Chris Tenorio At least become a teacher. He completely took over this class, or whatever it was. She sounded like she was a teacher, and Phil shut her down!
phil, my brother....we have met each other. im sure u remember the double amputee drummer. anyways I know how chronic pain effects a person. as a baby my legs were ripped from me in a car train accident. now im 40, the pain is almost unstandable.... im glad you got help my friend....I know what you were goin thru and its not fun....and being a musician too, I know how hard it can be to entertain, and try to put up a front that im ok, when inside im almost in tears from pain...I mean the biggest show I played, opening for black label society, I was there but wasn't cause the pain. don't get me wrong, I gladly played the show...and zack tellin me I beat the hell outa those drums made it worth while...but the pain makes u not want to hang out after the show. it effects every part of ones life..anyways hats off to u my friend for overcoming pains evil cycle.........
he's a lyrical genius in his albums and brings such intensity if you ever see him live...but to hear him candid....he sounds like something out of the 1800s.
This was the most heart felt and comprehensive discussion on LIFE that I have ever heard. You do not have to be a Pantera fan to appreciate what Phil brings to the table.
Holy shit, as a musician and more importantly an addict in treatment this makes me cry. I can't believe how incredibly hard he hits the nail on the head in every single aspect.
When he talks about how important the clock is, that is so fucking true. Especially when your waiting for your dealer to answer or something like that.
Fuck yes. Although I didn't have my shit delivered, but I'd go to another junkies apartment and drop off the money and sometimes sit outside in a freezing car in the middle of winter staring at the time only my phone, texting him every twenty minutes, waiting for him to finally say "ok it's here".
This video inspired me to start getting clean, everything he says is 100% spot on, I never ended up fucking with heroin, thank god, but even the sickness from coming down off of painkillers is intense. Just don't mess with the shit, it's really not worth it, the pain you feel now is nothing compared to the pain you will feel withdrawing.
That's so awesome to know it inspired you! I wish you all the best. There are a few people who comment on here who are going through the same thing. Keep in touch.
I hear you man, I've been there. Opioid withdrawal is the absolute worst; wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. So glad I was able to get past that hellish period of my life, and glad you were able to too.
7 months now, I feel like life is within grasp now, thank you all for the kind words! It's been tough but definitely not impossible, just opening up to one person is what it took for me, because trust me, they know something is wrong with you. And DamageIncM, your absolutely right, Music got me through the worst of it hands down. Thank you guys again and I wish you and all who are fighting this demon all the best, I know it problly sounds really cliche but things really do get better.
Michael Moline I'm going through it now I've been on Percocets for five years for knee injury now I'm trying to get off these damn things but it's not as easy I thought it would be
If u took the time to sit & watch/listen to this, i'm sure that at the end of your day, when your head hit the pillow & u stared up at the ceiling, u couldn't help but think back to this video. Truly amazing...
etniess27 I know man. Im a Pantera fanatic. Im a guitarist and Dime is the man to me. Ive also been through the shit Phil talks about in this video. But I hear you man. Hes just a monster! Always has been! Always will be! Cheers man!
I suffered the same blown discs, the surgery that is a Brutal, Horrific two stage event that nearly killed me, and The Fucking Pain. It Never goes away, even after the surgery for most people. If the drugs don't kill you, and the nervous breakdowns don't get you committed, and you don't succumb to your daily suicidal thoughts(I know what all my guns taste like), you make it out of the other end with a shred of the life you had and build from there. It's all sheer will. Anselmo should be commended for managing to maintain a productive life. He is the exception because he wills it.
Back injuries suck. My discs weren't blown but I spent 3 years in agony and doctors couldn't even tell me why. Everything you said in this post true and I didn't have blown discs I can't even bare to think of that pain knowing how bad I was. Good luck to you.
+MyworstEnemy I hear you bro. my problem was always booze, but a year ago i got so drunk i had a seizure & fell & fractured my spine. now i've got 5 vertebrae bolted together. i managed to get off the morphine & oxycodone a few months ago, but The Fucking Pain is still there every day. the only way i didn't shoot myself was by telling myself "maybe i'll just do it tomorrow". i kept saying that to myself for weeks until i finally talked myself off the ledge. it IS all about fucking WILL. you don't have to die to go to hell, but you do have to live to get out of it.
trichinosis333 Words of wisdom. I'm working on getting off the meds, but it is what it is I guess. Congrats to you, and RESPECT for the will you have. That is inspiring.
Loved phil When he said wake up with a vengeance i know that feeling all so well. I know exactly what he means. Clean now 6 years and hearing guys like him keep me clean. Great speech!!!
I have so much respect for Phil,i have been fighting addiction for 15+yrs now and have finally gotten it under control and gotten clean with the use of suboxone but i was brought to tears with what he said in this and how so much of the story he is telling painted a bright pic in my mind of what i was going through.I have been a fan of his from the begining andlove all his work.Wherever you are Phil i just want to say"THANK YOU"for being my inspiration,made me love life for real...Thank you
Absolutely NO amount of research on the scientific side of heroin amounts to Phil's account here. I want nothing to do with that shit ever after hearing what the man had to say, I believe that Phil could completely drop everything musical and just be a public speaker after hearing that. Damn.
TwoBitMatthews1085 I would pay double to hear him tell his stories like these. Pantera's music was great. I miss Dime, but Phil has more to say that he couldn't get out in songs.
fh276 I'm very familiar with Phil and his music works in Cowboys from Hell he could hit highs like he was an opera singer doing that back and forth on Cemetery Gates with Dimebag's Whammy squeals. Just him talking though its like his voice just drops an octave in comparison to all his singing
I think you might find his speaking voice, has the resonance it has. After Pantera, I am led to believe he dropped the register of his speaking voice lower. It is rumored to be a side affect of his drug addiction at the time. If you can shed more light on this, or scotch the rumor, please do.
