NOT MY FAULT!! SYSTEM RESPONSIBILITY | Dissociative Identity Disorder 

Can we just take a second to truly thank Nin for all the editing, research, facts, commitment, and dedication she puts into each video💗 I mean she is such a stunning person inside and out💯😊💗🌟 lots of love for everyone in the DissociaDID system!💗🌟💗🌟💗🌟💗

My abuser has DID and blamed, what he did to me on his alter and didn't even take any kind responsibility. Videos like this are so important. I'm glad it exists.

The way I see it, it cuts both ways. The system should take responsibility for bad actions as well as credit for good actions.

One of my alters cheated on my spouse. When I told her about it, I said "I cheated on you", even though it was an alter that did it. My alters are all parts of me at the end of the day

Being in a position of responsibility in a system sounds kind of like being a parent. If your kid is rude to someone or hurts someone and refuses to make amends, it's up to you to make it right, because that person was still hurt and you're responsible for the person who hurt them.

I love the choker, Nin, and idk if it's just me but it seems like your make-up skills are on a different level after the integration O_O Your make-up has been stunning in your videos lately!

I had to do an exam that was a speech and I chose DID as my topic because of this channel and the class seemed really interested in it so I would like to thank you for making that situation happen!

I didn’t know that DID was a thing, until I found this channel. Very fascinating and interesting to learn about. Thanks for educating me and many others via this platform

your hair looks great! going to miss the rainbow but this definitely suits you!

Random, but ADHD brain keeps fixating in the way you say “body.” I don’t know why, but I really like the way you pronounce it.

This gives me courage to confront someone who's really been bothering me lately. I think the way I was looking at it before was "you alters who are instigating this situation need to stop" but this gives me a different perspective. Like, we're all in this together. Thank you for this, Nin.

Honestly nin every since you integrated your makeup is FIRE

Nin, thank you for this message. As I am bipolar, when I am hypomanic or fully manic, I can spend money recklessly, speak inappropriately, miss work, and dissociate. However, when I return to balance, I have to accept what I've done, make amends, and deal with the fiscal ramifications. I know its not the same, but I can completely relate.

I feel like Nin is the embodiment of a warm hug and a long meaningful conversation with tea.

i can’t imagine the fear that comes along with did. living with other people inside the same body has so much responsibility, it must be so hard trying to make sure everything’s going well between everybody. You have to have a lot more respect for others and you’ve definitely got to be resilient. i really admire all of you! there’s no right or wrong but you guys are doing it so well! nothing. is. linear. and you can have so many more downs then ups but that doesn’t mean it’s wrong! we all make mistakes 💗

Someone send this to Trish

You and Chloe gave the strength to finally make myself go to find help. I'm struggling now for quite some time now whether I should or should not get help again. And you helped me so much with my decision. I do not have DID but some other mental health issues that were partly diagnosed while my last treatment. Thank you so so much and lots of love from Germany for all of you in the System, you are great people and really inspiring. Keep up with what you are doing ❤️ you really can help people and maybe yourself too with all the support from here ❤️❤️❤️❤️

As a system, I find this situation really unfair but hey, this is reality. Preach it!!

I know you said makeup is hard for you now, but the looks are fierce Nin! Get it girl! ❤

one of my close friends was recently diagnosed with DID and your videos helped me IMMENSELY in understanding and reacting to her experiences thanks a ton to Nin and the rest of DissociaDID! edit: woooooow! thank you! my first heart ^^ means alot to me, thank you! =^.^=

That part about alcohol and similar makes me think of a question I've had for a while. If the body is drunk, would everyone in the headspace feel it? How far back in the headspace would that affect (like someone who's co-con would be more likely to be affected than someone further back) What about being hurt? Would people in the headspace have a sudden feeling that something is wrong, or even feel discomfort if the body, say, broke their arm?

