Peep speaks to that inner voice in my head I really hope that everyone watching this has a beautiful life, don’t let yourself waste away because of someone else even if they meant the world to you, your life and health are worth more than anything any relationship remember that and don’t fall down the same path that is myself once did
this life is for you, this love is for you, loving you is the story of my life. what a beautiful world my beloved lives in, it's that delusional type of love, that shows you that true love exists, but fairytales don't. there's plenty of ways to die but only love can kill and keep you alive to feel it. if i spend my whole life trying to forget her, then i spent my whole life not living at all. we met in our first year of uni, i remember the first time we made eye contact, now you don't look my way. our first date, a frigid winter evening, my 18th birthday, just her and I. her eyes, her smile, her voice... just a month or two later, she murdered me, and kept me alive to feel the pain of death. time moves, now we're about to graduate college, but my heart is stuck in the past. she broke my heart but i tried to re-ignite a dampened flame, i have been martyred, but my heart yearns for the knife once more, why did God not call the angel of death upon me, before my angel killed my belief in Him. i am the funny guy in the friend group, i am successful, i have a scholarship with one of the biggest banks in my country for my studies, i plan on working to a masters degree. even though the world brings me no joy, i love to see the people around me happy, and i will dedicate my life to such a cause. if i can't show my love to her then i will show it to everyone who's there for me. maybe someday i will recover from this, its been 2 years, i am addicted to her.
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