep from calling the ambulance but he said he felt better aside from the distended belly he couldn't explain. We thought he had gas or was bloated for some reason. He said he would go to the doc on Monday. By Sunday afternoon he could not walk on his own, could not stay awake and was pissing blood. I called the ambulance and within hours of getting to the hospital he had thrown up a catastrophic amount of blood and was in a coma. This was the start of the last three weeks of my father and my best friend in the world's life. He would code five times in three weeks and have 2 transfusions. Every time he woke up he was a different person. His ammonia content was in the high 200s and he was suffering from encephalitis. The day he died he had another catastrophic bleed but this time from his colon. They were trying to get him a transfusion so they could get him stable enough to take him to nuclear medicine but he was losing blood faster than they could replace it. He started yelling that he couldn't breathe and then just stopped. His eyes fixed on the ceiling and he began to code. I couldn't stand it dude, the pain I felt was so bad watching him go like that. I just remember draping my arms around him for a few seconds and begging him not to leave me. They tried to save him but he was gone. My mother and I sat in the room with him for an hour. How was it that just a mere 48 hours before this were we grilling and chillin. My mother and I held onto him as he took his last breath. He was brain dead at this point but his heart was still beating. We held him and talked to him until he was gone. I am his age now. I miss him every day. It's the devastating way an alcoholic leaves his/her family behind. I am so glad you have been straight with your family and taken your family on this journey with you. I am so thankful you recovered and are able to be there for your family. It takes inner strength I could never understand to break away from this substance the way you and others have for you and for your family. Keep it going. Never look back. I am praying for you.
CJ, I cannot tell you how sorry I am for your loss and that you all went through this. My heart is absolutely broken for you, your mother and your father. I pray that you find healing and peace. While your grief I'm sure will never go away, I pray that it gets easier to live with. I'm sending you so many prayers, a big hug and tons of love. I hope you have a good night and a lovely rest of your week. ❤❤
God bless you! That had to be so difficult! Dealing with alcoholic parents can be so so hard. But kudos to you (and your mom) for being there to the end. A weaker person would have given up a long time ago.❤❤❤ Prayers for total blessings for you and you family! 💞
My sincere condolences on your terrible loss. Thank you, however, for telling your story. Others will learn from your tragedy and be spared their own tragedies. ❤
It's very unusual for this to happen suddenly like that, people typically have cirrhosis for years before this happens. There are signs of that but people will ignore them. Anyone who is a heavy drinker for decades by their late 40s should be getting their liver checked ideally twice a year. It's a simple blood test.
After sustaining a bike accident, one with numerous injuries, and numerous more during a 15 yrs span, I had been prescribed narcotics of varying types and dosages. At one point, I was taking 10mg (Morphine) tablets every 4 hrs. Imagine living life on prescribed opiates for 18 yrs? Today, I am now 26 mos sober. The first 3 mos were a total nightmare, but now I no longer have that urge. Life is very good
With a blood sugar of 1,100 It sounds like your liver was working overtime converting the alcohol into sugars. The soda probably didn't help either. Pain pills like Advil and Tylenol warn not to take if you have more than 3 drinks per day due to stomach bleeding risk. Thank you for your bravery and sharing your experience. Stay hydrated and be strong.
This sounds terrible. You sound like a really good dad and person. You were there for your children even though you were seriously sick. You are now helping people and providing information and advice. I hope you feel proud of yourself, you really deserve to feel proud.
New sub, sorry brotha you're dealing with the liver problems, stay strong and keep spreading the message, and i wish you peace of mind, health, to you and your loves ones.
I just can't say it enough, LD! You are lucky to still be with us! It's a miracle that you were able to come back from all that, I can only imagine how difficult that experience must have been for you! Now as for my last drink, I remember it perfectly clear. It was around this time of year in 2022. I went to the liquor store and bought a handle of E&J brandy (this was my drink of choice towards the end of my drinking career). This was on a Friday I believe, so I spent that whole day/weekend getting absolutely obliterated, I had a few beers on hand as well. By Sunday morning, all the booze was gone, and needless to say I was incredibly hungover. I remember looking around my room at all the chaos and disorder, dirty laundry, empty bottles/cans, trash everywhere, my stuff being out of place, and I just felt disgusted. Then I took a look at myself in the mirror by my dresser and saw how much like crap I looked. I was bloated, overweight, unkempt, disheveled, and you could see the sadness in my glassy, bloodshot eyes! When I saw that, I immediately burst into tears! I don't think I've ever cried that hard in my life. All those pent up feelings of guilt, shame, and regret came to the surface in that moment. That was the day I decided enough is enough and that I'm officially done with alcohol for good, and nearly 2 years later, by the grace of God I am still sober! It has definitely not been an easy journey, but it has been well worth it! I will officially be 2 full years sober in a couple of weeks!! One day at a time brother! God Bless!! 🙏❤
You’re Inspiring ! Brave Guy !! These Videos are so important !! Keeping it ‘real’ out there you’re giving people hope !!’ People like you who got into real trouble ! Not just I decided to quit and hey no problem !! 😘
Thank you so very much pearl!!! I really do appreciate it! It's my mission in life now to spread the word on how dangerous alcohol really is! God bless ❤❤❤❤❤
@@toma.6942 The reason they were addicts is because their life was pain anyway. The reason they live now is because they overcame that original pain. The new pain is nothing compared to the past... unless you really went too far, then it is too late...
