Post Breakup, what I ate in a day 

Maddy, I just broke up with my fiancée of 10 years. This video really made me feel seen. All of the feelings, all of the waves of sadness, and the little things we do to distract ourselves. Thank you for talking about feeling the feelings when they happen. I was trying to be strong but now I feel like it’s best to just feel the sadness and the little glimmers of hope. I wish you healing and happiness ❤

thank you. all your words are so kind, loving, and powerful. I'll come here to remind myself of how much love I am surrounded with when I can't see it. See you in the next video, feeling a little bit better each day :)

one meal at a time ❤

you're totally allowed to feel the emotions you feel and i'm so glad you were able to acknowledge those feelings of sadness and loss instead of glazing over the fact. i admire you being gentle with yourself through this process and sharing this particularly vulnerable moment with all of us. much love and healing to you maddy.

you are so brave for revealing your emotions to us. break ups are losing a piece of yourself, but you learn to love yourself. you don't bottle up your emotions until the explode; instead, you let them flow and even encourage your emotions to be free. i look up to you for that since i need to get to a habit of doing that myself. you have helped me appreciate my korean heritage. i always used to be so ashamed of it, but your little shorts exploring korean food helped that part of me heal. words can not say how much i appreciate you! you always bring such a warm welcome to my screen. things will get better, and when they do, the people you love and we will be there. lots of love, your fans 💗💗💗

Maddy, you are a sweet and kind soul! Unfortunately pain and suffering are part of the process of life and it never gets easy. I’m 42 this year and after 17 years of marriage I can honestly say that being in a relationship is the hardest and most complicated thing I have ever done . Pain comes from breakup but pain also comes in a relationship as well . Rumi ( a favourite poet of mine) said something like this: if you can’t take the rubs than how are you going to take the diamond out of you( smth like that), you get it. Feel the pain and don’t bury it because if you don’t process it now, it will come back in another form. Hope it won’t last that long. Love from London

Maddy, I couldn’t have seen this at a better time. I am going through the same thing, and it helped so much to hear you explain how each day felt, and how you got through. I also feel a void and it’s been hard to see the way through. I’ve been desperate to not feel so alone in my experience, even though I know so many people have and will feel this. But you captured the raw part of this so well. Cooking is also healing for me and so one of the first things I did was buy a ton of exciting new ingredients to use. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your vulnerability. I will probably save this to watch again later ❤

Thank for your vulnerability. Sending hugs and prayers to work through this grief. ❤

Dear Maddy, You're a brave soul. Thank you for this. I lost a friend almost two years ago. We've known each other since grade school. Our friendship would've remained if not during the pandemic. We began to really like each other and want to be together. We never become a couple. As a form of therapy for myself, I did 5 min. Voice recording about him/me almost daily. We used to talk so many times during the day. Me too, I felt the void. I cried and missed him for awhile. But now, we both moved on. We are not friends. That's okay. I kept my audio files with me 😊

hey Maddie. Your vulnerability and feelings are totally valid. Friends and family are amazing to have by your side and to cry in front of. The waves of sadness are hard but each day makes you stronger. Feel them. This journey will be hard but you will get through it beautiful. You’re amazing. You will become a stronger you in the long run. I got out a 6 year relationship and I felt like I lost my best friend. It’s been 7 months later and I’m a much better person overall. Thank you for sharing this and being so real. Your feelings and honesty are so relatable.

I am going through the same thing except it wasn’t as nice of an ending for me. Four years, living together, a dog, family goals, engaged etc. It tears you apart. It’s been a month, I’m still sad and feel like a sink hole sucked up half of my life. With time we will heal, but for now let’s cry together and mourn and then work towards our own self love and happiness. We will get through this. I appreciate your openness and how much amazing advice you’ve given. I wish you the best!

This is the most soothing,comforting and relatable content I have seen in recent times. Love and strength to you Maddy. Your voice is magical and it heals us💜😊

Thanks for sharing, Maddy! I went through a breakup at the end of 2021 and the pain still manifests itself. And whenever it does, sadness comes. It's healthy to be sad, I loved that you let yourself be sad. And that you took care of yourself! Thanks for making stuff for us despite how you were feeling.

