I did it again. Just because I could. I knew what would happen, knew it wasn't good. The action left me numb, and yet it made cry. It reminds me I'm alive, but made me want to die... ... Is any of this real? It seems like hell. You look at me and see... The child behind the eyes. Tell 'em "I'm okay" so they'll go away. Don't try to understand Why I make me hurt... ... I feel the scornful bliss. It's my lover now. She never leaves my side. A trophy life of fail. I can't be bothered to care. The clay has hardened through. A useless mound of dirt, like salt without the sting. Is any of this real? It seems like hell. You look at me and see... The child behind the eyes. Tell 'em "I'm okay" so they'll go away. Don't try to understand Why I make me hurt... If life could start again, and we'd restart the day. I would take myself, outta the fucking way.
I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know Goes away in the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt I wear this crown of shit Upon my liars chair Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair Beneath the stains of time The feelings disappear You are someone else I am still right here What have I become My sweetest friend Everyone I know Goes away in the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt If I could start again A million miles away I will keep myself I would find a way
hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that's real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try to kill it all away But I remember everything [Chorus] What have I become? My sweetest friend Everyone I know Goes away in the end You could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt [Verse 2] I wear this crown of shit Upon my liar's chair Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair Beneath the stains of time The feelings disappear You are someone else I am still right here [Chorus] What have I become? My sweetest friend Everyone I know Goes away in the end And you could have it all My empire of dirt I will let you down I will make you hurt [Outro] If I could start again A million miles away I would keep myself I would find a way