The quality of this channel keeps getting better and better. I love how the education has progressed. You're doing a great job Nin & Others

I love this video, Nin, there is a friend of our system who has seen more alters front than probably anyone else ever and I feel like, because of the fact that I've personally told him that if anyone else who's a part of the system fucks up, I will always go ahead and deal with it as soon as possible to make things right, he has been able to trust the system a lot more in general. He does not have the disorder but is willing to and has learnt quite a lot whilst interacting with us and I think that if you give someone who makes an effort to get to know whoever alter is fronting at the moment and wants to learn about the disorder, respect in form of being responsible for the other alters within your system, often times people like that will give you the same amount of respect back and will be a good friend which is always nice :3 -Jack

One of my alters got there hair cut super short so they could feel comfortable but didn't really think about anyone 🤦🏻‍♂️ now we all have to deal with it

Though I miss Cloe, I absolutely love Nin. She seems so confident and just more "mentally healthy/happy". I hope this makes sense and isn't offensive.

I love seeing how Nin is setteling into her personality, in this case her style and talking. And as always, great video ❤️

I have not been very kind to my alters and I'm ashamed of it. I plan on apologizing soon. Thanks for this 💗

I want to thank you for what you do here and how candid you are. Not only have I learned a ton about DID, I've learned more about the dissociation and cptsd that I do experience. I feel like between you and Crappy Childhood Fairy I've learned more about these topics than I have through years of therapy and psychiatrists. It has helped me to understand a lot about myself and that some things that feel abnormal are in fact normal for someone who has endured trauma. You are massively appreciated and I wish you nothing but the ability to thrive and the peace your deserve.

Learning about persecutors is one of my favorite aspects of all this. Being a single personality, I can still think of the different parts of my brain as being compartmentalized the same way, even on a metaphorical level. Learning how to reach out to one's persecutors and offer them love and support just makes so much more sense in this context, and reminds me to not bully myself so much for my past suffering.

man. i'm in a few did/osdd groups online where people don't take responsibility for their systems' actions. i'm glad to finally have a resource i can point them to instead of typing out an essay myself every time. also, nin this look & the editing are incredible!!!

I think one of the most frustrating parts of trying to make amends with people on things other altars have done is when people expect you to know what you’ve done and refuse to tell you when you politely ask. Growing up I’d miss entire days/weeks and think oh i must’ve got the days wrong not realizing DID is a thing and I’d come back to friends being angry at me and I’d try to get the situation sorted out but they were offended I couldn’t remember and be like “you should remember” and i just had no idea what was going on. And apologizing after even *hinting* that you dont know what happened has never gone well cause “its not a real apology if its not important enough for you to remember”. DID is such a hard disorder to live with

Being used to American accents, I’ve always been in love with the way Chloe said “everybody”, and now I hear Nin saying it like that too💙

How does your hair get better with every video?

Hi. I am from Malaysia. I'm so glad that I found your channel as it taught me a lot about DID and show me different perspectives on it. It is full of knowledge for us who did not know much DID. Wish you all the best. ^_^ PS: I love your makeup, it makes you looks super gorgeous

Nin, thank you for this educational video. I appreciate all the knowledge you provide to break the stigma! Education is so important in this world today and the passion you have for education on this topic is amazing!

I LOVE the new touch to the editing and the channel, you are doing incredibly well Nin! Thank you so much for taking care of the channel and helping educate people on DID! I hope all of you are doing well, sending love to everyone❤❤

As a person who has OSDD, this video was extremely helpful towards my system as my persecutor, Michael, has stopped doing things that can hurt other people.

I don't even have DID but this channel is so inspiring!

There is another thing I want to say on a personal note. Between you and the Entropy System, I have come to learn I dissociate significantly. I don't have DID, but it explains why hours simply disappear. This has led to a change in my therapy and medication. I want you to know that you have changed my life. From the heart, thank you.

This is great advice Nin, even for those without DID, as what you do, aware or not, you still have to take responsibility for. You always have great advice Nin and speak in such a way where you can hear the passion behind it, and you are all around just absolutely lovely :)

I linked this video to She Who Shall Not Be Named today in the comments of her video blaming her swearing at Anthony Padilla on one of her "alters". I hope she listens, and I hope she fucking STOPS THIS SHIT.

