Nessa Barrett - dying on the inside (official music video)

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Directed & Edited by @JakeTheShooter & @HunterMoreno
Creative Director: @nessabarrett
Produced by @ShooterCo
Production Manager: @payroll
Production Coordinator: @darryl_milana
Director of Photography: @grantdecyk
Steadicam Op: @steadidon
1st AC: @vhrispowers
Gaffer: @Charles.alexanderr
Key Grip: @zachgarcia217
Grip: @honoraryfilms
Key PA: @facesxx
Production Design: @mikeyy_15
Art Director: @jesus_xciii
Colorist: @bryansmaller
VFX: @lucas.rfx
Titles: @bydrozen
Production Company: @shooterco
Lyrics:
You should take it as a compliment
If I were you, I would be more confident
You're lucky that you're pretty
Why are you obsessed with your appearance
I don't wanna hear it, you're fine
It's been my best kept secret for a while now
No one ever sees it but it's all around
Its the dinner conversation no one talks about
Don't know how much longer I can keep this down
Beauty is a knife, I've been holding by the blade
Swallowing my pride so I won't eat anything
It's all a lie
Honestly it's eating me alive
They're all like did you change your hair?
Did you lose a bit of weight?
You should keep it up cause it really looks great
I hate that I
Always look my best
When I'm dying on the inside
When I'm dying on the inside
I wish I could break the mirror
That makes me feel like I should fucking disappear
And drown my demons in a bathtub filled with tears
No matter what I try they always seem to come back to life
What if I didn't do this to my body?
What if I quit and then you don't want me
The dinner conversation no one talks about
Don't know how much longer I can keep this down
Beauty is a knife, I've been holding by the blade
Swallowing my pride so I won't eat anything
It's all a lie
Honestly it's eating me alive
They're all like did you change your hair?
Did you lose a little weight?
You should keep it up cause it really looks great
I hate that I
Always look my best
When I'm dying on the inside
When I'm dying on the inside
When I'm dying on the inside
You should take it as a compliment
If I were you I'd me more confident
You're lucky your pretty
Why are you obsessed?
With your appearance
I don't wanna hear it, You're fine
Beauty is a knife, I've been holding by the blade
Swallowing my pride so I won't eat anything
It's all a lie
Honestly it's eating me alive
They're all like did you change your hair?
Did you lose a little weight?
You should keep it up cause it really looks great
I hate that I
Always look my best
When I'm dying on the inside
When I'm dying on the inside
#nessa #nessabarrett #dyingontheinside

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@NessaBarrett Год назад

I can’t believe my debut album, young forever, is finally going to be yours 10/14!!! 🕊 you can pre-save it now: nessa.lnk.to/youngforever

@sairaarif1681 Год назад

omg i’m the first comment love this song and ur other songs nessa❤️

@mariamaz979 Год назад

💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

@madinaapsova4496 Год назад

Ouahusu

@pantoff80 Год назад

Nessa, wow!!!

@pantoff80 Год назад

Спасибо за песню!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ты супер!!!!

@abcdef-ry9hx 2 года назад

the way the camera is distorted whenever she stands up to show the dizziness that comes with not eating. the way the number on the scale gets higher and higher every time she steps on it despite her not actually gaining weight to show how body dysmorphia affects the way you see yourself. the details in nessa’s music videos are always unmatched.

@patriciaaguiar3007 2 года назад

and the bats, i think they represent the intrusive thoughts

@johnbackwards5835 2 года назад

THIS IS EXCATLY WHAT I THOIGHT!!! i suffer from an eating disorder and i related to this song, that part specifically, so much. she’s so good

@dc66 2 года назад

i noticed also how repetitive the song is, the chorus comes up like 3 times, i personality saw this as a parallel to how repetitive eating disorders and body dysmorphia can be, and how it can come back, “comes back to life”

@endermangaming585 2 года назад

It's not a mistake, ✨ it's a masterpiece!✨

@syl8779 2 года назад

exactly

@Yourebeautiful-yh7vl 2 года назад

This is a masterpiece. Nessa you should be so proud of yourself.

@itsarianababeyuh5106 2 года назад

@Mbita Acoustic Guitar hey! I love your covers! You’re nice keep going!

@emily.peterson17 2 года назад

YES!!!

@tomaselgalan6944 2 года назад

@Mbita Acoustic Guitar ru-vid.compk0nNpXpW90?feature=share

@whatisilyionlyknowipurpleyou 2 года назад

@@itsarianababeyuh5106 I see what u did there, lol. 💜

@itsarianababeyuh5106 2 года назад

@@whatisilyionlyknowipurpleyou omg lol, hey army💜

@lealovesari8528 2 года назад

the dizziness.the numbers on the scale.the binge eating.the mirror.the lyrics.everything is perfect,Nessa deserves everything.

@HeartEllis 4 месяца назад

No one deserves anything that's the secret to being grateful for everything

@gachatana9656 4 месяца назад

@@HeartEllis Everyone deserves at least the basics. That's why they're human rights. 😂

@Orangeoverlorde Год назад

I had no idea she had a ED, the way I can relate to this song is painful. The dizziness, the bats, the disappointment after the scale, the hoodies, the late night snack which you neglect to see other girls who look better than you, the contemplating by the fridge, the compliments. To all the people who don't believe her, you wouldn't understand unless you went through the same thing. Its like falling through a hole where the world is black and white and whenever you try to get up you get pushed down farther because of your thoughts wandering around you and the people outside saying you are doing great. Nessa, you just got a fan.

@athanasiathourlaki1094 Год назад

Yes. That is true!

@yourmom.3261 Год назад

What Do The Bats Mean Please?

@Orangeoverlorde Год назад

@@yourmom.3261 In my perspective, I think the bats represent your state of mind, or all of the bad thoughts in your head

@yourmom.3261 Год назад

@@Orangeoverlorde Thank You !!

