Never Come Back (slowed & reverb) 

There is one moment in my life that haunts me ever since it happened and I can never make terms with it. Back in April 2011 or April 2012, 3rd grade of elementary school (not American system). Schoolyear was almost done. Suddenly teachers grab me gradually by all my limbs to take me to the principals office for no reason at all thus I also resisted for this reason, asking why they were taking me. Sadly fate was sealed when I accidentally hit the teachers knee. Teacher was out for 2 weeks. Suddenly I hear I need to go to a psychiatry for 2 months straight, every day from 8AM - 3PM (like some sort of daycare). Note that at this time a girl that I have never forgotten ever since confessed her love for me and yes we did get together. Fast forward in time, 2 weeks of school remain. Friends, the girl I mentioned and her best friend ask me if I'm coming back. I say "Very likely", everyone is relieved to hear that. Fast forward 1.2 months (already in the psychiatry), my parents come early so I think "yay I'm going home earlier than the rest!". Little did I know we would be going to the new school. I remember being confused but I just went along. I asked my parents (with a teacher I never had next to us) why we were here, they told me "this is your new school". I, even more confused say "but I'm already going to a school, why go to another?". Parents tell me "Because you have to", at this point I'm lowkey freaking out and keep telling them I will go back to my old school, with no luck.. At this point I realize I unknowingly told the biggest lie I have ever told in my life to my friends and the girl I mentioned. 11 years I stayed at that new school. From having to do the 3rd grade over again (because I joined a new school) until I left it. Funnily enough, in very early november 2021 I encountered the same girl again when shopping with my mom. I recognized her instantly but she did in a way as well. I didn't dare say a word to her because I felt ashamed of what happened years ago. Apparently she did ask my mother "aren't you [my real name)'s mom?" after I left to put away the groceries in the car. I did try to establish contact again but my attempts were unsuccessful. Same with friends from the time. An age that's gone yet still lingers