Raped By My Best Friend. 

I don't even know how I stumbled across your video. I can't help but notice how low the views are and it goes to show how society views men who have been sexually abused. If you were a woman, not only would you have more views but you'd have much more support and encouragement to speak about what you endured. I truly am sorry for everything that happened to you. I wish I could just hug you. I hope that you are able to find a way to heal from your past but also share your story with others who may have gone through something similar. You're such a beautiful man and it's so unfortunate that the people you cared for took advantage of you. I deal with anxiety and depression due to certain things that I went through so I sympathize with you. Good luck with everything. I hope that you are doing well and that you find peace. You're so handsome, I don't know why anybody would want to hurt you. You're just amazing.

I was molested as a child and raped 20. It caused me to lose all interest in intimacy and it caused me to overeat and become obese. I never wanted anyone to be attracted to me.

I was violently sexually abused as a child by a very close family member. I remember my feeling of shock at being violated. It definitely affected my ability to trust, and I was so confused about love ..... how could someone I trusted and loved do that to me? I feel that I have gone through life with VICTIM stamped on my forehead as I have been victimized all throughout my life, even recently. All I KNOW is that the evil is in the perpetrator, not in me. I sometimes flirt with the idea of suicide, but I couldn't do that to myself because I LOVE ME and I DESERVE LOVE AND HAPPINESS. And so do you.

I'm sorry for your pain, fear and confusion about what happened. I have been raped and sexually assaulted and know how traumatic a single incident can be. Thank you for having the courage and compassion to speak out.

As a man who was raped by another man, in my case, in Jan 1984, I can say that it affects me to this very day. I feel for you. At least my rapist was a total stranger. (Some consolation!), but to have it be a best friend, that would be both an assault and a betrayal.

This is very close to my own experiences. I just turned 51 and have never really told my whole story because no one wants to hear it. I'm an out and proud gay man and have been since I was 17. I was raised in a hard core christian family heavily involved in the church and told what I was supposed to believe from birth. My father was the main culprit but there were many others. I freed myself of those things in my mind at a very young age but the scars as well as deprogramming are permanent. I've also never dealt with the self blame and that has caused problems I can't even begin to explain. Thanks for listening if you made it this far. Sorry you had to endure the things you did.

I know this post is 2 years old now but I just came across it and wanted to say thanks for sharing. It’s important to sometimes to share. It not only can help you but other men in particular know they aren’t alone in being molested and raped.. it’s so stigmatized and there shouldn’t be any shame to any victim of a sexual crime! Not only that but you really highlighted how it can effect you mentally and hopefully it gives someone the strength to speak up if it happens to them. I have the same regrets as you, and the same emotional scars having no one that I could trust and no safe space after being victim of a rape and it lead to more victimization unfortunately. However, you did a great job speaking the truth.

Your story broke my heart. I was also abused at age 4. My story is too long for this comment section. It took years to overcome. I send you love and light.

You are so brave! I’m sure you’re helping quite a few people with your open sincere discussion. ❤

Mike, thank you for sharing your experiences. I am a doctor and listening to you has helped me learn how to talk to men about sexual abuse. Even though I had a close family member with similar experiences, I didn't realize that I was unconsciously approaching my male and female patients differently when it came to abuse. I have been much less hesitant to speak frankly with men about abuse since listening to your story. You have made a difference in the lives of people you will never meet. Thank you for being so brave.

Thank you for sharing your story.. i was molested by my best friends dad back in the 80's and raped by my neighbor and his friends the year i turned 30. It's still a struggle and I have trust issues and commitment issues. Im still working through all the trauma. God Bless you

I’ll be 70 in a few weeks. I know about those trust issues. As I grew up homosexuality was NEVER talked about and sex was taught to us with an elementary book that was just stupid. You will help people don’t stop. Your talking helps. I never had a healthy relationship and at my age I’ve given up the hope.

My husband has a very similar story as yours and a very colorful sexual past due to his childhood sexual abuse. People share their stories but there's also something to be said about learning to love someone who has been sexually abused. There was so much dysfunction and "autopilot" behavior when we 1st met. I played a role in his hesitance to open up because I was judgmental but when a man loves another man, he can easily lose himself in the fantasy of what he feels that man should be. Its been 8 years and our love affair has grown (thanks to therapy, learning about our traumas and committing to changing for ourselves and each other). May all your dreams come true.

