Six months ago, Blake and I walked down the aisle and became one. But, six and a half months ago, my mom and my best friend took her last breath here on earth after a 2 year battle with breast cancer and her first breath in the presence of Jesus, the One she lived her whole entire life for. Losing her just 15 days before we were supposed to walk down the aisle was unexplainable - there are no words to encompass how hard it was, is, and will probably always be.
My mom didn't have a lot of requests in her last days, but she was adamant with Blake and I that we got married, on March 21, in Seaside, just like we had always dreamt of and planned. I wish I could say that it was easy or that the wedding "bliss" was our portion the whole weekend without her, but the ways that Jesus made His presence known and the ways that we felt my mama were unexplainable, still to this day I don't have words.
Blake and I's greatest prayer and hope for our wedding day is that God would be glorified and that we all would leave that chapel better than we came - and we did. So many people encountered the Lord, we had an altar call, we worshipped, we wept, but we danced too. We celebrated amidst the weight of the grief and the mourning - because thats what my mama wanted.
and to our insanely talented videographer and our dear friend, Kathryn with BLNK Films, we love you. Words will fall short when I try to encapsulate your talent and who you are as a human in words so I will keep it short - you gave us the greatest gift of remembrance and we are forever in debt to you because of it. Thank you for pouring your heart out into this film.
To my family, I cannot believe how lucky I am to have each of you to walk through these valleys with. Thank you for loving us, for seeking the face of Jesus in everything you do and for holding us up on our wedding day. I know mom would be so proud of all of us.
To our friends that traveled far to stand beside us in what was simultaneously our greatest and hardest moments, we love you and we are rich in friendship because of each of you.
To my followers and the community that has surrounded me, more times than not, your prayers and your kind words have sustained me. Thank you.
"For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." Philippians 1:21
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