"id rather have an existential crisis every year than have a big one when im 45 and hate my husband, my kids and everything my life has come to." THIS made me feel a 1000% better about my existencial crisis that i have at least once a year. Thank you so much for this sentence! Its so true! I sometimes feel like im the only one thats conscious about my feelings and it makes me feel like im crazy.
My therapist says it's important to feel. To your body there are no "right/good" emotions or "wrong/bad" emotions. They are all emotions and physiologically there is a reason they exist. You need every single emotion to survive. So to think that crying or being angry is wrong to feel is the same as saying you shouldn't also feel happy or excited. Your body doesn't have a filter to say "feel these and don't feel these" you either feel all or none. This has helped me realize that you need to be able to experience them all and they are all valid. Another biological fact: you cry because the hormones in your body are so high that you cannot process all of it, so your body purges these extra hormones via tears. This goes for all emotions: happy = happy tears, sad = sad tears, and angry = angry tears. So to hold in tears just makes your emotions last longer and it isn't healthy for your body. P.S. please blast this so that Ashley can see
@@taissilvadoray7266 nonono, having one at 45 (considering that you were i guess relatively happy everytime before then??) is horrible- because an existential crisis makes you feel like you've reached a non-productive and just horrible state of life and if you have that while you're already settled down- you feel like it's too ?? late?? so existential crisis' help you re-balance yourself. i promise.
ashley was definitely one of my favourite youtubers of 2019.... there’s something so motivating but soothing about her content and personality. She feels like a friend and not someone trying to make money off of you like a lot of youtubers now.
She is trying to make money out of all of us. She's fake sustainable and her amazon and nasty gal ads proved that she doesn't care about any of it. She lied about her immigrant history and constantly deletes comments asking her to address all of what she's done.
“I want to feel generally confident again I feel like my confidence peaked in my senior year of high school and then afterwards I’ve just been having a huge identity crisis” I have never related to a statement that hard in my life
exactly same. senior year in high school and a little bit of college I was living my best confident idgaf life. now i can barely talk to someone i don't know without sweating bullets. it's like anxiety finally hit me and i understand what all the loners in high school were talking about lol.
i know you definitely said "i'm going to watch some movies" but your darling sickly voice made it sound like "i'm going to watch some boobies" and i cackled because i'm still mentally 13
YES. The crying part. Yes. I've never related to something on YT so hard! Crying is such a coping mechanism of mine for so many things weather it's stress, anxiety, anger, frustration, happiness, excitment, even if I had a long day, and it's actually something I love and feel proud of. I highly believe people should find what helps them vent better and such, thank you for that
hagar fadali If anyone would like to watch my 2020 new year video it’s here ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-tXlJbJH4NlE.html Please like and subscribe ✨
Ashley, thank you so much for existing. I felt really lonely all of 2019, I started college and it was really difficult to make new friends, I started to get really anxious and bored of my life, it was a really dark year for me, but whenever i watched your videos I remembered that those things are normal, that it's okay to feel sad and that those are rhings that you should learn to cope with, not only did you really got my feelings, but you also really help to light up my days. Social media really needs more real people like you, thank you so much for helping me througout this year, 2020 is made for us! ❤ Greetings from Perú
I love how okay you are with being Vulnerable on camera it really makes me and I bet many others feel okay about feeling the way you do sometimes and realising that even successful people sometimes don’t have their shit together
Ashley you need to start a PODCAST with all these complex reflective thoughts you be having to enlighten my brain and inspire us all during your self love journey!
Can’t believe it has almost be a year since then. So much happened, yet so little. But honestly, for me 2020 was probably the most important year despite how shitty it was. I finally stopped beating myself up for not being perfect - in school, in social life, about my appearance; I realized who my real friends are and how much I value them and that I can really trust them and they won’t judge me; I stopped having unrealistic expectations for the future and learned how to just go with the flow and enjoy every moment, because you actually can’t plan everything in life, shit will happen and there’s nothing you can do about it. There were ups and downs, but I think I came out of this year a much better and happier person
I looove what you said about crying, I’ve been told a lot recently by some people around me that I’m such a cry baby and that I shouldn’t cry for *this thing or *that thing and I’m sick of it sometimes is just what you need, you do you!!! ❤️❤️❤️
it doesn't sound pathetic, Ashley. Thank you for sharing your struggle. It makes me feel less alone. Your honesty is the main reason I follow you. So thank you
Saying "I'll be happy when..." prevents us from being happy in the present and places value on the external rather than the internal. Internal peace, untied to the external, lasts longer. I think when we think of happiness we think of it as this constant state of joy and of not ever being sad. The backwards law says that sometimes the expectation for this idealistic happiness can cause us pain. Finding peace within is a difficult task and i hope 2020 can bring us all closer to it 😊
If I was where you’re at rn in my life in the next 5 years I’d be so proud of myself so pls be proud of yourself now while you’re living it! Your independence, transparency and wholesome vibes are what I live for, 2020 is ours bb
Ok I don’t want this to sound like I’m being mean or anything but I love how your bullet journal isn’t so aggressively perfect. You know like on those Pinterest ones you see that just look so impossible for someone really busy to achieve.
you were 100% my favourite youtuber i found in 2019 !! you’re so real Ashley & i absolutely love the way you feel like you can reflect & share your feelings with us ! it makes me feel less alone in my feelings & it’s comforting to know you go through similar things. thank you for all the videos & hard work you put into content for us this past year🤗
sometimes when i feel that things are too overwhelming for myself, i just wait for a few days. grab my blankey, off the light, start thinking about the things on my mind and start crying. i do this every few months and i still love it as a way to self regulate and flush out the negative feelings.