Your experience mirrors mine almost exactly, except my molestation occurred in the 70s , when it was even more closeted . I knew I was gay before I was molested too….but for me , it was different . I had conflicting thoughts during my “rape”, as a part of me wanted it to stop , but another part wanted it because it felt “good”. It took me years to realize no matter how “good”it felt , I still didn’t give consent ….but my guilt of likening it prevented me from saying anything . ….because a part of me did like it. I have since come to terms with that , but it took me many years.

Dude i've been there. I was molested by my brother inlaw. I still deal with it today. I do understand where your coming from. Don't let it control you man.

I am so sorry you went through this, and I can relate. I was molested at age 5 by older neighbor kids. I attempted to tell an adult family member, but that didn’t go well. At age 7, I knew I was different from other boys. By then my family had moved into a newer neighborhood. It was the 1960s and things were very different in comparison to today. We as kids didn’t have or need too much supervision. We were a happy-go-lucky bunch of kids. At age 11, I was raped by a neighborhood teenager. Remembering what happened at age 5, I never told anyone, until I attempted suicide at the age of 64. I finally snapped. I’m going to a therapist and taking meds for anxiety and depression. I tried going at life alone all these years. I’m now in a loving, committed relationship and my partner is very supportive. Stay strong and know that life can and does get better.

So sorry this happened to you, but I loved how you handled yourself and the situation.

I know it took a lot of courage to do this video and you should be very proud of yourself because I am certain you will help many people to be able to cope with their situation.

I am so sorry about what happened to you. I am a sexual-assault survivor too. It took years for me to even process it an an equal amount of time for me to admit that I was NOT at fault! I had terrible ptsd, but the years have tempered my anger and lessened the pain. ❤🖖🏳️‍🌈

I was groped by a one time friend many years ago. It took me years to finally accept what this person did (we parted ways years later, and it was a blessing in disguise). It's even worse when it's some you've trusted so long. I'm so sorry this happened to you.

I don’t know how this video was suggested but after seeing sharing your story you said a couple of times “I didn’t say anything” and thinking it if was your fault and I realized it’s the same for me, this is the first time Im sharing this story it’s been kept inside my chest and mind since the day it started, a close family member who was my favorite person stayed in my house for while and my room was more spacious so I shared my room with him, I was around 13 and he was at least 35 years older than me, he never touched me but he made me touched him, started very gradually with games he made up or playing wrestling anything where contact was always happening and as time passed by it turned into rubbing situations until it became sexual it happened for almost a year, I remember always asking him right before he started “is this wrong?” And he always said not it’s ok, but it never felt that way and like you I was confused because I had so much love for this person and trusted him fully,I got even more confuse when in school the molestation subject came up, because it was pointed out that you are being molested when an older person touches you and since I was the one who touched him (being tricked ) I didn’t thought that was the case for me, anyway he moved out and things went back to “normal” and one day unexpectedly everything changed for me,things started to came back to me memories of those nights but the memories were different,from playing games at night to feeling so afraid,hurt and pain,images of blood stains,weird sensations feeling my body under pressure, everything hit me all at once, I never say anything to anyone because I always thought that it was fault,I didn’t resist,I didn’t say stop, when I got older and was able to fully comprehend the situation with information became more accessible that before was not suited for my younger self with that information I knew it wasn’t my fault,but I still never said anything,then he died and in his funeral I realized I was never going to say anything to anyone in my family, I still think the same today, through all this time that passed by I discovered how this affected me and in what ways it prevents me from building trusting relationships,always questioning intentions from others,family members,friends or strangers like a cashier from a store who was just being nice whising me a good day and the first thing I do is to question why was he being nice to me? What does he want? Went it comes to romantic relationships the hardest part was the first time I fell in love with an amazing guy who was truly incredibly good and nice,funny and everything you think you want in a person he made me feel like that,until my family met him and someone mentioned how he looked like a younger version of the person who took advantage of me and I instantly saw the similarities that for some reason didn’t see before but now his face was all I could see and that made me immediately sick and ran to the bathroom and started to vomit while experiencing my first panic attack and it made me feel crazy to think if that maybe without realizing was the sick reason why I was attracted to him to begin with so now I couldn’t even trust myself anymore,that was the last time I saw him,I broke up with him immediately without giving him reason,without giving him the respect he deserved, I was horrible to him, I regret that the most, this is a long comment already so I apologize but this is the first time I get this out of my chest and probably the only and last time I ever will,thank you for sharing your story and for giving me the opportunity that I never thought i needed, I feel strange right now but in a good way, I feel lighter,somehow alleviated and in desperate need of a donut maybe more. 🍩

