Dear Nate, we are both the same age born on the same day. My parents split when I was 7. Father was a meth addict that beat me since I was 3. I have struggled living in this world my entire life. I found you and this song 2 years ago during some of my worst times. I recently have been through 30 days of rehab to unpack the horrors that happened to me as a child. We weren’t allowed phones but I had an mp3 with this song on it. Thank you for sharing your story and giving me the courage to do the same. I pray for anyone here in those dark times to keep holding on and have faith. There is a god and I know he showed me this when I needed it most.
I feel you, my father was a abusive alcoholic, who beat me everyday, later in life I went off to serve in Marine Corps, served two tours in Iraq, seen and been threw some shit times, later I came home to my wife who found out was no faithful, and spent some odd years trying to sort all out, now I just take one day at a time, and don't let anybody get close to me, I always felt that if I do, it will just be another person to hurt me.
Jeremiah Trejo we just happened to feel and in my case I smoke and mind slowdown.. life is good when you have it “all” but in reality sometimes slowing down allows you to meditate and get back up🎶🎵🎼✨
I hate my past, my traumas, my issues, but I wouldn't change the past even if I could. It's true that your past experiences make you tougher. I'm not as naive as I once was and I plan to help others due to my experiences.
This song makes me wanna go back to being 8 years old, having crushes, real friends, easy school work, getting congratulated on my success, and going to bed happy.
Search up Token please, just listen to one song. I think he NF and him sound the same in parts of this song. The flow and energy especially. I just want a second opinion lmao
Lyrics : I miss the days when I had a smile on my face and Wasn't so caught up all of the small things Wasn't so adamant that I could handle everything alone And wasn't so cautious, and always exhausted And actually listened to things that my heart said Ridin' my bike, just ridin' my bike Not overthinkin' my life Not always wonderin' if I'm a likeable person Or someone that nobody likes Not always stressin' 'bout money Or losin' my job or scared I ain't makin' the flight Not always going to bed every night With this knot in my stomach that never unwinds What happened to me? Yeah, what happened to me? When did I start to believe I wasn't worth it And question my purpose to breath? Wonderin' who I should be, happiness outta my reach Scared to get back on my feet Need to get rid of what's detrimental But it's hard to let go When the thing that hurt you helped you get to your dream See, I miss the days when I wasn't so faded Love wasn't always invasive, I could embrace it Just innocent, waitin', not always living in anguish When did I break and become over taken? What was the moment I caved and gave away all of my faith And mad a replacement? I miss the days when, I miss the days when I miss the smiles we had when we were young I miss the memories of feeling love I miss us runnin' underneath the sun Staring out the window when the rain would come I miss the smiles we had when we were kids, yeah I feel like life was so much simpler then, yeah When we had joy and we were innocent I'd give it all to feel that way again, way gain Gimme my mind back, yeah, gimme me mind back The one that told me I was worth something when I fall flat The one that told me I was worth something when I'm off track Back when my imagination wasn't in a cage And it was free to run fast Yeah, gimme my mind back, gimme my-gimme my mind back Before it was hi-jacked and wasn't described as A place of limitation always indicating I can't Handle everything from my past Handed ended anything it dissects Till I'm depressed, I know I'm blessed But I'm cursed too Take me back when, I was happy but I wasn't acting Vulnerable but didn't see it like some kinda weakness Or a thing that's unattractive Had emotion but I learned to mask it Didn't know what I was running after Didn't know the older I would grow the more I lose control And takin' all the baggage, it's really sad when Everything you thought was stable crashes Everything you thought would take the sadness Really only made it deeper, got me off the deep end askin' Will we ever feel like we imagine? Will we ever feel like we adapted? Will we ever feel like we did back then? Just take me back when, just take me back when I miss the smiles we had when we were young I miss the memories of feeling love I miss us runnin' underneath the sun Staring out the window when the rain would come I miss the smiles we had when we were kids, yeah I feel like life was so much simpler then, yeah When we had joy and we were innocent I'd give it all to feel that way again, way again Yeah Yeah I miss the smiles we had when we were young I miss the memories of feeling love I miss us runnin' underneath the sun Staring out the window when the rain would come I miss the smiles we had when we were kids, yeah I feel like life was so much simpler then, yeah When we had joy and we were innocent I'd give it all to feel that way again, way again
Some days I pray that whatever god has planned for the world would reach the end of its course so the pain will stop and we all go home. Then I get a glimmer of hope after prayer and letting god take control of my life rather than carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders. Life becomes worth living when I lay my problems at the foot of the cross.
I'm 35, married with 2 beautiful children. Struggling with depression, NF saved my life. If there was anything I want more in my whole world, It would to be to just thank him and shake his hand and tell him I am here because of him.
