Peaceful Rain at the Zen Gate - Japanese Zen Music Meditation, Healing, Stress Relief, Deep Sleep 

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I need to meditate and reflect on parts of my life and let it not get to me. In the current place I am I think sometimes it is worthless to be a good person in a world where no good ever comes my way. I try not to live in worry though I know it is just the down shift in this sine wave called life. I should live not to complain but to live in flow bad things happen to me but it is necessary for me to find a better me so if it takes pain to change how can I ever be wrong. I live my life appreciative of all things and flowing like a river that flows one way and never looks back because I cant flow back to where i once was but i should be grateful that I lived it at all. Reflecting on this month is tough but I know it was meant to shape me and not break me. Had to cut off a friendship. Seemed almost like yesterday we were in middle school I always pushed you to see the best version of yourself and I tried so hard to help you see the light at the end of the tunnel. But in the end that didn't stop you and what we had never stoped you from choosing the path you chose. You hung around the wrong crowds so tell me who your friends are and ill tell you who you are. Damn you old friend but i suppose you were willing to throw all that away just to get your hands on another drink. So your mind soul and heart are lost. I put time and energy to someone who would never see it in themselves or give back. Should not be pessimistic and say you betrayed me by lashing out and striking me on my birthday but instead see the good in the lesson that i needed to make room for people who deserve my good energy and who want to strive to see the best in themselves like me. That's a story of betrayal forgotten in winds past. Seems like yesterday I was with the girl of my dreams. We were exactly opposite like a puzzle so you'd say opposites attract. We gabe each other something to believe in and push each other foreward. Your love stung just like the scorpion but it was all bittersweet because there was no place id rather be. To me the good times we cherished so made it all worth it. There was a time we ate in nature on a riverside and watched the geese families and watched the flow of the river and the clouds come over the mountain. A lifetime ago it feels sometimes but yesterday found myself on the other side of that river looking at what we once were but i cherish the memory and wait for you to find yourself and be ready. Before you left i knew it'd happen as much as I knew it would hurt me and I'd still have to move forward.I long to see you on the same side of the river as me again but at the end of the day all i have is hope. That's why the river is the symbol of hope and i wear this symbol of pride like an S on my chest. That is a story of the water of time.

This truly a collection of soothing 😅relaxing Music and sounds i have e been listening For r over 3hours and I f😮eel less stressed THANK YOU