RAINING IN ＰＡＲＩＳ (Lofi HipHop) 

The second episode of the RAINING series 💕 Listen on Spotify - spoti.fi/40Wg75i

Do you ever feel like u just want to pause life? Like just pause everything for a day to think about everything, and to figure everything out without time having to bother you?

-Can i ask you something ? -Yea -Why do nice people choose the wrong people to date? -We accept the love we think we deserve. -Do we make them know they deserve more ? -We can try .💙

"The saddest part is when the person who gave you the best memories becomes a memory." - Anonymous

0:06 - 0:25 -"Can I ask you something?" -"Yes?" -"Why do nice people choose the wrong people to date?" -"We accept love we think we deserve." -"Can we make them know that they deserve more?" -"We can try." I love this quote. It gon make me cry. 💞

Man as im scrolling through the comments i noticed that the lofi community is chill af like if we were too meet irl it would just be us people chilling together.

I will never understand how love can make u the happiest person in the world But also the saddest person in the world...

I always been scared to comment on things but- Bad things are something to learn from. Not adapt. So wherever you people are, I say stay strong.

To that one soul reading this. I know you're tired, You're fed up, You're so close to breaking but there's strength within you, even when you feel weak. Keep fighting.

it genuinely makes me cry to see how supportive people are in the comments

"she doesn't realise that a broken heart can't be fixed with a sorry...."

Me: looks at the people at the comments Where have y’all bin my whole life??

"Being Happy together is Love - Being Depressed together is Friendship" - Timolio on the last day of 2020

"We accept the love we think we deserve." This made me cry.

"The Generation of The Great Depression"

i'm not depressed....i just love the smooth melody of the song. So quiet and nice. Just love it.

It was a day in December 2019, when I stayed in a small Airbnb above the roofs of Paris. One night at 1 am , it started raining like hell and it reminded me of this video. So I put my headphones on, searched for this video on RU-vid and opened the window. With the Eiffel Tower in sight, the rain dripping on the roofs and the music in my ears I realized, that this is a moment I will always remember. I was literally experiencing "RAINING IN P A R I S".

The people in the comment sections of lofi playlists are so caring and beautiful. They’re the type of people who make this earth so beautiful to live in…like… thanks for existing 💖

Reality of fear: You're not scared of dark. It's what's in it. You're not afraid of heights. You're afraid of falling. You're not afraid of the people around you. It's rejection. You're not to love. You're just afraid of being rejected. You're not afraid to let go. You're just afraid of the reality that they're gone. You're not afraid to try again. You're just afraid of getting hurt for the same reason.

The rain and thunder in the background makes these “raining in” playlists so much more chill. So good for relaxing late night vibes 👌🏽

Years have gone by and I still put on raining In every night before bed. Thank you🙏🏽

So far, your survival rate in life is 100%. Be proud of yourself.

It’s 5 am, dark. I’m sitting in my room, alone. Even though I’m alone I don’t feel lonely, as this empty air is filled with music and the feelings that constantly lurk over me in my daily life. It’s a comfortable atmosphere, it’s dark but I’m not scared. Even though I would usually be scared of the dark, demons and what not I don’t feel scared at all. Actually, I feel quite relax. I’m not happy but I’m not sad. I’m not angry, annoyed, filled with hatred or any negative emotion. I just feel, nothing but in the best way possible. Not the dreadful nothing of when all your emotions overload and you break down and feel nothing afterwards. It’s the nothing that relaxes you. I may be sitting on my uncomfortable twin bed at 5 am, a small apartment but I feel like I’m somewhere else. I feel as I’m in a small family run cafe, in another world of some sort. It’s raining as I sit by the window, drinking tea as I watch the rain. This music really brings everything out in me, the sadness, the anger, the hatred, but also the joy that really cancels it all out. Is my life sad enough to where music made by someone I don’t know the name of makes me feel serenity? Possibly, but I think I’m okay with that. It’s raining in Paris.

the comment section of lofi music never fails to impress. everyone seems so genuine and nice.

This lofi gives me bad memories from the time i wanted too end my life. I listened too this every night while I cried myself too sleep, if I came out of a really bad depression to the point where I wouldn’t eat or shower you are capable of that too!!

lo-fi was the best thing to happen to me in 2018

Why does music like this make me change personality?

