I liked the charm section for Pile 2. I’m focused on organizing my home and trying to find a new position, I have been having trouble with the job market being how it is. Also, I am opening a new spiritual business, a lot of money is needed to do some of the things I want with it but I’m trying to get things done for it slowly but surely.
The pseudo-relationship that I just experienced broke my whole existence. I suddenly became aware of the fact that I was surrounded by people (friends, family, everyone) that were only interested in what I was giving them. And when I needed help or emotional support, it was like I didn't exist. As long as I was giving, they accepted me. It's been really hard. I honestly believed that they cared, but they didn't. Ive basically spent the last nine months crying as I try to resolve the wounds. And as soon as I make progress, something happens and it starts over. Each day is testing my ability to trust my own intuition, and I am nervous. I don't want to accept any more people like the last group that I was involved with. I am trying to go slow with myself. I am trying to go outside of my comfort zone. Thats being social for me. Talking to people I don't know is terrifying. And those vampires keep coming back, with the fake apologies and guilt tripping in order to manipulate me into coming back. They don't miss me, just my energy. So, pile one is going to be a trip. And it looked so light hearted in the beginning lol. But now on to pile two because I couldn't decide between them. edit: it is funny you mention the 2nd house. I have a stellium. I don't care that much about money, but my self worth is pretty low. So, yeah, self love!!!
