My Testimony | Jesus saved me from suicide, addictions, depression & more 

The devil would always try to make you kill your self because he knew God would take YOU and make you who you are today .. This is beautiful. God bless🤍

Such a beautiful testimony. You have such a light in your eyes because of the Holy Spirit. Honestly our testimonies are very similar. I was saved and baptized in 2012 after doing three hits of acid and ending up in a mental hospital. God saved me from staying in that crazy acid trip yet I still went back to the world 😢 It wasn’t until this February I got back on my Christ walk. Ever since I’ve been fully submitted to the Lord just this year alone I’m almost finished reading the whole Bible (267 days in), I moved out of my rat infested apartment, my husband and I got married, He got baptized, I haven’t been obsessing over being a content creator, I threw my doll collection out, my promiscuous clothing and shoes got tossed 🚮 I threw away expensive makeup 🚮🚮 Thousands of dollars in the trash but anything can go if it becomes an idol. I also stopped wearing wigs and have been getting my real hair done. The biggest blessing is my husband, kids and myself just moved in to our new home after we stayed with my mother in law for like 7 months 😭🙌🏾 God is so good and He truly is faithful 🩷

I FEEL LIKE GOD WANTED ME TO SEE THIS I CRIED AT THE END AND AFTER I FELT GOD'S PRESENCE AND I KNEW I NEEDED TO GET CLOSE TO JESUS MAY GOD BLESS Y'ALL HAVE A GOOD DAY 🙏

as a 17-year-old girl I really relate to you, the lust, the p0rn, the stealing, the suicide the drinking the fighting with family. It's all just so awful, I'm trying to strengthen my relationship with Jesus, learning about the lord, and all he's done for us, I've cut out the stealing and drinking, and I'm going to cut out all the sin in my life, and put him first. Amen

im very young, not even out of highschool, and im struggling with the same sin you mentioned. pornography, sexual sin, deceitfulness and lies, i know what im doing is wrong bwcause i know the word of God but i feel extremely stuck, ill turn to God one day and the next im back in sin, your testimony truly touched me snd gave me a sense of hope i thank God in advance for what he’s going to do in my life

i honestly cried watching this because we have such similar stories. right now i’m 14 and i already have so much going on. i always fight with my mom physically and verbally, i argue with most of my family, i feel empty most of the time, i’ve had a few attempts, self harm, lust etc. and watching this made me want to get closer with god. i’ve downloaded the bible app recently and i try to read a few pages everyday, and try to stay committed because i really want to be healed.

I grew up Christian but I also grew up very traumatized and never in my 22 years of living have I heard a testimony that I could relate so much to ever in my life. I want to get closer with God but feel so much shame but your words have reminded that God loves me no matter what, that even I’m broken he’ll fix me, if I’m dirty he’ll wash me, if I don’t have anything to offer him he will still want me. God is sooo Good, you are doing the lords work with spreading his gospel through your testimony, thank you and God bless you and Everyone reading this!

me and my friends in like 2019 loved u, I watched ur RU-vid and ur TikToks. When u first we’re saved by Jesus I still followed u but I was lukewarm and summer 2023 Jesus saved me 💕

Lately I have felt a shift in my life. Ever since I was a child, I have had an addiction for lust and I've felt so disgusted by it and I would always relapse and throughout my life, I have been so lukewarm. Recently, I have seen many people turning to Christ which inspired me to do the same because I grew up in a religious family and I want to do better and I want to do things that are able to please the Lord.

You wanting to get baptized when you were young was your way of accepting the Holy Spirit. Then the Holy Spirit continued to be inside you because you felt conviction even though you were choosing to still continue to live in the world. By God’s love and His almighty grip on you, you are here today. Welcome home sister! I love you and thank you for your testimony 🩷🙏🏾

I’ve watched you all those years in admiration (i wasnt saved either) not knowing what you were going through… its crazy how we hide so much behind a screen. But it shows that no matter who we fool we cant fool God!!! You are new, sanctified, made holy and now your are His!!!!

I am speechless. This testimony was godsent. I just turned 15 and this was very relatable. Very relatable and I'm surprised that many other young girls relate to this. Now I know that I am not alone. Thank you very much. Thank God for it. Thank sir, Jehovah and Jesus, His son.