@Jeon_Ari_ Год назад

Same here. It sucks 🥲

@OfficialBeauxASMR 2 года назад

This was incredible

@tomaselgalan6944 2 года назад

ru-vid.compk0nNpXpW90?feature=share

@jessepass6962 2 года назад

Ikr

@tvvinnieee 2 года назад

THIS SONG IS A MASTERPIECE. can’t stop listening to it. It deserves soooo much recognition. In times where everyone is obsessed with social media this song is what describes it the best

@tomaselgalan6944 2 года назад

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@XNDEZ 2 года назад

u should listen to the sped up version 😁😁 ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-2ReP-lgbJQY.html

@tashiegholchin5893 2 года назад

Frl mommy

@hippityhoppity6313 2 года назад

Get off of social media. It isnt worth it. Ive had so much more time and happiness since I quit all social media years ago.

@tashiegholchin5893 2 года назад

@@hippityhoppity6313 wdym daddy

@venikaamitchell Год назад

This song is clearly underrated. Nessa really helps me, I listen to this song and understand how much it is connected with the reality of many

@madjb24 Год назад

So true, listen to this one daily.

@sayitinspanishh Год назад

❤️‍🩹

@aninasophia5396 Год назад

the way she adresses important topics and her songs always turn out great and make so many ppl feel understood is an art

@JOutterbridge Год назад

I love her songs. Her latest album was great too

@marianasousa2423 2 года назад

Absolutely adore how you didn’t romanticize this and looked the most genuine and real you possibly could, unlike mvs who make it all “pretty”. From the dizziness to the mess it feels like, you got it all. Wow.

@Zombina638 2 года назад

@marianasousa2423 2 года назад

@@Zombina638 didn’t ask, bring your negativity elsewhere :)

@marianasousa2423 2 года назад

@@Zombina638 didn’t ask, bring your negativity elsewhere :)

@Zombina638 2 года назад

@@marianasousa2423 who asked kid.

@marianasousa2423 2 года назад

@@Zombina638 you, by responding to my comment. Enough “kid”.

@arianysseda8999 2 года назад

“You should take it as a compliment If I were you I’d be more confident.” and “I hate that I, always look my best But I’m dying on the inside.” Really just hits different

@aliicendll 2 года назад

when I’m dying on the inside * :)

@donaldducksazzcheeks 2 года назад

Literally

@nadia-yx6re 2 года назад

Also the "You should keep it up because it really looks great." Like. I can't imagine hearing that when you're trying to reach out or thinking about getting help.

@arianysseda8999 2 года назад

@@nadia-yx6re exactly I love how u can just relate to her music and feel it

@nadia-yx6re 2 года назад

@@arianysseda8999 that's why I love music. It hits you where NOTHING else does. Nothing compares to that feeling.

@nahidahalabi7263 Год назад

What hurts the most is when maybe someone tells you “you lost weight” and you still look the same at yourself. Like I have? Nessa’s voice just takes you there… beautiful voice.

@AbdullahAndMaryam 4 месяца назад

For me I’m told I’m gaining weight and it’s scaring me cuz I don’t wanna get fat fat or even fat at all. I’m slowly stating to try not to eat again cuz the remarks that u hear about my weight is rlly getting to me

@tootynuggets 8 дней назад

That's the hardest part. I've learned I can't go by how I think I look because to me I'll always look too big no matter what people say. I go by how my clothes fit

@takemebackto2018 4 месяца назад

“I don’t wanna hear it, you’re fine.” God bless anyone who has had to hear this sentence. May you find true love from others and more importantly love for yourselves.

@allieferraro9579 2 года назад

I used to dislike her because of the drama. But this girl is so strong, even with the hate she gets she stays strong and continues to grow

@noursaccount 2 года назад

fr.

@minellewin9216 2 года назад

Cause she makes money

@danasalehh 2 года назад

@@minellewin9216 not the right time bud 💔

@salmayussuf1571 2 года назад

Her ex cheated on her with many girls but when she left she was attacked, she really isn’t problematic it’s the fact that she’s always dimmed to be the perpetrator in every situation

@Juli-qw2oo 2 года назад

@@salmayussuf1571 which ex?

@NessaBarrett 2 года назад

Thank u for letting me be vulnerable with u. I hope “dying on the inside” can help anyone who needs it. Love u sm 🤍🤍

@jisellebrown1412 2 года назад

Thank you Nessa, you were able to word what I couldn't.

@jascminbutthecissilent1755 2 года назад

Girl your music is everything and I’m absolutely obsessed

@jascminbutthecissilent1755 2 года назад

Patiently waiting for a bomb ass lyric video

@charlieszz 2 года назад

Love u too, love your songs ❤❤❤🥺🥺

@ally-890 2 года назад

I love this song so much. Thank you Nessa for making this masterpiece. It helps me be vulnerable

@mariachamoun7 Год назад

*LYRICS* You should take it as a compliment If I were you, I would be more confident You're lucky that you're pretty Why are you obsessed with your appearance? I don't wanna hear it, you're fine It's been my best-kept secret for a while now No one ever sees it, but it's all around It's the dinner conversation no one talks about Don't know how much longer I can keep this down Beauty is a knife I've been holding by the blade Swallowing my pride so I won't eat anything It's all a lie, honestly, it's eating me alive They're all like "Did you change your hair?" "Did you lose a little weight?" "You should keep it up 'cause it really looks great" I hate that I always look my best When I'm dying on the inside (When I'm dying on the inside) I wish I could break the mirror That makes me feel like I should fucking disappear And drown my demons in a bathtub filled with tears No matter what I try, they always seem to come back to life What if I didn't do this to my body? What if I quit and then you don't want me? The dinner conversation no one talks about Don't know how much longer I can keep this down Beauty is a knife I've been holding by the blade Swallowing my pride so I won't eat anything It's all a lie, honestly, it's eating me alive They're all like "Did you change your hair?" "Did you lose a little weight?" "You should keep it up 'cause it really looks great" I hate that I always look my best When I'm dying on the inside (When I'm dying on the inside) (When I'm dying on the inside) You should take it as a compliment If I were you, I would be more confident You're lucky that you're pretty Why are you obsessed with your appearance? I don't wanna hear it, you're fine Beauty is a knife I've been holding by the blade Swallowing my pride so I won't eat anything It's all a lie, honestly, it's eating me alive They're all like "Did you change your hair?" "Did you lose a little weight?" "You should keep it up 'cause it really looks great" I hate that I always look my best When I'm dying on the inside.

