My R {HIKARU STATION} (Daycore/ Anti- Nightcore) 

Backup channel ru-vid.com/show-UC7fFxoQN_-8m9nNYYnZe0OA

My Regrets, My Remorse, My Rage, My Requiem, My Resolve, My Reason, My Reluctance, My Reality, My Robbery, My Reflection, My Rooftop, My Rescue, My R.

"We're a bunch of depressed people telling depressed people that death isnt the answer." Edit : im not depressed ! I would never Self diagnose myself. ^^

1 day clean after being 1 month

i see ‘r’ as ‘retrospective’, My retrospective, the girl singing the song is looking back at past trauma which scarred her and somewhat guided her to the rooftop, she tries recalling her pasts selves and trauma in attempt to look for a reason to jump, they all sounded silly to her.

Sad fact: in Japan they take there shoes off before they jump to tell the cops it was a suicide and not a homocide.

and this is why i have so many " my r " versions in my phone. it's my favorite song okay-

Hello! How are you feeling today? -if your answer is "I'm fine! Thanks for asking!" go to part 1 -if your answer is "I've been having a bad time lately ...", skip to Part 2 PART 1; I am glad to hear that! You are fine, I'm glad, but are you sure? -If your answer is "I'm serious, I'm having a really good day!" then go to part 3 -If your answer is "No, I'm sorry," skip to Part 2 PART 2; Oh, I'm sorry to hear that. Do you want to talk about it? - if your answer is "yes, thank you for listening," skip to part 5 -If your answer is "No thanks", skip to Part 4 PART 3; That's good to hear, I have nothing to say, but just be yourself because you are great and beautiful! And if you've cheated and you're not doing well, then I still hope the best for you. PART 4; Okay I see, but whatever it is, I know you can do it! Things may seem difficult now, but it's getting better, you're getting better, I can't tell you when because I don't know when but I know it will, I may be just a stranger but I care about you, you are important, stay great. PART 5; Okay just tell me everything, I'm here to stay and listen, take the time you need. -If your answer is "bullying" then skip to part 6 -If you answer "the thoughts" (you know) then move on to part 7 -If you answer "You think you are ugly" in any way, skip to part 8 -If you answer "Other", skip to Part 9 PART 6; Okay, I'll tell you something; It's going to be hard and I know, but try to ignore them, people have already told you that, I know whatever they do to you. You are so much more than that, you are amazing and talented, I know that there is not much that I can do as I am just a stranger, but I will try my best to help you. Don't blame yourself for what they're doing because it's not your fault. Please stay strong with me. You are important. PART 7; When they sat on the song "Please don't do it," there are people who care about you and who love you. I love you. I am just a stranger but I want to live a safe life. There is so much to lie to, all the things you haven't tried are waiting for you and if you just want to end it then you don't know what would happen the next day, you are amazing and you are important PART 8; you are beautiful. you are beautiful. You are beautiful. And you know why Because you are you and that is beautiful, no matter how tall, skin color or height you are, you are so beautiful! Oh how do I know since I haven't seen you? I just know (: however, please trust me on this matter, you are important no matter what PART 9; I'm sad this happened to you, but I'm here to support you and I'll be here for as long as you want. If what comes your way is difficult for you, please stay strong for me and fight with me, okay? I love you. You are important That's all I had to say, I couldn't be here forever, but then I have to read the comment again and ig it's night, then get some sleep, if it's day then I hope you have something today ate and drank. Can you promise me one thing? Just a small thing? Can you please stay alive for me? dont like this dont reply just read it ok?

Stopped cutting for a week. I feel so empty when I don't see myself bleeding and crying. But I know it's for the best...

The 1 dislike is a mistake and they were tired and went to press share and like but they missed and thought they didn't so there

6 months clean!!! I never thought I’d reach this milestone. It’s been so hard and the last time I ended up 6 months clean, I started again. Trying to push for at least a year this time. I may relapse but I’m gonna keep going.

Nobody asked but I'm 3 days clean:) Edit:Thank you all so much for the replies!:)They mean a lot to me, seriously. I'm one month and 6 days clean now🥺🥺

15 days clean, only 15 more for it to completely be gone! Good job and luck to everyone!

Just as I was about to take my shoes Off of the rooftop there I see A girl with braided hair there before me Despite myself I go and scream; "Hey! Don't do it, please" Whoa, wait a minute what did I just say? I couldn't care less either way To be honest I was somewhat pissed; This was an opportunity missed The girl with braided hair told me her woes "You've probably heard it all before; I really thought that he may be the one But then he told me he was done" For God's sakes please! Are you serious? I just can't believe That for some stupid reason you got here before me Are you upset 'cause you can't have what you wanted? You're lucky that you've never gotten robbed of anything! "I'm feeling better thank you for listening!" The girl with braided hair then disappeared "Alright, today's the day" or so I thought Just as I took both of my shoes off There was but a girl short as can be Despite myself, I go and scream The petite girl told me her woes "You've probably heard it all before; Everyone ignores me, everyone steals I don't fit in with anyone here." For God's sakes please! Are you serious? I just can't believe That for some stupid reason you got here before me 'Cause even so, you're still loved by everyone at home! There's always dinner waiting at the table, you know? "I'm hungry" said the girl as she shed a tear The girl short as can be then disappeared And like that, there was someone every day I listened to their tale, I made them turn away And yet there was no one who would do this for me No way I could let out all this pain For the very first time, there I see Someone with the same pains as me Having done this time and time again She wore a yellow cardigan "I just wanna stop the scars that grow Everytime that I go home That's why I came up here instead" That's what the girl in the cardigan said Whoa, wait a minute what did I just say? I couldn't care less either way But in the moment I just screamed Something that I did not believe "Hey! Don't do it, please." Agh- what to do!? I can't stop this girl, oh this is new! For once I think I've bitten off more than I can chew But even so, please just go away so I can't see Your pitiful expression is just too much for me! "I guess today is just not my day" She looked away from me and then she disappeared There's no one here today, I guess it's time It's just me, myself and I There's no one who can interfere No one to get in my way here Taking off my yellow cardigan Watching my braids all come undone This petite girl short as can be Is gonna jump now and be free