Very relatable, porn, self harm, no present father or too abusive when present, bullying at school. Many attempts just before 15 including many pills. Told no one. Just went to sleep while my heart was going crazy. Bad relationship with my mom. i started abusing alcohol and addicted to raves and festivals at just 13. Im in my 20s and only now have found God. My Savior. 🙏🏻💜

I have such a similar story. Everything you said I was like dang so did I. I did that too, I said that too. I’m 32 and I’m finding god. Still new to everything. But I went to church this past Sunday and cried with my mom and told her I forgive her. God is great! May he continue to bless you! ❤🙏🏼

After you been in the dark for so long there is just something about the light of Gods presence. God can take addicts and teach them how we worship. ☀️✨🔥

It's all Glory to God ❤

This girl has been through the unimaginable. God saved her through that. This is so beautiful 💓✝️

Im turning 23 this month , our testimonies are so similar it’s crazy. It’s comforting knowing I’m not the only one, it’s been hard not having anyone to relate who also is a believer and my age. God is healing me and blessing me with your testimony. I used to watch you growing up and seeing us both grow in the faith is inspiring 💌 keep it up!!

Idk why, but hearing that someone dealt with that same depth and level of perversion...gosh its such a shameful place to be...but it was somehow comforting to hesr that i wasnt the only one :( and that truly its this spirit that takes you farther then you ever thought youd go, especially at such a young age...Glad to have been delivered from that. Your testimony is filled with hope, and your life will blossom for thr glory of God, and he has more joy and bright plans for you. ❤❤

I used to follow you, I was never a fan or a constant watcher but sometimes you showed up on my fy page, when I saw that you accepted Jesus Christ I was sooo happy for u like I've known you irl and you were my best friend for years lol😂 I'm so happy for you and I'm so excited to see more of your journey! your testimony is really strong, GOD IS GOOD🫶🙏

girlll i remember your old videos years ago with your bright hair colors!! it’s so beautiful the way that God has changed your life for the better. i love that you found Jesus and that you have a relationship with Him now. i am so so proud of you and i am sending you so much love.

i was crying through this whole video,,, especially the end. beautiful testimony i can relate in many ways… 💗 God bless you,, and i am so proud of you making it through. THANK YOU JESUS !!!!!!

this blessed my life so much, I’m 13 and was saved a couple months ago. What’s upsetting is I struggle with most likely 80% of what you mentioned maybe just in the last year. This really spoke to me that there is hope. Thank you for being someone I can look up to as I grow my faith in the lord. I pray that you continue and grow in abundance of faith. Amen

I’m 16 years now and when heard what you watch 🌽 at a young age it kinda reminded me of my past and my presents. I am kinda dealing with sexual perversion. I didn’t even know it was demons I am fighting. I did kinda think It was maybe from the marine world. But I am grateful for what you shared. I have also dealt with child hood trauma. I just to play house with cousins and my moms friend children and when I think about it. When I remember I cry and I am angry at myself for allowing because me now would have done everything to protect younger me. I do thank God I am still a virgin but I did mastur bated and I have ungodly sexual desires. I was lukewarming with God. So thank you a lot 🙏🏾

I have a very similar story. from atheist to New Age to God. From on drugs completely lost, awful relationship with my family, failing out of high school, He restored everything and I even graduated university with His help. I never felt compassion for people, now I do every day. He can do the impossible!

I’m about to turn 20 years in 5 months. Your story touched me so much because we have similar story, because I found porn at the age of 7 years old, started doing new age witchcraft when I was 14. Was very depressed and suicidal when I was 11 years till now. I dropped out of last year. I cut off all my friends. I was going crazy. But God save me, and now I’m starting to grow my relationship and start to trust him. Glory Be to God❤️

May the Lord continue to guide you into truth and built firmly on the strong foundation of Christ away from strange voices. 🔥🔥🔥🔥

Just when the devil thought he bagged you. Urgh, Jesus loved us even at our filthiest, such wonderful love! Thank you for obeying and sharing sis🤍