@Zhitel_moskvy Год назад

Thanks

@mariachamoun7 Год назад

@@Zhitel_moskvy you're welcome 😊

@Le_Samourai 5 месяцев назад

God bless

@AestheticArty_Girl 5 месяцев назад

@tea2479 4 месяца назад

Tysm

@aprilrose1440 2 года назад

Just heard this for the first time and I cried coz it kinda hit. I don't have an ED, but I focus on how I look so much and it's so exhausting, dehumanising and empty, and only feeds my insecurities. Thank you so much for this song.

@urgurl_leen Год назад

I aggree

@sothewalrus 6 дней назад

I'm very late, but same here. I can't have scales in the house because it's too triggering to see my weight, even if it's healthy weight gain. It's very tiring.

@moonlight_sparkle6659 2 года назад

I’ve never heard ED being portrayed this realistic and heavy let alone in a pop song before, the lyrics are hauntingly beautiful and truly something a lot of us can relate to. I seriously hope she makes it because she can go very far with her singing and writing abilities, God even the cinematography is beautiful!

@HeartEllis 4 месяца назад

Please don't use God's name in vain ❤️ He loves you very much ❤️

@gachatana9656 4 месяца назад

@@HeartEllis "Lord's name in Vain" actually refers to using God as an argument against other people or to make yourself Holier than them. Please learn the true meaning and stop Sinning. God Bless you.

@KatieM786 4 месяца назад

Have you heard Fiona Apple?

@kimtata2831 4 месяца назад

This song really reminds me of when I had high functioning depression and anxiety. Lost a lot of weight, got so pale from lack of sunlight and anemia, slept all day and never ate and all everyone called me is beautiful and I wanted to die

@betonyuna 2 года назад

i love the symbolism in this. from the dizziness when she stands up, due to not eating anything, to the bats frantically surrounding her, which could be her erratic thoughts, or people swarming her with compliments while she’s secretly struggling, and the numbers going up every time she weighs herself, which could be how her body dysmorphia affects her view of herself. i love it, and i love nessa

@gaj30 2 года назад

i like your take on the bats

@kaurikeith8877 5 месяцев назад

She’s the only artist I found on TikTok that makes such quality music. She deserves the world, the level of courage it takes to be this vulnerable is amazing and I appreciate it. This helped me Nessa, if you ever read this! Love you💜

@wolfie7981 18 дней назад

Hey just a small recommendation, if you like Nessa's music you should check out baby bugs, they're a small artist and they make music similar to this song that you may like/nf

@katieschumacher3569 Год назад

i’m 15. i struggled with anorexia when i was in 6th grade. then in 8th grade bulimia and still recovering. i understand the pain of it deeply..this song speaks loud

@keiraregal3162 Год назад

I'm so sorry I'm 14 and I've gone thru almost the same thing and I can say this is so accurate it hurts

@sothewalrus 6 дней назад

I'm in my 20's now, but I went through similar stuff to you at 15 and it didn't feel like it'd get better for a long time. I'm still dealing with some of it now, but it does get easier in time. I hope that you're doing okay ❤

@haleymclain9911 2 года назад

It’s not easy sharing things so close to your heart. We are the lucky ones that get to hear your vulnerability and rawness through your music. It’s relatable, cuts deep, and allows understanding to who you are as a person. You’re beautiful and so very talented, girl. People underestimate you because they don’t want to acknowledge just how real and talented you truly are. You’re already going places, but I know you will go further. Continue to share the raw beauty of who you truly are. Good job, Nessa. So proud of you!

@jacquelineviator6285 2 года назад

I agree, very well said! Nessa is so raw and talented. ❤️

@tomaselgalan6944 2 года назад

@Mbita Acoustic Guitar ru-vid.compk0nNpXpW90?feature=share

@aprilbyyy1705 2 года назад

@Mbita Acoustic Guitar I wanna tell you Jesus Christ Loves You So Much He Gave His Life for our sins so we can be forgiven from our sins and Go To Heaven! Gods Love For Us Is Unconditonal

@endermangaming585 2 года назад

It's not a mistake, ✨ it's a masterpiece!✨

@ally1618 2 года назад

Nessa’s music is so inspiring and she has the most beautiful voice. I can’t wait to see her live again

@kimberly6963 2 года назад

RIGHT

@hauntedtsversion6043 Год назад

the meaning behind this is so unsettling true. having an eating disorder/anorexia/bulima/binging ect.. is more complicated than people perceive it to be. for me personally, having an eating disorder is such a horrible kind of pain. when your mindset is so drawn to your negative thoughts you feel like you deserve it. you think you deserve the black dots and dizziness when you stand up, the gross hoodies you refuse to wash, the feeling when you do it and how it makes you feel worse, the body image in your mirror, how you always claim one specific weight is enough but you strive to make it lower, looking at carbs and calories intake, throwing up constantly, drinking only water because you can't stomach anything else, the constipation, the always in a bad mood, the uncontrollable sensitivity, the sleeping to clear the thought of not eating.. etc.. it's awful. no one deserves to go through that. please remember that YOU are PERCECT just the way YOU are. you're beautiful, i promise.

@hadarazizian2416 Год назад

The way I felt this word for word

@keiraregal3162 Год назад

Have u gone thru any of these that u listed? I'm sorry if u have ik exactly wut u mean by all of this and it's both painful and the best thing in the world to feel so understood

@selflove-vs-selfhate Год назад

thanks for this comment it's very relatable i think to a lot of people and also i hope you're doing okay or even a little bit better these days ❤ as you know, it's not worth it, even when your own brain disagrees. fuck that tbh haha. ah it sucks so much i know and i'm sorry you're going through it too. you deserve all the good and not to feel so bad physically and mentally. you got this bud 💕 keep on keepin' on !

