Nujabes - Summer Gypsy from Metaphorical Music Stream / Buy : opc.lnk.to/Met... All rights, including the master rights and copyright, belong to Hydeout Productions. #Nujabes #MetaphoricalMusic #HydeoutProductions
The sample in back of the track which you hear at the start is from monolake - occam im pretty sure. In case anyone was curious. A dub techno track! Nujabes clearly enjoyed many genres :)
This song is both probably my favorite Nujabes song and also my most despised. I literally can't listen to this song without crying since I heard it for the first time very recently. You might ask, "wow Dee you're a fucking loser holy shit," and that's not a question. But there's actually some what of a reason for it, and I guess I'll write about it here since nobody will probably read this. I'm transgender. As soon as I came out when I was 17 years old, effectively all memories of my childhood became locked to someone else. By coming out as transgender, I forfeit the summer memories I had, since the person in them no longer match who I am today. This song makes me long for a childhood summer that literally doesn't exist. This song, to me, is a bleak melancholic reminder of the fact that I'll never have a traditionally female childhood. This song is a reminder of the past that I simply don't, and never will, have. This song is a reminder of who I never got to be, and it absolutely hurts. This song is a reminder that I'm stuck with either having summers being a boy, or nonexistent ones where I got to be me. And yet, as the song echoes with the different beat at the very start and very end, it's not the entire picture. There's still more that exists besides the notion of the summers that should've been. There's more room in our lives for greater memories and things to come. It's not all an entirely blank space. I'm 20 years old. I've got a lot more ahead of me in my life. And if there's any other transgender person that stumbles across this comment, you do too. The gaps that exist from who we once were don't define us, no matter how much it feels otherwise. It's okay to cry about it sometimes, it's something every trans person has to go through, and that's what this song did to me. This song helped me physically cry about it, 3 years publicly out of the closet. And I both love and despise it for that.
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