Hey Parker, I just want to speak for everyone when I say thank you for Fighting through your demons and your problems enough to make this music and not everybody will understand, but just for those who do know your saving lives❤
One of the realest most underrated artist don't ever stop putting out help ..one of my most inspiring people it's more than music too me it's therapy. And it don't cost me anything but my time 🤜🤛💯🔥
@parker jack yo man pls stay safe and be careful with the drugs my dad was addicted and im still a kid it was so hard seeing him struggle rn im 13 and still depressed your music helps thats why im saying be careful with death we can loose another rapper i love ur music pls pls be careful with the drugs man
Wish u would of said “I just wanna feel ALIVE” on the second verse…that’s the catchy part of the song “could hear ya fans screaming that part when ur preforming🔥🔥🔥
I still dont know how this guy doesnt have over a mill you got alot of talent man! keep this shi up bc it helped me and my team thru shi. hope you well dawg
God will help all through pain. No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:37-39
Lyrics: Cause if I'm meant to die Then fuck it let me rest in peace I think depression has finally got the best of me Dead inside But that's just how I'm meant to be I got depression, there's something wrong with me mentally Cause if I'm meant to die Then fuck it let me rest in peace I think depression has finally got the best of me Dead inside But that's just how I'm meant to be I got depression, there's something wrong with me mentally If I pass away, fuck it just put my cash in my casket Or wipe your tears with my bills Cause after life there's no sadness I understand that its selfish but I can't find a way past it Cause if deaths the only option That's the wish I need granted Then flip the table and ask yourself if the way I'm feeling is valid Cause if its not then tell me why I feel this way I can't be the only one who ever feels this pain Stomach rot, it feels like I'm taking at least a hundred shots Loved or not, it ain't change a thing when I was loved a lot Slowly taught, your worth less to people if you're broke and lost Broken spots all over my body like some polka dots I just wanna feel alive Cause if I'm meant to die Then fuck it let me rest in peace I think depression has finally got the best of me Dead inside But that's just how I'm meant to be I got depression, there's something wrong with me mentally Cause if I'm meant to die Then fuck it let me rest in peace I think depression has finally got the best of me Dead inside But that's just how I'm meant to be I got depression, there's something wrong with me mentally I get no respect Even though I'm close to death Life feels like its suffocating Taught myself to hold my breath, maybe I should hold it less You don't know what lonely is until you see how lonely gets You don't what lost feels like till you lose yourself to stress Maybe I'm a fucking mess and I should just agree to that When trapped inside your mind you realize you want your freedom back Already took a hundred shots, maybe I should take some more Life feels like its pissing on me, I guess when it rains it pours Cause if its not then tell me why I feel this way I can't be the only one who ever feels this pain Stomach rot, it feels like I'm taking at least a hundred shots Loved or not, it ain't change a thing when I was loved a lot Slowly taught, your worth less to people if you're broke and lost Cause if I'm meant to die Then fuck it let me rest in peace I think depression has finally got the best of me Dead inside But that's just how I'm meant to be I got depression, there's something wrong with me mentally Cause if I'm meant to die Then fuck it let me rest in peace I think depression has finally got the best of me Dead inside But that's just how I'm meant to be I got depression, there's something wrong with me mentally
I lived this way most my life. It's the loneliest road we walk. This pain is excruciating torture and to function carry it is nearly impossible. The more I held it in the pressure built and it started spilling onto those I wanted to protect from it. Being punished for everything I did whether good or bad my whe life I still feel like I get punished for how warped the pain ppl inflicted upon me that melted into who I am and created me I am trauma infused head to toe and I can't undo what was done just try to improve but it's hard when you know those who you love most are kind when you are around but judge me and make fun or talk crap about me when all I do is love them for the unconditionally and I'd do anything in the world for them . I show them me and they make me feel they don't see me still. My heavy is too heavy for me to talk about but yet I am judged because they don't understand. I feel like I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't. Loving them ill never be able to stop. I don't want to ever. I just wish they would want to know me and not their idea of who they think I am . Nobody has ever asked me about me and who I am. Theh think they already know. So I let them because it won't matter what I say it seems they already have decided for me even if they choose the lie instead of understanding the reality. I hate that im too heavy that nobody can stomach the history that made me that created me. I had zero say in the matter. But nobody truly listens its just all clatter and waste their time cause they always feel there is something better to do with their time. Why am I the one who is always patient , understanding and kind. Why am I the one who has to wait for everyone to be ready on their time line? Who knows not I . This is where I will just keep it all to myself and hidden inside . I'll do hat I do best and not say a word. 😔🥺😔