I've met Phil at several DOWN shows. He has such a strong presence and personality, very funny and extremely approachable and happy to meet fans.. Nice guy
This is one of those rare interviews that actually allows a person to represent themselves without any filter. Phil was projected as being such a bull-headed individual during the 90's. He always came across as a bit intimidating and standoffish. Phil is a talented guy and it was interesting listening to him be so candid and introspective. Definitely took guts to be able to share the dark side of his hard living. Thanks for sharing.
I've been there. Thank you for speaking about this.If it saves one life, you are a hero. All these "lortab or norco "junkies.have an no clue what they are getting themselves into. .
the most important thing that he addressed in this interview in the beginning was how adamant he was about the industry in itself. the music industry put you up on a pedestal and walk you around like a show dog and you are basically their puppet in the same can be said about drug addiction an example Metallica Master of Puppets. that song was written about cocaine addiction and how you feel like a marionette on the end of the string. it is something that only a few select people comma with modest intentions and expectations of the world can allowed the fame and fortune to not get to their head. and this is why only those that were able to do that are still around after 20 or 30 years or more of play music to earn your bread thank you for your time if you read through this I appreciate it I welcome comments positive or negative
I have been sober for a very short time but u just summed up everything about my experience I could never put into words much respect and love thanks Phil.
Thank you Phil for your words. I hope Mike 9 is doing better after the bust during Katrina. Your many bands have always been there thru the dark times... Hope to have that strength one day
All my respect to Phil, he's an awesome Person. Saw him live on last monday with the illegals, it was an incredible gig and he looked very lively, i really believe that he's clean for many years. I wish you all the best Phil!
this was great! much respect to phil for saying whats real and not sugar coating a god damn thing. awesome! im glad he was able to over come his demons and still be here to give us his music and not become another tragedy. well done!
The audience is so fuckin annoying. This man is speaking words that leave me speechless. And these kids are quick to laugh at every little weird expression on Phil's face like he's trying to crack a joke . Watch him. Feel the passion he speaks with. You people are listening but not decoding the dark poetry in his speech and movement. Open your mind to this and I swear you will get chills from this interview
Ashley Duarte yeah he's so deliberate and passionate. his words and expressions come right from the heart. maybe most of the audience is nervous because phil is so real, and that's a rare quality today.
Yeah I definitely feel there is a humor there because he is so edgy and unlike most people today. The humor comes from the nervousness of dealing with such real issues in life
well, i don't think those who laughed did it out of mockery... sometimes when somebody speaks so honestly about harsh experiencies you tend to crack a laugh at some parts, 'cause it releases tension. that doesn't mean laughing discredits the speaker.
I appreciate the interviewer, who gives hum time and let him talk. He "steals" all the attention and direction of the interview altogether, but hey, its personal stuiff and he gives so much. Great, thank you.
such a badass talk! I love Phil. Very intense! He was such an important part of Pantera. One of the best frontmen ever. Just listening to this guy talking is impressive. He gives me shivers.
I saw this n thought man I've seen Phil speak a billion times. I've heard the drug talk all before etc... WoW!! Jus like how I fell in love in 10th grade with that album is kinda how I felt watching this. He a person jus like us and all his words are soo damn true and they really hit home with me, REALLY!!
The reason this interview is so amazing is that you can tell he is being completely honest. The emotion in his voice and attention to detail makes this one of the best interviews I have ever heard. I saw him live several times in the 90s and there was no way he could have strung together sentences like these.
WOW! WTF I clicked around looking for awesome videos from 90's, and Damn this was 10X better. This was like watching a great one man play. You could see his genius as a true musician in the way he tells a story. What a great personality, they don't make people like that anymore. Mad Props Phil
been through the blown out discs back surgery, and up that ladder.not as far as heroin been to morphine for years. phil is right.after a while doctors let me down, now i do kratom for pain, it works just as good as pharma, i hope less side affects. seen many friends go down the wrong path some died.
45:25 "MOMMY!! My Mom's is here...." Only man I've ever seen that could call out to his "Mommy", & still sound like a burly, tough guy. Phil is the stuff of legends.
I have to say he is a good story teller. When he was high all the time he put his foot in his mouth a lot; He likes to talk. He's always liked to talk. These day or in some interviews that I saw from 2012 he seems to have mellowed out a lot. He's introspective.
And it's not like he had a high pitched voice to begin with. It has always been low and gravely. Phil is a great dude with a big heart. He actually displays his appreciation for life and his fans. I know when I was fortunate enough to spend just a little time with him, he made me feel like I was important to HIM. When he could have just been a dick or blew me off. He's a very real down to earth guy.
Thank you for posting this sarahxbee, To hear the man who is the picture of strength and what it means to be self driven come out and say what broke him, just makes him that much more "Stronger than All"!!!
Phil, thank you for your honesty and for speaking the ultimate truth. This video should be played at every rehab clinic in the world. I love this man for explaining with his whole heart, the realities of drug addiction. I wish Paul Gray could have heard this before his final demise. Bless you Phil, you are real and I respect you for being real brother!
Phil is a good dude to take care of his buddy. I've had a friend OD on me and I know that feeling a shear terror. Losing a friend was what got me off Heroin as well. And I too wouldn't wish that existence on anyone.
