Literally speechless, everything in here I can understand. Been dealing it with 4 years. There are ups and downs but I know ill overcome this and be myself in the end.
I can’t express how much respect and balls this man has to share his story. I have NEVER heard of this until today and let me tell you. I’m deep diving and my mind is fcking blown. I just want to hug you and tell you I see what you’ve been through and give you respect.
guys i was like that for 2 years at least. (it has been a decade since then. i cant be sure if it was 2 years or more). The hardest years of my life. i wanted to put an end to my life. The worst period of my life. I think that i can say that i am fine now. I've moved on to a level i can have a laugh with it. I swear it will be ok. Just keep in touch with ur phychiatrist. I didnt use medicines and i overcame it. you will be fine i swear. I remember while i was trying to recover, i was shaking my head every time these thoughts came to my mind, because i was trying avoid any discussion with the compulsion and i wanted to make the thought go away. Anyway, you will be fine. This videos were not excisting when i had my acute HOCD, but i am sure that it would be very helpfull to me at this point of my life. well done mate, great work (from greece).
He is so nervous 😮😮 He may be taking a lot of to handle with this shit of HOCD. I'm still on the way to get under this sickness, but with CBT and therapy and meds I'll be ok, hopefully
Dude I can fully relate what I am stuck on that sexuality can change it’s been 3 and half years now and still stuck feel like I can’t do life not suicidal but more like what to do my attraction to girls is there but just not as much but still don’t like guys this sucks soooooo bad
@@Dub_97 thanks dude mine was very random I have never had thoughts like these in the past or any desire for men at all I just didn’t at the time of when it happed I was at work doing a 12 hour shift and going through a toxic relationship as well on of the guys there on the night shift said as a joke he can see why gay guys are happy they don’t have women in their life’s booooooom it all started thoughts 💭 saying I am gay over and over to were I was running to the bathroom saying what is going on almost didn’t feel real it was hell on earth now am doing cbt and doing exposures like watching dudes kissing but I just can’t it make me gag but she said I have to sit with the discomfort but I just can’t it just isn’t for me but mean while ocd is like it is it’s such a head fuck just don’t know what to do just want good old go lucky me back and not this shell of what I once was
Thanks dude as I said I was stuck on the whole fluid thing I no the comment had nothing to do with me I don’t think it helped that I was tired like half a sleep during the conversation.. the way the whole idea of fluidity came from was again a intrusive thought saying well maybe you I have changed and then I did the worse thing I could of done was like it up and find out that is can my heart sank and anxiety went through the roof just wish this never happed I even question if it is even ocd at times it feels so real and as for you question would I want to watch men kissing before this happed 100% definitely not it wouldn’t of even crossed my mind at all
Man! You have no idea how much this video helps me. I've been struggling with ocd most of my life. Your testimony is like a mirror of my experience. Thanks for sharing.