@selflove-vs-selfhate Год назад

@@keiraregal3162hey there yeah it sounds like OP does and a lot of people in the comments 😢i also completely understand - it's nice to feel not alone but it's sad too because people are experiencing similar pain. i just hope we can feel better soon ❤

@skvvika2533 2 года назад

Переслушала уже много раз, и хочется еще, это так прекрасно и жизненно...

@---dp1xx Год назад

Она Умничка .. : )

@user-zl6pc4ow7w Год назад

Согл

@user-sx2uk9bs2m Год назад

Невероятный кайф с этой песни.Раньше моя любимая была другая.теперь эта

@MarleyMar-ke3qw 2 года назад

I’m so proud of everything she’s accomplished. Screw the haters. She’s beautiful and so talented!

@Marisa000 2 года назад

I love this comment

@barretlover 2 года назад

Yess.

@Bumblebee_honeycone 2 года назад

Yessss

@loapborges 2 года назад

YESSS

@salinagrace9782 2 года назад

so good I'm so proud of her for making this video and this song this hits is something we all deal with at some point thank you for bringing awareness 💜

@fionasmoons 2 года назад

the message in this song is so deep and so real, and nessa’s vocals just express the pain it brings perfectly. that’s what i call an artist.

@tomaselgalan6944 2 года назад

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@michellecr1957 2 года назад

This

@AnnaClara-yf5kl 2 года назад

the "your lucky that your pretty" hit me hard, I struggle sm with my eating disorder and I get sick of people saying "why are you obsessed your already so pretty I want your body I want to look like you" thank you sm for this song it's litteraly the song I relate to the most

@Xamerax 6 месяцев назад

Even my dad told me I was lucky I was naturally thin…. I purged almost every day and starved myself, as If i didn’t easily gain weight if i didn’t..

@ieatthighs 3 месяца назад

YOU ARE*

@BoatClutchDude 2 года назад

She really expresses herself with her music, and her songs are AMAZING

@jacquelineviator6285 2 года назад

I’m 25 and have been listening to Nessa since “Pain”. She quickly became my favorite artist. She is so real, raw, and talented. I cannot wait for her new album and tour!! I relate to all of her songs with my anxiety, depression and even my addiction. I know this song is about ED and I hope her and everyone in these comments find peace and happiness, I know it’s hard, but some of the lyrics really relate to my addiction and is also helping me in the same way. I hope she knows how many people she is helping. I cannot wait for more music from her. 💗💗

@XNDEZ 2 года назад

u should listen to the sped up version 😁😁 ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-2ReP-lgbJQY.html

@princess_tia_mia2552 2 года назад

@JaquelineViator You are not alone. I feel the same way. Same exact way. 🖤

@IDontKnow-pf6en 2 года назад

hey im an addict too

@syl8779 2 года назад

i’ve been struggling with ed, anxiety and depression and it’s good to hear that someone else relates especially in music, ur so strong angel

@aprilbyyy1705 2 года назад

Hi I wanna tell you Jesus Loves You So Much He Gave His Life for our sins so we can be forgiven from our sins and Go To Heaven ! Gods Love For Us Is Unconditonal

@levelningup6270 2 года назад

i was diagnosed with anorexia and body dysmorphia a few months ago and honestly this song is the best thing i've heard in so long. i hate the songs that make eating disorders sound like it's fun or whatever. i absolutely love this and i hope nessa, myself, and everyone else dealing with eds get the help they need to recover

@LapissHamster 2 года назад

That's true but I also feel like the positivity in some songs comes from the denial that eating disorders bring like ur constantly trying to convince urself that what ur doing is justified and trying to convince urself ur fine but deep inside u know ur not. But the negative perspective documented in this video is 100% valid and healthy because recognizing that u need help is so fucking important in order to get started with recovery. U still may not know exactly what to do because ur stuck in the cycle as illustrated by the lyrics and the mv but it's a start!

@LapissHamster 2 года назад

@maggymeggz I completely understand because i myself have a long history with eating disorders and still have a long way to go for recovery but I never saw the song that way like I'm not the most positive person but I interpreted it in a /positive way and I thought that line was talking about comparing ur body to someone else's and wanting someone else's body and how people look at models and other people and tend to envy their bodies, leading to a negative body image. I know not all eating disorders begin with bad body image but it is a factor for some. Correct me if I'm wrong but that line is not talking about wanting someone else's illness but you have every reason to feel that way and ur feelings are valid. I also think Mel is talking from personal experience but you don't have to listen to that song if it's triggering. I know there isn't enough music about eating disorders (not explicit at least) but there are other songs like this one by Nessa or Empty by Jaiden Animations and BoyInaBand as well as body terror song if ur looking for relatable music to find comfort in! :,D Good luck on ur journey!

@giaparmer 2 года назад

@maggymeggz no I agree w you bc not all eating disorders are about body image or comparing yourself to others so it came off wrong, because like you said you can’t just stop having an eating disorder. I think nessas song better showed that eating disorders are more rooted in control than physical insecurity. Mine for example (ARFID) has literally nothing to do with body image, all control and self harm based

@funkidsrecordings661 Год назад

Started with womens magazines ran by women that have gone through the same thing.. now with the internet things are 1000% worse unfortunately.

@sideeswipe Год назад

What songs make eating disorders sound fun

@katelynfernandes2419 Год назад

this song is literally me. ive never connected with a song better than this. every lyric of this song describes what ive been going through ever since ive been born. thank u for this masterpiece nessa i love you.

@myshadow2495 Год назад

For someone who struggled with an eating disorder for over 20 years .. this song definitely hits me hard. I'm glad I found a song I can relate to ❤ I have to remember I'm not alone with my struggles

@keiraregal3162 Год назад

Thanks for sharing and ur right ur not alone ik exactly wut that feels like sending hugs ur way🤗

@joewhite9037 2 года назад

She’s changing my opinion that Tick Tockers can’t be singers/sing. She’s got talent, no doubt about that. Can’t wait to see where she goes. I really like this song.

@abbiemcknight1370 2 года назад

Some tiktokers*

@lilyisme7301 2 года назад

Bro so many Tiktokers can sing what?