Well brother, thanks for sharing this tough story. Unfortunately, I think you're right about how often these things happen to young gay or questioning kids. I was molested at 9 then with a friend at 13 although it wasn't anywhere near what you went through with my friend, it was still confusing. I had the same path after. One night stands but also lots of drinking and drugs. Found the right people to help me find myself eventually and will celebrate 19 years with my partner in October. You're a well-spoken man with a gentle, genuine yet strong voice and I'm sure you've helped many by sharing. Cheers and be well.

So much work needs to be done to ensure young guys know that they need to ask and get permission beforehand. "I thought" is not an acceptable excuse. Everyone is a victim in this sort of event and there's anger and shame everywhere to go. Very powerful to hear your experience on this tough issue. Thank you for sharing.

I was molested by another child who was 2 years older than me from age 8 to 15. I know how you feel. I never told anyone until I was a grownup, but it for sure affected my relationships. I always thought I had to have sex for people to like me. I am totally ok now, but it was a hard road getting to this point. I felt the pain in your story. I admire you for sharing this and letting the world know what you endured. I hope you are ok now and are living a healthy life without trauma!

I'm so sorry for what you went through so young. I have been raped a few times and I understand the shock of not being able to say anything. But please don't blame yourself. God bless you. God made you who you are and you seem like a very kind hearted person.

Your words tell my story. Bittersweet . The lasting stamp of those experiences follows us throughout our lives and colors every relationship we have thereafter. Thank you

Nicely done, Mikey Vera. I happened upon this video on the penultimate day of June 2023. Your experiences are presented in a thoughtful, easy-to-follow, honest narrative, which (unfortunately) I completely identify with as well. It is amazing, sad, wonderful, and terrifying to realize that 'one-offs' (or worse, continued abuse and trauma) that occurs thirty, forty, or fifty years previously can so deeply affect us today. It is further unfortunate that there were no 'safe' people in your life, a friend or mentor. (Mine lacked trusting individuals in my humble opinion too.) It is great to hear you share your learned and earned insights into an understanding that "it is not the victim's fault." I have always questioned myself in this regard: What could I have done differently? Why do they leave? What did I do wrong? The laundry list sometimes appears endless. Keep up the soulful work a day at a time.

Yes. I've been through it too. I was only SIX years old and it was a male babysitter who molested me. Later, when I became a teenager and a young adult, I was very promiscuous. I had many one night stands and zero relationships. That one event caused me to not trust anyone or allow anyone to get close. Lots of sex, but no intimacy. And I was never fortunate enough to find anyone who wanted to stick around long enough to get through my rough exterior. Traumatized once and forever single.

I'm so sorry. Thank you for sharing this, you're helping other victims to have courage. Big hug. ❤

Its really sad. That you came through a chaotic childhood and found a close friend who you trusted. Only for them to do that. Health, love and healing to you. Thanks for sharing your story. X

Your story broke my heart ❤️. All I can say is keep healing, keep loving, keep living and the hardest one of all keep trying to trust people again. You are a brilliant person for highlighting this xx

When I was 11 I was raped by a neighbour. My brother used to go over to their house a lot and it happened one time that I went with him. However somehow my mind blocked it for about 15 years until one day it all came flooding back. The only part that I still don’t remember is how long it lasted. I remember being penetrated and then “waking up”. Though I’m not sure I was ever actually asleep. The last 5 years have been a struggle but now it has gotten a lot easier. But looking back I can see how much this that one act has affected my whole life. It has effected how I deal with emotions, sex, friends and family. Especially the men in my life. I’ve struggled with depression throughout my teens and since remembering that I got the added bonus of anxiety too. After a string of bad decisions caused by me being depressed and not caring about anything in an effort to not “feel too much anymore”, I actually became suicidal which led me to three mental breakdowns over the span of a year and a half. The last one ended with a trip to the ER. Thankfully now I’m back with family and I’m finally able to open up about what happened, I’m regularly seeing a therapist and I’m on the waiting list to get EMDR therapy. Things are going good.