I used to come here often to chill, back then life was so much easier. I was such an asshole to people that I love. I would loose my shit and treat them bad because I didn't know what to do with my own problems, I didn't know what to do with the result of my behavier. Today I'm alone, a lot of people left, some I didn't mind, since they were where just because I was sociable. But the one person that I lost, makes this whole thing worst. I lost the love of my life, the one person that was by my side everyday and did everything so we could be togheter. This is the part that hurts the most, all my life she was the only person that was honest to me and now she is gone, all my fault. I'm once again here, same video, new feelings and experiences. Its not possible to say everythig thru a comment, but thank you if you read. hope for the best for you. cheers.

Hey, you're the strongest and I'm proud of you. You survived, and you will keep surviving.

I literally just wanna sit in my car in a empty parking lot. On a dark and rainy night, just listening to this.

This is my poem. Thank you for reading. R A I N And it finally rained one night in my city. At times when nobody expected it. People complained of it as if it were a vicious entity. But, it cleansed their hearts. The rain drizzled on the window panes, Giving hopes that had no expectations, Washing every guilt away. Crying every drop that we were meant to cry One evening the clouds finally embraced my city; Covering my tear stains, and set me *F R E E* . Edit... OMG?!?! YOU GUYS!! 500+ LIKES? Thank you. I dont even write anymore, but thank you so much❤

Bruh a rainy night in Paris by my self with some Lofi is the v i b e I’m tellin yall

I've been listening to this during my exams since 2017...I'm almost graduated now!

“Why do nice people choose the wrong people to date?” This sentence physically hurts me...

"I really really really really wish I could go back in time. There are a couple of wrongs I have to right, and there are a couple of moments I have to relive."

i was 14 the first time I heard this to learn for my exams now I am 19 and I am still hearing this thank you for this masterpiece

I don't wish much for my birthday. But I do wish that whom ever reads this is Healthy,happy,loved,and to have a great & blessed life.

