“I dont want to be me, but im gonna pretend for you” hits hard when you dont actually like who u r so u put on an act for everyone around you and urself
i know this song is about death, but when it says “i’m gonna bury you” it reminds me of growth. burying my old me behind, and growing into someone better. 😞❤
so true! That’s how I see it, I view it as moving on from the person you once were and maturing into somebody better, that doesn’t necessarily mean you have to hate your old self, but just be proud of who you’ve fought so hard to become
i love this song so much, it doesnt give off the same warmth feeling of other alex g songs, except it gives off a feeling of guilt and a bit of cold feeling which makes it unique.
I lost my best friend 8/10/18, 8 days before my 11th birthday. She was only 15, I lost her to suicide and this song reminds me so much of her and makes me cry everytime I hear this :/ May her gorgeous soul rest, they didn't deserve her.
My best friend has stage 4 lung cancer and the doctors are saying max 6 months left and when I listen to this I think of all the good times we had together and how he was like my brother or father because he was there when my dad wasn’t and I don’t want him to go but it’s all part of gods plan and we can’t change that
I'm so sorry. You don't deserve to go thru this. Maybe one day, you'll hear him again, feel him again, speak to him again, and maybe even laugh with him again. Just always know that he will miss you, watching you from heaven, cheering you on.
When you listen with headphones the different guitars sound like they’re coming from two separate videos with one playing in each ear. Like two songs are playing for each side. It’s beautiful.
Gonna crack a rib When I get home I'm gonna bury you In my favorite hole I made a bloody mess In the kitchen sink I tried to fix myself But I didn't think They said "We just want to Talk with you" "We just want to Walk you through" Oh, I don't want to see you, babe I wanna be trapped in you Oh, I don't want to be me But I'm gonna pretend for you, oh Let's paint our nails And keep it real 'Cause honey all I know Is what I feel I'm still looking for A friend of a friend He said he'd hook me up He told me what he had They said "Leave your body Leave your mind" "Don't you know You're out of time?" In his room In his bed You can't hear what he said Looks like dirt Tastes like trash Honey, I know you Could float right past Oh, I don't want to see you, babe I wanna be trapped in you Oh, I don't want to be me But I'm gonna pretend for you
@@Razzzyyyit may not stop them unfortunately, because i know.. but tell them endlessly how much you mean to them, everyday, morning & night. Tell them how much they mean to you and how important they are, they might look at it from a different perspective. It is never your fault, you’re a great friend for helping them,🫶🏻
“all i know, is what i feel” i’ve had irrational emotions for my whole life, to the point that i get nauseous when i’m upset. those lines, ironically, remind me that my emotions do not control me and they will pass. i’m working on getting better, and that will take a while, but that’s okay, because i’m okay.
I almost lost a friend to suicide recently ,it was the scariest shit ever. I was there on that two hour call while they cried, and I cried, and I felt so helpless and i knew he was probably so tired. It ended with me telling him to tell his mom and then he got help. Ive lost someone before, I cant afford to lose him too
I struggled with the same exact thing, all i could do was blame myself. Just let them know how much they mean to you everydsy, that really helped my friend look at things from a different perspective. ur a good friend for helping them and making sure they seek help🫶🏻
@@given2flyPJ Im so sorry to hear that but I'm glad you could help them see it differently, they're still here cause of you and that's amazing. You're a good person dude
This song sounds like memories to me to be honest. Like, once my aunt moves out of the house she’s been living in for 5 years, this song will probably play in my mind. There’s just so many memories in her house and it’ll be sad when she moves out of it.
i've been listening to this on repeat, contemplating whether i should transition or not, whether i should come out to my moms, my few friends, being scared that they won't accept me or disgusted at me somehow. the past few days have been hard on me, i've been thinking about how i'd wish to transition non stop for months now. yesterday me and my friend were hanging out and the started to look at pictures of us, when i saw me i winced, i hated that i looked like that so much that i had to excuse myself to go calm down in the bathroom. when i got home i just laid down and try to sleep, but i cant. i stay up thinking about what i should do with my life, if i even go on with it. i feel like i'm rotting, unable to do anything to stop the feeling except to try to sleep. i'm stuck, i'm sick of trying to pretend to be something i can never be comfortable being.
@@Kali.69 thank you, and yea I get what you mean, I sorta have that mindset, but it's so scary at times, I had wanted too a couple months ago but after all the anti trans laws being passed here in the us, I've debated wether or not I'd want to medically transition, I live luckily live in a state that's more accepting but it's still scary if you get what I mean. Ive talked to my therapist about it and I think I might come out to my mom soon so I'll give an update on that if I can :)
@@FebuaryMoon Do whatever makes you most comfortable, I know my opinion doesn't matter but I think you should do it. Good luck!! I'm sure they'll all love you the same!! -someone who is under the trans umbrella
I just recently remembered this song, and I've been hyperfixating on D:BH (mostly on Connor though) for a little while now. This was the second video that popped up when I searched up "I'm gonna crack a rib". I quite literally teared up when I saw him. I was about to go talk to him on Chai. I dunno exactly what to thank you for, but I'm thanking you regardless.