I too just stumbled across your video and I want to tell you I’m so sorry for what you’ve endured and went through. You did not deserve to be molested, ra**d or hurt in any way physically or emotionally. But, I want to thank you because even though I’m female I’ve went through the same things and sharing is healing. It helps when other people express what sometimes as individuals we can’t say, it makes one feel validated, heard and understood. I admire and appreciate your courage because I know how hard it is. You’re loved and appreciated. I too struggled with my sexuality because many people still to this day tell me I’m lesbian because of my trauma. Took me a long time to live my truth.

I am heterosexual and I lost my best best friend at 11 years old. We had been friends since 2nd grade. She dumped me because my sister broke up with her brother! I was scarred. I never got close to other women as friends after that. Guys became everything to me, friends and lovers. It was not until I lost my husband in death that I realized how horribly alone I was. I needed to change.

I can feel your suffering and trauma, man because I went through similar circumstances when I was a kid but not by my best friend but by close relatives to me. I'm 50 and still alone, no relationship because whenever I want to be in one, I have these flashes that keep resurfacing which block me from going forward. Believe me, I know it's very hard but life has to go on. Thanks 4 sharing your bravery and vulnerability with us and rest assured, there are a lot of people, who watched your video, will always think of you and I'm one of them.

Mikey, I think your insights are spot on. I think that teens struggling with their sexuality tend to be victims of abusers. It sounds like your friend may have stepped over the line (and is hopefully not abusing anyone today), but child molesters do have the ability to select victims and can intuit a kid who is conflicted. I hope this video helps you deal with your trauma and you find wholeness. I'm glad to hear you've been in a long-term relationship. I experienced something similar to you and will be celebrating our 30th anniversary soon.

Incredibly brave and very strong of you to tell your story and let others know its ok to speak out. Sadly i think this happens more than we know of in the gay community so hopefully you can start to give voice to some of those who've suffered the same as you. But you're very clearly a very strong man, you've survived and you show compassion and vulnerability in this topic so i hope you do understand just how strong and capable you are and that you don't need to be defined by what happened to you, wish you all the best. as a side note, i am so sickened by what seems to be so many younger (especially?) gay guys who dream of/want/look for a 'rape' scenario in their sex life; whenever i'd go on line (before i met my boyfriend) so many guys wanted to 'act out' this scenario - how little people appreciate what true rape is and how it affects people, that they 'fantasise' about it 😞

Bravo for speaking out, telling your story. Breaking the shame- inducing silence is so importance.

That's a terrible experience that you and no one deserves. I'm glad you rose above it. Stay strong!

Man first and foremost thank you for sharing. You have the strength to express this situation. Also to the kind person you are. I pray this experience lift what anxieties you may still have. Wishing you well liveee 👋🏽👋🏽👋🏽

I can’t think of too many situations that are worse than having someone you trust betray you.

Today is the anniversary of me being raped 14 years ago. Idk how or why this popped up on my feed, but I’m watching. And I’m so sorry this happened to you.

Thank you for sharing your story! Freezing is quite normal during rape, part of the fight, flight or freeze response. I’m sorry this happened to you and all the subsequent consequences or impact. All the best. I hope sharing your story helps you heal ❤

I was gay as young as I could remember. I did not come out until I was 50. I will be 60 next year. I can relate to what you say being brought up in a different time was difficult.

It’s sad that this video didn’t get as many views as it should have but here’s what I want to say: You are so brave for sharing this story which I can imagine being very hard to go through and I hope that you are feeling better right now after that traumatic experience! You are a very brave man for talking about it which at the same time makes you a very strong one as well! Stay strong ❤🥺

Thank you for sharing Mikey. I have great respect for you to have the strength & tell your story. It really does help others to know we weren't the only ones that went through tough sh_+ when we were young, and I'll leave the rest to the comments below.

