Opiate and Crystal Meth Addict-Crash 

The foster care system destroys children . It’s completely heartbreaking. I wish all these ppl that fight for abortions laws would start yelling about the foster care system ! These poor children grow up to be adults with heartbreaking stories and lives . Crash I hope you are able to get that job and start down a new path . 🙏

When he said that anti depression medicine takes a way from your spirit and personality. Facts.

Sometimes you just wanna hug ppl thru the screen. This man needs a good hug and someone to hear him without judgment

Man, he’s had a rough hand dealt. I can tell why he never trusts, or gets used to anything. Hope you find genuinely good people to surround yourself with, some that can show you what true friendships, and relationships are, without stipulation. Good vibes, and blessings brother.

He is an extremely aware individual. When he said he was cognizant of everything that’s happened in his life, I believe him. I hate the hand he was dealt. But, he’s extremely intelligent and has been able to cope despite all of the hardships. I’m hopeful that one day he can find peace so that he doesn’t have to live in a constant state of fight or flight. Keep pushing man, stay strong. One day at a time. Sending a lot of love your way.

The absence of any favourite memory as a kid broke my heart. He never had a chance and I’m sending love and light, Crash. You deserve more than you’ve been dealt and I hope you can heal your soul.

Man. He is literally the epitome of trauma. Reactive attachment disorder. Crash. Fuck man. I am so sorry about your daughter. I cannot imagine what that was like for you (or how it continues to be for you.) Keep strong.

Im sitting here watching this at 40 years old and I can’t imagine walking a day in this man’s shoes . I feel so bad for this man he seems like a really good person that’s suffering a tremendous amount of pain , I see a very interested individual that has this mystic way of being that is so different I pray some kind of miracle forms in his life I think he could write one hell of a book and that may be the one thing that could change his life in so many ways . He’s got amazing talent that was formed by living through tragic situations no one could fathom

You can tell this dude does alot of thinking and reflecting. He's very aware and smart I hope he gets his life together

He told his story real good, and I believe him when he says he didnt do the crime he was senteced for. Stay strong Crash, I cant imagine how hard it must have been so far.

"Just a stream of faces washing by in a stream of shit". A perfect description of what i'm going through. Thank you Crash.

He proves beyond a shadow of a doubt that there truly are some gifted, strong, amazing people with beautiful (and sad) souls stuck on skid row.

This is why parents are so important to a child's life. Bruh had a difficult life hope the best for him.

My heart is breaking for this man. I can’t possibly imagine how it must feel to lose a child AND be unjustly blamed for their death. I just want to hug him. And FYI you don’t look like the type of man women regret being with. I hope you get well and get the family you deserve.

Life can be hard when you’re this intelligent and have such a high level of self awareness. He was dealt such a bad hand it breaks my heart because he seems life a nice guy thrust into these situations and lifestyle. I just can’t believe how cruel people can be and I really hope he finds happiness and stability

Crash, God bless you. Your a good man that spoke from heart. Don’t ever give up on yourself, you deserve everything you’ve wished for and it will happen. Your smart and a problem solver.

Sounds like this man has gone through an insurmountable amount of pain. But in my eyes he is the definition of a badass. His energy definitely does not deserve to be in jail. Rooting for you.

".. it's just they make it real difficult to be a good person. Tired of getting kicked, ya know?" "Some of them have been genuine goddesses in the flesh.. and I've been blessed to worship." two comments highlighting the despair + joy of just living. Thanks for sharing, crash + mark. You are appreciated.

i have newborn twins and this story killed me. Crash, i hope you can find the strength and serenity to continue to take care of yourself and your children. don’t quit. one day you will be rewarded by the universe for not giving up. your strength and courage is an inspiration

time for my daily dose of "life isnt that bad really after all"

Crash, you speak so eloquently. Your use of the english language is beautiful. You know how to paint a picture of how you feel and that is rare. I think you should start to write about your life. Writing could also be an outlet to process those hard to handle feelings. I wish you didn't have to feel like an outsider in your mind. I see an articulate and principal person that wants the best for his children. If someone has called you 'weird', I would question THEIR values! Maybe the life that you have lived has made you turn inside. Made you you want to hide what you have inside you. But I tell you Crash, what I see is a good man that was delt a bad hand. But you have grown to be a man that your children could look up to. You have NOTHING to be embarrassed. Embarrassment is a “self-conscious emotion". For myself it took a long time not to give too much emphasis on what others say. Especially people that have fucking no value to your life. I hope you can find a way to deal with your emotions in an other way than drugs. I know you have it in you! It wouldn't be easy, but I wish you know that there a a lot of people here that hope you can get your life on track. You deserve it! greetings from Finland

