This is both an uplifting and horrifying song. I love it. The acoustic version is pretty good too. There is a song he did with his girlfriend at the time just after he'd had a psychotic break. It's powerful. It's called Crutch (feat. Bibi).
Ren is special! Glad you found him like the rest of us. You “must” watch his Million Subscriber message. It will move you and match your message along with his!
You have not lost me. I have been battling for 15 years with severe chronic pain and depression. Ren is my messenger of Hope. I agree with you that Ren forgave the Lord for basically blaming him for everything he suffered. He may be agnostic but he did forgive. In the acoustic version he looks up to the heavens when he said Lord I forgive you. Great reaction to this beautiful song. Have you done Crutch by Ren? I think you will enjoy it ❤
Ah yes, Shawshank Redemption, best movie ever and you just coupled it with one of the best musicians and wise persons of our time. Oh and if any subscribers spit themselves out.. that's their loss. Wise words sir. Kia kaha from NZ
In his "chapters" he said "if there is a God, I was angry with it" which I think is totally fair! Your early 20's are supposed to be a fun filled learning journey, and Ren didn't get that. He absolutely needed to forgive in order to heal. #hope
I agree with you and loved your message. Would love to hear your thoughts on Rens Chapters. The full breakdown of what happened to him. Thank you for another great reaction. ❤
The actor Russel Crow wanted to meet Ren and gave him some advice about fame and about how you can give too much of yourself to fans; he counseled to be careful to keep enough for himself.
I love your reactions. Renn has said that he lost his faith and became agnostic during the dark days. He felt abandoned by God and I'm sure there was anger there as well. I think the Lord I forgive you lines are beautiful.
Leading up to this release Ren put out a series of “ CHAPTERS 1 - 8” on his other channel RenMakesStuff. It was Ren ‘s telling of his story, his journey, directly from him. They are not lengthy ,and , in true Ren style, they are not only impactful and heartbreaking, but also funny, cheeky, and , as always, leaving us loving him even more. Personally I am SO grateful to have had Ren drop into my life some 18+ months ago. He just gets it , because he has, and IS STILL, living it. ❤
You didn’t lose me brother. Ren knows he’s human, and as such he’s like all of us only trying to be better, but I admire his honesty far more than Scribes, Pharisees and hypocritical preechers of a creed. Love your honest reactions
It’s your channel, so you make the rules. I’m an atheist, by the way, but I admire people who have the courage of their convictions as long as they are tolerant towards others, especially those who don’t share them. 😊👍 (Cheshire, UK)
Ren is agnostic. He’s still trying to figure out his own path and he’s said that in multiple interviews. This song is incredible. Part of its impact and beauty is the raw emotion in the sample of the 1937 recording of Troubles So Hard. Ren said he got the permissions and the rights to use a sample of Vera Hall’s original Afro- Spiritual song (sung in the fields by slaves with no instruments). Adell Vera Hall was the daughter of a slave she grew up in America in the 1940s and passed away in the early 1960s. Ren did an interview with music reactor and fellow musician, Knox Hill, on RU-vid back before Troubles was released in the beginning of May. Ren said he cleared the rights and paid for use of his sample of the original recording because it resonated so strongly with him. I respect his integrity and his dedication to making certain that all artists he works with are creatively protected, paid and acknowledged. (Can’t wait for this Thursday 9/5 drop of Kujo Beat Down. Ren has invited all reactors to the live stream.) Oops, skippy brain. Back to the beautiful story behind Troubles. He said in the Knox Hill interview that in no way could he compare his life struggles with what Vera faced growing up in the South in the 1940s, but the “hook” from her original song “Nobody knows my troubles but God” captured his own deep feelings that there was no way any other mortal person would ever fully understand his own ten years of struggle. There is more to this story and people can just go search for it and find shorts on TikTok, RU-vid or Facebook. I’m an old human, but the information comes up in a simple google search. The information on the original song and lyrics is powerful in its own right and worth knowing. Ren is so talented and so driven in his work. Every single thing has meaning. There is no “fluff” many of us understand too well that life is short. There’s little time for vapid creations. The interview with Knox is wonderful. Highly recommended. Better still for the RenEgades is go on over to renmakesstuff and click on his file of short videos he made called REN’s Life Story Chapters. I just found that two days ago. He has taken the time to video and share his biography so openly with his fans. I worry about that piece. Everyone needs some space for themselves. That said, Ren is one smart man. By recording his own story and posting it he can maintain control over his own personal narrative. So important in this world of AI and people who try to embellish a persons truth. Enough rambling… peace fellow travelers. Nice chatting with you down here in the Ren rabbit hole 🕳️
Every time I hear Ren say "Lord I forgive you. Make me whole. Everything I've been through is yours to hold." I always cry for both Ren and myself. As I've been struggling with grief, loss and God for years prior to this particular song, and more recently in the last couple months, more grief and loss than I ever believed was possible to bear. I really needed this song today. ❤🙏
Ren is singing my story at this present time from being misdiagnosed with BPD/BP when it was really Autism to my current issue with the liver which got a beating with medications being treated for chronic GI issues. Also, neurological nerve damage as well. When I hear his music, his lyrics, his statements that his life was hell, he knows his art and music is what keeps him surviving and I am doing the same with my art as well. REN is amazing!
