pov: you're the eldest daughter living alone for the first time 

I can also relate to the feeling guilty or proud part. I'm from the Philippines and I'm a student studying in the city while my parents are in the province so every time I experience something new and wonderful in life, there's this guilt that I feel deep inside and wish that my parents are here to share the experience with. To anyone who's reading this, I hope that we achieve our dreams in life so that when the time comes, not only can we spoil ourselves but also the ones we love, too.

im sure your dad is very proud of you ..when my daughters did the same thing i worked all hours i could ..knowing they were able to do well and go on adventures is all a father needs to know its what we work for to see our children do well in there life ..love for our children is endless.

5:07 all i can think about is how Jing had to walk the distance, then walk back to get the camera hahah

Your content is SO GOOD. The photography, the music, the storytelling, the honesty of gratitude and humility, the revelation of the real you, the thought behind it all - just stunning. Thank you.

Your parents must be so so proud to have you. My mom always told me there's nothing more precious to a parent than having a grateful child, it makes the parents feel like they've lived a good life, raised reliable children and their sacrifices were worth it.

As the eldest daughter who become the first in the family to study abroad, this video is really relatable. I understand well the feelings on keep being stalled either to be proud or guilty. I am confused whether it's okay to feel excited for the summer/winter break because wishing the holiday to come faster means the faster my parents get old too.

reading recommendation + fun fact: bath is also where 'northanger abbey', one of jane austen's earliest teenage works, is portrayed. would definitely recommend giving it a read Jing; I think you could relate to Catherine's struggles away from home and finding her own voice : )

As an oldest daughter getting closer to college, I really resonated with this.

This vlog is like a movie! Being alone gives you the perks of freedom but sometimes freedom by yourself can give you a sense of guilt as well. I hope we achieve the things that we wanted and be the pride of our parents and loved ones! You're in a beautiful city Jing!

A 20 year old girl , who can be a motivator , inspirational, hard worker , enjoying the life , loneliness , showing each and every moment as precious, family time , alone times , being bold !!!and so on !! Yeah ! That’s you jing!!!! Keep rocking !!! Need your videos as a dose in my horrible life !!!!

Her smile is so adorable 😭🤍 I’m out of words 😭🤍

Being an older sis and watching this at the age of 14 knowing that within 4 yrs I will fly out of my country made me feel so emotional but also inspired and made me feel safe,❤

that last part about wanting to be the tangible dreams of your parents hit way too hard oh my gosh. as an eldest daughter whose plan is to live alone, this was the most comforting video i’ve seen all day.

I can relate to that feeling too, the guilt of doing better than your parents. In our minds we know, that guilt is unnecessary. With loving and supportive parents like yours, this life you feel guilty to have is also a testament to their success as parents. I believe your father didn't toil day and night for you to live the same reality that he has had, Jing.

I always feel so inspired after watching these 🤍🤍🤍🤍

As a parent, I feel fairly certain that I can assure you that your parents are so proud of you and happy for you. Lovely video.

I’m sure your parents are immensely proud of you. Your channel is a breath or fresh air. Also, I admire your depth of character and independence! Keep up your amazing work. None of us are perfect, but we’re enough!

so glad i found your channel and the content you create in the midst of the oversaturated and similar contents the creators put out these days, thank u for doing what u do!

I've never been this early before 😭😭 Been waiting impatiently for this since your last vid! You really inspire me with everything you do, the way you carry and conduct yourself, and most especially your hardworking nature and determination! Also, I love the little catch-ups, it feels like we're talking on a personal level. Thank you for everything you do Jing and keep going! One other thing, I would like to applaud you for how quickly your channel has grown! Congrats 🌺💙

Was watching your vid at literally 12 and started crying I'm also the oldest daughter in my family and i'm moving overseas alone for my first full time job after graduating and I feel like your story really resonates with mine, how you compared your Dad's working life to yours as well as always wanting to achieve the best for them. Im officially subscribed can't wait to watch more vids from you :)

Just thinking about your channel and you upload a new vid!!! I'm the eldest as well, and that part about "feeling guilty or proud" is true. OMG Bath has such a dark academic vibe, and I love it! Also, kudos to you for leaving your camera to take shots, but then having to go back to it after you made it up those hills.

you’ve become my fave vlogger, your whole vibe is just perfect

I love the ending line, jing you are the most tangible form of making your parents' and your dreams come true!! stay proud and I hope you have more wonderful experiences because you truly deserve that

Hi Jing, I just wanted to say that your videos have been a massive inspiration to me, especially as someone who gets homesick really easily and you just seem like a really great person so I hope you keep doing what you’re doing. Lots of love ❤

I LOVE EVERY single thing about this video! Omg I have the sheer canopy over my bed as well. That apartment reminds me of my own so much. I just don't have that amazing view. LOL The views on your walk were STUNNING and the 2nd place you ate out at is freakin AMAZING! WOW I have got to visit Oxford! THANK YOU so much for sharing doll!