And this is why you are SO LOVED Maddy!!! You're a precious soul. Sending you lots of love and comfort ❤

Thank you for always sharing your experiences and yourself with us. I think you're very right, there is no timeline for things like these, but I think you showed that everyone has good days, bad days, progress, and stumbles. Even knowing it will be okay eventually, doesn't mean its less important to let yourself not be okay now.

Sending you love from 🇦🇺! Breakups are so frickin hard and painful, but in due time, you will be able to look back on it with such great insight, learnings, and gratitude. The benefit of this void you’re feeling now, is that you’re making space for new and better things and people. Sounds like you’re processing this in a healthy way. Keep going! You will be okay Maddy. 🧡

Oh Maddy, thank you so much for this. I’ve been feeling so down on myself lately, personalizing my recent breakup as proof that I’m the problem. To see you going through a breakup too I thought to myself how ludicrous it would be if you were blaming yourself. And how I would automatically try to comfort you and rush to your defense. Thank you Maddy for being so vulnerable and sharing. Hurting is proof of how deeply we loved. It’s a beautiful pain. Here’s to us single badass gals, beautiful pain and all!

The void feeling hit hard. ☹️ A break up is also losing a best friend. Thank you for sharing your break up journey, even though you didn’t have to. Sounds like you have great friends to be your support system. You’ll get through this! ❤

This vlog was so raw and straightforward in a way, without being dramatic 🥺 And though I'm already in a really good place, happiest with my current (and hopefully last) relationship & person, you still made me cry while eating 😆 You're such a bravegirl and I agree with all that you said in this video. I hope you heal peacefully and progressively, Maddy. Looking forward to the gim pasta sauce recipe in here too! ❤

Hi Maddy, I want to acknowledge your bravery and courage for sharing something so personal and being vulnerable. Ever since the lose of my dad I been in so much pain as you mentioned pain comes in waves. Some days I am okay others I cry myself to sleep. I heard it say that we wear our pain and that it takes residence inside of us without asking for permission. It will be with us. We will not be the same after, but it’s in the little moments (a sunrise, cooking, reading a book or breathing fresh air) that we will find comfort and learn to smile again. Love you Maddy. You’re such an amazing person. Cheering for you and know that you are not alone.

The process of mourning a person, whether you've known them your whole life or not, is still a journey full of many emotions. I am glad you're getting to process and express your emotions by allowing yourself to cry when you feel it. I will be praying that you soon start to heal and feel better. Thank you for sharing with us such a vulnerable part of yourself ❤

Breakups are like grieving the future of what could have been. It's like this deep deep pain in your core, followed by the aching of emptiness left from that person who is no longer there. But please please, let me tell you that with time the pain will lessen. One day at a time, take it easy on yourself❤

You are so precious and the way you’ve met this experience shows a lot of growth and how wise and kind your soul is. Sounds like you have some really wonderful friends and just as importantly know how to be a friend to yourself, even when it’s the hardest.

You know Maddy, the emotions you revealed help so many people who are going through difficult times not only in heart breaks. And when you said at the end that you'll be okay, that's exactly right. Although we all heal differently and it may take different amount of time but at the end of the day, there are always people who loves us and are there for us and yes we will be okay. Love you, Maddy.

I didn't date the guy that broke my heart. When you said that the person you talk to all day everyday was no longer there...that resonated with me. We're on good terms and keen to be friends even after he figured out how I felt, but the big change in communication-even after just a month-has been hard to readjust to. I'm just a student, but seeing you go to work even with a broken heart -which feels so numbing and heavy right now- really inspired me to keep going. Not in the stoic ignore-my-emotions way, but in then leaning on God's strength kind of way. The one step at a time kind of way. The life can't stand still kind of way. Still gonna have moments of overwhelm but that okay since its just apart of the process.Thank you for this video, Maddy, and passing on your vulnerability and wisdom. It's a real encouragement. Hope you feel better soon

Maddy the story about your coworker's mom and feeling sad for your coworker.... I totally resonated with that. Just hearing all my friends telling me about their current dilemma strangely feel better in a way that I know we're all dealing with it. It made me feel like my problems weren't as life-threatening as theirs, not that I tried to downplay my situation, I just needed reality check.