I battled and still is battling a lot of the same demons! But yah will deliver me through it all! Thank you for sharing your testimony and encouraging others to cry out to him! Bless you

I'm 17, I go to this christian school and I listened to a sermon last Thursday (Thursdays are the weekly chapel day at our school) and the teacher up there preaching was speaking about how God blesses those poor in spirit. That God blesses those who know and understand they are sinners (the term sinner is often seen offensive, none wants to think about themselves as a sinner. However since we are decedents of Adam and Eve we are born to be sinful or sinners. So technically its not a personal term rather the consequence of the fall of man.) He went on saying that we try to find our identity in what we do, what we look like, our relationships, our achievements, our hobbies, etc. At one point he said something on the lines of "You try to get good grades and that makes you feel purposeful, but then when your A goes to a B, a C, or an F you become anxious and upset. You may think you're upset because school is important and so on, but there's often a piece of yourself that you loose when something like that happens because you have unknowingly attached your identity to this thing that you believe gives you purpose. But it's not until you live through Him--and give the glory to him-- that your life finally has purpose because you're doing what you were actually created to do." Long story short I went and talked to this teacher after chapel and I literally cried in front of him 😀and after I left talking to him I went to the bathroom and started bawling my eyes out. I was so overwhelmed by the love I felt from God and this idea of being poor in spirit has made me feel so purposeful. I am still trying to let go of things I attach to my identity such as appearance and friends but I feel every time I let something go, it is hard at first , but I have never felt so free and confident in myself, and that's all from God.

Your testimony has touched me. I feel the purity and love in your spirit now and how passionate you are talking about God. I too had a similar past stealing out my mom's purse, lying, being exposed to porn at a young age which made me hypersexual and with a perverted spirit, and crying so much. I was personally touched by God at 19 and my mom was praying and praying for me for a change in my life cus she was fed up with my behaviors. Since then I pray everyday, I'm now 21, some days are harder than others, but I know my purpose and everyday have an underlying feeling of purpose, love, growth, and knowing that everything is gonna be ok. We truly serve an almighty God and the fact that we get stronger through God everyday is my motivation to keep going and make satan mad 😊 Thank u for your beautiful testimony

I have no words. I’ve been dealing with those same sins you were when I was maybe younger than you were. I feel so seen. Thank you for sharing this testimony. God is so good

I'm 18 yrs old and your testimony really blessed me 🙏 if only people knew half of the stuff us young people go through

I see so much of myself in you as I relate and have been on my religious journey for so long. I’m still taking it day by day but thank you so much for sharing your story. It’s so brave and I’m so happy you found god. ❤

I watched your whole testimony on the way from mom house to my dad house I paused for a little bit I was unpacking but now it’s 12:28pm I have school in a couple hours but your testimony i can relate a lot with the homosexual at a young age and pornography as well and feeling worthless because of the devil i just want to let you know that your testimony really helped me as well as others ❤

It took me 28 years to find Jesus and I can not thank him enough that he gave me time to find him ❤

I went through almost the same as you. I was verbally abused at home by my stepdad and I argued with my mum. Went to school to be bullied all day. I was never happy. Suicidal thoughts started running through my head. Nothing or no one helped. I moved out to live alone. After a few months my mum’s and I relationship started to get better. But we still argued a LOT. I never had friends. I never went to parties/clubs/concerts none of that. I’m still virgin today at 18. After I found God my whole life flipped for the better. More stuff happened to me but I don’t wanna say everything. I’m just happy you and me found Jesus when we did. I wish for more teens and all humans to find Jesus. God really does love us all 💕✝️

As a 24yr old young man I truly and deeply appreciate this message for real GOD really be trying to help us I also battled with things similar myself so much shame guilt etc… draining my soul literally but sometimes we let the devil in and mess things up in our lives because the lack of wisdom and knowledge of GOD I pray you keep going and spread the message Shalom sis 🤲🏾🙏🏾♾️🩵 MAY YAH bless you thank you for this seriously

I am going through the same and I am stuck. My mom has never been there for me emotionally and I crave that love and affection. This video really stood out for me and I am so grateful to have watched it.

