I lost my 17 Years old cat last year and I totally understand how you felt. You will meet Big Mao again when you go to heaven one day. And your Big Mao is your guidance angel. He's always be around you. God bless you!🙏🏻
stay strong Jeanie. you did well and had a good opportunity to plan for the 'leaving'. there are many people who lost their loved ones without a chance to say goodbye.