Can't believe she's gone! Anorexia is a horrid illness. She battled it for years. 38 is far too young to go. I just hope she's at peace. Goodbye Nikki, thank you for the memories 💜
IKR 😂😂😂😂 I was thinking “ffs Nik your like something outta the exorcist” at that part there 😂-loved Nikki -so wished Anorexia hadn’t taken her . Love to her family & peace to Nikki finally 😞 😢❤❤❤❤❤
Aww such a sweet and comforting thought.... she just looked to overwhelmed to move bless her ...I know she struggled she had mental issues and a certain person in that house wasn't very nice to her I get she could of been a handful but even still I think she just needed looking after in there bless her heart rip beautiful lady ❤️ xx
Nikki spent her childhood in and out of hospitals for her mental health. She spent a long time in the strictest eating disorder inpatient clinic in the country, in north london called Rhodes Farm. I too was a patient there more recently. AND i would just like to point out that after conversations with staff there who knew Nikki personally and who treated her for years, every member of staff pointed out that THIS is exactly what she is like. NOTHING ON THE SHOW WAS AN ACT! A true legend.
So sad that she has lost her battle with anorexia rip such a wonderful person taken so soon forever in my hearts she made this season one of the greatest seasons ever in big brother history may u have found peace.
You can kind of see how trauma works here, she started developing these tendencies at the age of 7 and emotionally she is very stuck in that childlike state. I realised this a couple if years ago that emotionally it was as if I was 13, because that’s when I had a trauma. She’s such a gem though, so so sad 😔
You make a really good point. Her anorexia started at about 7/8 years old, so mentally, a lot of her emotional reactions are from that age. I’ve had friends who started taking hard drugs and got addicted at 14/15/16, and then got clean in their 30s. They stunted their emotional health and maturity in their mid teens, so had to learn, realistically, how to act and live like an adult. It works the same with, as you said, trauma - Can be any sort of trauma too. I wish more people knew this.
She was suffering and now she has died from her illness. People think she was doing it on purpose, but knowing somebodys mental health because there are ignorant people out there.
Nikki vs Helen was one of the greatest moments of the show. Helen always needed to be brought down a peg, she was universally accepted as a bully and fixing accusations came up when it turned out Helen was always represented by the team behind the show and no one was better than Nikki to tear into her.
Nikki's passing has hit hard, it's so difficult knowing that someone with so much joy and laughter to bring the world fell victim to such an awful condition. At the very least, we can say that she doesn't need to suffer anymore. Praying that Nikki is in a better place now and that her family have the strength to somehow pull through this tragedy 🙏🏼 RIP Nikki 💕
Sending heart felt thoughts to Nikki's family at this time, the whole country loved watching your daughter on BB! Terrible shame. I am literally in tears of laughter especially the crab move. Nikki is a gem for UK television but it's obvious she suffered terribly mentally. ❤️❤️❤️
@Harmony May There is a difference between "frequent sever outbursts" in People and witnessing it in everyday private life, and seeing someone "acting" out on a Big Brother TV Show where there are cameras on her and which she applied to appear on, and so no, in her case it was not obvious. It only became obvious later on in life when her eating order became apparent.
i never said she was faking. And if you noticed how and why she "acted" the way she did, if her outbursts were "obviously" a sign of someone with mental health issues and if her eating disorder was " obvious" to you then did you attempt to do something about it, like contact big brother and ask them to maybe take her out of the house and get her some help? Somehow i doubt it, but if you did try to intervene and make them notice and do the right thing for her then by all means explain it, id be interested to know. (i barely watched her time on big brother as I'd lost interest after 2005)
@Harmony May "I think mentally and physically ill people deserve to have the same experiences as able bodied people".... Wow talk about being patronizing, people who are mentally ill and physically ill are not "disabled".
@Harmony May And of course you didn't intervene because her moodswings and anger onscreen was very entertaining for you to watch. You come across as a real hypocrite as well as a "know it all"
She will always be a legend. RIP beautiful girl. And god bless all people who suffer from eating disorders. May you all find the strength to carry on xx
As an autistic woman, I would bet my life that Nikki was. This is what it looks like in adults. These are meltdowns. We are lovely people who feel things so intensely it's overwhelming. We are very connected to our emotions. We are the truth tellers, the artists and the ones with true soul. RIP Nikki. xxx
I absolutely agree I’m autistic and I can relate to her, however I’m no where near as passionate as she is, but she will always be a legend to me and my mother my mum thought she was hilarious and nuts. (Before we knew she had anything wrong with her).