@@cat2715 Cat This was amazing to open the internet to. Thank you for reaching out to ask me. I am getting better every day, taking baby steps. We just celebrated our 14th anniversary today and it was wonderful.
@@emmanuelgrice5557 Its amazing you seem to know me for some reason. Today was one of The worst days in years and i sank pretty hard. I am trying tho. Doing all i can to keep my head up.
Hey man, hope you’re doing well. I had a rough day myself also, but somehow reading your comment made me feel less alone, even if I don’t know you personally. God bless you.
Nf is on a different level then any other artist out there. There is music, then there is Nathan. No one compares to his passion and impact on those who listen to his masterpieces.
@No shirt Gamer Hate to break it to you, but you're wrong, the dude can rap and there is no doubt about it. If he didn't go through what he went through, he wouldn't be the rapper he is today.
1800 is logics most overated song i cant feel any emotion listening to if you want a song that conveys the pain of suicide then im sorry by joyner is much better many nf songs bring out emotion in me while 1800 dosent
Really hits home when you're only 24 and waiting to hear if you have a fatal disease. Literally give me any moment from my childhood and let me go back and rewind life from that point. I don't want to say goodbye to all those good memories.
NF, I speak for all your fans out here when I say I love you and your music so much it’s gotten me through so many rough times so keep doing what your doing because your amazing😫💞
@@pareosfav4909 It's not bad for some people not to relate. I relate to this song and I am glad for people that don't. This is one of the few times where ignorance truly is bliss.
This song always makes me tear up. I was fortunate when i was young. I had alot of friends and i was a social butterfly and was really happy. In high school i was really good at my sport and my family was so proud of me. Then i went to college and i had alot of friends there too and my fam was so proud of me and i was happy but now into my mid 20s things changed so much. All my friends faded away and now i have none. Im overweight, always stressed out from work, i no longer make my family proud, im barely getting by financially, and i have developed severe social anxiety so even when i am in a situation where i can make more friends i just close up and I don’t speak at all. Just stand there quietly or find an excuse to leave early. Its such a huge change from how i was when i was younger, I know alot of people went through this in high school but for some reason it hit me in adulthood. Every time i try to get my old friends together i just get ghosted of i get left of read. Nothing happened between us at all I guess we just faded and went separate ways. But im finding adulthood extremely lonely and empty feeling. I would do anything to go back and be happy again. Even church sets off my anxiety so bad because the amount of people there, so I quit going as much and it disappoints my parents. When i force myself to go all i can think about is when i get to leave. I usually just watch online now. Its so bad now that I will sit in the car for 10 minutes to sike myself up to go into the gas station. Every time i go i to public i have to convince myself to do it. Lately the only time i feel happy is when im out on the lake fishing alone. Even with that if i see too many cars I will turn around and go back home even though the lake is huge. Idk what happened to me, i don’t think anything traumatic happened to me it just randomly developed. Or maybe something did trigger it but i just didn’t notice it or something. I just wish I could turn back the clock.
I'm going to pray for you, but I also want to offer you something. Do you wanna be friends? I have a very different story from you. I didn't really have friends in high school. Not many, anyways. What I'm learning is that your family can be your best friends. My family isn't everyone's family, though. Maybe try to find a smaller church? The church I go to is pretty small. We have, at most, maybe thirty people, and close to ten of them are my family. (I have a lot of siblings). It's good to do church online if you can't get there, but there's something about having a close church community... It becomes less other members, and they can become friends, family. Find somebody who doesn't judge you, and who loves you for who you are, and hang onto them. Don't let them go. I would rather have one best friend, than a million who don't really care. You need someone who cares. Pray for a friend who will come alongside you, encourage you, be there for you when no one else is. Also, get in your Bible. I'm not saying you aren't in your Bible, because I don't know, but it can be such an encouragement when you're feeling down. There's no greater cure for an aching heart than time spent alone, daily, with Jesus. He is the only one who can truly always be there for you. People will let you down, and abandon you, but there is a Love greater than all other loves. I pray that you will know and experience it for yourself, friend.
@@jessvanmeter This is exactly how I feel right now in my life. The fucked up part is that I see what this is doing to me, its tearing my life apart and its got so much hold on me and i hate the person that i am for it.