You have great friends, effective coping strategies, and seem very intelligent. I'm sure you feel a lot better now 8 months later, but i just found your channel. To anyone going through a breakup or not feeling good in a relationship - talk to them, and if they don't take your feelings to heart, or you just see it isn't working... let go and move on. Maddy is lucky, most people will not get the consideration, communication and care that she got in this parting. I let go of an 11 year relationship (legally married for 3) that was all red flags. I should have run after 2 weeks, but i tried my darndest to make it work. It won't. I feel relieved. Don't be dependent on anyone for anything. They aren't your" best half." You're 100% of something and you should be with someone complete too. Your relationship should make you happy. It's better to be alone than miserable with someone. It's ok to put yourself first. There are so many people in the world. Take the time to grieve, but don't let it drag you down. Stay active, and be open to something new. Good things always come. ❤

This was such a healthy response! It was really refreshing to watch! Thanks for being vulnerable and sharing with us. ❤

When a relationship ends it's ok to grieve. You are mourning the loss of what was and what could have been. And that's allright. It hurts but we as humans have an array of emotions. Those who do not allow themselves to feel those emotions aren't doing themselves any favors. Those emotions come out in other ways that are damaging to others. So I'm so sorry for the loss of your relationship. But I'm glad that you seem to be working through things as best as you can. I commend you for that. And I wish you well in all that you do. I know that sometimes life sucks. But it won't suck forever and things will get better even if you don't see how. No matter how it looks and feels just know that it will get better one day.❤

Your “Alexa lights on” just turned my lights on 😂😂😂😂 and heartache makes us stronger and is really an opportunity to self love, self reflect and start a new chapter of learning.

I went through a break up a month ago and seeing Maddy say exactly what I felt I felt peace. I hope the best for you

One of the things I love most about you channel is you honestly and openness about yourself. Much love too ya. Best thing about the loss you’re feeling is you find out who really cares about you, and the point you realize that person was not for you. Your amazing! No doubt!

Just wanted to say, thank you for sharing this. It’s a good reminder to care for ourselves and also allow all the feelings. I’m someone who can too easily close off so I will remember this for myself too. ❤

Hi maddy. You are one of the sunshines of my life. Glad you are feeding yourself well. You will get thru this maddy!

im going through a break up right now and this video made me cry, but in a good relieving way. i want to let it all out. all i need is time, all the peace and answers im searching for are already within me. with time and patience i will unlock them and will be better. this healing journey is not linear and its okay to fall back, cry and give in to the sad feelings. he was my first love and i know that it had to come to an end. as i said, everything i need is already within me. the answers and solutions to my pain are within me.

oh God I was crying with you at the first minutes of this video so much. it’s like I was looking at you and I saw me at the same time. and I felt your pain at every level. thank you for doing this video. it was something I really needed to watch. thank you! I wish you all the best. stay strong, you’re very powerful ❤️

Hi Maddy, I, too, am getting over a break-up that happened around the time that yours did. It was with my first love and it ended amicably like yours. The first few days to the following week were probably the most painful days of my life. It was so hard for me to come to terms with it all, and I especially couldn't bear talking about it with anyone. I think I was most vulnerable on day 2, when my roommate came to see me. I couldn't hold it together and I let it all out into my pillow, yet in front of her. I don't think I've ever been so vulnerable in my entire life. Hearing you be so open and vulnerable to your friends and with us is very commendable. Thank you for sharing this video with us- I feel so understood, and in a way I didn't know I needed. Here's to moving forward and finding our balance.

It will get easier but I know it doesn't feel okay right now. Try to be patient with the process. I'm glad you're talking about it and I hope things start to look brighter soon. 💝

Your feelings are valid! A day at a time, sending warmest hugs strong and gorgeous one! Honestly, while watching this, somehow felt all the emotions from the breakup from last year, gushing out. Realized have been in denial and shrugged away the pain to look okay and push forward. With this, helped me acknowledge and embrace the feelings kept away for so long... Finally letting the healing process fully take place.. So thank you so much for sharing your vulnerability and how you allowed all the emotions and pain that came along with the breakup... Staying strong!