Who else has figured out that my r the are stands for rooftop?

My r My reasons My regrets My robberys My reality

I'm obsessed with this song! UwU

oOo this sounds so amazing slowed down!!!!!!!!! Thanks for making this!!!

I see this song as my Reflection Because well each girl had a feature similar to them and it was like they saw a reflection of their own pain in others which lead to them to helping them but not their self because they didn’t realize the advice worked for them too

The braid stands for being robbed of love. The petite girl stand for different and not fitting in. The yellow cardigan stand for abuse and family not feeling and caring. This girl helps all these girls because she knows the pain because she has Braids, she’s short, she has a yellow cardigan. She is going through all of there pain.

Been a full 2 and a half years since I’ve been to this video.

Can i ask? Xd Do you like anime? Any ways great video like anyway :)))❤❤❤

Sounds amazing!

this sounds greAt :00

I’m 2 weeks clean 🥺💞

hot

I've been listening to this song since I was 6.

my r, my recovery

I have depression and PTSD from trama.

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OwO

Atletas the this video made me feel special to this world and forget all my problems in life and now I feel loved and happy

I can hit all of these notes! Yay!

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3:00 in case yall need it

Over 2 years clean...I wanna start again, But its not worth it...If you are reading this! YOU ARE VALID, IMPORTANT,AND WORTHY! YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL AND DONT LET ANYONE TELL YOU DIFFERENT! If you try to cømmit please dont...call kids help line or talk to a trusted person or even a therapist! I struggle with major ADHD and Anxiety, I believe in you! -Xavier

Nobody really cares but 5 mineust clean :’)

Sorry to ask but can you make a hour version of this you don’t have to if you don’t wanna tho also I love this

My R to me is My Reasons

It's hard to know that she is just singing about her self and how she tried

Is it ok for me to like suicidal songs-

amazing peridot

This is my friend’s favorite song-

My remorse

ITS GOOD ON 1.75 BTW

What do yall mean by clean?

no hate, but IS THERE A SINGLE JAPANESE VERSION SLOWED

Description: I hope you guy “LIEK“ it.

*.to anybody who sees this post.* it gonna be we can chat about it your life matter my life matters.*

I’ve stopped cutting for about two weeks now? It’s so tempting to go back to it, but I’m trying to stop :)

EDIT: THIS COMMENT WAS SO CRINGY. I came back here cause its getting harder again... I just dont know how to stop being like this and repeating this mistakes over and over...

For God sake please are you serious I just can’t believe for some stupid reason you got here before me Are you upset that you can’t get what you wanted

It has 666 likes. Therefore I must not like

I think its called my r cuz depending on the person that listens to it, it reflects what they are going through now “Reflection” “Result” “Regret” Etc The possibilities are endless It doesn’t have to stick to one ^^;

i’ve always associated the ‘r’ as meaning ‘my requiem’

I love this song, more if is daycore :"3💕

Oh mygod I love this song! Its sounds great slowed too, thank you for making this ^^

I LOVE THIS ITS PEACEFUL AND EVERYTHING A A A A A A. A A

Hey people! It’s okay to self-diagnose if you can’t reach out and need help! But please don’t do it cuz it’s an aesthetic or trendy or you wanna be popular. Also, attention seekers might just be people who need help. Let’s all do our best to tell the difference! -Suicide victim, gonna try again in march

Hi! I just wanna share something lol. I'm someone who's "emotinally unstable". Though I was not diagnosed by a professional, I just feel unstable inside. My friends come to me for advices and stuff and I listen tot hem and comfort them. Its like I'm collecting their sadness and mixing it up with mine. Confusing right? I never wanted this but I got used to the pain and said fck it let it be. At times I'm sad, I play this song because it literally is something I do always. Making them turn away but not being able to do it for myself. There was also once I stood atop of a rooftop and I pkayed this. I cried my heart out because I was no longer able to contain everything. I was scared, in pain and I wanted to jump. Call it crazy, but when I'm in pain, I just keep wanting to be hurt more. That was when I fiund iut about 'emotinal masochism'. Isn't being a masochist related to sexual urges? was what I first asked. Apparently, it's not. Im confused. I can't do anything. But here I am again, listening to this song because I'm sad. At least I didn't jump that day right?

is my favorite song!! THX!!

I just realised the people she was talking to was her, you can tell from the last lyrics, she took off her yellow cartigan, she undid her braids, and she’s small

UwU

In 2 hours I will be one week clean.

I always thought the ‘r’ meant reasons or my reflection

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0:06

Is it normal that I know all the lyrics here?

4 months clean :)

Can you do daycore with reverb?