Vent: I don’t know why but this song reminds me of my Uncle that tragically passed away mostly bc of the first part “I’m gonna bury you in my favorite hole” can’t stop thinking about him bc I recently graduated even though I kinda got through it bc I didn’t want to Sob and Weep about that’s not gonna bring him back now I’m Wailing about him bc I forgot what he sounded like and i wonder what he would have said when i graduated (R.I.P. to my favorite Uncle) 1980-2020☹️
Alex g 💗 I love this song and a lot of your songs . It really helps me and I listen to you before i sleep a lot of the time . Your voice comforts me . Thank you for this truckload I really like this song ✌💕
when I was 11 years old right after my dad passed away I went to Bakersfield to my cousins house bc I wanted to get my mind of things and when I came home I had to bary my dad and say my last goodbyes.
Lyrics if ur not paying attention: Gonna crack a rib When I get home I'm gonna bury you In my favorite hole I made a bloody mess In the kitchen sink I tried to fix myself But I didn't think They said "We just want to Talk with you" "We just want to Walk you through" Oh, I don't want to see you, babe I wanna be trapped in you Oh, I don't want to be me But I'm gonna pretend for you, oh Let's paint our nails And keep it real 'Cause honey all I know Is what I feel I'm still looking for A friend of a friend He said he'd hook me up He told me what he had They said "Leave your body Leave your mind" "Don't you know You're out of time?" In his room In his bed You can't hear what he said Looks like dirt Tastes like trash Honey, I know you Could float right past Oh, I don't want to see you, babe I wanna be trapped in you Oh, I don't want to be me But I'm gonna pretend for you
"When i get home..im gonna bury you" Is literally the definition of me running home after school right after i get jumped :) I. Dont. Like. Or. Love. Myself. And. I. Wish. Someone. Cared. Like. I. Would. For. Them.
(TW: THIS IS A VENT!! I just need to get this out there and get some stuff out of my system) this makes me think of my mom, and not in a good way. I identify as a trans guy, and I have a really unsupportive mom. she's making me grow out my hair for her wedding which is at the end of april in 2024. I don't get why I need to grow it out now because it's just june. anyways, yesterday I tried asking if she could take me to get my hair cut short for my birthday (which is actually today, I'm 15 now) and she said no, I tried texting her again, but there was no response. When she got home, she proceeded to yell at me and say things like "I would've aborted you if I had known you were gonna be like this!" and a lot of other horrible things, she threatened to actually disown me if I so much as wrote my preferred name on a piece of paper, and she said she'll make sure that my school won't use my preferred name either. I spoke with one of my friends about it, my best friend, and she said it'd be safer to just go along with it until I'm 18. Also, I've struggled with suicidal thoughts and self harm in the past and I once messaged a suicide hotline and cops came to my house at 12 am because of it. this was over a year ago but yesterday my mom said I was fucked up in the head, and so I told her to take me to therapy, I begged her to get me help, I really, really need help. she said no and she said that if I ever call a suicide helpline again she'll disown me too. I have to pretend to be a girl now, just so I'm safe at home. I feel like I have to bury my identity as a trans boy 6 feet under until I'm 18 and can move out. It's not safe to continue to identify as a trans boy at my home anymore. also, I left out this part but she said she'd disown me and send me to live with my dad instead, my dad lives several states away, and living with him would be much worse. I hope I explained this well, I'm sorry, I'm going through a lot right now
you poor soul. i have no idea who you are but i love and support you no matter what. no one deserves to be treated like that. three years i’ll be here to give you my love and after that i’ll still give you my love. i’m always here my friend 🫶🏽
As a fellow trans man, I know I don’t know you, but know im here for u dude 🫶🫶🫶 you don’t deserve any of that and I’m sure you’ve heard this before but you’ll make it through this man. Remember that it’s tough now, but waiting and living is better than being dead and never being able to transition ( however you choose to) and live as the true you!! If you ever need anything I’m here to talk
in december i hit rock bottom and almost ended my life, and i was completely addicted to nic. im currently in the process of quitting and im trying to better myself in any way i can
i am playing fifa career mode and these bloody spanish 2nd division refs are blind every time i make a run my weak ass 5,7 player named santiago armado who i created btw gets absolutely bodied by these prats
not a healthy thing for both of you?... trying to kys because someone is ignoring you is kinda messed up and evil asf tbh..they don't deserve your time so just let it be