I love this. I absolutely love this, people being truly honest to the world is so refreshing. You're brave for being truthful and emotional but this is so relatable and something that a lot of people should normalize. Thanks for sharing this, I think I'll watch this in the future when I go through my first breakup :)

I’m sorry, Maddy! I hope you’re well and please know we all love you so much. Stay awesome!

Mandy I just applied your unsent email technique. I said everything I wanted to say to him that won’t be able to because we don’t talk anymore. Thanks for sharing this part of your life!

Going through a breakup is never easy. I had a bad breakup that ended horribly because I thought I was doing everything right but in the end, he never loved me because he moved on rather quickly. And I'm still feeling the effects and looking at our pictures hurt my stomach. But it'll get better for both of us ❤❤❤

😢 I know is difficult to believe, but it does get better. Many years ago I had a bad breakout. Found the guy that I fell in love with, with another girl. It broke me. I remember waking up crying in the middle of the night and crawling into my mom’s bed and in her lap. I don’t think I have ever cried so much for a guy before. Funnily enough somebody sent me a picture of him and his wife, today, same girl I found him with those years ago. I felt nothing. Nothing at all. Is like I never knew him. We were never friends after we broke up and I think sometimes is healthy and ok not to be friends with exes. I wish you well! Take it easy and is totally ok to cry. Is necessary to “clean” your soul❤ About me? I’m happily married, mom to a lovely girl and life is good. Things will work for the best, you’ll see. I send you virtual hug.

Thank you so much for this video. I found you when I was going through a break from your quitting work video and how you were able to openly share your processing of emotions really really helped me feel less alone when I was a shell of a human hiding in a self-made hole. It’s scary that events like this is just a part of living life and I truly appreciate your perspective and insights. Love your part of the internet warming my soul.

The timing is the same as the breakup I went through. I was so sad for so so long and our breakup ended similarly like yours. I’ve been better now but did relapse a bit after seeing he’s in a new relationship again after he had told me he wanted to focus on being single and self improvement for a long time. The feelings and emotions ebb and flow, but we can recover through the time spent with friends and family, journaling and hobbies to help keep us active, and remembering to continue empathizing as you’ve also mentioned. It has helped so much to keep an open perspective. Thanks so much for choosing to post this and for being a breakup e-friend☺️ hope one day to see you around in ny to say thank you!❤

there's something about cooking that's just so healing. glad you're feeling better

Hi Maddy❤ I recently went through a breakup too and it ended similarly to yours. I’m sorry you are going through this..I had a very difficult time and cried a lot too. I hope the best for you! ❤ You are doing amazing and heal at your own pace and not what you think you should feel sending you lots of love ❤️ ❤

I love your openness and your honesty you will be fine, you did a great job with this video I hope you continue to tell us about your emotional journey and how you are feeling.

thank you for always being so real. it’s so refreshing. sending love ✨

Appreciate your vulnerability. I’ve been in your position many many times. I’m glad you’re feeling your feeelings ❤so healthy! I’m getting married this year with the most incredible man I couldn’t even pray for…. I want that for you too❤ you’ll get there

I'm so sorry that happened. But you have some amazing friends. I wish you the best 💜

So sorry you are going through this painful breakup 😢 sounds like you are doing a lot of good things to help you process and get through this valley ❤ in the meantime you’re still giving us so much food-spiration!! That bacon avo grilled cheese though - whoa, that’s next on my list of things to make!

This is the first video from you I saw and I want to tell you that, although I don't know you, I'm so proud of you! Feeling everything is way healthier than showing it aside. I wish you all the best 💛

This was a very powerful video, thank you for sharing this experience with everyone.

