This was also the first song I heard from NF. My son played it for me in the car, and I had to pull over to the side of the road for a good 20 minutes because I was sobbing so hard I literally couldn't see the road in front of me. As a mom in recovery from a decades-long addiction, this song shatters my heart and soul from the other side of his experience. I have no idea why his mom should have passed away while I am still alive - because by rights I really shouldn't be. I ponder on that a lot. I am not a religious person - although I was raised in a very fundamentally conservative Christian household - so I don't pretend to assert that I will ever have the answer to that question in this lifetime. One of his other songs, called "Remember This", saved my life one day back in 2017. It does not have an official music video, but I did make a lyric video for it and posted it to my channel. After the song, at the end of the video, I put a short version of my story. I'm not necessarily requesting that you react to it, although you are more than welcome to of course, but even if you don't, you (or anyone else reading this) might want to check it out on your own time. Every single line is chock full of wisdom that is really amazing considering how young he is (and was when he wrote the song). He is currently 31 years old and his wife gave birth to their firstborn child - a boy - just over a year ago. By the way, his name is Nathan (Nate) Feuerstein (pronounced "FIRE-stine"). Here is the link to the video I made: ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-C-feNdERkww.html
This song breaks me and yet I've listened to it 100+ times. It's such an incredible piece of art. "I don't need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing." All the anger, love, missed memories in this song... it's just incredible. I lost my mom to a drug overdose at 12 and it broke me for quite awhile, ~20 something years. This song changed my life. Made me feel less alone in the world. It won't be repeated, and I'm glad to hear your family won't ever experience these things. I'm sorry for your recent loss. I hope you continue the journey with his music. It's some really great art.
Crying feels good doesn't it. It help, the way NF brings that out Remember the movie fight club? He just needed to cry. Sorry brother you went more fortunate but it sounds like you're doing well. 💙 thanks for the comment
I have a story of a boy who grew up abandoned by his father and neglected by his mother. Could feel the pain of the past of what I could've had but I see what I did and didn't have and I do everything in my power to make sure my kids have everything they should have. Such a powerful song. My heart breaks not because of the lack of parents I have but being a father now makes me hurt for Nate having to experience this. Thank you for an authentic reaction.
Love the way you break down the video and share your thoughts with your history. Keep bringing us more and don’t stop doing what you are doing brother. So Cal love
I really hope you take the NF journey... this is one of the toughest songs to get through. I see that Nikki posted it (the journey list) in the comments. It is basically like an autobiography of Nate's life, put to music. A lot of people have said that his music comes into your life when you need to hear it... I truly believe that. My condolences on the loss of your mom, glad you got to spend time with her before she left this realm.
I'm sure I do need it. I really loved this song. Thanks for the background on Nate (name) and this song. Wow, it's so sad. I'll be doing all of his music, I can't wait thank you
Sorry for the loss of your mom. Your reaction was beautiful! Subbed! I know this is long but it is worth the read and song order. This is for anyone new who may want to take the NF journey as we call it because he intertwines his music like marvel movies. All four albums is like a connected series. For instance in his when i grow up song, paid my dues, leave me alone, and why song, the black smile is the fake smile that he mentions in therapy session song. He hides eggs in his videos. In when i grow up song there was two hidden eggs in that song. A black balloon by the trash cans and in burger joint he grabbed at receipt that had the date and time of when his song time was being released. He had outcast name tag on in the janitor part from his Outcast song. Another example is in the search song he had cage in background he rapped in from his outcast song. Here is the song order: Mansion Album: All I have (video) Intro (video) Mansion- connects to intro 3. Fear moved in. Wake Up (video) Paralyzed Notepad (video) explains why he does not cuss Therapy Session Album: Intro 2 (video) calls out his