PSYCHOTHERAPIST REACTS to NF- Why 

Balloons are burdens. The cart is his mind. In Perception, his mind was in a big cage - "Outcast". Now he's got a portable cage for it because he's headed out on The Search. This song came out just prior to The Search being released. #NF 😎 Oh - the fake smile... He puts it on when people say he should be happy, make happier music, etc. Nate also is a huge fan of the Joker. You will see this in various songs and lyrics.

And when he says this isn't Nates flow he's talking about it being Big Sean's flow its like a shout out to him, which he also does later in the song. And stick my knife inside pennywise he's referring to his fear which is what the clown represents in the movie IT.

NF is the one thing that keeps me going everyday and watching you react to them is really great.

Big Sean has an album called I Decided so the NF line was a play of words, and i think that NF mentioned Sean before in an interview saying that Blessings by Big Sean is his favourite song

Hey Tom, how are you doing? Great reaction as always! So, basically, "Why" is a conversation between Nate and Pride, so, to make it easier, I specified in the lyrics where I think Nate is talking and where I think Pride is talking. Hope this enriches your experience! [NF] Too many faces, too many faces, too many faces Yeah, what's your definition of success? (ay) I don't trust the thoughts that come inside my head (woo) I don't trust this thing that beats inside my chest Who I am and who I wanna be cannot connect, [Pride] why? Don't think I deserve it? [NF] You get no respect (woo) [Pride] I just made a couple mil', [NF] still not impressed [Pride] Let You Down goes triple platinum, [NF] yeah, okay, okay, I guess (ay) Smile for a moment then these questions startin' to fill my head, not again! I push away the people that I love the most, [Pride] why? (woo) [NF] I don't want no one to know I'm vulnerable, [Pride] why? (woo) [NF] That makes me feel weak and so uncomfortable, [Pride] why? (ay) [NF] Stop askin' me questions, I just wanna feel alive Until I die, [Pride] this isn't Nate's flow (woo) [NF] Just let me rhyme, I'm in disguise I'm a busy person, got no time for lies, one of a kind They don't see it, I pull out they eyes, I'm on the rise! I've been doin' this for most my life with no advice (woo) Take my chances, I just roll the dice, do what I like As a kid, I was afraid of heights, put that aside Now I'm here and they look so surprised, well so am I, woo! They don't invite me to the parties but I still arrive Kick down the door and then I go inside Give off that "I do not belong here" vibe Then take the keys right off the counter, let's go for a ride Why do y'all look mortified? (ay) I keep to myself, they think I'm sorta shy, organized Let You Down's the only song you've heard of? Well then you're behind (woo) Story time, wish that I could think like Big Sean does, but I just can't decide (aah) If I should stick my knife inside of Pennywise [Pride] I, I don't care what anybody else thinks, [NF] lies (haha) [Pride] I do not need nobody to help me, [NF] lies I kinda feel guilty 'cause I'm wealthy, [Pride] why? [NF] I don't understand, it's got me questionin' like, "Why?" [Pride] Just tell me why, not back to this flow [NF] Inside I feel divided Back when I ain't had a dime, but had the drive Back before I ever signed, I questioned life, like, "Who am I, man?" Woo! Nothin' to me's ever good enough I could be workin' for twenty-four hours a day and think I never did enough My life is a movie but there ain't no tellin' what you're gonna see in my cinema (no) I wanna be great but I get it in the way of myself And I think about everything that I could never be Why do I do it though? Ay, yeah Why you always lookin' aggravated? [I think he's talking to the industry and also to Pride] Not a choice, you know I had to make it When they talk about the greatest, they gon' probably never put us in the conversation Like somethin' then I gotta take it Write somethin' then I might erase it I love it, then I really hate it [Pride] What's the problem, Nathan? [NF] I don't know I know I like to preach to always be yourself (yeah) But my emotions make me feel like I am someone else Me and Pride had made a pact that we don't need no help Which feels like I'm at war inside myself but I forgot the shells I hold my issues up for all to see, like show and tell A lot of people know me, but not a lot know me well Hold my issues up for all to see, like show and tell A lot of people know me, but they don't know me well

Congrats on 100k subscribers!!!