Thank you so much for sharing so vulnerably with us. I am so glad that you have a solid support system and know what helps you deal with your grief, there is nothing worse that falling into that pit of sadness alone

This video feels like a friend calling. It felt comforting to be there for you and listen although you don't talk to me personally. I am amazed at how you handle your emotions. Even at your lowest you are a very inspirational person. Your light warms my heart. If someone is going to be okay it is definitely you, Maddy. ♥

Thank you for sharing your experience. Coping with pain is such a hard thing to do. But the way you handled it was beautiful. Thank you for being an example to me and many others. I hope you get feeling better soon. You are in my thoughts and prayers. 🙏💕

More videos please 😭 I’m so excited for your new chapter. You got this. I’m in a RU-vid rut and this was so nice to sit and watch. Not a lot of people making content on here. Good luck❤️

breaking up is never easy. But it's a necessary step in life to self-reflect and it's one of those rare moments where you can look at yourself in a deeper way. No matter what happens, you'll be ok. You just need to make sense of all of this. It will take time. But at the end, you'll be ok.

something abt this feels like such an emotional journey and relief. thank you for sharing this.

I'm glad you get to vent out your emotions verbally on this subject especially since the feeling can be suffocating and at times, excruciatingly painful on certain days. But you're strong, and I know you and I can get through this. The thing I like about taking a video of yourself and rambling whatever comes to your mouth is that you get to make realizations for yourself and come up with your own conclusions rather than having someone give you an advice that doesn't really understand your situation to it's fullest extent than how you do. I hope you heal❤ You can do this❤😊

With or without pain, at least your skin is clear, your health is good, your job is still there, your friends are still there, you can eat good food everyday, so everything will be okay and will be good. No need to hold onto something that was not meant to be yours either. Upon leaving this earth, you'll need to separate from your loved ones anyways. Life is temporary, all relationships must end one day as we are mortal beings experiencing a mortal existence. Taoism taught me to let go and not hold on and that has helped a lot in life. Wishing you well!

So good to know what wonderful friends you have and how emotional intelligent you are

Dearest Maddy, you have helped me in so many ways watching how you shared your heartbreak and struggles. I feel like someone out there can understand and relate to when I am at my lowest. They say time heals all wounds, but in the process of being resilient, it seems like eternity.

I unexpectedly crossed paths again with an old family friend, A couple of months my 10yr of marriage ended. Everything happened so fast, I enjoyed talking to him, spending time with him. At first things were weird but then we got closed and decided to make it official and for a while things were great. After being official for 6 months things are terrible, I don’t know where we stand, He says he still cares but it’s too much and although he says he wants to make things work and what not, His actions say otherwise. I also ended up moving 40 minutes away from family and friends and him. And now I feel so alone and have been crying every day too. I dread doing anything and at work I have to take bathroom breaks to cry. This video helped me so much, Maddy. You have such a comforting voice. I hope you can heal soon and feel like yourself again. Much love!

I’m glad you had people to reach out too. ❤

I'm having a slightly rough time at the moment but this video was super comforting 💕 I know we'll both be feeling better soon

i found your channel through your mega kimchi review and i wanted to say that finding this vlog was a very nice reminder to be gentle to oneself during times like this. thank you for sharing your emotions with everyone, maddy. i know this is a couple months late, but i hope you've been healing well. i very much admire the fact that you're able to let yourself feel things as they come, that is an invaluable skill and necessary for things like this. much love 💗

Hi Maddy ❤️ I know this may be just another comment of the bunch but I hope you are feeling better. I am there right with you and felt the feelings of breakups, they stink. I loved seeing your channel grow and you grow as a person too! ❤️ Take as much time as you need, as avid listeners and viewers we will always be there for you, going thru old videos and learning new recipes! You go girl!! ❤️❤️

I don’t know what breaking up feels like because I am married to my first boyfriend. We had fights were we almost ended up in a breakup but that was very hard. I cannot imagine the pain of breaking up with someone you love.

im proud of you for all the days you've gone through it's hard, and if it helps, your videos have been small doses of joy for me. i hope you get through this and continue to be you!

thank you so much! I am currently going through the different stages of a breakup as well and this video really helped me to breathe through, realise it’s okay to cry and grief and remind me of the things i can do to strak joy inside me again. ❤

I’m glad you posted this video.. I’m going through a similar situation and this helped me feel a lot. Thank you.