song wake up and has names of all songs written on wall from album. Therapy Session (video) Very important song. Explains his black smile I just wanna know (video) How could you leave us-(video) have tissues nearby. Real song- (video) he pays homage to lil wayne in this song feed me rappers or feed me beats) Grindin ft Marty (video) Oh Lord- this song gets referred to in returns two albums later. Great song Statement (he pays homage to eminem and drake in this song) Warm Up -single (hype song) (video) Epiphany- collab with futuristic. Video. Pays homage to meek mill. Green lights (video) pay attention to what he has written on the notepad at the end. Perception Album: Outro (video) pay attention to the video. It is like marvel endgame how he connects tons of previous videos in this. Intro 3 (one of his best songs) connects to mansion single. He battles fear. Outcast (video) Know- pays homage to eminem and 21 pilots Destiny One hundred Let you down (video) watch to the very end! If you want love (video) Remember this- 💎 Gems all over this track Single: No Name. (Video) This gets connected in leave me alone song an album later. Single: Why- (video) NF pays big homage to Big Sean as he uses his flow from bounce back in this and mentions Big Seans name and his album I decided. (This isnt nates flow he says) Also he has a ton of eggs like Dont mess with real music written on walls. Pay attention to all the writing. Additionally, Big Sean paid homage back in harder than my demons song he had the black balloons in it among other things Search Album: Whole album should be listened to but you can choose which you would like to do: The search (video) pays homage to kanye west When I grow up (video) pays homage to Adele and snoop. Leave me alone (video) connects to no name single. Change My stress Nate Time (video) Returns- (hype song) one of his best for flow switches and word play- connects to oh lord single Only Let me go Interlude then I hate myself song I miss the days No excuses (hype song) Like this Options (hype song) connects to clouds video Thinking Trauma singing only song. Amazing Paid My Dues (video) It was to the awful article rolling stones put out because the writer was a big chance the rapper fan and was pissed NF took number one spot. Over 400 people bashed that writer in the comments lol Chasing -demo he did with a fan. Clouds the Mixtape- Clouds (video) connects to outcast single turn the music up and options singles Lost ft Hopsin (video) Story (video) That’s a Joke (pays homage to J Cole) Just like you Prideful Layers Drifting Trust ft Tech N9ne Also there is many good songs not on this list like Dreams, you’re special ect if you like him then take the time and go back through and listen through them all at some point. His lost in the moment song was just used for the promo for the new show called the equalizer starring Queen Latifah.
@@CaveManParadigm yes it is better to do in order it is why I have them in order the way I do. I keep adding to this list so it is updated. You can sprinkle in some clouds mixtape songs minus paid my dues if you need a break from his journey. You can do the full album of perception too. Thing about Nf he hides eggs and connects songs so you have to start from beginning
@@CaveManParadigm definitely go in order. This person gave you an EXCELLENT journey list to follow. I am a HUGE NF fan. I took my 11 & 13 year old grandsons to see him last Sept in St. Louis. What an amazing concert that was! This man in so incredibly talented. It's unreal...ENJOY THIS JOURNEY!
@@CaveManParadigm I was in a downward spiral. Of course I thought I had everything under control. All the way up until I lost my career that I worked 10 years for and made it to the top and was there for 6 months and everything blew up in my face. Then my sister shared this song with me and a song by Vin Jay called Addicted. I cried for about a week then I detoxed for what seemed like forever then I stood up and walked away from it. That was 4 years ago. It's quite empowering actually.
Subscribed for more NF. Gatta start from the beginning. The outcasts army is about to flood your page with requests and lists of songs for the NF Journey. Brace yourself. Lol
Outcast army? Is this like #Hangovergang for Tom Macdonald? I did another song last night. It's soooo good. I'm getting hooked on these songs. Thank you
@@CaveManParadigm The NF fanbase refer to themselves as "Outcasts." They usually start to show up in big numbers when a reactor discovers NF. NF has a so called "Journey" through his albums and music videos. He is known for having references in his songs and music videos from prior songs, so there is a fan recommend order to listen so those references will be understood and appreciated.