I hope you and your family have a great week. As well as your clients. Thank you for your reactions sir, you're saving my life and mind from negative thoughts just like NF did years ago. ❤

The flow is from bounce back big sean, and the reference “saying I wish I could think like big Sean does but I can’t decide” is a reference to his album I Decided

Good reaction as usual Tom. “Not Nates flow” is doing homage to Bug Sean. Can’t wait for you to continue your NF journey in Clouds mixtape. If I may, may I recommend a indie artist called Sadistik. Check one of his song called Searching for Something Beautiful

One of my favorites!!! So happy you're going through so much of his discography. x)

Hey tom thanks for the amazing content and I'm so happy to see you at 100k been here since 5k congrats

Omg 100k subs already! I'm so surprised and happy about that!! I remember when you were like at 20k

I'm so proud you got to 100k its definitely been a amazing experience so far

i like to believe that the grocery cart is some sort of portable prison/cell, which he talks about in perception, even in the the search album cover u can see the same cell from the outcast music video in the distance, so even if he wants to let go, he can't, so instead of leaving everything behind, he takes a smaller, portable prison and his burdens (which is the balloons) with him

it has been an amazing two months with you. i still remember the first reactions like they were yesterday. your videos became a part of my day! you crossed 100k incredibly fast, and you deserve it! Congratulations Mr Stevens

Big Sean is a rapper and NF was actually shouting out big Sean's flow. (In the song he says "this isn't nates flow")

Hearing your reactions and how you talk about your treatment style has been so helpful. I’ve realized that I need to find a therapist that actually wants to listen to me instead of staying with my psychiatrist that always tries to push meds.

At the "this isn't Nate's flow," the flow he was using was Big Sean's as kind of like a shout out to him, also he mentions him later on in the song

From what I understand, Pennywise is supposedly the embodiment of fear, so I think that is him saying he should conquer his fears. Also, Big Sean has an album called “I Decided” so that was just a shoutout to the artist Big Sean

10:34 When he talks about Pennywise he is referring to the fact that it represents your most obscure and biggest fear

Your excitement is exciting to watch!

The purity of the reaction is awsome. The NF journey mixed with the psychotherapist view is probably the best fit. Keep it up man

been waiting for this one, letsgoooo

The smile is taken from The Joker, but represents how some people want him to be happy when he’s not. I’m honestly not sure about the meaning of the cart, however The balloons are his burdens, which he feels like he can never let go and he always has to keep to himself, for now-

I love your videos! found you cause i'm a big juice fan and they always make my day!😁

I enjoy watching new YT reactors who appreciate the brilliance of NF and Em; there are a few channels that excel at breaking down the barsa nd such, but I personally enjoy the personalities of the reactors. You and Larry Shair are both newly discovered going on similar journeys, and are fun to watch.....plus I get to listen to my fave artists 😎

I love how you explained appreciating music more than just background noise. I love to read lyrics and NF was introduced to me by you. Can’t wait for the 100k stream and will be around for when you eventually hit 1M. Thank you again for what you do

Yeass, one of my favourites! Maybe the next one can be I miss the days or The search. Oh and a belated congratzz on the 100k🎉 Well deserved

The dog in the background throughout the video reminded me of my dog that I put down this Last summer. But im glad to hear more nf music from the journey! I can't wait wait for you to react to breathe and dreams.! Keep it up Tom and nick! I'm excited for the patreon!!!!!

When he said "stick my knife inside of Pennywise" he was referring to how Pennywise carries around balloons. And the black balloons symbolize nates burdens, and how he should pop the balloons, which you can infer what that means about the burdens. And also when said "this isn't nates flow" he was talking about how the flow is very similar to the flow on Big Seans song "Bounce Back".

I just love this mans vibe and channel

i only just started watching you but you make my day so much better. thank you🙂

100k and a new logo!!! Wooohoooo! What a time to be alive!!

NICK AND TOM!! great video still excitedly waiting for your reactions to J Cole Love Yourz and Mirror by Lil Wayne

i really enjoy watching reaction channels like yours because i think it's neat to hear somebody else's perspective on something. that's one of the positives of the internet i feel like and we can share what we think and feel like we're a part of something bigger than ourselves. it's like being able to have that connection with others without the personal element of having to maintain a relationship.