“If it came to me saying something it was long over due” “I’ve always been quick to fill my head I’m a small guy” damn I felt that. Also “Some of them have been genuine goddesses in the flesh and I’ve been blessed to worship… but love is elusive” 😫😫😫😫

Crash, I have the utmost respect for you brother. For what you’ve been through, I am inspired at how eloquent and insightful you are. You’re perseverance and love for your kids is palpable. I know you can’t change your circumstances and it sounds like you live in flight or fight to survive. ..I get it…I’m a pediatrician in a rough neighbourhood and watching this gives me a perspective on how and what the kids I work with actually need…hope and support…I hope I can provide them with some of what you needed back then. Thank you brother for giving me this insight. I’ll think of you in my daily work.

i can clearly see that he is a really good person under all the pain and the circumstances.

I feel for this guy 😞😞 what he says about foster care is so true 😞 I was in foster care for two years and was in 5 different placements. Gosh those times were awful. Thank god my family got custardy after that. I still remember the magic and power of actually being part of a family (even though they weren’t perfect). I can’t imagine the childhood this guy had

It’s insane to me this dude literally turned of adult age and was locked up ever since but you’d never know. He’s very insightful I relate so much to him

I'm so sorry that happened to you. Having a baby die from sids is hard enough but then being blamed for it, I can't even fathom that. It's not something you get over. I hope you can find a place that can give you peace someday. You deserve that. Thanks for sharing your story with all of us. It takes a lot of courage to do that and I can see that you have so much strength. Don't give up, don't let the bad guys win. Let your kids be the reason you thrive. They will always need you. ❤️‍🩹

The majority of the people that grew up in the system don’t know the potential, the great person they could be because in most cases they were never told or shown how.

What an extraordinarily bright individual. It's a shame so much darkness befell him. Crash... I hope things improve for you. You've got an exceptionally sharp mind, and a lot of hard-earned wisdom. I wish you didn't have to bear such a burden of pain and branding from a difficult past, and present.

Man do I relate with this man... you know it sucks so bad that you can tell this man is super intelligent, intellectual, introspective and just so full of depth... all these things, while he may not feel like much or have trust or high self esteem or feel as though he as anything to offer, that to me is the craziest part bc to me, personally, all I see and hear is VALUE... this man could alter and change so many hearts and minds in a positive way, but bc the life he has lived, relationships that have been ended abruptly, constant change etc, bc of all these things, it's like he's shutting down all of these attributes that he has to offer... almost like intentionally dimming his own shine, his own light... and it's sad... as a fellow introspective, empathetic and a person who observes people, you see so many surface level, narcissistic, shallow, ego driven, selfish assholes winning and having good things constantly happening, while you know good people, with great hearts that are caring and want to help others, and they just get shifted on, taken advantage of, used and devalued... it's a heartbreaking, cruel and unfair world, and that's a certain thing... I pray that in God's will that those who deserve the most will one day get their just due... you can tell this man has a huge heart, and he's suppressing it just to traverse this planet and the sad state of affairs that people are in... just a cut throat society... truly... people get to the top and than just spit down at those below.. the whole game and system is flawed and rigged in the worst way. God willing one day the poor and oppressed will rise up in God's favor :) prayers for this man

The guy is on parole he shouldn't be telling on himself that he is drug dealing, that he is getting high, that he has a bunch of ICE on him, that he always caries a weapon. All parole violations. And if you don't want people to know you don't come on a show with 3.34 million subscribers. I hope this guy makes it.

What an intelligent, well spoken, heart broken man. I sure hope he can find the peace he deserves to give himself in this life. If THIS is how he can describe his hardships & addiction- so eloquently- while high.. can you imagine how he would be sober?!

Every single person I've ever met that does crystal always seriously thinks people are trying to kill them.

He's cetainly pretty smart. Good vocabulary. Its trust issues that are at the centre of his pain. Cant blame him though.

Crash is someone I'd like to know and/or at least work with. Genuinly good guy at heart I think, and he's able to tell his story well. Also, you're doing important work here Mr. Laita.

Thanks for sharing your story. As a person in recovery from heroin and meth these videos do more for my recovery than meeting or anything. I hope you can find some peace man, you deserve it.

Enjoyed listening to him.Thanks Mark. A sad beginning , but a fighter. Keep on being strong, for yourself and your kids. Every day alive is a blessing Sir. Yesterday's gone.

Good Morning Mark & SWU Fam. Have a wonderful Easter 🐣 Sunday! 🤭🫶🏼

Wow Crash, you've been dealt one rough hand after another. Your motivation to stay here for your children is beautiful.

