I feel terrible for you. Those people you were dealing with are truly messed up! No one should be treated like that especially at church. I have strange beliefs myself. I'm a cross between Christian and Pagan. I believe in God, but I don't believe God is religion. I believe in ghosts (that's another story). My beliefs are truly my own, as I don't belong to any church. I believe we all have our own path, and journey. You will find yours, my friend. I always tell anyone, prayer is the answer. You have the connection already. You don't need other people's approval to talk to God. I'll be lighting many candles and sending many well wishes and prayers for you.
Wine & Horror thanks, yeah they had there own way of doing stuff never was it right, but thats a cult for you... But thanks, your support is welcomed, I ll Probly share more later, life's been weird to say the least.
My God, you have been through a lot know one should ever have to go through. I dont know how you have kept it all bottled up until now. I know in the last few days it has seemed like something was bothering you. I didn't know if it was your brothers wedding, or your aunts illness, or the future move or all of the above. I dont want to seem pushy with always saying I'm here if you need a friend, I know sometimes backing off and letting someone be can be better, so I tried that the last couple of days. But not to sound repetitive, I am here if you ever need to talk or scream or whatever. Sometimes it's hard to be a friend like a person needs to be just through social media. Sometimes I have trouble finding 15 min. To spend on videos or catching up on Facebook because there are days I will work 12-15 hours before coming home. But I will always get back to you if you message, and if it's real important then use the number I gave and text, since you don't like talking on the phone. My point is I'm here for ya if you need a friend. Keep getting this stuff out, it can't make us sick out in the light. I applaud the courage it takes to do this, it can't be easy. But if it can help you, and even one other person then it was worth it.
I hear ya man, thank you, I just have a hard time with communication. I wasn't always bottled up there have been some people I could talk to about life but not a lot. and not many could relate so theres that. I messaged you with whats been up the past few days so yaknow.
