My son showed me this song 4 years ago when I was 15 years deep and at the bottom of an opiate addiction. This song broke me I felt all of my kids pain in Nates voice and eyes. It was the push that finally got me to seek treatment. I've been clean for 4 years Nf couldn't save his mom's life but he did save mine. And I will be forever greatful. Nate is a prophet I truly believe that. This song makes me cry every single time 🥺💔
I could have written this song word for word. I listen to it every so often as therapy. My Mom died the exact same way while i was deployed so i appreciate him making this song.
I never really seen my mom growing up she was disabled and she stayed in her room most of the time. Then when I was 12 a month and a few days from 13 she died from a overdose they found a large amount In her stomach. Now I'm in my 30's and disabled had a suburban fall on me.
In their last conversation (scene on the couch) she was saying that the way she was on drugs wasn't HER, it wasn't about the music not being HIM. She was telling him that the drugs weren't her, yet she died of an overdose several weeks later. Very good reaction - thank you for being open and honest enough to share it. It's a very difficult song to respond to emotionally because it is so strong.
I heard that at the end he cleared out the whole studio so he could talk to his mom alone... This song is just so powerful. Gets me every time.. I have had a past that im not to proud of but thank God that im now done with that shit and im 14 almost 15 years clean.. That shit is something i wouldn't want on my biggest enemy..
We lost our mother when I was 9, my brother 5. Her and my dad had fallen into drugs and when my dad went to prison, mama disappeared. We never found her body or any information, and because of the life they lived, we feel the police never did the job they would've otherwise. It's very difficult. As a matter of fact, this song is one that hits so close to home for us, its very difficult for me to even listen to. Replace pills with heroin and you have our life story. It sucks. A lot. Prayers for you, Asia. I know what you feel. XoXo
I also find it difficult to listen to. But for some reason I always find myself listening to it with tears and my positive mood nowhere to be found. It hits close to home for me as well, not nearly to the extent that it does for you though. I'm sorry you had to grow up like that and live life with those memories and always wondering about things. Much love and prayers for you!
Good news! Y’all made it through the toughest song in Nates catalog and next should be the song “Real”. It’s a hype track! Which will help flip the mood. Great video as always. Much love you two!
I love the way *Asia* says "child" We got a little emotion out of her but I think the long commentary broke up the song in such a way the emotion didn't come through as much. Even though we could tell there was also some emotion coming through *Asia* at the end
That part where yall were really breaking down the feelings was very on point. I was that quiet kid. Im getting alot better at talking about it all now. But its still not easy.
The part when they sat on the couch and he brought his music what he was saying is that she was saying the drugs is not her but a few days later she was back at it. When he was crying and speaking at the end he threw everyone out of the studio when they were recording the song and did that part on his own talking to his Mom.
I feel this is something he needed to release to become the NF that we know today. If he never put this track out he might be what we see today it’s good for personal growth to vent and air it all out. Great reaction guys!
"Im Afriad To Feel".... Thats The NF Journey I Hope He Touches You And Gives You Strength As Much As He Has Done For Me! With That Said This Is One Of Nates Best Masterpieces, Love How Open He Is About HIS Burdens. Much Love Always!
Your mini ‘rant’ about 4:30 about understanding this song in the perception of a child... i thank and appreciate you so much for that. Ive heard many people, EVEN THOUGH LATER HE LITERALLY SAYS “i was just a kid who couldnt understand it”, ive heard ex addicts or some others totally just stick up for the mom during NATES painful recollection trying to course correct how addiction is a disease etc. And its so frustrating bc... YES WE KNOW THIS. THIS IS NATES MEMORY GROWING UP. How you going to try to challenge his feelings he was literally raised with? I really appreciate when people take a moment to acknowledge how traumatic situations like this is for a motherless child due to something as confusing as drugs.. and tbh, disease or not, a real mother would regardless find a way to fight every demon for her children. 3 of them, here.. 🖤🖤🗝 #nffamily
I fucking love NF!!!! In a world where people are scared to show anyone who they truly are inside.....NF is like hold my beer not only will I put my heart on my sleeve for everyone to see....ill place my entire heart, mind, and soul under a microscope and dissect it in my music so your soul can hear it!!! He is truly the fucking GOAT of all music....not just Rap! He was born to deliver a message!!!! Great reaction guys!
When I first heard this all I heard was the anger. The 2nd time I heard the sorrow. After loosing my pops I hear both sides. This pure anger and sadness the exact feeling I was feeling
This song hit hard for me had me in tears because I have a family member battling with addiction. This is a powerful powerful song I thank nf for putting this song out
That’s the tough one to get through. It’s part of his personal story and it’s interesting how he references it in future songs from the artist NF! Intro 3 🤯!! But stay on the Journey and it all fits!
You both are beautiful souls!!! With a great message. So glad I found u. Keep reacting n giving your views. This song is the most emotional song that has ever hit me. I lost my father 8 years ago to pills. Had my son shortly afterwards. He will never meet him. This hits DEEP.
14:00 in Asia I can feel that pain in your eyes deep in my soul my mom was never really around she’s still around but the pain I feel is from loosing my week old son..... many blessings to you ma’am
Just subscribed to your channel today because I came across your Lady Leesh reactions. Had me laughing at DIV had me crying at this one. Looking forward to watching more of your reactions. 🌹
This song speaks to me in a different way. My mom is currently a drug addict...pills are her drug of choice...I'm horrified that one day I will get that call saying the pills got her.