I’ve been listening to Ren for quite a while now. As a 50 year old, I’ve learnt so much from he & his music & poetry. He is a genius and an old soul. I love watching the reaction videos of people who are being introduced to his brilliance. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and his talent 🙌
Love your reaction, really 👍 Totally agree with your thoughts ! No suscriber lost you'll see, we know Ren and we know what he's been through... Lord I forgive you, made me whole... Thanks 😘
I am so impressed that you saw and understood the loneliness he must have been feeling during all these years. That is the one thing that I find most heart breaking of all. I have never seen or heard anyone else mension that. Bravo! ❤
This song almost triggers me especially "lord I forgive you ". See when i was 25 i got deathly ill. I had the worse year of my life. I had a miscarriage, broke up with my first serious relationship and then i got sick. I got misdiagnosed and was told i was a hypochondriac. No i had chronic appendicitis. It never burst but slowly leaked posioning me. Like Ren i had to move back in with my parents and like him i was suffering from hallucinations (auditory). One night i was at my worst and i couldn't sleep becaue I swore angels were talking to me to "give my pain" to them. I thought i screamed back at them how mad i was that i why was i being treated like Job.. I must had made some kind of noise because my parents called 911. I spent 6 weeks in the hospital with 2 surgeriea and 3 days in a coma. 25 years later i still have medical issues. It took me far longer to make my peace with a higher power than Ren did. So yeah the song hits me hard.
Did you miss the bit where this is a psychotherapist looking to the message to do with mental health in songs? And Makay is an instrumental.. Sure its beautiful but there isnt exactly a lot for him to break down or get into! There are far more meaningful songs he can look at related to mental health before that one- like crutch, or diazapam, or patience, or Su!cide - etc etc etc... all on point for THIS channel- not just what you like lol.
@@elevown I completely disagree. Mackay may not have words but it most definitely has feeling, power, and tells a story. I think Psychotherapy, in relations to music as therapy, should be open to all forms of music and n art form. Sorry but I find your comment ignorant. Sorry you were not able to feel his piano solo as emotional, powerful, and HEALING. Cheers
For the people who are angry with Ren, or you for, "Lord I forgive you," be thankful that you may have never had something so awful happen in your life that you are angry with God. (Please note - I said, "may have never." If you've been through the fire and come out on the other side not having to deal with anger, be grateful to have been given that gift. Some of us have to learn through experience.) Even my mother, who is the Godliest woman I know, struggled to accept that she truly was angry with God (because good Christians would never, right?) and then to work to let that anger go. None of us are perfect, and it is human to be angry sometimes. It can be an easier emotion to deal with than disappointment, hurt, or guilt, but you have to find a place to aim it. And sometimes, when something so seemingly senseless happens to us, we blame the one entity who could have stopped it from happening, or at least could fix it ... but doesn't. God can take it, and we are hopefully learning that lesson you talked about when we are able to forgive and be done with the anger. Those of us who have learned that lesson through experience connect deeply with this particular lyric. It caused me to gasp out loud the first time I heard it, tbh, but dang, I FELT that! 🤷🏻♀️
Call it what you want, I just want to say that a skeptic like me had a "spiritual experience" that transcended me, an energy impossible to describe that gave me certainty. dissociation of personality, excess of serotonin... for me an eternal enjoyment not experienced with drugs, nor with sex, nor anything similar; a return home. Ok, it's just my experience, I'm not going to proselytize. Always grateful for your reactions.