I really can’t help reminiscing about my past when listening to this. did not look at my likes..n I met this girl about 3 years ago whilst I was on my gap year. My friends and I just arrived in Sydney, Australia and as we were just about to go to our hotel, I met this white haired waiter with ocean eyes in a cafe. I remember how we caught eyes for an instance and everything around us just stood still. We got each others details and nearly every night I would wait outside that cafe until 11:00 pm just to see her and walk her home. I didn’t want her to know I was only there for a couple of weeks so I lied and said my family just moved here. We finally got a whole day together no thanks to the busy schedule she had. We went to a local theme park and the last thing she wanted to go on was the Ferris wheel. I don’t know if she planned it or not but as we got to the top, we could see the sunset simmering down on everything. She turned to me and held my hand, she looked down and said “I really like you, like really really like you”. I knew what she was trying to say so I took a leap and said “I love you too”. She buried her head on my chest and held me tightly as the Ferris wheel took its course... We hung out every chance we got and she even introduced me to her family. I think I broke her heart when I told her I’ll be leaving in a couple of days. She gave me a cold shoulder every time I saw her from then. I told myself that I wouldn’t be surprised if she didn’t give me a proper send off, not as boyfriend and girlfriend, but as true lovers so I was shocked to see her waiting for me in the airport. We caught eyes just like the time we first met. She said her farewells and made me promise her that I would come back. It’s been about 3 years now and I’m starting to feel self conscious. I keep on thinking that I have left it too late and she’s moved on but for some reason, I know she’s still waiting. I’ve just graduated from my university in Toronto and I’m planning on surprising her next month. Wish me luck... Update 1: Thank you for all the support. Its confirmed I’m heading back to Sydney in 6 days instead of a month! All of you have motivated me and now I’m much closer to her than I was 4 days ago when I first shared my story, next update will probably be when I’m with her, hopefully. I’ve just brought tickets and I’m heading to LAX on Tuesday next week. If I haven’t updated you all in at least 8 days then I guess it’s safe to say that my experience of feeling lonely, feeling forgotten and feeling ashamed was a lesson to never let your soulmate go, even if you have to go through hell and back. Well, goodbye for now... Update 3: Hello everyone, this will be a short update. Don’t be worried though, yes I’m in Sydney, and no I haven’t been able to meet her yet, this was expected anyway. I went back to the cafe I met her in seeing if she was still working there. Turns out, she quit her job a couple of months after I parted with her 3-4 years ago. Her boss said she just wasn’t the same after I left, she would always turn up late to her shifts and would be rude to customers, I know I’m the cause of that. I went back to her parents house if she was there, when they opened the door they recognised me straight away. Her mother started crying whilst her dad gave me the death stare. He said my full name and gave me a hug. He said after I left, she became more motivated to follow her own dreams so she moved away with only the money she saved up from her work from the cafe. They said she told them she was going Melbourne. I had dinner at their house and we talked about everything that happened to her after I moved away, how she cut her long luscious hair, how she even dyed her hair but dyed it back because she didn’t like it brown, how she completely changed her clothes and how she started smoking for a couple of months but quit because everyone was worried about her. I know I was the cause of everything bad that happened to her. Her parents offered me to stay the night but I told them that I couldn’t burden them anymore, I also apologised to them for leaving their daughter so hastily and giving her false hope. They gave me a hug and told me that she was still waiting for me before waving me goodbye, I hope she is. Well, I’m in a hotel right now and I’m about to leave to go to Melbourne, I missed Sydney, I forgot how beautiful this place was. I keep telling myself that she’s still waiting to ease my mind. Next update will be in a couple of hours. I haven’t lost hope yet. See yall later. Update 4: it’s 3:30am in Melbourne, I’m in bed and right next to me, I can feel her breath bouncing off my skin. I’m holding back the tears and I’m struggling to text through my phone. She hasn’t changed at all... Just to think that around 12 hours a ago, I was doubting myself so much that a part of me wanted to head back home and now, the love of my life is in the same bed as me, we’re so close to touching each others hands, like in 2014. Honestly, I forgot how we met again. I just remember running into the ladies toilets in a car park convincing the girl to get out of the cubicle so she can face me again. I remember crying and smiling at the same time, I remember her punching my chest, calling me selfish whilst tears and her makeup was staining my shirt. I think I’ve never said the word sorry so many times in a minute. But now, all these things don’t matter. Lani is safe, she’s doing well and she’s with me. That’s all. All my efforts feel redeemed, all my doubts turned to happiness, all my worries has turned to just mere thoughts in my mind. I feel balanced. I feel thrilled, I feel like I can finally be at peace with myself. I’ll tell you all how I’m in this situation already in the morning. I’m tired and I just want to enjoy sleep again. Have a good one. Update 5: I guess it really is true that patience is a virtue. Having patience means having some sort of discipline, where you can command yourself to sit there and let time go past; wether it’s a couple of minutes, couple of hours, days, weeks months and even years, having patience will always end in something good. Even if you aren’t the type of person, you’ve read this much and hopefully my experiences have convinced you that something is truly out there, bigger than you or something much more meaningful. Anyways, Lani lives in a 3 bedroom apartment with 2 other people, she didn’t want me to sleep on the couch because one of her friends had sex on it with her boyfriend so I guess I didn’t have much of a choice sharing a bed a with her. It’s no big deal, after our first meet in more than 3 years, it felt like I was still on my gap year, we went to a restaurant to talk about some things. She hasn’t matured, but acts like it. Her sense of humour is still the same, her laugh has always been ugly, sounds uglier if she tries to hide it actually. But she’s developed a real sense of professionalism, which I find so attractive. She’s a primary school teacher and she’s so passionate about it. She also told me her feelings about me have been mixed but she’s starting to slowly revert back to 2014, I don’t know if that’s good or bad but I told her don’t reflect on the past, focus on the future but I’m not leaving you the same way I did 3-4 years ago, she kissed me on the cheek. She said she can see the guilt in my eyes and told me not to worry about it anymore. After that, we went back to her apartment and that was update 4. Nothing really happened yesterday, she said she’ll leave me alone for a while to let me catch up on sleep and work but I don’t want her to. My jet lag is as bad as the state of her room, but I don’t mind. Sorry this update is short. She said she wants me to go to the cinemas with her later, our first date as adults. Peace. (Had to cut update 2 out, it wasn’t important, it was just me rambling on about my troubles).

This is your safe place Everyone here is accepted And everyone is supportive

Man, it's been nearly 3 years since this mix came out and it's been through a lot of downs in my life. A breakup, which was not fun, A horrible moment in January of 2018 which I dont even want to think back on, Friendships lost. so much bad. But at the same time it's been here for my good times, while that relationship ended, it let me see how I should be treated when I find the right person. While January 2018 was horrible, it also led me to wanting to become a psychologist, which is going to be my major this year of university. The friendships I lost are being rekindled and it feels like nothing was ever lost. If these last few years taught me anything, it's that while bad things happen, good things can come out of it, and it's those good things that you have to remember, becuase while it may constantly seem dark, there is always some light you can find. Everyone in these comment sections are like another family, and I hope it stays that way for as long as I live. (Edit): crazy, 2 years ago I found this comment i had made and revised it, now im finding it again. Psych didnt work out lol, went for business and cybersecurity instead. More friendships lost and found, and finally talking to someone who feels right. Crazy what 2 years can do to you.

revisiting this playlist after 4 years. feels out of this world.

does anyone else come here at 3am, read through all the comments while silently head bopping, whole body feeling heavy as you hear the music understand all the feelings you are too afraid to admit out loud?