I have never met anyone with DID and I’ve become obsessed with your channel recently because I realized I knew absolutely nothing about it! It is amazingly fascinating and I admire every part your system we’ve been shown. I feel like I am learning so much about my own trauma and psychology even without DID through this channel. All of this feels so important to me I feel like I need the information you share, to better me and others I may encounter. So much respect for disassociaDID. The switches are fascinating, seeing how visible switches can be has confirmed it for me that this disorder is real when I used to be a bit sceptical about it all. I hope any others will react the same way so more people with DID won’t be told they are invalid or treated badly just because of their disorder. I thank you so much for educating us on this stuff even if it is very personal to you. So much love for your system, so much

Thank you for this wonderfully educational video! I don't usually comment on videos, but I just wanted to let you know that I really like your videos, and can tell that a lot of effort was put into making them! The contents are sound and educational, and I love the way you present your content. Not to mention the awesome editing! They really help me to understand DID better, and remind me of the importance of mental health as well, especially since it's not been talked about that much until recently where I'm from. I've been watching (and rewatching) your videos for a while now, and just wanted to let you know :) lots of love and respect!

this is completely off topic: but this look is EVERYTHING on you Nin

the vids are definitely more passion filled and personal now ❣️i can feel the emotion thru the screen like you’re speaking from your heart where before, tho Chloe was very open with us she definitely took the more objective, scientific route ! we love what you’re doing with the channel, nin ❣️

Thank you so much for making this. It brought tears to my eyes. You explain things so kindly and are so reassuring. As someone with trauma it just... means a lot to hear.

i love Nina choker/necklace here! you did great with the makeup also! 💗

I love that Nin stares into my soul while she's talking. I can feel the emotions behind everything she says! It's so earnest and genuine!

Hi Nin!!! I'm glad you brought this up. I had a friend in the past with DID, back when I wasn't very aware of what it was but believed them. And they broke our friendship, or an alter did, and when another alter apologized they said it wasn't them. It was someone else in their system and I had to just expect that. I don't think they truly understood their condition yet either but an alter said quite horrible things to me and they definitely didn't take responsibility, just apologized it happened. I was also less understanding and unwilling to believe it wouldn't happen again so I blocked them :( anyway, I hope that this helps other systems as much as it helped me understand what my former friend had done. Much love, always 💜

i didn’t know about any of this until the whole trish situation but im very intrigued by all this. i dont know anyone with DID or have it, but i feel like this stuff is important for more people to know about!!

This channel has helped me so much. I found it when my therapist told me to research my diagnoses. It has helped me understand not only my non human alters, as well as what causes alters to splinter off, as well as possibly avoid making others . I didn't know why there was video footage of me doing things(destructive ) I didn't remember. The only thing I had was accountability for what I had done. No idea why it happened. There is far more to my story than I can reasonably write here. That said, thank you very much!!! Y'all have helped tremendously.

Anyone else get HYPED, AND soothed when the intro music comes in?? @DissociaDID, THANK YOU for this vid. Timely in our healing process.

This channel has taught me so much about DID, I had a lot of misinformation before watching these videos, thank you for making these!!❤️

i have a two systems who im very close friends with, but one system has a persecutor who hurts me for fun but the rest of the system dismisses their actions and protects them. the other system has two alters who ignore me for days on end when front and they never message me. i never knew about system responsibility and just assumed i had to deal with it

I understand taking responsibility as a system regardless of who made the “bad” decisions. I hope you all also find joy in taking responsibility as a system for each alters positive actions and choices as well 💓💓💓 thank you Nin for all you do 💙💚

Thanks so much Nin for jumping back into the channel! I can imagine it's hard to just try and resume as normal after just poofing into existence. Great to keep getting to know you, we all already love you so much! Kisses and love to the guinea pigs!💖

I'm so early. I Love guys. Kyle I love you man, you're a legend ❤️ I love everybody in the system and Chloe started doing a great thing, spreading awareness about DID. I know you are putting yourself at a risk but so many of us love the DissociaDID system. I hope everyone is doing okay, sending lots of love to the littles too (I know you keep them private) but I hope they're having alot of fun! You have all my love and respect, this goes for everyone in the system, I love you guys alot❤️❤️ and Nin you're doing a really great job, I hope you keep going strong ❤️❤️

Not really related, but me(the host) once suddenly got locked out of the headspace and it was CHAOS with the body until I came back. A co-host had to do their best to control the situation. Ralín is said co-host. Love her

Wow this video is rough and much appreciated. My husband was diagnosed 4 months ago and although one part of him is willing to take responsibility for the one part that causes all the issues, the trouble maker will return and contradict everything that the other parts have taken the blame for. The trouble maker is self destructive and horrible to me. From what my husband can tell me is that all his parts, but the one trouble maker, wants to work together. The one part who is so mean destroys any failsafes and work we and/or he has done. I do appreciate this video. I will show his host, cause his host agrees with you. I wish I knew what to do about the trouble maker. He’s really damaging my husband’s system and our family. Thank you so much for being here. Your videos are so helpful, important and brave. 💗🌸🦋