Vrt's HD Vids I have a passion I need recognition but the only person that noticed me that was famous said “you’ll never make it anywhere you fat piece of shit” I’ll always remember that day
NF is my fucking therapy. Ive been listening to him since two years now and everytime im at my lowest i smoke a joint and listen to nf. His music makes me accept everything that has happened to me and everything that will happen. This man has the talent to put mine and thousands others feelings into a fucking song how we could never describe them. Thank you so much for your music Nate you make me feel like home :)
NF has music for every vibe. When I need to get hyped: NF When I need to relieve stress: NF When I need to release anger: NF When I need to relax: NF When I go for a run: NF When I need to tune the rest of the world out: NF Thanks for everything NF.
Literally this, i even told my psychiatrist that NF and his songs get me on so many levels, maybe differently than what the songs are, but still. Probably Hate myself hits me most.
This song really brought a lot emotion. It instantly brought tears not in a bad or good way in a way that I wasn’t so alone way. That other people feel this empty pit, loneliness, and feeling like you’ll never be enough. So when people say your not alone. No one is really alone. Not when you have someone else out there feeling what you feel. We got this.
I needed to hear this, thank you so much, no one has ever said that to me I wanna say, thank god for you, you helping me through the wrist times, your making me not wanting to kill myself. I’m 11 so thank you for saving my life❤❤ I hope you live a amazing life😁
Omg I thought I was the only person life was good then but it can get better..because when you love yourself you find what you need...I'm still trying to find that but I need to take my own advice some day
Exactly tho it was after my diagnosis n recovery of M.S. Then 3 days ago my docyor asks where's my parents from. And I say south asia. And he goes "oh well the risks of getting M.S is very low when ppl are from there" plus No one in my family has ever had any autoimmune/neurological disease. So yeah Im blessed with privileged health care and record fast diagnosis but Im cursed with this random disease..
@@KCThatOneDreamer I agree, it's like even though you're glad they see the good in you, sometimes you want to scream that I'm human! I have Issues too! I need help! But you're to scared of the backlash that would happen so you say nothing at all, because it's easier to suffer and stay silent rather than scream and face the consequences.
A huge shout out to *Debi Selby, Nicki Conley, Jason Eskridge, Brooke Griffith, Moiba Mustapha & Travis Cottrell* for the background vocals! Without your soulful voices the song wouldn't be what it is! Mad respect to you all!
“I miss the smiles we had when we were young” This hit me. Takes me back to the days where we had nothing to worry about. Then depression and anxiety punches you...
God’s given me the memories of pain and loss but through all the days I felt awful I remembered how even through all of the death pain, Christ was my comforter and friend through it all. Thx NF your music got me through the worst truly God uses you
im only 15 and already wish I could go back to elementary school I was so happy back then and I wasn't worrying about my future or how I look. Back when times were less stressful.
Bro, I'm 13 and I can't tell you how many times I've genuinely considered just leaving everyone and everything, but I've had some amazing people in my life I'm pretty sure you do too, you just need to figure out who is who, that is the hardest part, but everything will be ok, it just takes time.
I miss the days when I had a smile on my face and Wasn't so caught up all of the small things Wasn't so adamant that I could handle everything alone And wasn't so cautious, and always exhausted And actually listened to things that my heart said Ridin' my bike, just ridin' my bike Not overthinkin' my life Not always wonderin' if I'm a likeable person Or someone that nobody likes Not always stressin' 'bout money Or losin' my job or scared I ain't makin' the flight Not always going to bed every night With this knot in my stomach that never unwinds What happened to me? Yeah, what happened to me? When did I start to believe I wasn't worth it And question my purpose to breath? Wonderin' who I should be, happiness outta my reach Scared to get back on my feet Need to get rid of what's detrimental But it's hard to let go When the thing that hurt you helped you get to your dream See, I miss the days when I wasn't so faded Love wasn't always invasive, I could embrace it Just innocent, waitin', not always living in anguish When did I break (it) and become over taken? What was the moment I caved and gave away all of my faith And mad a replacement? I miss the days when, I miss the days when I miss the smiles we had when we were young I miss the memories of feeling love I miss us runnin' underneath the sun Staring out the window when the rain would come I miss the smiles we had when we were kids, yeah I feel like life was so much simpler then, yeah When we had joy and we were innocent I'd give it all to feel that way again, way gain Gimme my mind back, yeah, gimme me mind back The one that told me I was worth something when I fall flat The one that told me I was worth something when I'm off track Back when my imagination wasn't in a cage And it was free to run fast Yeah, gimme my mind back, gimme my-gimme my mind back Before it was hi-jacked and wasn't described as A place of limitation always indicating I can't Handle everything from my past Handed ended anything it dissects Till I'm depressed, I know I'm blessed But I'm cursed too Take me back when, I was happy but I wasn't acting Vulnerable but didn't see it like some kinda weakness Or a thing that's unattractive Had emotion but I learned to mask it Didn't know what I was running after Didn't know the older I would grow the more I lose control And takin' all the baggage, it's really sad when Everything you thought was stable crashes Everything you thought would take the sadness Really only made it deeper, got me off the deep end askin' Will we ever feel like we imagine? Will we ever feel like we adapted? Will we ever feel like we did back then? Just take me back when, just take me back when I miss the smiles we had when we were young I miss the memories of feeling love I miss us runnin' underneath the sun Staring out the window when the rain would come I miss the smiles we had when we were kids, yeah I feel like life was so much simpler then, yeah When we had joy and we were innocent I'd give it all to feel that way again, way again Yeah Yeah I miss the smiles we had when we were young I miss the memories of feeling love I miss us runnin' underneath the sun Staring out the window when the rain would come I miss the smiles we had when we were kids, yeah I feel like life was so much simpler then, yeah When we had joy and we were innocent I'd give it all to feel that way again, way again Edit: The one word I missed that someones tripping about
I’m so glad I found nf he guided me when shii was so fucked in my life an he gave me a reason to keep fighting , don’t give up to whoever is reading this , your stronger than you think keep your head up 💙
29 and the majority of my life feels like an entrapped emptiness.. But when I hear this Nate, it feels ok cause we relate in so many ways and makes the pain go away and I feel ok again. This one's my Fav.. All your songs are Great... Music Medicates!