@syg11235 2 года назад

She's a singer who went on TikTok not nat tiktoker

@rachelt777 2 года назад

she’s not a tiktoker

@noelialuze 2 года назад

just because someone becomes known on a platform for one thing doesnt mean they dont have a whole other life and then use the platform to explore and show those talents to us

@leonora7007 2 года назад

Best thing with Nessa is that she’s the voice for everyone that can’t use their own voice, Thank you Nessa❤️‍🩹

@rosiex1841 7 месяцев назад

This is a beautiful and heartbreaking song. All my love to Nessa and anyone else who struggles with eating disorders/body image issues 💛

@filipkostadinoski2326 2 года назад

I would give my soul to hear this song again for the first time.

@charlieiscorrect2856 2 года назад

People love to discredit tiktokers / “influencers’ but it can be a good outlet for artists to get started. Yes, a lot of people get fame for the bare minimum on social media BUT when you make art like this it doesn’t matter how you started out. I’m so glad to have discovered Nessa.

@jen-jl5dn 2 года назад

tbh I think only a handful of tiktokers actually make good music. two of them include nessa and bella poarch.

@tomaselgalan6944 2 года назад

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@XNDEZ 2 года назад

u should listen to the sped up version 😁😁 ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-2ReP-lgbJQY.html

@delena4evertvd267 2 года назад

THISSSSS

@FaithHailey 2 года назад

@@jen-jl5dn jaden too

@teddycat14 2 года назад

I’m so picky with songs but her music is seriously so good why are people sleeping on bestie ???

@AlyraLee 2 года назад

hallucinations and dizziness, tired every day, checking the mirror non stop, wearing baggy clothes 24/7, feeling cold all the time, half the day consists of checking the scale all portrayed perfectly through both the lyrics and visuals. amazing job nessa.

@laurasarabarson9943 Год назад

She’s the only tiktoker that actually did something. Let’s not mention all the tiktokers that tried singing and..yea..made us question our existence. Cant change my opinion, she has a really good voice🤷🏻‍♀️

@0909.b 2 года назад

Stop hating on this wonderful girl she is just trying to learn how to love herself and she's doing amazing at it! Love you Ness!!

@sickluvs 2 года назад

She’s islamphobic and racist❤️

@0909.b 2 года назад

@@sickluvs Proof? you have any lol your literally the people we need to get rid of in the world.

@ivesdoll 2 года назад

@@sickluvs the fact that you're replying to comments saying that is embarrassing the obsession is real, why would you want to give her attention if she's "racist" I bet you're not even Muslim, if you are you should already forgive that's what the religion is about

@sickluvs 2 года назад

@@ivesdoll isn’t a obsession w the islamphobic cheater, i only said facts

@ivesdoll 2 года назад

@@sickluvs naww she ain't a cheater, Josh and nessa were not dating when she liked jaden, just look it up 💀 you probably look up her name a lot anyways

@juliannesta2135 2 года назад

this songs means the world to me. i’ve been struggling w an ed for years and this makes me feel not so alone. to everybody who relates to this, i believe in u, u got this and i’m so proud of u

@johnnystumpf 2 года назад

She is incredibly underrated- her songs truly have great meaning behind them and she is yet to miss!

@johnnystumpf 2 года назад

Hey guys I am a 21 year old singer songwriter based in New York. i just released a new pop-rock single named Final Boss that is pretty catchy if you decide to give it a listen. Check it out!

@k-popluv688 8 месяцев назад

It's been a year, but I love this song so much as the first time I listened to it

@marysouza_007 2 года назад

Man this girl is extremely talented, her songs are perfect. She deserves all the success she is having and it's no wonder that besides being my stan she is my favorite singer I'M SO PROUD OF YOU NESS AAAAAAA

@sickluvs 2 года назад

And so racist and islamphobic

@josemiralrio6546 2 года назад

@@sickluvs get over it

@marysouza_007 2 года назад

@@sickluvs Dude get over it, it's over.

@marysouza_007 2 года назад

@@sickluvs Your misinformation is so great that you don't even notice it.First she was never racist, you should research first before spreading lies and about the other thing she already apologized, and you should already know that

@avebaby1 2 года назад

i've never related to someone so much in my entire life. this song and scare myself are some of the closest hitting songs i've ever heard and I'm so grateful nessa shares her story about her depression. I ALWAYS thought it was weird and it was just me thinking these things because i have body dysmoprhia and depression!! thank you so much ness you are truly and angel and I'm so glad I'm in this life time with you.

@tomaselgalan6944 2 года назад

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@aprilbyyy1705 Год назад

Hi I wanna tell you Jesus Loves You So Much He Gave His Life For Our sins so we can be forgiven from our sins and Go To Heaven! Gods Love For Us Is Unconditonal!!!

@avebaby1 Год назад

@@aprilbyyy1705 nah!!!!

@idk-ec5sm Год назад

i’m happy i discovered this song around the time my eating disorder started. dying on the inside has been with me through all the ups and downs. everything about this song is perfect, it describes everything i can't put into words. i'm really so so grateful for nessa

@madisonberry6894 Месяц назад

Two years in and this song still hits like it was dropped yesterday. 😊

@DD-rd8qi 2 года назад

Not only does this resonate, but it does so beautifully. The raw honesty and feelings that comes with ED is so transparent in this song- within the lyrics and visually in the video. My younger self could’ve used this song to heal and relate to, I’m so glad that I’ve grown from my ED, but it is an everyday battle. I’m just so happy that there are younger girls that get to look up to Nessa and resonate w her beautiful songs and I just hope she knows how proud all of her fans are of her for being so utterly open. I’m also happy that all of you reading this are alive, we need you here 🤍

@jacquelineviator6285 2 года назад

This comment >>>

@delena4evertvd267 2 года назад

if i see anyone still try to call her a tiktoker or anything like that istg i will reach through my phone and slap them. Nessa is a true artist. she makes good, thoughtful, meaningful music because she’s passionate about it and wants to help others. everyone has a past but she’s proven she has grown and learned and now she’s just tryna do her thing and live a happy life and heal. i’m so proud of her.