I’m truly sorry. 100% understand what you are going through. Take your time and let all out. It’s okay to be sad, mad, anxious. Better days will come. Be safe 💜

I felt so much in this video. Sadness, strength, courage. Bless you for sharing such raw emotions 💕

I really appreciate the vulnerability you show in sharing this. You're entitled to each of your emotions. I admire you being able to share this and motivate yourself to create content. Much love to you, I hope brighter days are ahead

thank you for this video ❤️ im not facing a breakup phase, but it's another phase that requires me to stay rational or else, i might lose myself again, and those words at the end of the video cheered me up a lil. thank you for sharing your feelings to us, hope things will be better for you (and me!^^)

Thank you for being vulnerable with us, hearing about the ups and downs of other people's lives makes me more aware of the fact that we all are human, and that we have a lot more in common and capacity for connection than we sometimes think. Take your time to heal, and take care of yourself!

sending love from australia, i'm a new subscriber and your voice is so calming and welcoming. breakups are never easy and i've had my fair share, and your pain is your pain. however it is you feel whatever time or day, regardless of whatever is happening around you and whoever in your close circle it is happening to, doesn't make your pain any less or more important. i've experienced death and break ups and mourning the loss of someone who is still alive is just as painful as those departed and i don't hesitate with saying that whether or not others will agree. you're doing the best you can and that's all that matters. always put yourself first and allow yourself to have bad days just as much as good days to heal and rest ❤

i'm really sorry Maddy. the pain and hurt you feel is temporary. i know, easier said, but i think it's true. it's already starting. you're crying less and less, and before you know it you won't cry at all. it's important during this time to give yourself a little grace. i've leaned on you and your content for emotional stability - and i hope you feel comfortable enough to do the same thing with us. we will be here to support you! love you 💜

Oh Maddy!! I’m sorry my dear. Stay strong ok. Heal and eat and cry and scream and cry and laugh. It’s ok, ok?! Thanks for sharing. Things will be ok. Time heals everything!! 💓

You are very classy to keep the details of what happened to yourself. This video was lovely to hear about your emotional journey and what helped you get through the worst of it. You have some special friends.

I'm sorry Maddy. I really hope you'll feel better as time passes. And that you'll be happy in the future. Btw, that spaghetti recipe looks amazing!

Thank you for sharing this moment, it must have been so hard for you to talk about your feelings 😘

You are probably one of the most beautiful humans I have ever seen when I first came across your videos I was just in awe of how pure your voice and demeanor were/are and how stunningly gorgeous you were breakups are never easy and always take so long to process/feel normal my heart goes out to you!

Aw Maddy! I just started following your videos in the last month or so and I wish I could give you a great big hug!!! ❤

I hope you take care of yourself maddy and heal yourself over time. Breakups are hard and so painful. We are with u

Sorry you had go through a breakup, Maddy. You’re a beautiful soul and hope you never forget the love you give and receive from others. Continue to love yourself ❤

I agree with many people that you’re such a kind soul. Thank you for sharing.

Thanks Maddy for being so vulnerable. Healing and grief really does hit you in a funny and weird times. I'm glad to know that I'm not alone in that.

you are amazing, maddy! I am so encouraged by you and hopeful for all the things to come 💜

Thank you for sharing this. I went through this two years ago and watching you go through the exact same things I did just makes me know that you will be okay. It's a process but I believe in you! Take care !

Your voice is so soothing .. you will find love again ❤ thank you for sharing😊 I can't wait for the recipe

Im so so proud of you for being vulnerable and so so raw with your emotions. More power and love to you

Good luck getting it all back together, you've got this. Your voice is so beautiful.

SUCH. A. GOOD. VLOG. it's my first one that i've watched from you, and i am so so inspired right now!!!

I know you’ll get through this, because you explain your emotions so well, and I believe it helps to heal you, you are a very strong person, You will get through this, talking about it to your friends is also a huge help which you are doing

You would be perfectly ok as time goes by. I experienced my worst break-up about 10 months ago and had to deal with international moving and job transition while we didn’t even have a proper ending conversation. I couldn’t imagine how i went through these but it just proved how strong we could become. It’s ok to feel the vulnerability inside sometimes and shed the tears. When i looked back at myself, i sometimes feel proud that I could get out of the mud and pull my life back on track. Traveling is sometimes a quick antidote to the pain you feel in the environment you had memories with him. You’ll get well sooner than expected😊.

Hang in there with your hopes and dreams, there’s someone out there that’s worth it even during the hard times x