Because you're weak. Get to training! Forget about her. You only want her because you can't have her. If you got what you wanted, you'd be sick of her shit within 3 months. Trust me on that. It's been 2 months since your comment, has anything changed??
I am finnaly realizing who i am. I hate myself my family my school and everyone. im so scared to talk to people and always put a smile on my face pretending to be happy. its hard to me to talk to people im scared to say something wrong, the worst case is that im always left out by my friend group. i broke up with my boyfriend, he cheated on me. well if i say that i do have social anxiety no one will belive me and everyone will think that im just coming up with this shit. but im not. its so hard to talk to people even to my closest people, i fake laugh after my every sentence because of how nervous i am. well the rumour about that the funniest person in the group may be hiding alot of things may be true as after school i always hide in my room. well when my friends ask if i can go out with them i always have to answear no because of the secret that im going to 2 schools at once. yes i have one school which is the local one and after that i have a school that is a much higher grade one and im struggeling everyday with it. if i say to my mom that i need to taake a little nap because of how tored i am of my school 1 my mom will call me selfish, but i actually do get tired around people, being around them is always like pushing a rock up a hill because of my social anxiety. i never get to rest, ill never find friends ill be feeling safe around as the group i have has been so toxic, but i cant just leave them because ive been ''happy'' with them. badly for me i cant tell no one about my feelings, only to my book that i scribble in everyday. sometimes things go so badly for me that next morning ill wake up with bruises on my arms because i had cut myself up. no one noticed. well my mom called me cold hearted selfish mistake and that i dont love her, everyday im scared for her, everyday i prayed to god for her and everyday i help her if needed and this is what i get back from her. i cant tell this no one i cant afford therapist and i cant say about that i have bad social anxiety because that will be ''selfish'' of me. my life is a living hell right now. im smart and i focus on dicepline, religion ond myself but again everyone use me like that.im no longer living, im just existing. ive lost 3 people in one year 2 of them were who i could actually trust and the ones i would die for if needed, the ones i would donate my own heart if needed. R.i.p to Grandma Uncle 1 and uncle 2. the worst part is that i cant just one day fade my smile away because everyone will look stargely at me and be like, ''wwhy is she even sad nothing is happening to her, shes perfect she just needs attention probably.'' well behind that smile and these blue eyes may be all this and more. people im scared for my uncle and cousins because they live rn in a active war spot and a missile could strike their home any moment, terrorists could come to a mall any moment. im going to visit them this year. and im never coming back home. when ill get bigger maybe ill just join the military to end this quicker. if ill survive ill use my degrees and work as a pilot. maybe through tthat cockpit of the plane ill see heaven. well bye time to sleep. im just selfish and cold hearted after all.
The world is a fucked up place with not many positives to it. The only way to overcome these feelings and emotions is to let go of those people, find something that you enjoy that makes you happy. Do that thing as much as possible. Take a minute every now and then to get your shit together. Breathe. I think focusing on the small positives that come out of life is the only way to appreciate it for what it really is. It truly is awful what your going through and god I'm so blessed to have people around me who love and care for me. People I can reciprocate those actions and feelings to, to show them I am there for them too. If you need someone to talk to my Instagram is @landonsimon22. I'll accept your req and try to help you out as much as I possibly can. Life is a bitch that we are all trying our best to get through, someone to help you through the rough times can really change everything. Hoping you are in a better situation now, praying for you.
Damn. Listen the world is a cruel place don’t forget that, it’s just you and your feelings that matter in this world. I feel the exact same way, as if i can’t truly feel happy anymore and that it’s just me alone, i care for others but i fear they don’t feel the same. Ive been fighting alone for about 7 years now, i just can’t feel the same as i used to. Hell, i fear that my OWN parents don’t love me, you gotta watch for the people who are worth the pain to go through. I just feel empty, i just sat in my room all day all night just pondering around like a damn fool. I truly hope you recover from all of this, never really had a girlfriend but i just see it as pain and as a waste of time, nothing last forever. I feel stupid and useless sometimes but i don’t necessarily let it get to me as much, i put on fake smiles like you, i’m also scared to talk to people as well. i just feel useless and like a fool, nothing more. And, i lost my grandfather and great uncle that were special to me, i remember all the memories i had with them, but i’m slowly but surely forgetting their voice and laughs, it hurts. In the end, i hope everything goes best for you and i.
someone girl asked me to prom. I thought I was dreaming because I see myself as unattracrive and kinda hate myself. A few days later she started talking with my best friend and started dating him. Today's the prom. I snuck away from the building and am sitting on a bench near a lake behind the barn. I hate myself. My self esteem is destroyed.
look man the best advice i can give for your time in life is to just stop trying to have a relationship with a girl not because your ugly or because you don't deserve to be loved its because relationships are work and coming from experience they are overrated so when you walk down the hallway and see a happy couple know that deep behind what it looks like and what they seem to portray its a struggle on a daily basis for them to be together your time will come and many more people will ask to be in a relationship with you don't beat your self up over the one that walked away ;D also tell your friend how you feel about them dating but don't try to break them up just say that you don't want to be the third wheel if they play games and stuff like that
Hey dude ima be honest you might never see this but listen if you did.you don't deserve to hate yourself no matter what. Your life should not be depended over one girl. I honestly suffered my life was a suffering pit of darkness but I feel better. My life is composed of some things my family and friends without them I am nothin. I don't deserve such loving people. Please know ill be with you. Through tough times I'll be there at least know I will. My advice is to keep standing no matter what happens get into therapy your parents would understand definitely know that some people just ain't like that. Think how you want others to think of you. Treat yourself how you want others to treat you. You will have new friends and this whole thing will be over. I have this one friend he's my best friend that man has been with me forever so fond people like him. Peace be apon you and be blessed :)
Get over your self what’s the goal worth she doesn’t mean anything to you I don’t know why your making this shit a big deal wake the fuck up to real life that girls a bigger losses then you
I'm dating a girl rn and I'm scared ok she isn't gonna leave me but I'm still scared she's the first person that just accepts that I'm me she has autism I have bipolarism but at the end of the day those are just our mental limitations I told her I'ma marry her 1 day when I get back from the military I'm scared of the future
I hope goes well for you brother. Glad you found someone who accepts you for who you are. We all need a person like that in our lives. Thank you for your service as well sir.
I knew a girl for 3 years, i listened everyday to here tell me random things, i started catching feelings for her, she would stare at me and i would stare at her, 3 weeks ago i worked up the confidence to tell her, and she told me "ew are you serious." With the most disgusted most serious face ive ever seen, i told her i was joking. Im done for.
Man I can feel ur pain but you must remember would rather be told the truth or somewhere down the line ur happy an then you find out she isn't with you an she was talking to other people while you were thinking of only her an her only