Everyone can have an outlook or a higher power. REN’s and yours happens to be the Eternal God of the Universe so why can we as believers give our advice or outlook in our own testimonies. I have been struggling with two physical medical conditions one being crushing but manageable and the other has no cure for the past 16 years along with a 20+ year battle with depression/suicidal ideation/ anxiety and distress. I was so angry with God and walked away. I let shin have it with my anger and frustration and sadness for what I had loss and Him not healing me. I cussed at him and crashed my hands on the floor as if I was trying to do it to Him. I’m still a work in progress but He has helped me to see where my struggle and testimony can help bring hope to others whether they want to accept what God has done. Thank you brother for pointing that out there are truly those that need to know it’s okay to be confused and angry.
😂 I love that “go in peace!” Amen. I mean, I consider myself to be a follower of Christ and it’s all about having a personal relationship with him. If you can’t get angry with God there’s something wrong with your relationship with him. And by telling him you forgive him for what he’s put you through means you are appreciating the lessons you’ve learned through the trial or struggle or issue. I shout and scream at God all the time but I still praise him through the circumstance too because I know I will come out stronger for it on the other side. How many married couples know how beneficial a healthy argument with your spouse can be 😂
Great reaction, mate. Don't apologise for the religious aspect. He's saying that God put him through this shit so that he could get through and not only get through but could create art beyond almost anyone else.
I have forgeven my grandfather who in 1963 was told he needs to leave the house or the kids need to leave the house due to how abusive he was to my dad, uncle, and aunt. I have forgeven my father for the mental and emotional abuse he put me through so I would have a thick skin in school. There is no way I can forgive an all powerful God who for some reason decided my family needed to go through all that trama.
Just found your channel and so far loving it! I would highly recommend doing a reaction video to "Therapy Session" by NF. Thought you might appreciate that as a therapist yourself. 😊
i dont know if you reply to such messages as this.... i have struggled my whole life and have become so completely disconnected due to what i went through as a youth that i feel almost nothing, most particularly to loss. for example when my dad died about 15 years ago i did cpr on him until ambulance arrived and they took over and as they were rolling him out to the hospital i just said good-bye and went to bed and woke up the next day like it was just another day. i cant morn at all and expect every day to be told im no longer wanted/needed and to depart and not return. i have forgiven all the people for what they had done to me but the disconnect remains. the great need to be needed remains. there is a pain that dwells deep within and no matter how much i forgive it does not weaken. i honestly hate life and all it has to offer and yet i continue for my families sake. i have cried maybe 4 times in 30 years and even if i know i should and need too the tears wont fall. there is this unconscious force within that wont allow it. ive sought out help many times to be told "its all in my head". even though this is just a very light description of my issues the question remains... what can i do to heal and move forward? how do i reconnect to be able to feel again? i just dont know and yet i know there is always hope.
You’re stronger than you realize. You are asking the right questions. You are humbly recognizing you need help. You have experienced the motivating power of hope that fuels faith. A real therapist does not just focus on where the challenge exists (“in your head”), but also on resolving the problems. Finding the right therapist can often take time and effort. Don’t give up. They are out there! A good source in the US is www.PsychologyToday.com Thank you for being here!
as far as i know, if Ren mentions Religion/God its on a metaphorical/cultural level. Not the religious aspect of it. Wich a lot of Europeans do. Guess you got that pretty good. *edit* i mean, he said it. The Angel was actualy a doctor. Sience helped him.
Yeah, i think God can tolerate being forgiven .i waljed away from relugion when society tried to make God in their own image instead of acknowledging that pure love.