So sorry this happened to you. I went through a very similar situation, so I know exactly how you feel. I don’t think I could ever have the strength to put myself out there like you did. You’re an amazing fella.

What a heartbreaking story, thanks for sharing such a personal experience, I could totally feel the love you had for your bestie and it sucks that he did this to you.

I just stumbled across your video. Like you, I was molested and raped when I was young. Both were from my eldest brother. Like you also, I had just entered puberty and was questioning sexuality. I believe what happened was the cause of my struggle with homosexuality to this day (I have been married to a woman for thirty years). My life has been, and still is, riddled with distrust of others, self-blame (my brother called it our game - the game went on for over two years), and self-loathing. He got what he wanted through manipulation and fear, threatening to tell others that I was gay. Thank you for your boldness. This is more of a problem (boys being molested/raped) in this country than the public believes.

Your definitely going to help so many people by sharing!

You will help so many males. You're needed. Society needs to be more open with males who have been violated. You're amazing!

I was raped/molested by my paternal grandfather from pre-memory to around 12. Then date raped 2x in college. Violated by people I trusted and should have been safe with. The betrayal and violation never leaves even after years of therapy. I definitely have trust issues. How could I not? I did lots of group and individual therapy and I’m as healed as I will ever be. Sending you love and hugs.

Mikey, first things first - I am so sorry that you had these experiences and the re-victimization. Secondly, this video took courage and is a sign that you are trying to understand it, but more importantly is one of acceptance and moving forward - you are not letting it define who you are. As a survivor of this myself, alot of the feelings you described I am intimately familar with, you are also re-vicimizing yourself, please don't play the game of would've, could've, should've, but didn't. For myself, the first step is recognizing that it happened - you can't change the past, you accept it, you forgive it, and you go forward to become the best person you can be. Don't let your past define how you live presently or define your future. And the MOST important step is to love yourself, faults and warts as well - NONE of us are perfect. We are all dysfunctional at different levels, its all part of the journey of being human. I wish you peace, prospetity and balance. Thank you, what you conveyed meant alot, and gave me affirmation upon the work that I have done. Wish you well on your journey. 💚💚💚

Giving you a big hug and all the warm wishes in the world--you are a brave survivor.

Bravo for telling your story!! I can relate to you. I was molested and trafficked as a young kid by individuals who should have protected me. I was raped when I was 14 by a man 20 years older than me. I got into drugs, and with a few bad decisions; destroyed my life. I've been in therapy for 18 years and I'm still working through it all. At least I got clean and sober 14 years ago... Things will get somewhat better at some point. But the victims of sexual abuse become different people and can NEVER return to who they truly are... Unfortunately

The fact that your "friend" did this rape so rapidly means: IT WASN'T HIS FIRST TIME DOING THIS! It's sad that he was supposed to be your friend and does this. Like I said, he chose to do this to you! My guess is he was being molested as well! Perhaps by one of his family members! Go see a therapist! Almost every child in my family was molested by a great uncle!

I understand how crazy and confusing it can be in that moment, when I was 16 I also was r*ped by a 23 year old man, who lied to me and told me he was 18, I verbally said stop but he just covered my mouth, I couldn't scream because my family didn't know I was gay and I sneaked him over, and after it happened I couldn't tell anyone for years, my family still doesn't know to this day. But I remember just laying there frozen in fear and just saying stop. And when I cried after he just left awkwardly.

I had something similar happen to me several times during childhood. You said something here that rings so true in my experience. I'm gay and for the longest time people tried to tell me that it's just a consequence of being sexually molested. But I think the opposite is true. I think I was chosen as a target because I was gay. I was seen as easy prey, someone who "had a secret" as you described it. A LOT of therapy and a little plant medicine over the years has helped me survive and THRIVE. Thanks for sharing your story.

So sorry that happened to you . I remember being in middle school and how my best friend was my world . When she moved on I was devastated. Can't imagine a friendship ending as yours did. I hope you find peace , love and healing .

I just saw this. I’m so sorry you had to go through that. I’m also gay, and I was raped at a young age. I blamed myself for it for a very long time too. I guess it’s just something a lot of people do to themselves. If you ever need to talk about it, I’m always here. God bless you. ❤ It takes a lot of courage to be so open and honest.