@nicolasmclamb18 2 года назад

FACTSSSSSS she is a visionary

@twystic 2 года назад

Those people who do that are mean and ignorant. She's a real queen for music here. Her style is so beautiful and messages are so powerful!

@m.o6186 2 года назад

Shes a tiktoker, and she will always be a tiktoker. Everyone knew her like that. Everyone knows her like that

@delena4evertvd267 2 года назад

@@twystic she’s out here making music that is thoughtful and has meaning and is saving lives (including mine, this song literally helped me decide to stop my bad eating habits). i’m so proud of her. and other ppl with nothing better going on in their lives are sitting here saying the same, lame old things about her. kinda feel bad for them lol.

@alaysiareign478 2 года назад

@@delena4evertvd267 she is a artist yes but her title is a influencer on and for TikTok. But yes she also is a true artist too for sure :)

@bibliophile104 Год назад

Thanks for making this masterpiece Nessa, a few months ago I had been diagnosed with anorexia nervosa and this song really helps, I was in the hospital with nurturing fluids pumped inside my veins, and every 20 min I fainted I past put and threw up, but thankfully I went to dietary therapy and getting better but I almost had to lose my life to finally realize that Beauty comes with a price, Your beautiful just the way you are dont forget that ♥

@adrelaw4829 2 года назад

THE BIRDS?! literally what it feels like to constantly think about food and trying to fight the hunger in your head. truly haunting. i love love LOVE your song

@emilyrogers9856 2 года назад

They’re bats 🦇

@ammericanochuachuaaa 2 года назад

@@emilyrogers9856 r they not a part of birds species

@Saphira_21 2 года назад

This is so truee

@Sete 2 года назад

What I felt listening to this song is not written... I'm in shock ♥️😥

@ijustwannarewind 2 года назад

same,

@tomaselgalan6944 2 года назад

@@ijustwannarewind ru-vid.compk0nNpXpW90?feature=share

@OutrageousOutburst Год назад

This song really changed how I see things. "Beauty is a knife I've been holding by the blade" my god that lyric alone hit hard

@aninasophia5396 Год назад

the details like dizziness getting more and more just like all the bats and the numbers on the scale really make this mv so authentic and relatable

@dylooh1519 2 года назад

her music is relatable, unlike others that just come up with things that sound relatable. she’s going through things, even if her life seems perfect. she portrays it nicely in her words, while others tend to romanticize their music that has much more meaning. she doesn’t. it’s relieving and different. i’m proud of her. she’s come far, and will continue to go far.

@avenm.gonzalez1219 2 года назад

thats the reason why i like her music even we are just gettubg the beginning is bc she talks about stuff of mental health and its romanticizedand don’t minorized

@nikibravo1799 2 года назад

This song is a beautiful and perfect representation of ED and what it’s like to struggle with your physical appearance at times. It’s especially beautiful because it’s so honest and relatable to all the many people who feel like they can’t speak up regarding their parents image of them or their friends who say they only feel this way because they want attention or they’re being dramatic etc. it’s such a difficultly for some artists to be so vulnerable and raw with the reality of beauty or ED, or their internal feelings, so for this reality- Nessa is the perfect musician to put light and darkness to that in a way people can relate yet feel connected to her. Great job Ness we’re all rooting for you. 🖤

@bvbyxo6318 2 года назад

i hate her

@bunniixb8110 2 года назад

I love how Nessa never fails to stay real with her music.

@dinahhurst4044 2 года назад

I struggle with overeating, partly because of meds, then put on more meds to lose weight. This song hit so hard. Love it ❤️❤️❤️❤️

@sadiesinkmylove4183 2 года назад

do not eat medicine for the sake of self-love, love will find you by itself

@Supercalifragilistic714 Год назад

@Dinah, I can relate. My doctor put me on a medication for an autoimmune disorder. I was normal weight before the medication, but it caused me to gain 30 pounds almost immediately because it increased my appetite 10 fold. Then my cholesterol levels became high, as did my blood pressure. So I'm trying to wean off of it and now only eat once a day; trying to get back down to my normal weight. This has been going on for a year. I used to struggle to gain weight, but this medication did something to my brain and body that I never expected. 😢

@jocelynward4924 2 года назад

i struggle with an eating disorder as well as nessa and millions of others. it’s hard. super hard. having this huge fear of weight gain and feeling like you can’t eat anything, or you do but then have this extreme guilt about it. i really appreciate this song because it explains what I’m feeling inside so well. how you can seem fine on the outside but be completely dying on the inside. thanks so much for sharing this with the world. we love you ness ❤️

@Mary-ts6gj 2 года назад

I hope you feel better soon

@simonaluisapalladino3135 2 года назад

I have the same problem as you so i understand you😣💖

@thalitabarbosadesousa4087 2 года назад

@@simonaluisapalladino3135 Friend, I don't suffer from an eating disorder but I imagine how bad it must be to go through this... I imagine that low self-esteem can be the beginning of eating disorders,but if you have self-esteem,know that you are very beautiful and nothing and no one will make you think otherwise. I may not know you but I know you have a unique and wonderful beauty. I say this not only to you but to all those who also suffer from it. I just want you to never forget that you are important,special, unique and very beautiful just like everyone else in the world.

@thalitabarbosadesousa4087 2 года назад

@@simonaluisapalladino3135 In my opinion there are no ugly people in this world, although I have never seen most people, but I know that we are all beautiful in our own way. I really don't know what your metabolism is like, if you gain weight easily or if you have a hard time gaining weight, but no matter what, know that you beautiful. So, I recognize that not every day we will find ourselves beuatiful but don't let it affect you an daily basis..

@sophiaubogy-threet9866 2 года назад

Same sis, eat something today ur not alone and ur beautiful remember that

@deanabree 2 года назад

love that nessa is comfortable enough to share this with us. i’m glad we created a comfortable environment for her to share a very personal song with us. love it.