This song is my top 5 fav nf songs ever

This song is so perfect because of the openness to personal interpretation. As a person with CPTSD, this song encompasses many of my own struggles. 💞 Thank you for the reactions. I'm late to this one, but it is great to hear your perspective.

Great video! :) can’t wait for more!

Love your NF reactions i could watch them again and again

When he says "this isn't Nate's flow", he's talking about Big Sean (that flow was from one of Big Sean's songs called "Bounce Back"... later he mentions Big Sean by name as further recognition of his influence).

Good morning Tom, This single came out about 6 months before he dropped "The Search" Album. This is when he first introduced us to the black balloons (representing his burdens) and the Joker fake smile painted on him, directly. He did paint fake smiles on the family wearing masks in Therapy Session, previously. On the walls you'll notice, "Perception", "Texas", "Why", "Help Me", "Lies", a picture of the keys to his mind that we've seen in "Green Lights", "Outro", and "Outcast", and many other themes that are like his thoughts in "Mansion." The shopping cart represents a mobile prison of his mind that is Oscar Mike (On The Move) from the door of the cage opening in "Outcast." He opened the door to his mind to us through his music, but he is still Searching for answers and brings his balloons (burdens) with him, literally slowing him down, dragging behind his cart. He hasn't found a way to heal and fully let go of all his burdens yet. Furthermore, the Pennywise reference is in regards to the "It" clown. When he says, "Wish I could think like Big Sean does, but I just Can't Decide", is a reference to Big Sean's, "I Decided" studio album in 2017. It's a shout out to Big Sean, as this song highly models the flow of Big Sean in "Bounce Back." Big Sean is not to be confused with Sean "P Diddy" Combs. Hope this helps!

You should definitely react to killstation - Devil in her heart. The pain in his voice is so haunting, it’s beautiful 🖤

yo greetings from Brazil, nice video man!

Great video and reaction as always

Congratulations for your 100k!!!!!!😊😊😊😊😊👍

We need some earl sweatshirt I feel whoa, hive, and chum are great

So basically when he says this isn't Nate's flow he means he was using big Sean's flow from the song bounce back, but then gives big Sean a shoutout later in the song by saying I wish I could decide like big sean does, which is a reference to big Sean's album "I decided" and that album also has the song bounce back on it where Nate got the flow from.

This is such a great song I love the last bars. Knowing you show your skeleton but no one really knows him even if he shares what he really deals with.

I saw your video about Dave-"Black", and i think you should listen to his album Psycodrama, because it's put together like a therapy session, why would be really fitting if you would react to it. Good songs from the Album: Enviroment, Lesly, psycho and so many more

He helps me so much and u tom too thanks for everything

Great reactions. Great angle to come at it. Fantastic

This a good song love the reaction keep up da work.

Hi Tom, Great reaction, just to clarify the Big Sean lyric, he wishes he could think like Big Sean, but can’t decide, that’s because Big Sean has an album called “I Decided” so he wants to be like Big Sean and “decide”. Hope this helps

CHANNEL IS AMAZING !! ❤❤

It’s so cool seeing a professional analyze the music and explain what the rest of us can feel, but not necessarily articulate. Thank you so much! You should really check out Bo Burnham too, I would suggest Can’t Handle This, We Think We Know You, That Funny Feeling, and All Eyes on Me. I’d really like to hear your professional take on them!

Hey Tom, how r ya doin'? Hope everything is fine, just wanted to say that you make amazing videos and I am glad to be here in your comment section dude. A Grettings from Germany my friend, keep going🤩

This is the best album from NF! Excited for you to experience the entire thing (:

When you say you could go back to the 80’s music and do the same thing, I know you’re referring to when I brought up Don Henley and the Boys of Summer! It’ll hit the top of the queue one of these months :)

Pennywise is a killer clown based off John Wayne Gasey (think I'm spelling that right), so I always assumed that "Stick my knife inside of Pennywise" meant "Kill these clowns"

Your insight and experience is very informative. Thank you Sir.

Pennywise is from It. He basically embodies fear, so he’s saying he can’t decide if he should kill his fear.

Love your reactions Tom!

