Nobody will see this so I'mma just say I dropped out when I was 13 and I'm 19 now , for the past 6 years I've been alone just me and my thoughts , during those six years I thought all I could possibly think and it's at the point in my life where there's only one thought left. A thought that never wants to leave , during the previous years I learnt to tell when someone was lying , I learnt how to tell fake laughs/smiles apart from the real ones and I learnt the fake expressions of compassion, sympathy and the fakeness of interest. I made some friends recently and I finally had other thoughts, I finally thought I had a reason to exist but as I sit and talk to them I hear all of it , all of their lies . Now my thoughts are slowly disappearing and the one true thought is coming back . Im gonna be alone again with the same thought that's been in my mind again , my birthday is soon and the best present I could have is the thought that's been looming in my mind. I don't want it come true but I feel as if it will never change , even if I made new friends or met the love of my life I'd ruin the bliss by recognizing all the lies . Being alone helped me become less ignorant but becoming aware has made me so much more lonely. As they say " ignorance is bliss".
Gonna admit here that as an Elder Industrial, Experimental Noise, Punk, Goth circa '89, I'm often hesitant about a lot of the GOTH & Post Punk Playlists out🤷🏻♀️... But THIS ENTIRE playlist is Spot~On❣ MOS DEF adding it to My GOTHSCAPADES playlist!!! TY🤔🙏🏻💜🖤☄