My 2019 milestones were sick: -met my best friend -I broke off a very toxic relationship -found someone who shows me unconditional love -I kinda got my shit together at school -went viral on TikTok ?? - found Ashley’s channel :)) you helped me fashion wise and as someone who LOVES fashion that’s a huge thing for me lmao
Plus, whenever I have time, i draw doodles or add other things like washi tape that goes with my them (Ex: theme is plaid so extra and would be plaid washi tape or doodles of plaid items)
you could definitely make copied of your bullet journal to sell!! ive been looking for the perfect day planner and dont have the patience for making my own journal but i feel like with all of your experience with planners you could make a really good one that i feel like a lot of people would be interested in buying :)
when she lists down her goals for 2020 , I realised those are the goals I should work on too... I've been an antisocial bean with the least confidence so it's time to improve!
Me in January 1st: “Preparing to make 2020 my b*tch” January 2nd: Fire destroysAustralia January 3rd: World war III announced January 4th: the start of the apocalypse
ashley: "i'm constantly trying to teach myself that it's okay to take time off..." me: *_but i'm always taking a break i haven't done anything productive_*
i feel like my anxiety always does this, i turn something someone says ( even if they are saying something that helps them combat a problem, like in this case ) into something bad
I wish you didn’t say “I sound so insane!” after expressing your feelings! You don’t have to invalidate your feelings. Even if people don’t see what you’re saying, you feel the way you feel, and you shouldn’t apologize for that.
That's exactly what I was thinking!! And like I think all her feelings are perfectly normal, she doesn't sound insane at all!! And honestly even if she did, that's ok too :)
as well as saying things like "not to sound like a basic bitch" it's ok to be a basic bitch !!! you don't have to defend and justify your interests out of fear that people will make fun of you !! she clearly has a "not like other girls" complex and i wish she'd realise she doesn't need to do that
@@andreaeliasen6546 yeah she is overly self critical and I don't know if she's tryna be ~quirky~ and relatable or she is just genuinely like that, neither is good. I think she is sort of aware of this since she has mentioned that she's going to try to stop criticizing herself but it gets old really fast. It's not easy on me to hear it either.
The real strength of bullet journaling. Or in my case Hobonichi Techo-ing. >.< At the end of the year I could go through and see every trip I took, the goals I achieved, even the hours I worked and workouts I did. I wish I had started keeping a planner sooner. xD Half of my life is forgotten.
same!!! i can take my phone on random moments just to take a picture of the people i'm with, is that weird ??? i don't know, glad you said same so i know i'm not the only one.
This video is so eerily prophetic...the roll of toilet paper in the shot, you being sick & coughing, you taking about how you haven’t seen people in a week & a half, you talking about being in NYC...👀
this vid really hit hard on everything i'm feeling for 2020 :') the whole crying being almost carthartic thing & wanting to separate my self-love and self-respect from my achievements really put my thoughts and feelings into words. glad to know i'm not the only one!! best of luck with the move :)
I’ve literally just been binge watching ur old videos so this came in clutch 😌 thank you so much for doing ur thing Ashley. You are by far my favourite channel I found in 2019❤️ you make me feel less alone 🥺
The fun thing is that at the start of the year all RU-vidrs were like: yes this year will be our year. Now we are all afraid to die bc of covid19. Its actually pretty sad
But then again it kind of became, because they are the ones that can work from home like they would normally, and we are all watching a lot more youtube because we are isolated and have nothing else to do...
Anyone else wish they were like Ashley and be that hard working ? Honestly she’s the most dedicated and hard working RU-vidd I’ve watched and she’s truly worked for her success
yeah. ashley's problem is that she overworks herself. meanwhile, my problem is i work too litte. i'm constantly lazy and procrastinating when i know i could be working... i don't know how to motivate myself to work.
@@qianyue.c i feel the same way especially since quarantine started :(( i cant get much schoolwork done because i stay at home so much. Like if i were in school id have no choice but to do schoolwork but now im just procrastinating :((( (even as im typing this and watching this video lol)
@Sunny Toppo Her videos are almost 20 min long and imagine the work she puts into editing them. She also has a business and she does it all alone. Obviously she will have a manager to manage finances and brand deals but most of her work is done by her