I really loved this girl at my work it was blind true love she is so funny coming up with some jokes here and there really helpful towards to all others and she gets scared easily especially from bugs and starts screaming so cuuute and so funny that I just want to give her hugs and kisses. I started loving her after she was away from work for 1 whole week then it was so quiet and I missed her so much and developed strong feelings for her and now my friends at work says she doesn't want to have a relationship with her co workers but if she changes her mind then I wil say yes and explain her all the nice things I love about her she is a true angel the world needs more people like her.❤️😥
I miss the old me the me that was innocent, the me that wasn't negative. I miss the me that wasn't always stressed.. I miss the old me that wouldn't look in the mirror and say to myself "I'm ugly".
Nf idk if u will see this.... But I didn't end my life tonight bc the pain I hold onto.... Figured u should know I'm still breathing tonight bc of u.... Most friends say ur songs are sad... But to me ur songs are a way to relieve the pain that I feel... I'm sorry u felt it... But I'm glad I feel it with me... Its hard to bare this weight alone...
Damn, this song came in the perfect point in my life!! Just graduated highschool and the real world hasn’t been treating me the best but Nate giving the motivation to get through it!! Thank you Nate for all the real passionate music and inspiring me to make music too
I feel you on this one, i just graduated in june and i dont have money to pay for college or anything at the moment and i dont know what i really want to do in life
what's crazy is that is literally what i do when im fighting myself and overthinking my life...like rn my mind scares me and im afraid why some of the things that float around in my mind started forming. When I feel like that, I'd grab my bike and just ride for miles and miles just trying to forget. When I heard that line I got so many chills
anyone else feel that they can share how they feel with strangers rather than friends family etc. because they're scared of being judged, but they know strangers wont judge them?
This song hits hard to home its almost a spiritual connection I have with it Im sure you hear it alot @NF but I genuinely thank you for being here, being our voice and just being you love you man
That's really interesting. It's probably my least favourite from the album (which isn't saying much because I love them all), but still thought is was interesting.
"The hardest part about depression is hating yourself, the hardest part about hating yourself is realizing you're stuck with a person you hate for the rest of your life."
This song is one of my favourites cause it continues tocuhing my heart every time i hear it. The only girl i really loved in my entire life left me and hearing this song remembers me the beautiful moments we had together. The line when he says "its really sad when everything you thought was stable crashes" really, really touches me. Thank u for doing this masterpiece NF.
Bro, when this album came out and I heard this song I broke down, cried in my car for a long time. It hit me hard. Something about yearning for the old days, as a kid just open the floodgates for me. We will never get that time back. Somber man
@@twistychimp1487 enjoy being 12 trust me im 14 and i already feel like i wanna die. i miss being 11-12 years old soooo much i could write forever but I'm not lol. and be with your parents as much as possible because when you are older you will want to be with them and when they are dead you will wish you could've been with them more.
Nfs music helped me get out of a 6 year heroin addiction, helped me find God, not in a church but in the lyrics this man writes. I'm a father now, a husband, a son, a brother, a friend, because of how real the things he writes about are, helped save my life and make me better. Keep doing what you're doing man, I need your music!
@@Struggler3831 when I was in teen challenge rehab facility I heard all I have and when he said I don't live for the world I live for the king, started my journey into his amazing music, love nf!