I'm sorry this happened to you As a woman who has been raped 3x it's hard for me to talk about. It led to years of addiction. I'm so proud that you're able to speak freely about your experience. I'll be praying for your mind to heal🙏

I'm so sorry that happened to you. Stay strong, you are a beautiful, strong man. Thank you for sharing to help others. Very brave.

I know this is 3 years old now but I can feel that you're still bothered by this. I don't blame you. I just wanted to come here and say that people care and you're not alone. I know exactly how you feel when you said you just froze. I'm so sorry 😔. I'm so happy you were able to trust again and frankly, I'm jealous. I struggle with that everyday. Keep being strong, you got this and thanks for sharing your story. Makes me feel less alone ❤️

Thank you so much for your honesty. It’s not easy for anyone to share a life experience of this nature. It’s amazing to me that we can put people on the moon, we can create a bullet train that can travel miles in seconds, but we cannot stop sexual violence against anyone! You are in my heart.

I grew up being sexually abused by a family member... I'm 43 and it still affects me

I'm same way as you. I don't trust anyone and am alone. I grew up with a firetruck up dad who physically n psychologically abused my sisters n Mom and still does psychologically abuses us all now. I'm handicapped, brain injured and alot of concussions, he tries hitting me on my head when I protect my Mom and he gets mad at me protecting my Mom. Just don't let those bad episodes in your past make you think negatively about yourself. WE ARE STRONG AND BLESSED

Wow you are so very brave! Thank you for sharing your story! I don’t know why your video showed up on my feed. I’m so sorry you had to go through that!😢

❤ THANK YOU FOR SHARING ❤I'M SURE YOU WILL BE HELPING OUT OTHERS..MANY BLESSINGS TO YOU. ❤

Thank you for this beautiful and perfectly insightful video. It cuts very deep for me and I know it does for many people. You are a gorgeous person and I hope everything works out well for you. You deserve everything good.

Thank you for being brave enough to share your story. I’m sure that males are sexually assaulted just as often as females. Sadly, the fact that the majority of instances go unreported means that there isn’t enough evidence to support this supposition. And so, males rarely receive the legal/emotional/ physical support that they need. It’s hard enough for females to report and be believed; I can only suppose that it’s even more difficult for males. Every time someone like you is able to speak out and be heard, I hope it brings us closer to a better understanding.

I'm sorry you experienced that. Thank you for sharing. Sending hugs.

Recently, i visited home (i live abroad now), and i decided to tell a family member about what had happened to me when i was only 11. I'm over 40 now and it still bothers me that a family member molested me at that age. I tried telling my sister, but she brushed it off. I knew then that no one would believe me. Hence now i finally decided to tell my cousin.

I feel your pain. I was molested by brother. Your very brave for telling your story. I know it's not always easy talking about it. Thank you for telling your story.❤

Can't even express how this hits so close to home. It was hard ASF dealing with this in NY back then despite what ppl may think. Thank you so much for this❤️

Thank you for sharing, it is very hard to do, I was violently raped repeatedly at the age of 4, I could have let it destroy me, but I wasn't going to let it.

Mikey, while I am so sorry to hear your story, I applaud your decision to make it public in the hopes of helping others --- and hopefully helping yourself --- in the process. I am sorry that your "safe space" was taken away and that a friendship was ruined by the assault. Yet, when an underage person commits a crime (including rape), the assailant can face charges and jail time (or other types of incarceration). I know you can't help how you feel, but you did absolutely nothing wrong in either this brutal assault or in those previous instances of molestation. Please don't mourn your friendship with this criminal. Once an assault of any kind is inflicted upon another, the perpetrator deserves no attempts to understand, no consideration, no further thought whatsoever. It is up to the object of the assault (I won't use the term 'victim') to continue on and attempt to resume living --- as happy a life as possible. Traumatic events can remain with us throughout life. They can help mold us. Yet we must not allow those events to consume us. You seem to be well adjusted. I hope you have a good support system so that you can continue to heal and grow. You deserve the best! I cheer you on from afar!

What an open and honest video about a little discussed topic--male on male rape. I'm so sorry that (and the molestations) happened.

I could never do what you’re doing. It is admirable that you are sharing your story.

