Feeling worse than my worst A freezing 🥶 feeling that feels Eternal See me speaking deep words But they freeze solid first Never to be heard by her I keep it civil It seems to work If i said it as real as i feel i should Hell would freeze the Earth For whats it worth Degrees of heated words But im feeling different Reverse I need to think about Putting me first Needs and urges My wants are worthless I just wanted someone Worthy of the work Putting in the work for her Seemed deserving It seemed perfect On the surface Seemed as permanent As deep in the dirt So i kept myself weak In her service For what seemed like A purpose to serve Shes evil, im sure Searching for servant Self service Shes allergic I wasn't sure If i was searching for purpose Or if i was serving the serpent 🐍 So i shined my inner light And i was right Shes a poisonous viper Had me right in reach To strike as she pleases Jesus Christ Helped me exercise the demon With the light I dont need a curse I just need To put me first