Heya Nin! Can I just say I love your editing style? It's so good and clean! There's so much information here. I'm so happy to be following you all. This is... helpful for me. I have a difficult circumstance in that my mental health team don't want to diagnose OSDD or DID in any of their patients. They don't believe they should be in the DSM-5. I suspect I'm a multiple. I used to suspect it when I was younger but I didn't have the words... I weighed things back and forth for a long time but since a major surgery, there was some medical trauma there and... well, there's someone new inside. But I have no idea how to deal with it.

I love Nin's style, beautiful make up~

It breaks my heart to watch my daughter struggle! The guilt is overwhelming sometimes. I left her with someone I truly thought I could trust when I was gone so long having my surgery. In my head I know there is nothing I could do different. I also know that I made a horrible mistake by leaving her where I did, but it was a mistake and I know in my head I need to stop beating myself up over it but that is much easier said then done. I feel responsible even though it was not my fault. I would gove anything to take the pain away.

Oh wow I actually got the notification 😂😂

your makeup looks so pretty, i love the monochrome + red lip combo and the choker!

Hey Nin. I wanted to say that I love how confident you've become. I want to thank you for being so brave and continuing to spread positivity. I wanted to say that I'm so proud of you. I may not know you or the system in real life, but I already feel like I would be more than happy to be a friend of the system. I wish I could send you all presents, but I'm unable to for the time being. This next bit is for everyone in the system. I want you all to know that even though you went through some terrible things, you are all amazing people who inspire others. I only know a few names so I'm sorry if you feel a little left out in this part. It's not that I don't care for you but because I am yet to come across you or simply can't remember you all at one time. Kyle. You are a big help to me on the days I feel masculine. Plus you have great taste in hats. Jade. You are an amazing protector. Don't doubt yourself even in the toughest of situations. Nin. Though you are new I already feel as though I know you. Yes I miss Chloe and Nina but I also see that you shouldn't be seen as the bad guy for existing as pieces of them while being a whole new person. You are stronger than you think. To the littles. I wish I could send you all as many stuffed animals and hugs as I could but unfortunately virtual hugs are all I can offer. You are all incredible people and I can't wait to see all the amazing things you'll all do in the future. Thank you for reading and I hope you all have a wonderful day/night. ❤💛💙

I feel the middle part so much. We were having trouble deciding to stay in a problematic/controlling marriage and my ex accused us of making up the DID to manipulate him. In a later convo when I was encouraging him to get help for his, our son, and his future relationships, he mocked me and said "maybe I have DID and when I get like that, I'm Steve." That was the moment all my alters got on board with running and running fast. All this was only a few months ago and since then, I've been struggling in decifering what's mine/ours to take responsibility for and what isn't. Particularly that his anger and inappropriate ways of dealing with it was my fault for being as 'damaged' and 'broken' as I am

I wasn't aware of almost anything about DID before a new friend who has osdd told me he had it and recommended your channel. Since then I watched every single video from both you and team piñata not only for the information, but for de amazing people that you are. Keep doing what you're doing. Rooting for you everyday 💕

Thanks Nin! This can be a difficult process to navigate for people with DID and those around them. I really appreciate the work you put in to make this video. Love to all of you.

Bruh I really love the new editing style Nin's brought to the channel! It's really smooth and aesthetic

I love that you can see both characteristics, traits and styles from both Nina and Chloe in Nin. Like her style is a perfect combination of the two, sort of an easier way of understanding the process of integration and what integrating means.