Brilliantly presented! Perp with a secret seeks others who have a secret. Growing up In Utah in the 60’s I was victim by the same older dude for a few years until he was arrested and went to prison. Thanks for sharing ❤

Thanks for sharing. I think my resolution is to realize that I am my safe space, not anyone else. My relationship with myself had always be something that I ignored. And now that I'm learning more about my self talk, and self treatment, the more I realize my lack of safety was because I wasn't being my own hero. For who knows better what you need in your life but you?

I can relate on some levels. The "freezing" when it happened is pretty normal. You're def not alone. It's ok that you're not friends with him any more. He violated you in the same way as your past trauma. I hope you can find trusting relationships in the future ❤️.

Well, as a person that had very similar sexual experiences, I must commend you for how well you articulated a super sensitive, and traumatic, situation. I respect how you approached this. Props for the bravery it took you to be so open, and honest, about your struggles.

I was molested by a Methodist minister when I was a teenager that I went to for counseling. It was horrible, and I'll never completely get over it. However, I was strong enough to turn him in, and he lost his ordination.

I'm a 72 year old woman. And recently my best friend assaulted and raped me. He's also 72. We were always platonic. I never had feelings for him other than friendship. I'm so traumatized now. I can't even imagine even talking to him ever again. The police told me to not even message or talk to him. I don't want to anyway. I just feel sick. My body was so sore from trying to fight him off that I could hardly walk for a week. But the emotional and mental damage is much worse. I understand how you must feel. And your so young. How horrible for you. I said a prayer for you.

Thanks for talking about this, most men are too embarrassed. I'm sorry someone did this to you and i hope you can find peace.

I understand the shut down when experiencing sexual trauma. It happened to me when I was 12/13. It does lead to being a victim and at 55 it still carries over and influences my life. No shame in what happened to you. I hope you find peace and happiness.

The guilt behind someone else’s actions upon you is horrible, makes you feel like you did something wrong….so traumatizing. They have no heart to be able to use someone for a few minutes of their pleasure…animals! The ruin peoples lives, makes you untrusting & you never feel safe again. Big Hugs to you & I hope by you sharing your story it will let others know they are not alone. ❤️❤️❤️

Wow, this breaks my heart. So sorry you had to go through this. I’m sure your BF meant a lot to you so to lose him under these circumstances really sux. Sending internet hugs to you.

So sorry you had to go through that. Must have been so confusing and traumatic that you blamed yourself. You know that it wasn't your fault, right? Wishing you the best and sending my support.

I was molested as a child and raped in my early 20s. I'm also gay. I completely understand what you have been through. I blamed myself and lost trust in people. I wish I could hold you and just be.

My best friend raped me when I was 17 and he was 16. I loved him so much, he was everything to me at that point and after it happened, he treated me like dirt at school and told stuff about me that wasn’t true. I regret ever meeting him or HS family.

My love, I don’t know why this came across my feed. This angers me so 😢. I hate that this happened. Your strength shows.

Not sure how I came here but Im glad I did. Im sorry that you werent protected as a child and choices were made for you. You just seem like a person that Id be friends with or like one of the few ppl I would socialize w from work. Your heart screams Good, Strong, Humble Person. 💕

So proud of you for putting your story out there ❤❤

I’m sorry you went through this, too. It happened to me but he didn’t stop and just threw me out like garbage. It did so much damage. 😢 There was no one to go to for help in the 90s. Everything was for women only. I tried talking with my regular therapists about it but they all said it is a specialty area and they don’t know anyone to refer me to for men. I’ve survived. I would never have the courage you have shown here. Wish I could give you a big hug. Thanks

sorry about this!! I wish you peace and love!! ❤

It’s so sad, and i know first hand, only it was my best friends dad, that was the beginning of the end and yes you never tell. You seem like such a chill person, and I am glad you put this out there. 💜 bless you and so glad you found a great relationship in the end.

So sorry you went through this. I was molested when i was young as well. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏼🙏🏼.

I’m so sorry for what happened to you god bless you and may he heal all your scars!

Being assaulted at an early age affected me tremendously as an adult, til this day I have never been in a relationship and I have trust issues, I still have flash back of the incident. I know I need to talk to someone but it us so difficult to talk about this shameful act.