Jing, this video was so beautifully made!! I used to feel the guilt that comes with leaving to pursue my dreams, but the alternative is that I stay put and don't do everything I can to make use of the life my parents worked so hard to give me! I hope you can find a way to ease this guilt and enjoy the pleasures of your life to the fullest potential!

tbh you are my favourite youtuber. Your videos are like movies that I don't want to skip. Also you are so real and you motivate me to move on with my life. Thankyou jingsu🫂 keep making more videos. Love you so much.

you make my day jing, thank you for uploading and teaching us about self love

Ever since I was little and my dad would pick up antique items or machines for his business I’ve always loved going with him and seeing new places. Most of the time it would feel mostly like a mini family road trip where once we got to a destination we would explore and see what new things we can find. I think ever since then I’ve always loved the idea of traveling and have been wanting to travel to the countrysides of Italy, England, France, and Japan. It never came to mind of studying abroad but if I had the chance to go back in time, I definitely would have. The only thing that would stop me is my family and feeling this sense of abandoning them. I’m the eldest so I know how you feel about having a guilty conscience of thinking about or actually living in another country. I feel in my heart that Italy is definitely the place that I want to live at when the moment is right. Your videos give me so much inspiration and insight to exploring different places! ☺️

you know what, even though i wont be the first generation child to go to college in my family, i know for sure i'd be the first to leave india and eventually never return to settle. oxford has been my dream since i was 9 and almost a decade later, i'm still chasing it. your videos not only inspire me but they also give me hope that despite all the hardships that may come my way, i can still enjoy life upon the policy that "change is the only constant" and i'll forever be grateful

I love your videos Jing! They're just so calming and peaceful. I remember when you had 100K subscribers, your channel has grown so much And I can see why! Your content is absolutely amazing!!

ur videos are so cinematic and poetic that tears involuntarily come to my eyes. u do an amazing job on the content u create, talk about such important things, about something personal with such trepidation that it is impossible not to immerse yourself in the story u are telling. it has become such a salvation for me now, thank u sm! u are an incredibly wonderful girl who creates one of the most cozy and comfortable atmospheres in her work. ♡

Jing's quality content never fails to leave us in awe, I could literally hear you story telling for a whole damn day (or more)-I would rather be grateful. Your stories/contents are more interesting than me listening my professors' lectures. 😂 HUGE THANK YOU FOR SHARING THIS TO US! And being part of your life. 🥺✨

I cant not comment this video is literally art this is exactly the kind of content i need to start my day quietly with just in love

tysm jing for your videos!! they really are a part of my happy place. and your words and your storytelling really warm up my heart and make me wanna work hard like you as well. always looking forward to your videos! lots of love!! 🤍🤍🤍

your vlogs are my therapy!!🥳 keep going ily sm 💓💓💓

you're literally the most grateful person i've ever watched on youtube and it's so comforting to hear you talk about your experiences and to watch your videos.

you are my comfort youtuber. your voice,editing style etc is so calming and peaceful. You are my idol!!! my dream is to study in oxford university and lead a peaceful yet social and calming life.

Can we all appreciate the fact that she walked double on the trail to go back and get the camera!!

You are so mature and sensible for your age! Your parents must be real proud of you. I am in my 30s still deciding on career and other important decisions it feels good to see your videos going to places studying in oxford! Keep this spirit of yours! ❤❤❤

Hearing the canto, especially from the parents, just always hits a soft spot. It always reminds me of home and always makes me miss home. Sometimes life is so busy and hectic that I forget about home so it makes the emotions stronger.

such a beautiful video jing! you inspire me not just with your oxford journeys but also your journey to self love

I feel so related every time I watch your videos and also feel good after realizing I'm not the only one feeling this way. Thank you for your content and sharing your thoughts to us :)

your vlogs and thoughts are truly insightful & admirable 👏 they're soothing and great to watch too!

i love how the way you film so much😭it's so beautiful and adds so much to the vibes...

Girl, you don't even know how much i like your videos. They are so comforting and every detail is perfect

Everytime I watch your channel I get so much inspiration omg I’m kinda proud of myself watching you

I love your videos, please don't stop making them! They are so comforting, they are like a safe place! Thank you for that!

ur the best jing 🥨 i hope u keep fighting strongly and never give up! i am sure that ur dad is literally proud of you for what you are right now! lots of love and energy to you jing

I literally enjoy all they vibe u give us. It's insane (lol) the fact that your thoughts and experiences and the way you talk about them makes me feel like "home". I don't really know how to express it but I really want to live that life too and your videos get me super excited about it. So yeah, thank you for that

made my day when i saw you posted !! been studying all day for my a-level mocks tomorrow and thought i’d reward myself with this video when i was done!

your videos are so unique and such a breath of fresh air 😩❤️ I love it so much

I feel inspiration, comfort, lightness, freedom every time I watch your videos. Thank you, I love you🤍

I just love your videos. They make me feel calm through all the stuff going on around me.