How can we help this man? I felt his pain and I'm not sure we can do to help ease that pain. I offer you my prayers Crash. You truly deserve a new lease in life that is happy and peaceful.

Firstly, thanks for opening these stories and interviews and stories to the world. This one was really great, and Cash, your story caused me to look at myself and my own character flaws and things we can all work on. You’re doing an amazing thing Mark, amazing brother🤙🏼

Mark, thanks for all you do, and the stories you shine a light on. You are appreciated more than you know, by myself, and I’m sure by a whole lot of others. Please keep sharing these stories, as long as you are able to. Good vibes, and many blessings brother.

Once you ring that bell, you can’t unring it.. I felt that ♥️ I really feel for him. He looks and acts “tough” but this man has a big heart. He is hurt beyond words. He feels so misunderstood, alone, an outcast, he is very introverted so can’t share his thoughts and feelings that well, he has been mistreated his whole life. I feel so sorry for him and I wish him all the best. He really deserves a break.

Man these interviews are so deep and they rly make you think how F'd life rly is and what a shitty world we live in. It also makes you realise how self destructive humans are.

I reflect on these stories and think how close I came to being him. "Resentment is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die". Try to let it all go if you can - it does get easier as you age if you have the right mindset.

I felt this man story deep in my soul. I pray he heals and finds peace.

I hope you find peace & are able to heal

Wow, this man spoke to me. His way with words and tragic self-awareness are things to behold.

This interview really broke my heart. He never had a chance in life and all of the systems failed him. I hope there is a brighter future for you Crash.

I really heard when you said it's hard being a good person, what's really hard is when we believe someone's beliefs about who we are Don't be afraid to fall people will catch you if you let them. Love yourself, so you can be the light for your children. Love Australia x

Sweetheart, Crash....I audibly gasped when you shared the Christmas event and my throat tightened...The tethered leash of Methadone....My CPTSD started my anxiety humming as you explained things you were feeling/dealing with today. I can tell you, wholeheartedly, this isn't all there is. There is a side of this life you can still live while there's breath in your lungs. Don't give up. EVER. You are being sustained here for a reason and a purpose. It is always darkest before the sweetest morning. Right before I felt in life that I was just existing in survival mode, pain, anxiety constantly on and elevated, I almost destroyed myself completely...I believe if you focus on humility, opening your heart to the idea of a personal relationship with your Maker, you'll be surprised what will come to you! After an insane set of events in my life, it finally broke, so I could be rebuilt...its sounding a lot like you're close to being done with the things that keep you from what you truly are inside. It's been my experience that if you press forward with those steps in place, you'll find that in any situation, you'll see abundance of love and understanding...Discernment and strength. Crash, I think you are so close, man. Don't stop before the good part ♥️ These are tailored trials you're facing and their biggest weapon on you right now is the perception that you are stuck, it's never going to get better...Don't allow the lies of that fear dictate the outcome of your story! Sorry for this novel but I hope you read it and know you are loved!

Mark......have a blessed 🙌 Easter holiday. I found you by accident. And so grateful that i did. You bring it home honestly. These stories are real. Raw and so thought provoking. The problem is the ones that truly want help.... I want to help them Every. Single. One. They deserve love peace and happiness as human beings. God my heart hurts. But please keep them telling their stories. Godspeed x

Crash you got this! Stay here for your children. They deserve to meet you and learn from you. God bless and stay strong.

Oh man this story is so sad. I feel for you dude!!! You’ve had a rough life I wish the best for you from now on!! You deserve love and acceptance I hope you find it one day! I can tell you’re a good guy who has had shitty things happen. I really hope you find happiness.❤️

"Every time you have to reset to be something different for somebody else." What a harsh reality about today's foster system in most places. Without some meaningful intervention it is hard to think that many of these outcomes could be any different than what they end up being. Luckily there are those out there that are the light that many of those lost within this quagmire of a system need. When I see the comments on many of your interviews, no matter how sad, I'm heartened by realizing through the comments of others how much concern, care, and empathy exists within this world. Prayers and hope for this man that has been through so much.

The deep furrows on this man's forehead tell a long story... I send you loads of good vibes, Crash, may your circumstances sway in the right direction soon. May your load be lightened.

I understand what he means by ,it's hard to be a good person. Sometimes this cruel world hardens good natured, good hearted ppl. I hope you can heal and embrace the loving person you were made to be .