I just found this channel and I'm so happy I did. My girlfriend has DID and these videos are really helping me learn. I wanna make sure I fully understand so I can be there for her whenever she may need. 💜

Hi Nin! 💚 This sounds very tiring, you explain it very effectively and with grace. Referring to the system as a community helped me move past my initial thoughts of 'that sounds so unfair when it wasn't you!' to thinking about it using a community metaphor. In any community, whether a school, or an organisation etc, if someone within that organisation does something unacceptable, the organisation as a whole will accept responsibly and issue a public apology, even if 99% of the people in that organisation weren't involved, and their personal opinions on what happened may vary. Apologising for something that wasn't 'your' fault doesn't mean you've done anything wrong, just that you understand that all communities (and systems) are full of complex relationships and responsibility is shared. And as someone else mentioned, success! Individuals within the system should be proud of their personal achievements, but it's also okay for others who weren't directly responsible to share in the joy 💚

You are so so good at doing this. You balance communicating with people who have DID and people who don't and are learning about it, holding systems accountable for system responsibility and being empathetic and understanding about the struggles faced when doing so. It's a privilage to have access to such amazing, thorough mental health resources. Keep doing what you're doing!

I'm not sure if I should say this here but why not. I'm a bit older & I remember being diagnosed with Dissociative Disorder at age 30. I didn't realize what it all meant because I stopped going to that doc & moved out of state. I can't remember if I shared it with other counselors & docs afterwards but I probably did. Thing is, no one explained what it meant & I didn't ask or research. I thought it was just because I could separate from myself. I've been watching your videos for several weeks now & the reality just hit me. It all makes sense. I have much thinking to do now. I suppose I'll tell my new mental health team because I didn't even think to mention it. Thank you for all that you're doing!

This all makes me have even more respect for people who live with DID. Thinking about how difficult it would be if I were to be responsible for everything my friends did already makes me stressed. Seriously, so much respect for being so strong 💙

My best friend, who, we consider close family because mine was never there for me, showed us all your videos on did/OSDD systems and I just want to say, thank you, for being a person to clear up stigma and stereotypes about these disorders, and ... For trying to help people around you / educate them. It helps/helped us a lot in the past, and right now. Thank you. 💜

Can I just say THANK YOU for this video, Nin. Thank you for speaking up about this because my ex had DID & one of his alters had emotionally manipulated and abused me, refusing to own up to it while my ex defended him because he was “only a child”. Of course I didn’t want to blame my ex for it bc she didn’t done it but at the same time he had manipulated and abused me so much it was horrible, so thank you for speaking up about having to take responsibility on it.

Thank you for talking about this. I had an old friend who sincerely hurt me and she used her DID as an excuse. She was fronting, I'm not sure if she was co-coning or not, but she said that because she has alters, sometimes they will say something and it will blurt out without a filter. Her struggle and disorder is valid but the way she worded it made it sound like an excuse rather than an apology and it really hurt. This video gave me a lot of perspective on what she probably meant to say and helped me understand what it was probably like in her life as someone with the disorder. Thank you. 💜

Hey Nin

I think you can tell just from the way you present yourself that you've become more confident.

I'm apart of a young, but large system of 41 alters (as of 11/14/2020). We've had DID for 10 years, but just found out about it a couple months ago. Our system is so massive (luckily not everyone is more interested living their own lives in the innerworld) & we are in a 15 year old body, so it can get chaotic, so this video helped a lot honestly, thank you so much.

Thank you for making this video because recently my teacher used DID as an example of if someone should be guilty of a crime despite their mental condition. So thank you, I was wondering about that.

In searching for answers about my trauma I found you. I don't have D.I.D but I am glad to have found you because you educated me on something I didnt know anything about. Your system is beautiful and I am a huge fan of Jade her no nonsense attitude reminds me of myself.

I'm always watching intensely for the videos. I love them so much!!

Another Great educational video. I hope things are starting to settle for you guys since the integration. Btw your makeup in this video is stunning!! I think it’s time for a Nin makeup tutorial. 😍❤️ hope everyone in the system is doing well.

What I hate as an alter even is the we have DID, we can do what we want thing..I'm so grateful I have a good kind system.. Because what a nightmare this condition could be if an alter didn't care..

I’m so thankful I found your channel. After finding you yesterday I’ve had such a sense of relief and calmness take over my body, like finally I’ve found what’s wrong with me. No one understands when I try and explain. Definitely going to seek further help on how to get a diagnosis! Thank you thank you thank YOU!!!