Once I opened youtube I saw your video and I opened it immediately. You really really inspired me in life like you dont know. I started tsking studies seriously now so I can achieve my dreams. Thank you! I really love your videos i'm so happy you posted! And always do what your happy with, always do what you enjoy and keep going till you get to your goal, never give up :) Keep going Jing you are seriously amazing!

Hi,you are so so brave!!! Every time I watch your videos I get so inspired and you gave me so much energy,I love it,thanks!!!!

Thank you for sharing your thoughts, experiences and emotions with us 🤍 You brighten our days and you inspire us a lot 🤍 Sending you lots of love and light from France 🤍

the end brought tears to my eyes cause that was soo relatable. i’m glad this video popped up in my fyp! subbing right away!

I loved this video so much and as a eldest daughter I could relate so much. I am so happy to see your progress since the first video ever! So happy to be one of your first subscribers! Lots of love

Jing, your videos are amazing, I have chills.

i don't know why but I cried while you showed the views from the hike...and then wheres my love played I COULDNT HOLD MY TEARS. I felt so peaceful and heartbroken at the same time.

This video calmed me 😌...the sounds ,the songs,the beautifully captured shots were really peaceful.Thankyou

Thank you jing for running/walking back and forth just to film beautiful footages for us 😭 I’m so happy that I found your channel! I love your content! Sending loves from Malaysia ❤️

She speaks my heart everytime 😭

your place is so unbelievably gorgeous, like it’s my ideal place

I love your content sooo much, which is delicate and inspiring me to confront life. Thx a lot!

This makes me feel overwhelmed I relate to all of it

this is so therapeutic 😭 i love your vids, jing! 🤍

Sawing that you posted made me so happy omg. I love your vids🥰

cg on 200k

You are truly inspirational in every aspect of life

i needed this today. thank you

you're such an inspiration jing-nim♡ thank you for all that you do >

this was so relatable as someone who is also the eldest daughter! a beautiful video and loved the choice of syml for the hiking segment! 🤗💛

your editing is so so amazing, plus each and every video you upload are inspiring and motivational!! i hope you’re doing well, sending lots of love + support 💗🫂

So proud of you ❤️❤️❤️ youre living my dream

this entire video>>> i just relate so much and the wall at 3:41

watching your videos, not only its so therapeutic but a lot of the topic that you talked about in your videos are something that i personally go through and struggles with it and seeing that i am not the only one who goes through them gives me a little peace but also sad that as an immigrant child we have to go through this feelings. regardless of that, thank you so much for bringing such a peaceful and entertaining videos. definitely looking forward to your future videos. sending loads of love from australia

OMG the lil clips made me cryyy time passes sooo fast

never stop making videos💓 love your channel!!

Hi Jing! I'm always waiting for your new vids! I watched all your videos, It's so relaxing, I feel like I'm waiting for a new episode of a series movie haha, I like your personality, it's so classy and it's rare to find a vlogger like you who doesn't follow the style of every trending in our generation. Xoxo!

Since i found your channel i immediately fell in love. Ily

this was so beautiful 🕊️

love how ur capturing the little moments of your life and romanticizing them!! ur honestly just like me haha

Your videos are so powerful your content is so relatable and i love how you share your thoughts with us it feels like i know you,thank you fro such an immersive experience that i learnt such a lot from :)

You are so incredibly inspiring. Thank you for teaching me about self love. Lots of love! ❤

holy wow not me almost crying at the end😭from one eldest daughter to another, I salute u.. thank you for sharing such a beautiful video❤️

Your vlogging style is absolutely perfect.

i feel way to motivated after watching this😩💜

love, love, love the vibe of this video

This made me happy, thank you for sharing your small moments with us, it’s like a free therapy for me 🫶🏻🪷🤍

This video made me cry in the best way possible

I really loved this vlog! It felt like watching one of those old period movies set in the english countryside like pride and prejudice or atonement. I liked the still shots of different sceneries, the little town was so pretty and the english countryside is so green and lush. I also relate to the feeling guilty part, im also an oldest daughter and i felt so so guilty when i went to live alone for school so I spent all my time working and studying to try and make up for it, if that makes sense. After graduating and talking with my parents though they explained that I didnt need to feel guilty and it would have been ok to take some time to myself to enjoy, while also being productive. Im really glad you took some time to yourself!

the camera angles of jing are just the best. one can see the hardworkkk

best vlog ever❤ loved the serene vibe this video gave

I acc adore your acc

You are such a motivation! Your videos always make my day !!🥰

I love this video sm ily!! Btw the views of your window are gorgeous

i'm so happy for you because this my dream vacation just me alone with my thought

I relate to this so much! I moved across the country to go to university, and especially aa the first generation to go (and the older sister to little brothers) it is a lot of pressure and a lot of sister guilt. My father also works in construction so that bit really hit home for me! It’s a hard thought to have when working in a corporate world, but it’s why I work so hard so I can provide for them. That pressure is hard to shake and I don’t think we ever will, but all that matters is that you’re happy in the process x