@Akaria.Luvs1 3 месяца назад

Even though I don’t have any kind of ED, I feel this on a personal level! “Don’t know how much longer I can keep this down” is hauntingly accurate. Listen, I’ve kept some things a secret for a long time. Mostly my feelings. The chorus, however, just gets me every time. “Beauty is a knife I’ve been holding by the blade” I feel this. Like I’m not the most beautiful girl in the world, and I’m not ugly either. I do regularly check myself to see if I’ve gained weight..and it sometimes disappoints me. I eat food a lot, (even when I’m not hungry) so I’m heavier than my brother who is only 70 Ibs. “Swallowing my pride so I don’t eat anything.” Okay, whether you have an ED or not, those who have some kind of issue with their body can feel me. (Or those with childhood trauma.) To cope with a certain amount of things in my life, (mostly family issues), I always act happy and act like I’m the best. I’m always overconfident around family and friends. Now, I love my body but there are so things I dislike. I wish I could eat less but it’s just not that easy… “It’s all a lie.” Okay so a number of times I have had to act like someone I’m not. But now thinking about it this is my entire messed up personality.. “Honestly it’s eating me alive.” Same. I had a breakdown on ground hog day in my last class. I just couldn’t control it. All those bad emotions came to the surface like a balloon popping out of the water. “They’re all like:” Feel this. Many toxic classmates for me. “Did you change your hair? Did you loose a little weight?” Idk why people notice those things. And not the emotions inside. Well- maybe it’s because I hide it that easily. “You should keep it up, cause it really looks great.” I know people are trying to compliment me, but it just doesn’t work…the way they are so oblivious to the ride of emotions inside or don’t know about my past…so they don’t understand, makes me feel uncomfortable. “I hate that I always look my best.” *When I’m dying on the inside*

@stormiac Год назад

I’m not even gonna lie, as a 14 year old with an Ed, this almost brought me to tears cause the lyrics were so painfully accurate. And the dizzy affect when she stands up.

@live-laugh-love 2 года назад

As someone who has also struggled with eating disorders growing up… this really hit close to home. There’s so much meaning cinematography in this video… Those shots where the camera is blurry and spinning (ex. @0:24) is exactly what it feels like when your body is malnourished because of an eating disorder. Thank you for talking about this Nessa. You are a true artist and your soul shines through with your music

@wrappedinpeace 2 года назад

as someone who spent over a decade struggling with this shit, i can safely say this is the most evocative ed song i have ever heard. “beauty is a knife i’ve been holding by the blade?!” holy FUCK.

@B_Edits14 8 месяцев назад

The amount of times i have watched this is a bad addiction

@GroggyFive59180 2 месяца назад

I hope everyone here is doing okay these days. Please be safe and know that people care about you, even if it may not feel like it at times. If you are feeling troubled, maybe professional help is the answer, or talking to a trusted friend about what you are going through. Take care.

@bermaryscastro9624 2 года назад

"I hate that I Always look my best When I'm dying on the inside" that's the most relatable part, the fact that she described all of us who have been through that is incredible, no one should be judged, and love yourself as you are.

@laylalady1021 2 года назад

I'm so proud of her for putting herself out there with this song🤍🦋

@allisimpson1827 Год назад

The “did you change your hair, lose a little weight, you should keep it off it really looks great,” hits really hard. Lately every time I see my friends they keep asking if I’ve changed my hair or list weight and I see these people multiple times a week. They forget what I look like or if I’ve been somewhere with them. Powerful lyrics, love. Thank you for sharing this song❤️

@starivyx 4 месяца назад

im glad this song finally gets the recognition it deserves!! it was my favourite for a very long time, and now seeing it blowing up on tiktok makes me so happy, you´re great nessa and i love you so much, this song means a lot to me

@cheymalizia4442 3 месяца назад

Since it dropped people loved it on yt why since it’s on TikTok it’s considered recognized makes not sense😂

@dr.atoosaabn1939 2 года назад

a well written and expressed song about disordered eating and what comes with it internally. 🙏🏼♥️

@tomaselgalan6944 2 года назад

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@kaitlynsennott7609 2 года назад

This song is gonna blow up… Ness has something that makes her music so human and real.

@its_a_potato6443 Месяц назад

I find it so so sad that so many young people my age (myself included) relate to this song so much

@Angel-hh8ox 2 года назад

This song makes me cry so much because it captures what I've never been able to express myself

@aileenmaldonado7778 2 года назад

this girl is going to sell out arenas one day wish nothing but success her way

@taylornicole1297 2 года назад

So proud of you Ness! "Dying on the inside" and "Scare myself" are the only songs that have ever really explained word from word what goes on in my body and brain every single day with my ED and Schizoaffective. Thank you for giving me and others a voice that don't and to make us not feel alone.

@user-ny8dl5xv3x Год назад

хочется переслушивать снова и снова, это потрясающе❤️

@_masha_69 Год назад

ага),особенно мне понравился момент: «а что,если я не делала этого с моим телом,я прекращу,а потом ты меня не захочешь»,на том моменте несса ооочень красиво поёт,а так она всегда круто поёт🥰

@SAlAMALEKSUSs Год назад

И как ещо после такой музыки воевать людям хочется. После таких песень хочется забить на всех и вся прыгнуть в машыну и взакат

@Kendi_Kendi Год назад

Да я 30 рас переслушиваю❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

@arichka1 Год назад

Ура русский чел

@user-ze4qx6uo3e Год назад

Чтобы вы понимали я еë 1ый раз услышал на радио Европа плюс топ 40. Я целый день потратил чтобы её найти...

@Celine-cz8cf 2 года назад

that’s probably one of the best songs I’ve ever heard and the fact that so many people can actually relate to this is so upsetting

@Marisa000 2 года назад

I’m so proud of nessa she is so talented and so real and she talks about real things like depression and anxiety and how you should love your body I really appreciate her and so happy with how far she came and I have been here since day one with you nessa you really really are amazing

@aserenadavis 2 года назад

Why do people hate on this girl?! She just trying her to have a singing career! She’s extremely talented...Let her live her life❤️

@nataliereyes1970 2 года назад

Home wrecker

@nistiel324 2 года назад

@@nataliereyes1970 cant wreck a home if there's no home in the first place

@elise5041 2 года назад

@@nataliereyes1970 u look obsessed babe

@eyecxn 2 года назад

@@nistiel324 she's the reason theres no home anymore

@Bumblebee_honeycone 2 года назад

@@eyecxnthere was no home to wreck

@ytzavere5408 2 года назад

This song is perfect full of truth and you helping others in deepression and if someone think that he or she isn't good enough you are perfect for that people.Your music is healing our soul.