It never ceases to amaze me just how cogent and present some people come off/appear to be during the midst of their worst battles of their lives. Harder battles than most of us will ever even be able to comprehend. Opiate addiction is hard enough, but then to couple it with methamphetamine addiction I honestly find it difficult to even be able to grasp just how hard the fight is going on in this guy's head. It's seriously not easy to be able to understand what guys like this are going through. The darkest thoughts, the darkest times of people's lives, the things going through his head on a daily basis is enough to make most people want to be dead. I'm sure he himself feels like he would be better off dead sometimes. It's so hard to imagine man. The empathy I fee for total strangers going through the things he goes through is powerful enough to break me down every day. I feel his pain and his anguish and his troubles existence. Nobody deserves the mindset that people like this end up with after years or decades plus of drug abuse. if you saw me on the street or in the coffee shop or wherever, I might seem to be a normal person as far as first appearance goes, but man, you would never be able to know or see the pain I go through every day just to try and stay alive. It's not visible at first glance, and yet at the same time these are the hardest days of my adult life I've ever been through. You wouldnt know that looking at me, but it's the ultimate truth. I am struggling to make it to tomorrow every single day.

RIP poopoo Daddy.....cant believe its been 2 years. I read about his passing and prayed it was fake news. I was at a picnic and began to cry. My family and friends couldn't understand why i was crying over someone i didnt know. However I was crying for me. I was crying for his family and friends. Ryan was a bright light to so many people. Congrats on 60....your content is great. Keep up the great work

Another spectacular interview. Crash, I wish you luck and a prosperous future!

this one was so heavy i had to watch it in 2 parts. what is the solution here? hard even for me to be hopeful for the future , my own secure safe future when i hear stories like this man has to tell. thank you , Mark, and thank you , Crash , for sharing . may all the prayers sent your way from Mark’s viewers light your way. peace

When he said he was so much of an introvert that he couldn’t afford to lose a part of his personality through therapy … I think he has an amazing soul

Sending you good vibes crash....... You can be and do whatever you choose brother..... You are an extremely intelligent and articulate dude..... From my experience ...... I believe if you get clean and place yourself around others who are recovering from addiction and life’s challenges ...people who you can relate to and develop a trust..... Anything is possible one day at a time ..... You do not have to continue to suffer this man.... Hoping Mark can connect you with some good peeps and get you headed in the direction that sounds like you truly want to go.... We all have our demons.... You are far from alone brother.... I have seen people come from extreme tragedy and have a picture perfect life .... Wishing you the best .... Thank you for opening up and sharing... Genuine man.... Well done ... Let it be the beginning bro..... Thank you Mark

Using the term ne'er-do-well is some advanced ass shit.

I’m so sorry your childhood was so sad, you did not deserve that. You are awesome and I pray for strength and peace for you. Stay strong and keep your head up, sending a hug.

This was a great interview.

So often the most beautiful people are the ones who were dealt the shittiest of hands. Thank you for sharing yourself with us. So much love to you 🙏🏽

I feel for this dude. You’d have to be blind to not see he’s a good dude deep down and would not hurt a child. He’s a dude like a lot of people that slip through the cracks

Very sad and what a horrible feeling of not being loved!! This man never got a break in life. It seems like he was always left out. He has a good heart just not any love or direction given to him. I hope his life will somehow get better for him. Also that he can be with his children! God bless you and I am so very sorry that you have experienced so much pain in your life! I pray that you will start to have some real love and caring in your life!!! Again God bless you and may peace come to your soul and your self!! Joannie

Nailed it Mark. Thx for the content.

Crash you are so intelligent and articulate. Thank you for sharing your story. I am so sorry for your loss and I sincerely hope you are doing well. You seem like someone I would want to hang out with. You are smart and you have a good heart and you are very self aware. You have so much going for you.A lot of the things you said in this interview really resonated with me but I cannot even begin to fathom the pain of losing a child. I wish you well on your journey.

My heart goes out to you, Crash. I hope you find the strength to hold on. You seem intelligent, sincere and heartfelt. I'm sorry for your lose and pray that you will eventually find love and joy.

Have a blessed Easter Sunday💞

I feel like the current version of "society" is broken.

“Nobody from Nowhere”… that hit me hard

Chris. I watched your story x 2 because it touched my heart ❤️‍🩹 so deeply. You speak so profoundly and intelligently. L00k.....we weren't born bad or broken people. It all begins with our upbringing. And unfortunately you did not have the love and support that you needed and deserved, nor do you now. We do what we have to do to survive. I know. Although im not an addict but we all have stories to tell. We are a lot of good people making bad choices at times. But there is hope. 🙏 please surround yourself with good and kind people. They do exist! Get yourself a clean and sober life. I know it wont be easy.....in fact it will probably be the hardest damn fight of your life. But you deserve to be happy. You owe it to yourself. You owe it to your kids. I wish you were closer. I believe in you. I will pray for you. Im extending a virtual 🫂 hug to you. Love□light ✨️

Hi All! 💜 Happy Easter 🐣

I particularly liked this guy. So much of what he thinks about people and life resonates with me. These videos sure make you wish you could help the people.