Me: deep in my feels Ad: *CuRoLoGy HaS ChAnGeD mY LiFe*

To anybody who's reading this, I pray that whatever is hurting you or whatever you are constantly stressing about gets better. May the dark thoughts, the overthinking, and the doubt exit your mind. May clarity replace confusion. May peace and calmness fill your life. 🙏

The fact that it's been almost 3 years since I last listened to this masterful piece, and it's raining outside as well, what a perfect time to remember you all...

I just wish I had genuine friends. Friendships that are born without ill intent. Where it remains. I wish they would stay... who else feels the same?

i just really want to log out of life for a while and log back in when im ready.

Here I am, sitting in bed in a run down apartment wondering how the hell I got to where I am now. But sometimes, you just gotta breathe, let it all go. You might feel like your alone and abandoned, but you aren’t alone my friend, just remember there will always be someone there to talk to you. But if you have the right mindset just like saying thank you for the smallest things at night like”thank you for sight, taste.” You will feel better, I hope this gets through god speed my friends.

To whoever reading this: you are beautiful, you are kind, you are someone’s world (maybe u just don’t know it). Let go, don’t chase anyone, stop. Only you can make yourself happy. And the world will help you if you ask for HELP. I’m here for ya’ll.

Hey you. Yeah you. Whoever you are, I hope you are alright. And if you aren't.... You're gonna be okay. I don't even know you but... I love you 💙 *hug* (EDIT) For the people that dont believe me, you dont have to. Just know that I say what i say with the purest of intent. I love all of you regardless of who you are. If you're a decent person just trying to make it in this world... If you haven't hurt animals, people, or their families... I love you. If you had a bad past and youre trying not to recreate your same mistakes, and succeeding at creating better things, I'm proud of you and guess what... I love you as well. Every single one of you deserve a fucking hug.

After so many years this still has to be one of my favorite lofi mixes. The speech behind the beats just purely fits in, it's soothing

hey, you. yeah, i’m talking to you. i don’t know who you are, i don’t know your story, but something led you to this video. i hope you’re okay, and if you are not okay, it gets better. it always gets better. take a nice shower, have some food, sit outside if you want. i love you. even if i don’t know who you are, i love you. you deserve love, everyone does, despite your mistakes you make in your journey. vent if you want in the comments! do whatever you’d like here.

I just realized the people here have a life just as complex as my own.

It's impressive how music can affect you personally. Everytime I'm hearing some hard epic metal, I feel like I'm invincible and It's almost like nothing could defeat me. But every time, around midnight, when I'm chilling on some lofi hip-hop, with the rain pouring outside and smashing against my window, It change my mood in a way words will never be able to describe. A feeling of happiness, nostalgia, relaxation, emptiness and sadness mixed together in my inner soul for the time of this mix. It's almost like every music I'm hearing is connected to a feel or a memory. Music really is something awesome that will affect me like nothing else could ever be able to for the rest of my life. "A life without music is like a burger without pickles. Eatable but tasteless."

Location: England, Manchester in your room snuggled up playing TF2. Time: 8:45 PM Date: 25th of October Weather: Rainy + Miserly + Cold (Around 8 degrees Celsius) No worries, you are safe, protected in your childhood home whilst having a blast of a time. The fierce and puncturing cold and steel water droplets menacing knife and shank your window from top to bottom in a perpetual and orderly manner; you don’t know when it will end but neither do you care; you are safe. Safe from the 360 degree winding cacophony of the Brute winds that crash from North to South West towards you, shoving past West through the droplets, and creaking, crashing and cracking down and down and down to the centre of your window in a sickly and advantageous manner, as if the gusts of wind were fallen Angels rejected by the heavens far above. Leaving Everlasting dimples of Melancholic scars on the outer film as the winds lose grip and simultaneously in a matter of seconds go crashing and slushing, Swishing and Swirling down to the streets directly below South-East from your window. For the winds to be swept like raft wood from a wreckage by the grasping near flood water that followed the same synergistic motion of the winds. Suddenly in a matter of seconds. The water brute and animalistic Cobalt blue waters tear and yank at the waters in an abusive manner Down the Austere copper drains heading North West That opened its Trunkless gapped Mouth for the Winds that now Called out for Mercy and benevolence; The waters shared no mercy. As by the matter of a minute, all you could see were the swamp Tungsten Green Biceps of the water that pushed, shoved and kicked violently, Whilst simultaneously the Powerless Waters blood curdling screams become more faint and faint as the sounds traveled in a 360 degree panoramic, Screeching and beaming In all inches and directions for aid and freedom; but the piercing sloshing and gusty squeals could only lightly stroke miserly against the hairs of sound guarding ears, where over a period of seconds, the once bombastic, Blistering and Bountiful Cries became more and more dim and it both it and malicious, mouldy and murky swamp liquid could only be heard as Damp, dull and Deadened whispers of once lively soul of the gusts that for its last second of life could reach and cling to the jet black walls of the Gate’s Oesophagus as it’s light dimmer of Sound could only refract in a 30 degree angle North. Until it was consumed. And finally. Silence.