@feathered1485 Год назад

Одна из любимых песен теперь! Браво!

@redstop222 Год назад

согласен

@JosefinaRiveros2003 2 года назад

she said "i'm gonna be a superstar", yes nessa, you are and i'm so fucking proud of you

@angelicaecheveste2055 2 года назад

I wasn’t her fan or follower tbh but after few songs I swear I’m obsessed now the lyrics, videos, her voice! Just keep going girl cuz u make us feel a lot 🤍

@jesslaroche4530 2 года назад

Sameee

@simonevanvuuren3901 2 года назад

The truth in this song.. its incredible. When I couldn’t eat for two weeks because I was undergoing multiple surgeries from a nearly tragic car accident I was the skinniest and saddest I had ever been. I got so many compliments on my body at that time. I look back now and realise how unhealthy and sad I was. I just want to hug her 🥺

@xxxjlo5258 2 года назад

Y’all I’m so obsessed with this song😮‍💨

@raissabernardes2584 2 года назад

o talento dessa mulher TO ARREPIADA COM ESSE CLIP

@tomaselgalan6944 2 года назад

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@cinildasilva6414 2 года назад

Simm

@sophialima9242 2 года назад

Orgulhosa da minha bb

@taylorhickman2159 2 года назад

Watched it 5 times in a row and sobbed I still am sobbing. Never once have cried from music this was shown so perfectly nobody has really ever shown this issue the way you did I can’t explain it and I’m making no sense. It’s literally how so many feel and I’m sorry you also deal with it. I love you Ness thank you for everything you give to us ✨🖤🐾

@firefox7957 2 месяца назад

Probably the only ED song I've heard/seen that had nothing that might "trigger" someone with an ED.

@emmahrnkova 2 месяца назад

this song hits too hard.

@delena4evertvd267 2 года назад

i wanna sit and write down all the little details in this music video... the bats seem to represent the millions of dark thoughts and voices that fly around in your mind 24/7 when you’re struggling with an eating disorder. the camera distorting when she stands and tries to walks to represent she’s dizzy from not eating enough. her quickly putting on her oversized sweater like she couldn’t cover up her body that she didn’t wanna see fast enough to represent not being happy with your body. her going to buy a bag of chips but then putting it back and instead buying the magazine to represent how she’d rather have that perfect model type body fit for a magazine than eat. how she’s in a dark room, alone to represent how normally eating disorders go completely unnoticed and you feel very alone and things get very dark. plus is shows how it’s literally about how YOU see yourself, it’s about you don’t feel good enough for you. you’ll never feel good enough for you. her make up making her look close to dead, bags under her eyes, dry & pale lips, her cheekbones having heavy grey contour to represent the fact that she’s literally starving herself to death. the scale never really showing a clear number but also always going higher to represent what body dysmorphia feels like and how it feels like no matter how much weight you lose it’s never enough, you’re still overweight or look the same. there’s probably more i missed or forgot. and maybe i’m reading into things too deeply or maybe she didn’t do all of those on purpose but did them subconsciously or maybe she did those things on purpose but that’s what i took from this video as someone who’s struggling with an eating disorder and has been for a while and knows what it’s like. her videos are masterpieces and so detailed and thought out.

@wtfisthis947 2 года назад

wow I’m blown away by all the details you noticed 😳 you should have a channel where you analyze music videos

@lylakyle 2 года назад

+ that scene where she’s walking around the toilet, wanting to purge

@delena4evertvd267 2 года назад

@@lylakyle YES

@delena4evertvd267 2 года назад

@@wtfisthis947 wait... that’s a great idea lmao

@megbro10 2 года назад

also maybe when she said “don’t know how much longer i can keep this down” could mean like she doesn’t know how long she can keep her thoughts and feelings down or could mean that she doesn’t know if she can’t keep her food down because she wants to purge?

@delena4evertvd267 2 года назад

i just hope she knows not to listen to haters and trolls. because no matter what random, mean words they sit behind their screen and type out, Nessa IS a true artist and that’s very obvious. and she’s making very honest, thoughtful and meaningful music that is helping not only her heal, but others heal as well. and she’s starting conversations that should’ve been started a long time ago and she’s giving people a voice. someday, she’ll be a big star with loads of awards and many albums that are loved by so many people. she’ll be a household name one day. and all the haters are ever gonna be... is mean.

@Rem_The_Tough_Boy 3 месяца назад

Why am I just now hearing this MASTERPIECE? This is the song I never knew I needed.

@ello3110 Год назад

God, you’re such an underrated musician. All of your songs are so meaningful & genuinely help a lot of people feel heard and understood. The way you approach serious topics feels so authentic because you don’t romanticize or glorify anything mentioned, but instead bring awareness to the issue at hand. It’s also a great music video with an even greater song! You should be proud of yourself Ness 💗

@joshuamactavish1755 2 года назад

This is incredible, I have suffered with anorexia since the age of 14, I'm 28 now, I am no longer in the mindset I was then but my body is damaged my stomach physically struggles to eat normal adult meals regularly and I still forget to feed myself because I'm so used to it, this song is a masterpiece sincerely honest about your issues whilst also trying to help others tackle thiers, If I could've heard a song like this when I was 15 who knows where I'd be now, I honestly can't even think of anything else to say because you have just blown me away, I have no words

@ness.jxdn.lyrics8856 2 года назад

I can't explain how proud I am of this 19 year old girl. She has helped me through alot and I'm so happy to have her in my life. And I'm happy she was the person who made me start to make music. And I'm just so truly grateful and proud of this girl