A true victim of circumstance. Poor fellow never had much of a chance. Hope he does better soon. Pretty smart guy. Good vocabulary and articulate. He deserves a break.

His descriptions are so powerful. He is so poetic. He should write a book . I will keep him in my thoughts, and wish for him a life where he can be with his daughters. And be the person he is meant to be .He’s a good man , who deserved and deserves better.

"I can parole to the stars" pretty deep. Almost every single person you bring on here I wish I could bring back time and raise them myself.

I literally just wanna give this man a hug and a safe space I understand him on a deep level

The end of this made me cry. Sending love

Hello and best wishes from Oregon. 💗 i raised myself too. I relate to this so much. Its uncanny.

This guy has such a nice personality; he’s a gentle, reasonable soul

Wow this one captures my heart. I know the inner turmoil he’s feeling, and the drugs it used to take for me to numb it. I sure hope he does heal and get past all of this.

God bless this man🙏🏻❤️

Sending big hugs to him 🙏

Crash, I wish you nothing but happiness. Thank you for your story.

It’s really unfortunate and sad to hear of Crash’s experiences. As a Mom it was triggering to hear of the SIDS story. However, I also feel like there’s some pieces missing to that story. How would she suddenly vomit in her sleep? Were the parents using drugs during this time? I know a parent whose infant died of SIDS and no one I’ve seen or heard of has done nearly 2 decades in prison unless there were obvious signs of abuse or neglect.

I believe you dude. 100%. My father was an addict and ex wife. I can generally tell when someone is lying. You can see how much weight that situation holds in your life.

Crash I was in the throes of addiction for years and I am proud to say I made it to the other side. 10 yrs of sobriety and my life has never been better. I have a great job that gives me a sense of purpose as it gives back to the larger community. You can do anything you set your mind to just get away from the negative people who only drag you down. Stay safe and I hope you get your transfer.

Best interview i have seen yet.

You are a beautiful human, Crash. Inside and out. I wish all good things for you and your kids. You definitely deserve it!

Crash, I’m gonna be praying for you sweetie, I’m literally heartbroken by your story, I can feel your pain, hear it and see it. You’re a damn good genuine soul that doesn’t want or ask for much but deserves it. Please be careful with what you do and get into because those drugs especially are tools of the devil to get you caught up or dead. Please call out to God, He’s the only one who truly knows your pain, but you’ve gotta call on Him, He gives us choice. The amount of pain that you’re baring is too painful to see. I hope and pray you find God because He is our true peace. Much love to you hon. God bless you, I myself have had run in’s with both them drugs and it’s pure hell. Please get away from them for your life’s sake. God didn’t allow you to die because you have purpose, you have Kid’s and you have you, please love you and give Him and chance while you’re still alive because once we’re dead it’s too late. God bless you brother.

Crash… I will probably never understand the things you’ve lived through, but I really hope you find peace, happiness, and joy in your life. It brings me sorrow hearing your story… But it also reminds me of how blessed I am. You are truly a strong person! You’ve been through hell and back and your still standing strong! Aware of everything, and trying to make the best choices possible. I hear the pain in your voice, and see the pain in your eyes… I really hope God blesses you! You’ve been through more than I could ever endure!

I watched this video twice & will probably watch it again. Something about him us genuine & captivating. Crash, you have to work on the inside first & everything else will fall into place. We are all praying for you to succeed! 😊

You been through a lot but its time Crash. Its time to find peace within your self and stand the faack up and live bro. I can’t imagine what you went through but you need to stop feeling sorry for yourself and man the faack up. Find help, happiness and love and be a good father. ❤️

God bless man. You are a strong and amazing person. Don’t forget that!

I work with kids in the foster care system. Even kids that are lucky enough to be adopted don't have a internally settled life. Always trying to be on your best behavior and suppressing your normal emotions be them good or bad, is excruciating. I have no magic method or a bag of tricks to survive all of this/that. You remind me so very much of my adopted brother. You even talk like him. I hope he feels that his life is valued and he was wanted. I'm so very sorry for what happened to you. I pray for your future both physically and emotionally. I hope you will find your place in this world. Blessings to you...