And everyone wonders why NF is in my Top 5..... I bawl every time I listen to this ever since I first heard it when I reacted to it a couple years ago. I'm a recovering pill addict. Clean Date: 8/8/11. Amazing reaction! Gives me more faith in humanity. So sorry for your loss, too. Subscribed! Much love & respect. 🙏🙏
NF has some tough music. I haven’t heard a song I didn’t like. Read the verse again… Matt. 25:40 “… whatever you did for the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.” - “me” meaning Christ. Look at it in context of v. 31-46.
This is a great reaction. Even if you haven’t had the same experience you coul do feel the pain in his lyrics and delivery and really empathize with it. You gained a new sub in me
this is a sad song but makes it sadder bc it really happened to him, at the end of the song that's him really crying, he said he broke down in the booth and they left it on the record ✌🏻
New sub here , I’m a single dad of the 3 lights of my life , my daughters and every time I watch any NF video it helps me realize little things or big things I need to change for my girls. If this effected you this way you need to go through the NF Journey, I was hearing that for a few years and it took watching this video 2 years ago and I was hooked. I realized I wasn’t alone in some of my struggles. It’s well worth the journey
You're not the only one that broke down with this song. No, shame with expressing true emotion. That is a sign of a true man. Fake men bottle things up until it comes to an explosive head.
The example you used of addiction being a filter was so good and touched me because I see my father, but I don’t know who he is at all, just an alcoholic. That verse you gave was also touching.
Real tough one to jump on as a first NF song. One of his best but hard for sure. If you feel like checking out more, hit up "Mansion"....You'll be hooked. NF does nothing but put out his truth and helps many with relateability. Great, honest reaction.
😢 I HAD to remove my “mother” from my life a decade ago to protect myself and ESPECIALLY to protect my children. Now that my children are getting older I still know it is for the best and that I’m making the right choice. But, a couple years ago my daughter was acting a little off. I asked her what was up, she began to cry and said, “I just worry that you weren’t loved right. That makes me so sad for you.” She doesn’t know specifics (it is too much for grownups much less a child). I just cried with her. Wiped her tears and said, “Don’t worry. I AM loved, beyond words and beyond measure. And EVERYTHING that has happened in my past lead me to my future and present. And I would NEVER change the present so I can never change the past.”
I was abused alot as a kid and a teen, I started drinking and doing drugs at 13, I pray every day that my daughter doesn't have to deal with that, it has definitely been hard after losing my wife a year ago to cancer. I Love that you see this and look to the Bible, God is good and in control 🙏
Amazing reaction I've been watching all of your videos love your view on life and generational curses and reincarnation, you 100% need to listen to Momma by NF, it's basically a sequel to this song now that he's healing himself and coming to terms with himself and his past, the two go together so well
this song is such a killer, i remember growing up sorta like @ima Catherine Maia in the comments. tho, when i was growing up as a 10 to 20 year old, it was the 80s and drugs were pretty common-place. my dad was blind, and had a massive alcohol addiction, so our family unit, (im an only child) was kind of disfunctional him drunk all the time and taking his blindness out on my mom or me. i turned to drugs, eventually cocaine addiction, to escape all that shit at home. how im actually still alive with the amount of cocaine i did in a 4 year span is beyond me. it was so bad i was arrested and went to prison for 4 years and 7 months straight and swore when i got out i was done with drugs. of course, i relapsed several times till i met a girl and had two kids and remembered how bad i hated a substance abuser was in my house. Bascially, i can relate to him on a different level, altho my parents are alive still, and now in their 70s, i feel so much heart-felt sorrow for this dude. i cant even imagine what life would be like, and how i would feel it was somehow my fault losing one of my parents to addiction. crazy good song, and hope and pray he gets peace some day
There is no reincarnation. "And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me." "Then shall he answer them, saying, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye did it not to one of the least of these, ye did it not to me. And these shall go away into everlasting punishment: but the righteous into life eternal." "And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment."