One of my favourites of the raining series. Stay safe and well everyone

I am not good at writing poems or paragraphs,but if you are sad because of something or someone.. I love u.

"we except the love we think we deserve" CHRIST THAT HIT HARRRRRRD

The lofi community feels like a happy family reunion.

The Lofi and “but in another room” community are my favorites. You guys are awesome. No politics, no arguments, just vibes. Love that. 💛

I miss everyone who left me, even the ones who broke and hurt me because now that I'm alone, I can see they weren't that bad.

we accept the love we think we deserve...

Its been a year I've found your channel and I feel like this "Raining in" series is something too close to my heart. So THANK YOU SO MUCH for another mix before the year ends @the bootleg boy

RAINING IN PARIS has SAVED my life. It calms my mind and makes me understand what I need to do. I opened up to myself and understood that I had to take action now. Raining in Paris brought feelings of nostalgia, since I remember when I visited Paris. I've cried, I've been hurt, I've hurt people, etc. However, Raining in Paris gives me clarity of mind, so I visualize my future and examine what would be the life I'd like to live, understanding that is so achievable.. Raining in Paris is a Master Piece. So much Love to all reading this.

"Why do nice people pick the wrong people to date?" ... "We accept the love we think we deserve." The Perks of Being a Wallflower

I live in Paris, rigth now I look through the window, and the sky is grey an cloudy. I don't know if it is going to rain soon. But I listen to your mix, and I see some birds flying high underneath the clouds. I feel that strange sort of happiness when you're alone with yourself, and I like those clouds and cherish them for the instant they give me along with your tracks. Thank you bootleg boy.

I used to put this vid on at night when I was depressed in highschool.. it was one of the few things that rocked my soul. Thank you

i come back to this everyday. its my home :)

“Hey.” “What are you still doing awake?” “Oh...one of those nights, hmm?” “Well, don’t worry. We both know that these nights come and go. It might not seem like it now, but they always do.” “Hmm?” “You want me to stay with you?” “Of course I’ll stay. Here, I have some music. You listen to music to sleep, right? Just relax and take some deep breaths. Listen to the silence and the calm. I won’t leave.” “Goodnight. I’ll see you in the morning. I promise.”

I dont know why but this sad vibe makes me feel at home.

I listened to this playlist two years ago during quarantine. The first song really blew me away with its beauty, and yet I completely lost this video. All I knew was "something with a rooftop, rain sfx, and a beautiful sample of a conversation." God am I glad I found you. I'm not letting you go again.

Te pones a reflexionar con esto, es difícil no ponerte a pensar en ti mismo y querer llorar, la nostalgia queda impregnada en las canciones.

it makes want to go paris, spend a lonely night in a hotel room looking at the city through a window while listening to this xo

"We accept the love we think we deserve" from the movie The Perks Of Being a Wallflower. I couldn't get that line out of my head.

so weird how the first few seconds of this video will always manage to pull me back to the time 5 years ago when this was the only thing i was able to fall asleep to. nothing good stays forever, and neither does anything bad. take care of yourselves

I listened to this all throughout highschool junior and senior year. Heck I discovered your channel via SoundCloud back in 2017. It will always bring joy to remember those times when hearing this play

I’m late.... But there’s this girl, Im 19 btw. She’s everything I need in a girl. Shes sweet, pretty, funny, mature. But she is depressed and doesn’t want to bring me into that with her. I miss her every day. She was perfect.