Wow ruby this is beautiful I used to watch u when split dye was popular and to see how much u grown and what u really was going through is absolutely amazing. I lost both my older brother within a year n half and now I’m the only child. This touched my heart and gave me hope. Thank you

Look for yourself, and you will find in the long run only hatred, loneliness, despair, rage, ruin and decay. But look for Christ and you will find Him and in Him everything else thrown in. 💌

Thank you so much for this testimony. i’m only 16 now but when i was younger I would watch your old videos and enjoyed your page but this video has taught me that you never know what’s going on in someone else’s life. I still struggle now, even though i’m building my relationship with God, i struggle a lot with lust, judging others and my self image. I am constantly wishing to look like other people and just wish i looked pretty but God is helping me. I try to think more positively instead of judging other people as I used to and it’s just so peaceful. Constantly putting other people down won’t make me feel better. I still lust which i feel very shameful abt but i trust God will help me to get through these temptations. It really makes me feel like I am not meant to be Christian and not even meant to inherit the Kingdom but I know that’s just the devil and that God loves me. I thank God for allowing me to come this far and allowing me to grow and learn. I struggled with depression as well and was cutting, wanted to kill myself, overdosing but i just had a limit. I was scared of killing myself. Even though I never really realised it, I knew the Lord was above and it just felt wrong. I felt like there might be more in my life. Although my past is not the best, I try not to hate the past because if i never went through what I went through I doubt I would’ve found God. After the storm there’s a rainbow and this is my journey on that rainbow, finding what God has for me. Thank you for this video. God bless everyone 🩷

This whole testimony really touched me as I’m young myself trying to start my own personal relationship with God. I repented today and now know that God will be following me and guiding me in my journey God bless!

Amen!!!!!! This is going to touch so many people. I found your page shortly after filming my own testimony video a couple weeks ago, and was literally going through the same spiritual warfare, self doubt, shame, etc. Sis this is important work for the Kingdom, so the enemy is going to try anything he can to make you doubt your purpose and your new walk. But we prevail in the name of Jesus 💕 The Lord is going to work through you in ways you never could have imagined, and He will give back to you all that was lost + more. I'm excited to have found you and am looking forward to watching you bloom in Christ. Much love x

I’ve watched my life come together through God and have just started opening up about my testimony. And I want to say that God is so proud of you and I felt lots of love and Gods presence within this video. Your testimony is beautiful and we share a lot of similar trials and tribulations. I see God working on you and the light of the Holy Spirit radiating from you. You are doing amazing and are wonderfully and fearfully made. Thank you for sharing sistah! 🤍🙏🏽

someone shared this video on tiktok and my flesh told me to continue scrolling. so glad i didn’t listen. thank u for trusting us rubee ❤

i am not kidding… watching this felt like i was hearing my own life story. thank you so much for sharing this and showing no matter how far off you are.. GOD WILL BRING YOU BACK!🩷

Love you sister in Christ ❤️. I’m glad to hear and see you doing well!

oh love.. i have a really similar testimony but i’m 16. Now i found god and got baptized and i finally feel worthy. You are so incredibly strong and resilient. God saves🙏🏼🪽

Hello! I'm 13 and ur video really inspired me and I relate to ur testimony very much. I lived without a father since I was 2 and had lustful thoughts at a young age and was rejected emotionally a lot. But watching this and knowing about your old video history from tiktok and the drastic change in your life made me hopeful that I can find life in God aswell

You’ve gone through so much. Hallelujah that you are saved!

Girl this is a testimony!! It takes a lot to tell your story but your obedience to God is allowing your story to spread his love!💗 Definitely doesn’t make us feel alone

I kept seeing your testimony pop up but Ive been ignoring it for weeks but by the Grace of God I finally watched it and Im so grateful to have heard it. I understand what you're going through and I just want to let you know your testimony touched me. Jesus is so Good. God is so good. Continue to keep the hope of God in you and the faith of Our Lord will heal you through everything. Bless you & Bless the Prince of Peace

Amen, so glad you found Jesus at such a young age. I have a similar testimony. I used to pray for temporary things like to be more pretty or to find a boyfriend. Now I just pray for faith and to not turn back to the ways of the world. It’s a difficult journey but we got this!