Awesome reaction, would like to see more of NF on this channel. Someone in the comments put down the songs you should listen to and take the NF journey
Man you picked the hardest NF song. So cool that you pray with your family and are thankful and present, sorry for your loss man, I can see you were very close to your Mom. new sub. Allow me to say that Jesus said: "Whatever you do to the least of these, you do unto me" Jesus was talking about treating children and the poor well and to give to those in need. Sorry but you are gravely mistaken to tie reincarnation to the bible, there is no passage that talks about it. It does talk about resurrection, where everyone will arise on the last day before Jesus where he will judge the living and the dead. I hear you on the childlike feeling of your soul and it is absolutely natural to feel your eternal being (soul). I implore you to continue looking into your faith more and to continue to ask seek and knock, none of us have all the answers, we need to seek the Truth. "Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." John 14:6. Blessings and healing to you and your family :)
I’m bipolar and because life was consistently awful, I turned to drugs. My first child came and I was there but not really. I was sinking and continued to sink for 9 more years. 9 years of her life, gone. It has taken a lot of time to be able to mend things with her but we are good now. This song hurts me as a man that I let that happen. Even giving the circumstances.
I'm sorry, I'm glad you've been able to meme things. So many people I know are afraid to really talk and express love. I pray you have the strength so stay in the path and give her what she needs. Thanks for watching
This is the first time i see you, and your chanel. It was an amazing reaction!!! Thank you!!!! if you dont know him yet, it would be amazing if you react to "Hi Ren", by Rean......he will blow your mind!!! Its a live song!!!! he will get you for a big "travel"!!!! 9 min of art!!!!
I’ve always understood NF better than Eminem cause my mom would do that shit say she was coming and never show up or call saying she wasn’t coming. She would tell us she put a card and money in the mail for us for a birthday or Christmas and my brother would wait everyday fuckin day for the mailman to have the mailman have nothing for us. I was old enough at that point and waited long enough to realize it was at lie at this point but in the beginning I did wait like my brother. Eventually she just stop calling at all except for like once a year who I guess her friends asked about us or how we were doing.
This was a great reaction!!! NF's music is Real and so many people can relate to it. Please react to the song Mansion by him. I don't believe when it's my time I will be reincarnated but I do believe there will be something better than this world.
Yeah, good spoke to me in a church when I was 19 yrs old. I think I'm on my last trip around based on what he said. It's in the very earliest videos on this channel. If that story might interest you thanks you for the comment
My mom committed su*cide. I was put in foster care at 10 years old. Got abused terribly by different foster parents. Aged out at 18. I'm still angry at my mom.
Please react to NF Changes My stress Wake up Thank you. Keep going on the NF journey. More amazing songs The search Real Leave me alone Paid my dues Lost Time
You do exist forever. You have a soul. Yet when you depart so does your soul. It goes to heaven. Generational curses only continue if hearts aren't repentant and there is a refusal to walk in the lords way....to follow his word....there is only one way and the way is narrow.
I don't know Jamey, that's what the preachers say. Do you believe the kingdom of good is within? I think this reality ultimately happens within too. Like a dream maybe. My relationship is personal, I don't rely on a preachers interpretation only how I feel the spirit reveals it to me. You know. Did you see any of my very first uploads on this channel. I made the videos kind of for documentation for my kids. Thanks for the comments. I would probably love to hear your personal revelations or dreams even more👍
@@CaveManParadigm honestly I haven't stopped thinking about it. It just makes too much sense. Seriously it was life changing. Thought altering. Helped me understand the way, even if not exactly the way you explained, that family cycles of behaviors really reaches further than what most of us believe to only be ourselves.
Your love for your family is beautiful. I would just challenge you to look at what that bible saying actually says: what you do to the least of these, you do unto me(referring to Jesus) In other words treat others as if you were doing it for Jesus
Thank you, my memorie on some of these versus goes way back. That makes what I was saying even more powerful. Although I I still find it the same from my personal interpretation. Thanks for your comment