I genuinely love lofi... And it's community So much love and care That can't be found elsewhere So many broken souls But here's a bed of rose For us to take a break For our sanity's sake Lest we take a wrong turn in life Go somewhere we can't revive Not all hope is lost We are not without cost It's always the darkest before dawn When the sun rises these troubles shall be gone We are worthy Let's struggle and live With much love This short poem i serve ♥️

*Cloudy Mornings, Bong Rips, This Playing...Damn*

I come to this comment section so often that it honestly feels like I’m just talking in and reading from a group chat with my close friends. Really is wild how much positivity, hope and love can come from good lofi vibes and comments. Hope y’all have a good day.

I wish I could sit with that special person on the roof and just talk without regret or judgement.

12:05 AM, in the driveway, inside my car...listining to this, and thinking about the many failures, the quite sorrow of being around people but still feeling disconnected.

This playlist is how i feel every day.

I've wanted to go to Paris for a long time. Listening to this Lofi mix makes me feel a little more connected to that dream, like it's a little closer. I imagine walking the busy streets with my friends and discovering fun little quirks which make Paris so fascinating and unique. I can see us going on a guided tour of the Parisian rooftops as the sun sets over the city. I imagine feeling fulfilled, admiring the panoramic view of the city. I can almost feel the cold air on my face as night falls and the city lights up with golden hues, like fireflies on a beautiful evening. Then, I imagine going back to the hostel to drink some nice French wine and watch a movie together, snuggled under the blankets as rain falls soothingly outside. Lockdown is tough but I know that one day, we will be in Paris and living these dreams.

did you ever recognize the red light on the right blinking? that detail tho

"amour was just a word until the rain poured.. wake me up with your french kiss as the night crawled.."

A year ago, i listened to this on repeat when my ex cheated on me. Now, i have an amazing gf whome ive been dating for a year. Stay strong and remember, have a goodnight my bros and female bros :3

im glad i knew this song when it first came out, and its growing on me and i still listen to it till this day...

I wanna thank the comment section for saving me ik u don't know me but reading them and hearing "I love you" is what I needed to hear thank you and I might not know u but I love you aswell

the way i listen to lofi hip hop is laying down in bed, snuggled up in blankets with a box of tissues to wipe your tears with, headphones, at midnight, in the darkness and eyes closed it really gives me the feels ya noe

It’s another day, and I still come back this this song. The lofi community is the best community.

The lofi community is the safest place on youtube

For some reason everyone in the comment section are therapists

Hey. I hope everything is fine. It’s okay. There’s always somebody who’s willing to help. Please be okay. I love you.

Greetings from 2020, I play this mix all the time at night trying to get away from everything in life. Before quarantine, my life was great because everyone in my family had their own thing, one of us was always at work and the rest of us mainly vibed, learning to live without her. But now that she’s back, everything has become stressful as I feel like the glue keeping this family together. It felt like a job to make sure everyone was getting enough attention. Except I was forgetting about one person, me. While the rest of my family may be able to speak boldly and voice when they don’t like something, I’ve always been scared. When people like parents say, “Hey, you can tell me anything.” It never works out that way. I’m always scared that it’ll ruin everything I’ve faked and built up with them, and I’m just *so* tired of faking. I just wanted to relax during quarantine, away from my family’s hurtful comments about what I eat, and away from their anger. It scared me when they get mad too, and I feel like such a scaredy cat but maybe I am. All I know is that it’s because of the way they treated me that I’ve turned out this way. That I’ve learned to think carefully about everything I say so that they don’t get mad, to keep in my anger no matter how much it hurts and no matter how long I cry that night in an attempt to let it out. I feel so suffocated as I try to hold in everything I want to say. It may be easy to say “Then just tell them” to say that telling them will make it better. But is it really that easy to do it? They’ll look at you differently now. Now they know how you’ve felt this whole time. Now it makes them also mind how they talk to you and I don’t want to stress them out in the same way acting different stresses me out. They’re more important and useful than me. I just wish I could be okay and free. That no one had to be stressed, think about whose better, and think about how to act. I don’t want to be scared anymore.

‘Im ready to become one of the stars’ her final words before she let go of everything, and felt... free.

They always see me as the happiest person. I do my best to make them laugh. I don't bother them with my problems and my mood. Do they really know me?

to all the people who feel pretty much empty inside, you're still breathing and you're doing okay for now.

Ghost of you has been my fav for years makes me want a cry I always make sure to come back

If anyone still remembers the ISP and chill videos thanks for being part of such a great part of my childhood.