My story of depression & generalised anxiety disorder as a med student - relapses & how to tell uni 

We are not crazy or weird people we are a sensitive people

YOU’RE NOT ALONE!!!!! We’re all human and it’s perfectly okay to feel anxious sometimes. A very wise mall Santa that I met, back in 2018, once told me that “even on the cloudiest day the sun STILL shines behind those clouds meaning that no matter how dark it looks, the sun is STILL there and the joy and happiness is there for you as well”. No matter how scary or how uncomfortable things get for you, just know that everything’s going to be okay because you deserve to feel safe, loved, comforted, encouraged and for those who loved you and who really want to help u and be there for you and stay by your side either way. Whether from friends, family or anyone you trust and feel safe with. I maybe an autistic women whose probably may or may not have had a lot of panic attacks but I can honestly tell u. I’ve had anxiety attacks due to my fear of failure in school or at work and not being good enough as a person and losing my job and I’ve also struggled with anxiety and depression for quite a long time so I do understand perfectly well the feelings of worthlessness, lack of self esteem, anxiety, depression, self hatred, loneliness, feeling trapped, frustration, remorsefulness, insecurity and the feeling of wanting to get try to better yourself but always coming out as a failure. Plus having been through Covid and being forced to follow Covid safety protocols like many others, myself, has been deeply traumatizing and extremely difficult for me as well socially, mentally, physically and emotionally. The point is, your anxieties, your depression and everything mental health related DOES NOT define u for who you are, it’s what’s inside your heart and all the things we’ve accomplished in life and the kind of person u REALLY are in your heart that truly defines u for who u are. Some people are not gonna always understand what you’re going through and maybe they never will but as long as you have the people in your life who loved and cared about you or that special someone whom deeply loves u and genuinely cares about u and will do anything in the world to help u to overcome this, you’re gonna come out even stronger and more courageous than ever and before you’ll know it, you’re gonna surprise people by how far you’ve come in the end. The fact that you had the courage to make this video and open up about your inner struggles and your vulnerability REALLY MAKES U A MUCH STRONGER AND BRAVER PERSON IN MY BOOK. Give yourself a pat on the back. U did an amazing job!! 😊😊 Stay strong, have courage, be kind to yourself, take heart and NEVER EVER give up hope because you ARE beautiful and practically perfect just the way you are in every way . ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

First of all, I am super super proud of you. I can relate to you a lot. I’ve suffered from anxiety since I was 15 and I felt guilty about it , about how I must be a burden to people to deal with. I bottle up emotions a lot and it led me to have panic attacks 2 months ago which felt like I was dying. My aunt passed away due to covid, my father passed away 6 years ago due to brain tumour and because of suppressing grief, I sort of developed health anxiety. For the first time I was on meds and then I decided to take control of myself for good. I went off meds, my panic attacks stopped ( it took some time though), fixed my sleep schedule, ate better food and even though I still feel anxious sometimes, I acknowledge the growth I’ve made. I’m also moving to uni in a few days to a different city, I’m also seeing a counsellor there. I’m very scared but I just assure myself that all of this is not life threatening, but is only my suppressed emotions. I just want to say, it’s very hard sometimes but just know that you’ll get through this, atleast that’s what I tell myself. Sending you lots of hugs and love❤️❤️❤️

As a med student I feel like dying before and during exam period because eventhough i am one of the best student regarding the results i have a very low self esteem and i dont know how to enjoy success and love myself, still am on antidepressant and xanax for a year soon. I think it is linked due to my parent traumatic divorce in my early teens. It sucks and I wish I could enjoy and be happy forever. Thanks for you story it was very relatable and I think you're a strong and brillant girl which deserve so much

I'm so sorry to hear about your experience. I hope your mental state and health improves. Take care.

Thank you so much for this video. It has just made me feel a bit better.

These videos are very great and eye opening. Very brave for coming out

I’ve recently been diagnosed with GAD and depression, it’s really scary, the tablets ive just started taking have made me not want to leave my bed, my appetite completely went a few weeks ago and still struggling to eat anything,the suicidal thoughts are so bad I really hope I get better, very happy that you doing better

This video has helped me so much! I have struggled really badly with GAD and Panic disorder ever since breaking my leg in October 2020. Your video really made me feel like I wasn't alone, so thank you!! Thank you for also talking about taking Anti-depressants, I have been prescribed but am fearful of taking them (Health anxiety isn't fun) but your experience has made me feel a bit better about taking them now xx

Thank you a lot for sharing your history. It helps a lot knowing that what I felt and feel,it’s not something that affects just me,you know? Thank you again,Tash!

Your amazing. Thanks so much for your story. I have gad and it's hell. Never ending it seems but thank for HOPE

Thank you so so much from a struggling F2 with a very similar story xx

Huge thanks for this video! Anxiety is terrible but we can crush it!

Creating the feelings of love is what has taken me out of my depression. It can work for you too.

An incredibly honest account Tash, you should be so proud that you had the guts to be able to make this video, it takes allot to put it all out there. 😊 I also have depression managed by SSRI’s, however before I got help by going to the doctors when I was feeling suicidal, I recognise allot of the symptoms that you felt. The message in essence was really just to say you’re not alone and to say thanks for your video it’s greatly appreciated. 😊

you are such an angel

You are so strong gurl! Keep going xx

I am a med student as well. I have anxiety and depression

I'm in tears 😢

Inspirational♥️♥️

Well, seeing the title i thought you were like me, but I study medecine as well, and started becoming a hypochondriac, and then I got more and more anxiety, panic attacks, i feel palpitations, i can't sleep it's horrible, even though i went to cardiologists who told me you have nothing, I'm still not sure if my problems are organic or psychological, albeit everyone is telling me that it's just psychological.

Thanks for sharing I love you so muchhh , I am 21 years old and I am suffering the same story as u , I was so happy in my life until the panic attacks disorder and GAD entered my life , I was diagnosed two months ago Now I am trying to calm down my overthinking thoughts , trying to stay grateful for everything, knowing that it is still going around at sometimes but I am trying my best to deal with it , surround myself with positive people and keep pushing at my university, but the question I want to ask my dr said that my treatment needs the Cognitive behavioral therapy and a little bit of medication “paraxonat” the thing that till now I didn’t start yet in the medicine cz Im afraid a bit most of people and specifically here in middle east region they’re saying no its bad you’re still young and so on … what do you thing should I start trying at first the cbt ? Or start taking the med ? Thanks and sorry about my bad English , wael from lebanon

I believe it will be better in two years

can you please make a video on things one can do to get out of depression... or if can reply..thts also fine...its been 5 years...still trying to figure out how everyone gt out of it

I’m studying to become a nurse and might even go to medical school in the future. I also have anxiety and depression. It’s really hard to live like this but I’m not giving up.

Look at you you're such a sweetheart people suck

Did these experiences have any impact on your grades, I’m in a similar position and this is my concern?

Hi did u have physical symptoms like chest pain, lump in the throat sensation, tingling, breathing issues and stomach issues?.... I was dealing with them since 3 months.. It was in the beginning of this month that the lump in my throat sensation got worse and was not going for weeks... I was dying everyday.... I'm on SSRI since 12 days and I feel really really good already.. I'm coming back to living and I'll take them if I need them .... I'm no more ashamed of taking them

Do u have a supportive family 👪

Find the most suitable meds for you. Take them. You'll be okay. Whole psychiatry shrinks down to this. And it's true.

You look like Emma Watson 🤔🤔