I want to talk to my therapist, because I have a strong suspicion that I may have DID, but I'm scared. I have gaps in my memories, I mostly only remember traumatic experiences & especially lately I have been losing time. There'll be days where I don't remember most of what happened that day, like there are just completely blacked out holes where I should have memory. Sometimes the blank spots only account for like 15 minutes, but other times it's an hour or several hours that are just - gone. And I do have people in what I've always thought of as like my "mindscape". Well, two people. When I visualize my mindscape, it's a giant stone maze, with a ghost town in the middle and in the middle of that town there's a tower. One of the people lives in that tower, and the other person just sort of wanders around the town. Sometimes they chill in the tower together. But I never really had any information to think that it might be anything other than just... super real, super lucid daydreaming or something. The landscape has changed over time - it used to be really vibrant, but these days it's all grey and sepia toned and any plants are withered or dying, and if that's not a statement on mental health I'm not sure what is. My family doesn't talk much about mental health, and I only recently even admitted to having these people in my head/having an inner landscape, because I was afraid of the response I'd get. I'm in a place for the first time in my life that it feels somewhat safe (literally as far across the country as I could get from my family, lol), and I'm so glad I've found your channel and a few other DID channels because you guys are putting out incredible amounts of good information that is so so helpful to me. I'm just terrified to go to my therapist about it. I have always been scared of talking about what was going on in my head, about hearing or seeing things, like... I don't know. It's just kind of terrifying to me, but watching you be so open with it is really encouraging me to have an open, honest dialogue with a mental health professional when I can afford to start seeing one again. I hope that that will be soon, because I'm really struggling right now, but... I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for being open and honest about what you're going through. Thank you for opening this dialogue and being so supportive and encouraging. Thank you for bringing a safe space to be able to just talk about things like this. Thank you so, so much. I have other mental and physical health problems that I am in the process of finding treatments for - which I'm really excited to have finally found a doctor that listens to and takes me and my health seriously - and it's just... it's nice not to feel so alone. Not that I'd wish what I deal with on anyone, ever, so I feel horrible even saying that it's nice to not be alone, but... that's just truth. Nobody likes feeling alone. So... thank you, DissociaDID, so much, for educating people and creating a safe space to talk. Thank you.

This really hit home =\ we have a persecutor who recently said some hurtful things to our partner, and I (as the primary host) have spent a lot of time since then trying to work out how much to apologise for his actions and what the right way to handle situations like that is, so thank you for this. You're right, it feels very unfair, but at the same time I care a little more about my partner's feelings than that sense of what's fair to me.

Thank you for making this Nin! As a best friend of someone with DID for about 3 years now you were one of the first stories i heard from. I've loved meeting some of my friend Kian's system over the years. Such an interesting video. Really enjoying your presentation of content.

Nin is so pretty wow i love her eyeshadow it always looks so good. i love how hers is always glam. i also love when Jade does dark intense makeup.

Yes. Co- accountability Is a thing ... it is a must !

Ur an amazing person thank you for helping us understand DID better

Great video nin! This is unrelated to the video, but in the livestream you said that you guys were going to dye your hair again. There is a brand of semi-permanent hair coloring called Overtone that I like. It is a conditioner that colors your hair, so it doesn't damage it like regular dyes. You can also wash your hair in warm water, so no more cold showers 😋. Sorry for sounding like an ad, have a great day! Also, I'm so excited for the podcast!!

All of you are amazing, it's great to find people that actually get it, especially with persecutors , I also try to look at people outside the body with that kind of mindset

I'd love to see Nin do a makeup video because the makeup is slightly different than what Chloe would do and I'm very intrigued as to how Nin approaches it (also I really want to know what her makeup products are because shes so good at it and her red lipstick doesnt transfer)

Hey Nin, I've watched your channel for quite some time and I actually had a question. It's completely okay if you don't have time/energy to answer! I understand you must get many questions daily. I was wondering if there are any dissociative disorders that you know of that can occur when repeated trauma is experienced in your early pubescent/teenage years?

This video could not have come at a better time. Currently trying to handle persecutors that are actively hurting friends in an effort to push them away. You’re so right in saying that communication is key. Thank you x

Your makeup always makes me so happy when I see it in your videos and idk wHy, but thanks for that lmao

The editing is on point Nin! Also, I know you say you struggle with makeup but girl... that's ON POINT 💖 Now about the video, this is such an important topic, not only for systems but for everyone. Pain, trauma and mental health problems don't wash away responsibility or liability at all. As a depressed anxious mess of a human being, I struggle with owning up to stuff I feel I can't control sometimes, so thank you! 💖