Okay for some background, me,she, he, 20 years old and my BEST FRIEND Bunny she,they, 21 years old have been friends for over four years now, since I was 16 years old. If there was any reason for me to believe in the whole twin flame ideology, it would be Bunny. They've just understood me in a way no one ever has, stood up for me in a way no one ever has, and we've seen each other at our WORST. When I tried moving out on my own at 18 and couldn't afford to eat, Bunny would buy me salad kits and help me with groceries and would sometimes even come over and cook for me on her dime to make sure I was fed. When Bunny was having trouble getting out of her abusive relationship I worked with them to improve her confidence and I chose to trust them first and foremost. For four years I've known my life to be me and Bunny against the world. I trust Bunny with my life because that's such a given, Bunny would always have my back.
Our relationship sort of changed when Bunny started dating her current Boyfriend. Don't get me wrong, he's a great guy, he makes my best friend laugh and feel secure, and he does trade work that means that they got to move away from Bunny's emotionally abusive mother and Bunny gets to work and pay for their own college and he can support most of their living costs. They've been dating for two years now. Bunny has had a hard life and I'm insanely proud of where they are now. The problem is that ever since they started dating, I've noticed that attention toward me has definitely fallen to the wayside. Not in a waaaah I'm not the only thing my best friend cares about. Sort of way, in more like a we plan to hang out but he's texting her the entire time and they won't put the fucking phone down so I literally don't have any of their attention at all sort of way. I've tried befriending him to make it easier but he is literally like a brick wall with me. I've asked repeatedly if he doesn't like me and they insist he's just shy but I think there's a difference between shy and just not trying. Her life is also definitely hectic. I can't go I to specifics because I'd literally be here forever so it's just really difficult to catch ANY time with her. It doesn't help that they've moved away to the Seattle area, three and a half hours away from our hometown where I currently still live. So for basically a year now we've been slipping in and out of contact because I'm not priority.
Well several months ago my gf at the time and I planned for me to go visit the UK to see her for the first time. I chatted with Bunny about it and I asked if I could stay a few days with them before the trip in order to catch up and hang out. We all agreed and my gf and I planned the trip and I gave the dates to Bunny, only to learn that they might have Bunny's brother on their couch for a lot of work shit I don't have time to explain, so I'd have to figure out a hotel in the area. Fine. Whatever. Found some shitty cheap hotel, I would live with it. It was the fact that every day I was there, Bunny would take me with them on their work route, I'd have a taste of how we used to be, then she'd drop me off at the hotel in the early afternoon to go home and would promise to call me or visit my hotel room later, and I would get absolutely nothing. I would literally sit next to my phone and get on discord calls, and I would hear NOTHING. They visited the hotel room once, on my last night there, spent less than an hour with me, and went home because their boyfriend might be lonely. They dropped me off at the airport six hours early so that they wouldn't be out too late. I took all of this without a single complaint. Because her life is hard and busy, and I felt like I was imposing.
7 сен 2024