“Facts, total bars right there” God I love this channel 😂😂😂

It’s funny in this video for “Why” he raps “I just can’t decide if I should stick my knife inside of Pennywise” while holding a machete but in the video for “Real” (when he is on that plane) he raps “It’s my time, this ladder I climbed. I took the machete, the game isn’t ready” while holding a knife.

Really nice Video, I love the analytical aspect in you reactions. It gives the whole format a really nice spin! For a new Artist to react to, i would really love to see: Rise Against - Make it Stop

love the vids!! you should also react more to kid cudi!!

I think you would like breaking down some of the songs from an artist called Guardin. some recommendations: Shadow Demons in my orbit In my sleep Doormat

Hello Tom. All your reactions are great. Keep up the good work. Just one thing, I've noticed in all your videos that the cameras focus is on your background instead of you, would be great if you could fix that :)

Great reaction as always! Can you react to Trauma by NF? The song is so beautiful and raw emotions from NF.

10:37 Big Sean is a rapper he released an album called "I decided" in 2017 so it's a shout out to big sean and the album

As you mentioned- if you’re feeling inadequate of your viewers/success I’ll say it’s not your training or amount of content you put out as to why I watch. Rather it is the authenticity and honest feedback of your work that brings me back. Keep up the great work

Big Sean is a "current" rapper he's pretty solid , good lyrically and has a fairly large fanbase. And the penny wise line might have been a double entrendre about the rap community, at this time he was getting on other rappers radar even had some comparisons to Eminem which is why he's seesawing from hard on himself to proud alot . There's a few other lines that seem surface level about himself but they may be double entendres about other rappers perception of him

this song may not be my favorite but it’s really underrated.

I appreciate you doing videos I need to hear some stuff you say I need a therapist like you

I know you saw my other comment, but reacting to My Life by NF would be amazing! That song isn’t one of his most popular but the message would be great to react too!

omg i love your videos!!!!! You should react to Lost in the moment by NF if you have not already.. Your videos are amazing!!!!!

Broo his reaction at 14:41 just soo good

Definitely a Top5 NF track...👍👊😎

Hey, could you do a Lil Bo Weep song in memory of her recent passing ❤️ I would reccomend ‘Untitled’ or ‘not ok but it’s ok’ … too many young people lost to suicide. Love the work as always 💜

I need one to NF-Time pleaseeee

I HIGHLY recommend reacting to the entire search album in order. It's an entire cohesive thing, frankly it's a masterpiece. The entire album is coming from the perspective of mental health and the search for meaning and finding yourself.

Big Sean is a rapper that has an album called i decided. Also, he is using ome of big sean's flows. Thats why he says this isnt nates flow.

We enjoy you enjoying what we enjoy

Big Seans flow from bounce back and he mentions big sean and his album I decided. Big sean is a Detroit michigan rapper he likes. They follow eachother on socials Also a ton of eggs written on wall.

Thank you coach!!!

I am one the biggest fans of NF! I have some recommendations too if you haven't reacted to them already, "PRIDEFUL" and "DRIFTING" by NF. Also, there are some other songs I recommend like "down to earth" by Justin Bieber, "letter to me" by Brad Paisley, and "the little girl" by John Micheal Montgomery

Hey Tom, the whole three different personas thing is honestly just looking to deep into it. Nate is just Nate

Have to react to Outcast

I don't see it yet in the comments but the flow that isn't Nates is another artists, Big Sean. Off his album "I've Decided" Both referenced in this song. Nice little shout out.

I wrote this. I’ll be playing this with Nate on July 19, 2023! It’ll be 10 years after my injury in college!

Big Sean is a Detroit rapper that has a song where he says he doesn't give a f so he's saying he wished he didn't care about it and had Big Sean's perspective and pennywise is the insane murdering clown from the movie it. Glad you're a therapist willing to learn

Do NF Time

Big Sean is another amazing talented rapper you should listen to.

My definition of Success is going to bed in the evening with everything done.. no bad feelings, and maybe not that much selfhate for once

Hey I love your videos. NF is such a creative artist, thank you for covering him. I recommend listening to some songs by Joyner Lucas, specifically his song "Ross Capicchioni". It's an interesting listen and I think will make for a great reaction.

Yay love this song

It’s big Sean’s flow

Its the flow of big sean 😊

Its big sean's flow hes talking about

Penny wise is from the movie IT it’s basically fear.