God has shown mercy upon you and delivered you from the devil, God came to me at 20 and I'm still learning to this day, very happy to see our sisters in Christ being saved. I remember when I was being saved I cried almost every day for months upon end and the peace I felt after was indescribable now I walk in grace & forgiveness knowing God has shown mercy

Yessss girl!!! It’s not religion He is really true love and everything we’re searching for. You are blessed and a blessing ❤🎉😊

Me tooo girl. God bless you!! We’re dustttttt but God makes us new once we accept Him!

i watched you through all of this and related to you through all of this, i literally searched you up wondering “what happened to her” and this was the first video i seen. i am so extremely grateful to have seen this video. im so happy god pushed you to speak your truth because i’m starting my journey and you’re such a huge inspiration you don’t understand how much this helped me.

Watching this because I am too trying to explore my spiritual journey. Mine has been a very scary and rocky one, so I’m hoping this brings me some more guidance

i remember watching you in 2019-20 and i looked up to you so much, time passed and i found you again and this is so beautiful, i cant believe all that was happening to you behind the scenes and im so sorry, but i am so so glad you found Jesus and he changed you for the best. God is amazing💝

Girl you made me cry 😭, THANK YOU JESUS 🙏🏾

Dont ever feel bad or regret for posting this. I relate to this in so many ways, we love you for you. Always.

you don’t understand how much this video has opened my eyes. i immediately got emotional and started crying to God. he is so good, he has saved me from the worst parts of my life and has brought so many blessings into my life. thank you for sharing your testimony, absolutely beautiful 🤎

Thank God He brought you out & is using you as a vessel now. This really touched me in many different ways. I’m struggling with a lot right now myself, but seeing this lets me know God will never leave me nor forsake me. Keep sharing your testimony to others & spreading the love of Jesus.

The way I accidentally tapped on your video while searching something unholy😭I relate to almost everything you talked about and I'm only 17

This video was meant to find me 😢💖

Stay strong please Sis, the days are short. Stay strong in the power of His might. Keep on keeping on the full armor!

So happy to see you doing well Ruby 🩷 I know your testimony is going to be so eye opening for many! I pray that everyone that comes across this video will be touched by God’s love and know his grace and seek him. God keep blessing you! 🫶🏼🥰

I admired your courage. And what God has done with you is just incredible. I haven't experienced this much in my life so if God did all this for you, he can do it for me too.

We love you Rubee!! God bless you and Im so happy you’re back online to share this with us

THIS TESTIMONY REALLY TOUCHED MY HEART AND I FELT TRULY THE HOLY SPIRIT WAS SPEAKING THROUGH YOU!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING YOUR TESTIMONY AND GOD BLESS U ALL!!

girlllll, the Holy Spirit filled you with wisdom as you spoke! loved this sister, and you are glowing nowww, because of JESUSSSSS.

all glory be to God! i have a very, VERY similar testimony and i'm praying that one day i have the opportunity to share the whole thing. but, i rarely comment, and i'm commenting now because of the clips at 31:16. i actually found you on tiktok during that time and i was going through depression, suicidal thoughts, addictions, the works...and i was so addicted to your look at the time. i wanted to be that so badly. i never did, but seeing your drastic physical transformation as a result of your spiritual transformation is so heartwarming and relatable. i've had a similar change happen in the way i adorn and clothe myself. i see myself so heavily in you. i'm so happy to see you've found our Saviour for yourself. God bless! ❤

this was amazing, it literally made me cry. i really resonated with some of the stuff you went through and i’m happy to hear that it’s possible to get through it. i hope you are blessed through ur testimony

finding this video a little late, just got out of rehab as a 16 y/o thank you for this video, you've given me hope.

I also used to be depressed during my high school years for similar reasons. God really is so merciful and powerful, ain’t nobody a lost cause for Him ☝🏼❤️

I’m so happy for you and your beautiful journey!! I followed you for a while and it was lovely to see how you’ve blossomed into who you are now! I too have been creating a life in Christ and am beyond happy to see others doing the same💗

Hallelujah so beautiful!!! Thank you for sharing sis 💞 May God use your testimony to bring many others to Him!