Omg finally, iv been searching for these comments so so badly, 💯 she presented as an undiagnosed autistic woman, eating disorders are part of it breaks my heart that she didn't get the correct help. When I was a younger,I would act like this.. everyone thought I was crazy,I spent time in institutions, finally at age 52 I got a diagnosis of ASD and it all made sense, eating disorders,meltdowns shutdowns, self harm, drug misuse.all of it was trying to mask or medicated sensory overload, it's sad that Nikki got all of that for entertainment, RIP niKki❤
I knew how ill she was and how much she's suffered but I honestly never expected her to die, such a shock. Rest in paradise Nikki, I hope you're free and happy now darling 💜
This year of the show was one of the very best. Nikki had such a unique personality, one of the most awesome of contestants. Her meltdowns were hilarious & epic. Sad to hear she's left the world so young. RIP Nikki.
I loved her from the first moment she lost her shit. She reminded me of me being the oldest of 5 kids living with my 4 ars hole brothers. Love you girl and can’t believe your life was cut so short.
This video popped up on my recommended, on April 9th (the day she passed) I watched it and laughed so much she was just a pure little diamond and I will miss watching her terribly! Her death was announced a day later on April 10th but to think I was watching this the day she died and it hadn’t been revealed was crazy! ANOTHER LEGEND GONE FAR TOO SOON! Rest easy with Jade, Nikki! WE LOVE YOU ❤️❤️❤️
RIP Nikki, a true icon. Looking back at some of these moments and some aren't quite as funny as they were at the time due to the added context of what we know now of her condition, she must of been genuinely triggered and in distress during her time in the house and i'm not surprised why. so heartbreaking
Rest in peace Nikki xxx I’m so gutted xxx you were an incredible housemates but more importantly - a good person xxx sending thoughts and prayers to friends and family xxx
RIP sweet Nikki. It's so heartbreaking that she died before getting the help she truly needed. I will never forget her beautiful smile and electric personality. Rest in peace and power, Nikki. I hope you're happy in a way that you could never be here. Absolute icon ❤️❤️
I loved her and her book is sad reading. You can tell how unwell she was while in big brother. I will miss just knowing that she isn't in the world now. R.i.p to you legend nikki grahame. Many will never forget you and will always love and miss you ❤🙏🙏
@@relaxbro7671 its a little bit more complicated than that, its a mental health thing... there are other directions this illness can take even if the person eats. It’s so sad though.
Yes it’s so sad. when I was anorexic I felt cold to my bones all the time. Wearing a coat 24/7 and any cold felt like torture. Also the anger from being hungry makes sooo much sense.
@@lilacdratini totally! My lips used to turn blue from cold even when the weather was pretty fair. It actually makes me wonder how anorexic girls wear sleeveless dresses or tops and aren't shivering!!
R.I.P Nicky after your fight with anorexia you were a legend a great person from big brother. You were my favourite person from start to finish on Big Brother. Rest in peace xxxx
Truly heartbroken this awesome bundle of incredible has left us so early. Sleep tight Nikki....you will never be forgotten. Make some more stars shine up there xx 🕊🌌💖
ive never seen big brother UK or CAN. I just binged all of BB US thanks to corona and now i need to watch every season this amazing woman is on. I LOVE her
Still laugh I do it's what she would probably want a few tears but mostly laughter it's like they are still here whenever you watch them on TV/vids and laugh it's good to laugh ❤️
When I look back at this, I feel she was never mentally and emotionally ready for this. As entertaining as she was, our dearest, sweetest Nikki is at rest after a very damaged and torturous life. I wish I could hold you Nikki. Rest in peace sweet angel. 🙏🙏🙏🙏❤
Yeh Nikki spend most of her childhood in mental health clinics and really strict hospitals for her eating disorder and this is what she was actually like during this time I believe she was in the recovery process for anorexia
Can't believe she passed away. I'm a US fan and watched all of the series she appeared on. I remember the last time I saw her on tv (I think BOTS), she didn't look so good . A lot of the comments were about her weight and how she looked thinner than usual. It's too bad she never got help/treatment for what she was battling. She was such a character and will be missed so much;(