Absolutely amazing. A friend told me how he survived with tribes in africa (many different places all over the southern countries) They would eat rotten meatand drink warm stagnant muddy water and be fine. So he did what they did and was amazed that he was fine. He told me to never underestimate what the human body is capable of. Absolutely insane. Another guy just went for a swim in pond and got malaria.... Some are better than others... reality!
Pictures of your vomit will help many alcoholics. All the real, explicits will help anybody struggling with alcohol abuse. Thank you again for your transparent facts about your alcoholic health.
I developed necrotizing pancreatis a few years ago. I was at work and was hurting pretty bad at first but it got even worse. I decided to go home and sleep it off but eventually I had to go to the ER. It turns out I was also developing a very lethal issue known as abdominal compartment syndrome. My liver and kidneys were shutting down. The doctors had to split me open like a can of biscuits. I, then, aspirated 2 liters of bile. I was placed on ECMO with a 20% chance of living. I've had pancreatis before but this one was the worst. I'm now a Type 3C diabetic which basically brittle diabetes. It was truly a nightmare and I wish everyone the best in their drinking struggle and also the ones who have defeated it. Thank you for sharing your story man.
Imagining that desperate time....something none of us should have to go through if we'd just listen to you. Words just can't describe....and to think you were brave enough to relive that horrible very close call.
Thank you Craig! I'm going to keep talking about these topics until the day I can't any longer. I have made it my life mission to spread the word on how dangerous this substance really is! It's not portrayed that way in our culture, it's all fun and good times.... until it's not any longer. Thank you buddy!! God bless❤❤❤❤
I'm surprised you didn't go into full blown withdrawals during that period. I got really sick before going to detox and couldn't keep anything down for like 18 hours and went into pretty bad withdrawals. So happy to have gotten medical help and to be done with that lifestyle, it's really no life at all.
I'm on day 31 of no alcohol. I'm not craving it whatsoever. I have a closet full of beer and don't want it, but I also don't want to throw all that money down the drain. I have no plans of ever drinking again.
@@simonjohn70 if a person can do that great. If not, better to quit and at first, or maybe always, removal of temptation is best. I’ve been sober over 5 years but I guarded myself closely for the first few. Now, I don’t keep alcohol in the house but it doesn’t bother me to be around alcohol elsewhere.
@@simonjohn70 I used to be able to do that. Now, if I tried doing it, I would go back to being on a bender. I couldn't stop. I'm on day 44 dry today. You?
It feels like your experience is mirroring my own. I almost died from a tear in my oesophagus through drink. I was at the bottom of a mountain during a blizzard in Scotland at the time aswell. So it took the emergency services hours to get to me
I never tire of hearing about your history and how you got here, to be doing this channel. I would love to hear more about what you do now to maintain your health and improve the health of your liver and pancreas, which foods to eat or avoid etc. You’re obviously coping very well. You seem to improve week by week. 💚
Thank you so much Jackie! I will do a video on that for sure!! Maybe tomorrow? Keep an eye out for it! Thank you again for being so kind! ❤❤❤❤❤ God bless😊
Thank you for sharing this especially, today. I had the apartment to myself all day today and I was really wanting to have some alcohol. I thought about what to do, when I knew what not to do... DRINK. Needless to say I didn't and I'm glad I didn't. What you shared today was what I really needed to hear. Thank you so much for sharing. Have a great evening!
Yep.. dumb songs! Every time i put my head back down on the pillow a different song came on clear as day.. i kept wondering if the neighbors had a radio on but nope. Crazy crazy
You are so welcome! Thank you skysmomma!! I hope you are doing well! Your interview helped at least one person that I know of get on the medication! Kudos to you!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ God bless
Fact is - men tend not to live as long as women. Go into a nursing home and you will see the vast majority of residents are 90 year old females. Whether drinking habits have to do with it, I don't know. What I do know is that my husband was a heavy drinker and cigarette smoker. He started drinking when he was 14 years old. Older men were giving it to him and thought it was funny. His father had abandoned the family and these were the kind of men he found in a quest to replace his father. He never was able to get away from it. He has been dead now ten years this coming November. My mother was also a heavy drinker. My father literally made a prisoner out of her. He wouldn't let her go to work (she was a dietician), wanted her to sit home waiting for him. She eventually took to drinking. My father blamed it on me. Of course, choosing to self destruct with alcohol is never someone else's fault. And it most especially is not the child's fault. Rather thsn looking at himself, he projected it onto me. I can remember nights we were all at the dinner table and she was so drunk she would be passing out with her head landing on her dinner plate. Later on in my life, after they kicked me out of the house at age 21, I too took up drinking. It never got to the point where I had pancreatitis but it probably would have if I had continued. My father's family were all heavy social drinkers. We would all get together at my grandmother's house for Thanksgiving and Christmas and they would all start with a kind of happy hour. So, being as all my relatives were doing it, it didn't seem like it was a bad thing to me. How I got away from it is a long and complicated story. I moved to Egypt for 4 years. I quickly found out that in Muslim countries drinking alcohol was forbidden and I could go to jail. Alcohol was available for foreigners but only in hotel bars. Go outside in the street inebriated and you could be incarcerated. It was at that point that I began to get away from it. And I owe thanks to God for saving me. I never picked up smoking cigarettes because I am an asthmatic.