He is so so good! Mannnnn! I almost cried listening to your testimony. It’s absolutely beautiful.🙏🏽 May God continue to bless you!♥️

Thank you so much for this video 🙏 It feels comfortable to share my story here. It all started when I was in middle school. Suicidal thoughts, depression, and anxiety. I had toxic friends, ones that didn't care about how I felt, I was too scared to un-friend them I was scared to upset them. I was stuck and didn't know what to do, one day I came across a video about Jesus and how he died for our sins, It made me feel loved for once. It was like a breath of fresh air. From then on I gave my life to Christ and decided I wouldn't suffer anymore. I was so happy. Thank you so much 🙏

Love you rubee. I’ve watched you since I was middle school, you’re inspiring! You and I are making this new walk with God together. Thank you for posting this💗

this definitely touched my heart Rubee. i have tears in my eyes. ive been subscribing/following you ever since you started. you were such an inspiration to me back then just because of your physical appearence but youre an even bigger inspiration to me now considering all youve been through. i only found God this year and it has not been easy on this walk. but to see my favourite social media influencer share her testimony was definitely a sign that im not alone and that God loves me. this is a blessing. you are a blessing Rubee! i love you sm. thank you for sharing this beautiful testimony. Jesus loves you all! have a blessed day

This was beautiful!! I’ve had a lot of very similar life experiences and ties to the world I’ve been trying to get out from underneath. You reminded me that GOD IS FAITHFUL and have given me hope that I can do so it through example. I have no doubt the lord led me to your page.Tears… thank you

Please keep sharing your testimony and your story. I’ve never related to a testimony as much as I have with yours and it’s very inspiring and I can only imagine how many other people are positively impacted and inspired by hearing someone as beautiful as you to have gone through so much and find God through that💕

What a beautiful testimony! Praise God for his MERCY towards us

Wow that was such a beautiful testimony! Thank you for being transparent and telling your truth! God bless you sis!!! This blessed and touched me!

Thank you so much for sharing 🥺 this truly touched me and so many others. Glory to God!

Amen!! MAY THE KING OF KINGS GUIDE YOU ON YOUR JOURNEY!! ❤❤

this is such a beautiful video, idk why i just felt the need to comment. i’m 16 and relate to so much you said in this video. i want to open my heart to god and this feels like the beginning of my journey! i used to be a fan of yours way back and watched you in middle school seeing how much you changed has made me so happy. bless you and your heart thank you for sharing your journey and encouraging me to start my own.❤️

thank you for being so obedient! i didn’t feel like watching this video at first .I was about to scroll but i relate to you in so many ways.I feel like our story’s are so so alike and i actually feel understood for once. THANK YOU JESUS. God bless you girl!

Thank you for sharing your testimony ❤️ I followed you somewhere in there along the way for your “old” content. I too have literally been *there* and done *that* (minus musicaly & going viral) and am now seeking the way and the truth through Jesus. It’s beyond words how blessed this feels, from the edm scene to Christ! It’s been a rollercoaster girl but I’m holding on too! ❤️❤️❤️

i really love how youve kept some old videos up on your instagram, it showed me people can change.

All glory to God! Love you Rubee. Proud of you. ❤

Wow girl I admire your strength, boldness for Christ and listening to His voice that called His daughter back 💖💖💖💖 I loved everything about this, your journey and testimony. May God stay near to you !

I remember you on tiktok. Wow. I’m so happy for you, congratulations! I love seeing people turn their life to god ❤️

I also got addicted to this and now I still pray to God so that he should give me the strength to not fall in the same sin.

Rubee, this is the first time I've watched any of your videos. This video came up on my recommendations. Praise the Lord that you are saved! I look forward to meeting you in eternity with God ❤. I've been seeing more and more people coming to Jesus and its such an encouragement to my spirit.

I am so blessed by this 💗 May God continue to shower his love upon you!

I’ve followed you for a very long time and I would have never known what you were going through I’m not religious but I believe in God and I love your testimony and I love your change

God will bless you more thank you for having a lot of courage ❤🎉 🙏🏼Amen