@@snowflakehunter I've actually played this song for her while we were taking a drive in my car. She got all defensive ect. Ended up having a fight. I pray for her daily but thats about all I can do.
This song broke my heart! This is the only NF song I have heard kind of scared to check the rest out if they are going to make me cry like this one did! Great song..he seems to have a lot of fans..see requests for him often! 🥰❤✌
I'm only 3 mins into this reaction and I totally understand Asia. I have not felt your pain, but I understand pain and I get where you're coming from. Just know you're not alone and BJ is there for you. BJ, you're a great man, full respect bro. ...... That being said, I wanna see a great metal concert with you so we can both be in the mosh pit ;) Asia and my fiancé can stay in the back as we get our metal on bro ;)
I’ve been binge watching your channel. Great content BJ and Asia. I usually don’t watch reactions to this song but Asia, you seem like a beautiful person, inside and out so I decided to watch it with you. I think if we were neighbors, we would be friends irl.
You are both are very articulate and have high emotional intelligence I love how you really dissected everything that Nate said. I have seen many reaction videos but, most people are not as articulate and as emotionally intelligent as you guys.
I feel this song 100% my mom died when i was 11 from a drug overdose...i was a kid who she leaned on and i got taken from her. Then a few months later she got taken from me. This song explains exactly how i feel, but i could never find the words until now. Right down to the cigarette smell....
I can definitely relate to NF my grandmother took me in when I was seven days old and I lived with her all the way up until the time she passed in 2020 but years before that I live with my mama boyfriend and I asked her why she never wanted me she said she couldn’t take care of me I was born a crack baby but she never wanted me years later in 2011 I forgave her then she passed from breast cancer
Turtle's back. Songs like this let ppl know they are not alone, that they can get through it, cause the artist got through it. Music like this is important. Music like this really helps ppl. Music like this needs to be shared and heard. Music like this can numb the hurt. maybe help heal completely.
I know y’all get a ton of messages and I’m sure you won’t see this one. I just wanted to tell y’all that I absolutely love yalls videos my favorite reactors. This song is a very personal one for me my parents both chose drugs over us kids. Much love for y’all.
You are responsible for you. For the decisions you make in the decisions you don’t make. For how you approach life, your attitude, how you respond in situations. Life is not fair and it does not give a shit but at the end of the day, beyond bullshit excuses or justifications or whatever… You are responsible for you.
the story is that at the end of the song he asked everyone to leave the studio and leave him alone leaving the recording on, that's when he recorded the talking part
When you go through emotional abuse and physical trauma as a kid, it is sooo hard to move past it when you are an adult. I mean you may move on but it is always in the back of your mind and it affects your relationships with people. It sucks. It is a sad song that that most of us can relate to.
At the end of this he had to send everyone out and finish this alone he was so emotional, he has stated in an interview how he has learned and grown through this and in a different place now than then. In mansion the beatings he talked about were from his moms boyfriend Johnny I believe was his name. This is probably one of the most emotional songs you will ever hear not only because of the lyrics but because you can feel the pain and anger he experienced.
Asia i went through losing my mom when i was 15 and she was only 35. I am now 36 the holidays are so hard for me and shes my best friend. But i also lost my dad this January when i first heard this song ik that its not the same but a lot of this song i relate to. You know they always say time heals but thats only a cover up because it only feels more real every day i wake up and wonder where she is wanting to check on her and my moms birthday waa Valentine's day. Plus ive had cerebral palsy had it since birth
Honestly was avoiding this one but was busy and the next vid brought me here. Met my bio mom 6 years ago and went from a closed adoption to ending up actually burying her 2 weeks ago... Annnnnnddd the reason we lost her was her addiction to pills. Couldn't not watch tho. ❤️ You guys are incredible
You had anxiety or anxt about this song. The difference between stress and anxiety is anxiety has a fear of an emotion attached to it. You fear that you will feel some type of way and may be overwhelmed by it or cannot deal in that moment. Stress does not have those implications on such an intense level. Thanks for allowing yourself to be vulnerable on camera. That's brave.
If y’all can check out We Three Heavens Not To Far Away. It’s an amazing song written to their mom that died from cancer written from her perspective. Please check it out if get the time.
The only song that hits me harder than this one is Chris Stapleton's video of Fire Away which touches on mental health issues like bi-polar disorder and depression. Both songs remind me of how fragile and precious life is. If you are someone who is living in either of these situations, remember that you are worth it and please find help.
I lost my mother to Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis more commonly known as ALS on November 15th 1993. I was 11 years old and at 40 now I still feel anger that this horrible disease still doesn't even have a treatment that can prolong life yet much less a cure.
When I was young I lived with my biological mom and her boyfriend and every weekend they would drink and do drugs and he would beat her and us. After the fifth time of him being arrested for it she had to choose him or her kids and she chose him. I spent eight years bouncing around to foster homes before getting adopted.
You know what I think sucks the most is when you have a good parent and then it is taken away from you that's worth now my life is perfect thank you by Mia that was hard for me to say
I’m 46 years old and finally ready to forgive my mother for this exact situation but she’s gone from this world. What do I do now? Just sad but I have my own kids to think about.
